Ringing

Someone please silence that ring.
Can’t stand any more of the thing.
Ask me to explain but I know I can’t.
Something about it results in a spark.
More paralysing than you can imagine.
Fight or flight, I can make no decision.

Torture and terror, thats what I feel.
No I’m not willing to make some sordid deal.
Terms are my own or I’ll turn to dirt.
For some reason the sounds makes me hurt.
So no more advice cause it isn’t blame.
Just ringtones leave me in pain.

Do almost anything to escape from the din.
Feels like a nightmare I’m forever trapped in.
And doing it more or increases the drain.
Worried that I might collapse my weary brain.
Now let me be and switch to silent.
Only way I feel I can be compliant.

Physical shudder of which I’m aware.
Of course I’d rather toward me you do not stare.
But thinking of other things is not a fix.
Ask me again and I might just eclipse.
Fade out to scream in my mind.
To me this treatment is most unkind.

Someone please silence that ring.
Can’t stand any more of the thing.
Ask me to explain but I know I can’t.
Something about it results in a spark.
More paralysing than you can imagine.
Fight or flight, I can make no decision.