Before Your Time

You’ve faded but I won’t leave your side.
I’ll keep you with me on this ride.
Refuse to let your body drift away.
You are a part of my every day.
Without you there is just a hole.
Not something I wish to fill up though.
For you will forever be a part of me.
Even in death you won’t be gone truly.

Motionless body continues to bob.
My heart broken as the pain does throb.
Can I see past what is before my nose?
No, but yet it feels as though that is how it goes.
For pain is a part of what makes us alive.
Without it we can never hope to thrive.
Not an addiction but a reminder of time.
And that in the end we all have a termination of the line.

That doesn’t mean I want you to go.
More and more I wish to see you.
Otherwise my heart stirs with so much pain.
After all you’re a part of me.
I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Alas your form had grown too weak.
My body shakes from the heartbreak.
But if I continue I’ll fade right before your eyes.
Those that are now lifeless and without cries.
Yet it sickens me to dessert you now.
Even if I see no other option how,
To keep on swimming as tides do rise.
I hope you knew I never told you lies.

Time has come for me to let you go.
Still memories will continue to flow.
I watch as your mass sinks into inky black.
Heart wrenched that you’re never coming back.
It’s like watching my world go askew.
Cursing everything that it was you.
Should’ve been me to slip to the other side.
I continued to mutter as I cried.