Why do I always have to open my mouth?
I know better than to do it and yet I always continue.
Spouting my insecurities, exposing how weak I am.
Venting my spleen that leaves me alone again.
Its like a self destruction I crave.
I see it and yet I can’t turn away.
Tearing out my heart after I want to give it to somebody.
Leaving me feeling numb.
My brain continues but my heart is undone.
Reduces me to a void.
I’m the monster I wanted to avoid.
Feeling slighted when there was no slight in sight.
Staring at this mirror sickened by myself.
Yet still I continue to pick apart my world.
Reduce it to an empty rotting husk of a thing.
Its like a self destruction I crave.
I see it and yet I can’t turn away.
Tearing out my heart after I want to give it to somebody.
Leaving me feeling numb.
My brain continues but my heart is undone.
Reduces me to a void.
I’m the monster I wanted to avoid.
No matter how hard I try to be better…
I always tear apart my prosperity.
Slay my positivity.
Rupture what I could have enjoyed.
Converted happiness to stupid insanity.
That leaves all alone.
That cripples me whole.
I hate all this noise.
My head is a mistake I can’t escape!
Its like a self destruction I crave.
I see it and yet I can’t turn away.
Tearing out my heart after I want to give it to somebody.
Leaving me feeling numb.
My brain continues but my heart is undone.
Reducing me to a void.
I’m the monster I wanted to avoid.
Simon A Jackson - Writer 