Thought Process That Feels Like Affliction

Run through my head a thousand times.
Try to block of the thoughts but they won’t subside.
Why does my head always play things out.
Its like being a dreamer with a mountain of doubt.
And all it leads to is second guessing!

Stare at a wall only to see a scene play out.
From time to time I have to scream and shout.
Changes nothing cause I’m set in stone.
Feels like I might always be on my own.
Which at times makes my blood run cold!

Humans are social even if they’re not.
Mostly isolation is fine until its a lot.
Problem is I’m human which brings its own curses.
Rather share some things than be a real burden.
Along these pathways that we call life.
Where strangers meet like ships in the night.
But sometimes just passing isn’t quite enough.
Might want to stay awhile.
Converse and discuss.

Still my mind races with possibilities.
Boiling to the surface while I want them to leave.
How do I stop what never goes away?
Not a clue and it seems I won’t find it today.
Leading to mounting frustrations!

This might all seem mad and maybe I am.
Not in a fun way that brings smiles all around.
Insanity could be a twin that I cannot shake.
Could be all you see is a front that is most fake.
Why no one stays by my side!

Humans are social even if they’re not.
Mostly isolation is fine until its a lot.
Problem is I’m human which brings its own curses.
Rather share some things than be a real burden.
Along these pathways that we call life.
Where strangers meet like ships in the night.
But sometimes just passing isn’t quite enough.
Might want to stay awhile.
Converse and discuss.

For you understand me and I do you.
Seldom a state I found a counterpart too.
So to give up without trying strikes me as a waste.
Not one that I feel permitted to taste.