Inbuilt Trigger

Trapped in a box I made for myself.
Positioned high up on a shelf.
Forged these bonds which now will not break.
Pull my cord; I’m not fake.

Time after time; contradictions are rising.
Life after life; I rupture happiness by biting.
With no more chances or steps to take.
That which remains is my eternal mistake.
Scoop out the positive to replace with malice.
Every sunrise I drink this poisoned chalice!

Carve my name across rancid flesh.
Berate, don’t relate, manipulate at the gate.
Screech in my face until I relent.
No, never, you can’t make me repent.

Time after time; contradictions are rising.
Life after life; I rupture happiness by biting.
With no more chances or steps to take.
That which remains is my eternal mistake.
Scoop out the positive to replace with malice.
Every sunrise I drink this poisoned chalice!

Proof off the table but verdict not in the bin.
Each breath I take is accused of sin.
Torturous anthology of what outcast can be.
Pick up the pieces, hit me again.
This is how it tends to be!

Violence!
Disingenuous circumstance.
Blame culture.
You bastards are circling…
Pull my inbuilt trigger!

Time after time; contradictions are rising.
Life after life; I rupture happiness by biting.