Departed

Here today and gone tomorrow.
Empty space that leaves me hollow.
Wishing I had just one more day.
Knowing that its selfish of me.
But I don’t care, I want what I want.

Memories are what I live amongst.
Focused on those time we spent;
Laughing, talking, being together.
Did I think this would happen? Never.
And so the pain is that much more.
If only I could see you when I open a door.
But I can’t and you are gone.
Its harrowing and haunting that someone,
Can simply just no longer be,
Right beside you like they wanted dearly.

Gone for forever but not forgotten.
The “luck” in life is entirely rotten.
Meanwhile anger lurks deep inside.
I don’t want to carry on without you by my side.
As I can’t act as though you weren’t my reason in life.

Now its been eighteen years at best.
Every moment of every day I remember this.
And no I’ve never got past the pain.
It didn’t lessen so much as shift in my brain.
Worm its way down and to the back.
To loiter somewhere deep in the black.
Yet poisoned my memories is something i have refused.
For you were the light that filled up the room.
Always bringing a smile to my face.
And no I haven’t found another to take your place.

Draws near my time and I don’t regret.
For now I can see you again.
Only thoughts as I’m slipping away.
Is of your laugh, our time, your beauty.
Reunion is what matters completely.