Gone Away

Here today but gone tomorrow.
This absence leaves me feeling hollow.
With no reason for me to know.
Said it wouldn’t happen but that wasn’t true.
A cycle repeating in my overfilled head.
I made mistakes yet I’ll never know if there was conflict.
Cause times change like it or not.
Grasp hold or you may lose it to rot.
Leaving a gaping wound deep inside of me.
No aid to give relief from this lack of clarity.
So I wade forward through this swamp of pain.
Feels as if my body is being flayed.

Voice in my ear that echoes with remorse.
Never able to pinpoint it’s sorrowful source.
It reminds me of how angels scream to die.
All weeping tears but no chance to cry.
Dagger pierced between ribs by my own hand.
I’m not the victim but I feel less than a man.
Watching as this tear slowly starts to seal.
One day I may be able to say I did heal.
Until then I will take each day as it comes.
Footsteps in my dreams elicit no sound.
Silent movie in my greyscale journey.
Twisted promise turned to ashen ruin.

Your name on the tip of my tongue.
Breathe you in without blinking.
Recall you without even thinking.
A beauty so radiating.
My shaking hands miss your words.
Grace like a flock of birds.
Dancing across every sky.
But life threw a curved ball and I’m perplexed.
Yet I hope happiness finds your soul.
No hard feelings for this unexpected ending.
Sincerely, I wish you a period of mending.
Before a joyous and long overdue happy ending.