I Care

Awake at the same old time.
To begin I’m feeling fine.
Until a void opens up and leaves me feeling numb.

Why do I care?
This world is trying to strip me bare.
I don’t want to lose.
Cause giving up means a part of me dies.
Why would I want that?
And so I carry pain while wanting to feel joy.

Stagger with a clouded head.
Feel as though I should be in bed.
Instead I wade through this fog feeling disconnected.

Why do I care?
This world is trying to strip me bare.
I don’t want to lose.
Cause giving up means a part of me dies.
Why would I want that?
And so I carry pain while wanting to feel joy.

Give me a sign, some signal or action.
To prove that this life is not just a fraction.
Some shell of what it ought to be.
A wilderness catering to self pity.
With bars to keep us all in.
Pits and falls to leave us hanging.
Reduced to ghosts with hopeful eyes.
Until all we feel is an urge to meet a demise.
All so judgement can’t keep splitting away.
Betraying happiness by sticking sadness in our way.

Why do I care?
This world is trying to strip me bare.
I don’t want to lose.
Cause giving up means a part of me dies.
Why would I want that?
And so I carry pain while wanting to feel joy.
Let it return.
Let me swim in its glory.