Defaced

All these faces and none quite fit.
Breathe this air that turns me sick.
With a head full of dreams and a chest full of loss.
Another dose might enact a cost,
That I can’t pay with what I own.
While begging you to leave me alone.
A venom blade cutting through the night.
Into my skin I feel you bite.
Like a plague you defeat me.
But give me freedom from this scheme.
No more codependent mind fuck pills.
Tired of how my head continues to fill.
So slice these bonds, let me go.
Even divided I still yearn to be whole.

Lacerations line my every view.
Upon this altar I became brand new.
Sacrificed to be a phoenix reborn.
But instead branded with scorn.
Paralysed with a bile most fierce.
Negativity that fills my ears.
Poisoning that which I believed pure.
I’m at my worst when I am here.
You call me dear, you shout at me.
Spiralling as I’m freefalling.
Ground is getting closer now.
Close my eyes and wait to pound.
Right into this floor at full tilt
You destroyed everything I ever built.