Building A Prison

This is not a home
So just leave me alone
I need a place to dwell
Might as well be hell
Strung out from the night
Devoid of any fight
Just a scream inside my head
It keeps me from my bed
Walls that never quit
All they do is spit
Vicious lies about my mind
Forgotten what it’s like to be kind
Now let me weave and cry
Its my choice if I lie
A mirror is not a friend
Just a way to bend
Warp what I wish to see
Then vent something from me
Spirit as thin as glass
Ready to be become sparse
Trapped so far inside
My heart has now dried

Pick The Bones

We bore witness to the digital age
It came too late for us to save
Ruptured and in the grips of endless swell
There will be no tolling of the bell

Carrion crows circle overhead
No place left where we can bed
Surface bleached to deathly white
None of this will ever be right

Choices are what we tried to make
Every one was a short-sighted mistake
And now our time will soon be over

Sounded alarms right into the void
Pity we had already turned to droid
Fashioned tales that we shall prevail
Truth is we have succeded to fail

War drums are but a distant wish
Memory about as dense as a fish
Manipulation with which we hope to fool ourselves
There is no depth to which we will not delve

Choices are what we tried to make
Every one was a short-sighted mistake
And now our time will soon be over

Faded relic atop the towering spire
Shrine to which we pledge to be a liar
While deep down the withering rules
Each new day adds a portion of cruel

Shifted view that has made us numb
Twinned with shards that breed dumb
Slivers of what could have been a blossom
Instead society turned collective possum

Choices are what we tried to make
Every one was a short-sighted mistake
And now our time will soon be over

Breaks And Bodies

Hi Everyone! To be honest I’m not sure what to call this story. It’s not really horror though it does have elements of it. Easiest way I can put it is that it is about a grandfather telling his grandchildren a story. I’m saying nothing more than that, other than its about 11,200 words long and I hope you enjoy it.

Don is a man in his seventies who lives in his rural home some forty minutes drive from the nearest town. The house feels empty and to be honest is a little large for his needs, especially since his wife Eleanor past four years prior. Still, he couldn’t then, and remains unable to now, bring himself to move from the place the couple had called their forever space after more than forty years of living here. The décor is simple with a TV perched upon an only just about big enough silver metal and wood media cabinet. In addition there are two armchairs, a three seater sofa, a coffee table that is a pine colour but not made from pine and a couple of corner tables with white lamps and shades atop them.

Don is sat in his armchair. The brown leather is heavily cracked but not yet worn through. If it ever reaches that stage he’ll be forced to replace it. If that day comes he’ll be have to face the sadness it’ll bring, though he won’t replace the other chair. It is identical to the one he is sat in and had been where Eleanor had always put herself.

The chairs are alongside each other but Don isn’t focused on the vacant twin. Instead, he is barely looking in the direction of the forty inch TV screen. He’s pays little attention to whatever it is that is on. It isn’t his sort of thing that much is for sure and he’ll be happy when he gets the only distraction he cares for.

Suddenly he hears a series of muffled scraping, clattering sounds. It’s the unmistakable noise of metal on metal. It is a key entering the lock. If Don were a younger more spry man he’d leap to his feet and barrel across the meagre living space to the front door, but he is not. He is fully aware that by the time he manages to scramble awkwardly to his feet his visitors will be upon him. That is why he has elected to remain where he is.

The door opens, creaking as it does so. The sound reminds him that he needs to oil the hinges. He keeps forgetting. A house is quite the thing to keep together when you are on your own. He’d never fully understood that until… He sighs a split second before…

“Dad, we’re here. Where are you?” The voice belongs to Don’s only child, his daughter Melissa.

“I’m in the TV room Mel.” Don calls back. He’s the only one that calls the room he is sat in the TV room. Still, Melissa knows exactly where he means. She hasn’t a clue where he got it from but has never thought to ask either.

Don hits the standby button on the remote that has spent the last however long he’s been sat here killing time. The wait was painful. It always is. Don misses being around people but never realised that until he was a single man again. Not something he ever thought would be a worry for him when he met his Eleanor.

“Hi dad, how you feeling…” Melissa begins. Her voice is quickly drowned out as her two children Vanessa and Charlie rush toward the elderly man with reckless abandon screaming, “Granddad!” over and over. Their presence will always be capable of brightening Don’s day.

He smiles in response and waits the short moments it takes them to cover the distance and then leap unto their granddad, who erupts into laughter. Vanessa and Charlie too explode into giggles as Don welcomes them with cuddles and shaking side to side movements that help fuel their joy.

Melissa stops, a smile is painted across her face as she watches her father and children smile and enjoy each other’s company. It’s enough to bring a tear to her eye, yet she ensures that it does not. If she were to allow it to there would only be a round of questions and queries issued, principally from her son and daughter. No need to make them question or worry unnecessarily. If she did they’d only pester their granddad asking why mommy was crying once she has departed. She doesn’t want to put her father in that position, especially since he volunteered to look after them, and so he forces laughter. It doesn’t take much but still she could do with them settling down because their granddad isn’t a young man anymore. Yet, he looks happy and that can be a rarity these days. He misses his wife, Melissa understands because she misses her mother. Yet, she has no partner. She and her now ex-husband Byron were never that close. Or at least Melissa doesn’t think they were. At the time she would have sworn their bond was the same as her parents, but looking back she can honestly say that it was not.

She forces her memories and feeling aside aware of her concerns for the safety of her dear old dad. It’s why she orders softly but with a stern tone of voice, “Ness, Char calm down you don’t want to hurt your granddad, do you?”

The response is immediate; the two children freeze midway through whatever it is they had planned. From looks of things it appears as though Charlie was about to hit Don on the head, while Vanessa was preparing to poke and prod the elderly man’s cardigan covered chest.

“Relax Mel; they’re just having some fun.” Don like any dotting grandfather is throwing caution to the wind and is focused more on his grandchildren than his own safety.

“Isn’t that right?” Don quickly follows up with a half whisper aimed in the direction of his grandson and granddaughters ears. They giggle in response which makes Don’s heart gush.

More than anything he hopes his life continues for a good while longer so he is able to watch them grow up. He’d really love to see who they become. Whether that is on the cards he cannot say. Only time will tell, though he is acutely aware that they won’t stay like this for much longer. Before too long they’ll think their old granddad is uncool, lame, old, or whatever the vernacular is these days. Don hasn’t a clue. He decides it matters little. No matter the word it all means the same in the end.

“Dad, don’t encourage them. You know I’m right.” Melissa adds, folding her arms across her chest right after her words have left her mouth. Melissa’s hair is cut into a bob and is black in colour just like the suit she is clad in. It might be a Saturday but she has to work. Meetings with clients will be the order for the day and so Don is going to look after Vanessa and Charlie. She should only be gone for a few hours at most. More than anything she does not want these meetings to drag on or suffer delays. Unless of course the delay is into next week; that would suit her perfectly because she’d really like to spend the weekend with her kids and dad. She had planned to bring them over regardless of these meetings but plans change and no longer will she be able to spend the day with her dad alongside Vanessa and Charlie. That saddens her more than she wants to admit but these clients are a big deal. Securing this deal means… Don’t think about that now, not with the time before you have to depart being so scant, she reminds herself. Melissa nods and then elects to move on.

“Ah, relax. They’re kids. They won’t stay this way forever. Let them have their fun. I’ll be fine, survived worse.” Don utters with a wide smile planted firmly across his face. Yet, the survived worse is a clear unconscious acknowledgement of the loss of his Eleanor.

Vanessa and Charlie exclaim with rapturous joy even if they don’t understand exactly what their granddad means.

Charlie is nine and Vanessa is seven. Both are bundles of endless joy, infectious laughter and near boundless energy. Melissa knows she should get serious and put her foot down but can’t bring herself too. Spoiling the trio’s fun would put a crack across her heart. She can’t do that to them, most of all her dad. He’s had a rough few years and any time Melissa gets to see him happy it reminds her just how much he’s changed now that his wife, her mother, is gone. That is why begrudgingly she concludes she’ll let the potential rough and tumble antics slide. Her dad knows what his limit is, even if he’ll forget about it until he hits it. Plus, Vanessa and Charlie listen to him. So if says he’s had enough they will, hesitantly, oblige.

“Story, story, story.” Vanessa begins to demand out of left field. Her cries of joy are soon mirrored by Charlie who also demands, “Yeah, story granddad. We want a scary one. The best you’ve got.”

“I’m going to go drop their stuff in the kitchen, ok dad?” Melissa announces knowing that it is best she make herself scarce and let her dad deal with the demands of his grandchildren. She could try and calm them but clearly their granddad doesn’t want that. He’s an experienced parent and so she’ll leave the delegation to him, for now.

“Sure honey.” Don says answering his daughter only to turn his attention immediately after toward his grandkids.

“So you want a story do you? A scary one says Char. Is that what you want too Ness?” Don is cognisant that Vanessa is younger and though tends to agree with what her brother demands isn’t necessarily always onboard with his ideas. It’s why he feels the need to check.

A few moments thought end with a hesitant nod from Vanessa. Her long brown locks bob up and down as her head moves. Because of all that hair her face is barely visible. Don pushes her hair back on one side and hooks it gently over her ear to better get a view of her delicate face.

“Are you sure?” He feels a need to check.

Charlie meanwhile is staying remarkably quiet during this time which is a bonus. Perhaps he is waiting with baited breath. Don cannot say for only the children themselves know what goes on in their minds.

Vanessa nods again. This time she is more confident in her approval of the story being a scary one.

“Alright then it’s decided, a scary story it’ll be.” Charlie exclaims in joy upon hearing that he’s getting his way, while Vanessa, still reticent, unleashes a half smile and a round of frantic nods.

“Get comfortable the pair of you for once I’ve begun there will be no stopping until the very end.” Don puts on an ominous voice. Both Vanessa and Charlie wriggle back and forth to get comfortable like they’ve been told.

They are nestled on either side of Don, partly on the arms of his chair. He might miss this seat when it’s worn through but he isn’t so precious about it that his grandchildren clambering on it he finds to be an issue. Eleanor would’ve passed comment about that being the purpose of the sofa. Yet ultimately she would’ve relented while continuing to cook her way through the morning, assuring the grandchildren that she is listening from the kitchen. And it would be true, Eleanor would indeed listen to every word her husband Don delivered to their grandkids, even occasionally adding or passing comment infrequently. She used to love his stories almost as much as Vanessa and Charlie do.

With the grandchildren having wriggled into comfort, Don begins. A smile still affixed across his face.

“This is the tale of a lake. But the lake is only the setting. For at this lake there is a killer on the loose…”

“Dad, come on is that a good idea?” Melissa interrupts from the kitchen.

Don pays her question no mind. Rather, he looks from Vanessa to Charlie. Both nod. It’s all the confirmation he needs to continue, regardless of what his daughter might think. Democracy at its best, he thinks. After all, this is two votes, three if he was to count his own, against one. Best odds he could hope to get.

He picks up right where he left off, “…and visiting this lake are three teenage friends. They’re on break from school and wanted to get away. This is the last summer they’ll have together before they move on to other things. But their future plans are not our concern. Our concern is what happened while they were at this lake.”

Vanessa and Charlie are looking up at their grandfather with mesmerised stares of genuine intrigue. They are hanging off his every word. They love his stories, even if they are sometimes perhaps a little much for children of their age. They’ll do no harm however. After all, Melissa was told similar things as a young girl and she turned out fine. That’s how you sell it. You make it abundantly clear that this is fiction. That way kids don’t get it into their heads that it is or could be real.

As Don continues to set the scene with descriptions of the lake, Melissa finishes unpacking Vanessa and Charlie’s stuff ready for them to eat later. It’s only fair she made them lunch. After all, she is abandoning them, for a few hours, during the weekend. Plus, this is putting extra responsibility on her aging father. She doesn’t like doing either but needs must she thinks just prior to checking the time. She needs to make a move if she wants any hope of arriving in time for the meeting. It’s back in town. Just over an hour should be enough but she’s not inclined to dally any longer. It’s why she shuffles back into the TV room as her dad calls it and announces, “Mommy’s got to go now. You two be good. Dad, don’t overdo it. You know what I mean, so don’t argue with me.”

Don and the children flanking him on either side take a short pause from the story to turn their attention and gazes toward Melissa. Don is the first to speak, “Wouldn’t dare honey. Be safe. We’ll see you later.”

“Bye mommy!” Vanessa shouts loudly while Charlie waves his hand furiously and elongates “Bye.”

Melissa smiles, blows them kisses, turns and waves until she is at the door. Like a whirlwind she vanishes from sight closing and locking the front door behind her.

“Right, now back to the story.” Don returns his focus toward Charlie and then Vanessa. The pair both take to bouncing up and down. It’s a clear sign of their eagerness to hear more.

“The white rented sedan pulls up outside the large cabin which sits alongside the large oval shaped lake. It’s dark and the only sounds are of the wind rustling the leaves on the trees. There is limited light shining out from the small street lights that line the drive up to the two storey log cabin. Yet, the ground floor is bathed in light.” Don has started the story proper now and continues without pause.

“We’re here.” Cody announces climbing out of the white sedan. He splays his arms wide as if their arrival is the greatest achievement of mankind and he celebrating the victory.

“Yeah, it just took us half a day longer than it was supposed to, Cody.” Briana utters right after but makes sure to emphasise Cody’s name when she reaches it. She wants him to be sure that the blame, in her eyes, is squarely on him.

“We still got here though.” Is the response the jersey wearing Cody fires back with little care for the blame being placed upon him.

“Yeah we did.” Gray agrees as he unfolds himself from having been jammed behind the steering wheel. From free he takes one look Briana’s way, their eyes meet and a hard stare is delivered unto him. Because of that he swiftly adds, “But Brie is right, we should’ve been here hours ago.” Gray is too tired to argue. All he wants to do is sleep, especially as he is the one who’s been doing the driving. Something tells him that he should doubt the other two are entirely capable of understanding how tiring it’s been to be the designated driver. Not like there is a reason they couldn’t have shared the driving either. Both Cody and Briana know how to drive and are named on the lease. No, it just so happened he got landed with the keys and as a result the driving. Tough luck, but I’m not going to be the one driving back, he promises. More than likely he will be. That will be an issue to face in a few days when they have to leave. Until then Gray intends on enjoying this long weekend at the lakeside.

Briana is the one who told them about this place. Apparently she used to visit this lake when she’d been a little kid. Though, they’d had to get the name of the lake from her mom. Unsurprisingly Briana didn’t remember it. Cody had teased her ruthlessly about that.

It was a strange thing for him to do when he’s the one who wants to get closer to her, but that’ll be his problem not Gray’s. Still, this continuation of blame and not accepting it must be damaging Cody’s prospects, surely.

“Sure, you’re right, both of you. Blame it on me. But, at the same time if it were not for my quick thinking would we have ever got here in the first place?” Cody with his trademark cockiness has a beaming smile and index fingers vaguely pointing toward both Briana and Gray in the moments after the words have been delivered.

“Yes. In fact we would have got here and still had half a day left if we hadn’t been following your directions. And why were you even using a map? It’s called satnav for a reason, dingus. What decade are you from, the seventies?” Briana is attempting to make a point. On the whole it’s a valid one, even if some of the details are a little off. Sure, Cody had insisted on using maps, paper ones, to trace their route here and it had gotten them lost. Apparently, Cody is not as good with a map as he believed he was. More than likely he thought it would be simple. Then saw the map, panicked and instead of fessing up randomly chose something. What he chose turned out to be wrong. It could just as easily been right. 50/50 chance and he landed on the wrong fifty, this time. Yet, even if they hadn’t got lost on what should’ve been a three hour drive they wouldn’t have had half a day to do with as they pleased. They would have had maybe a few hours and more than likely it would have been a quick meal and then collapsing to get some sleep.

“How about we get inside? It’s late and I don’t know about you two but I’m exhausted.” Gray can feel his body demanding he find a bed. He if tried to stand here and listen to the back and forth which very well might be incoming there is no doubt he’d drop. The start to their vacation has been bad enough; Gray doesn’t want to add a broken nose from face planting the ground on top. Such a thing would really ruin this weekend for him. Thankfully, Cody agrees.

“Yeah sure, let’s get inside.”

Briana doesn’t like that this argument hasn’t been resolved. Chiefly because Cody has not taken the blame but she’s been outvoted, which is why begrudgingly she goes along with it.

During Briana’s thinking time, Cody has managed to pull the bags from the back seat of the sedan where they had been wedged. He cannot fathom as to why Briana refused to let them put the bags in the boot instead of on the rear bench seat but it matters little now. He can’t say it was any easier to get them out however.

“Get my bags for me would you?” Briana demands leaving Cody behind to struggle. Gray has already claimed his and is well on his way to the front door of the cabin. It’s quaint, that’s what he’d call it. He drives the key into the lock. It’s stiff, that is why he jiggles it and then…

“Will it not open?” Briana queries over his shoulder. Gray almost leaps out of his skin. He didn’t know the seventeen year old with long curly blonde hair was that close to him. In fact, he wasn’t aware she was near him whatsoever.

“Jumpy.” She states before a giggle passes her lips.

Before Gray can say a word she inserts herself into the situation, effectively pushing Gray aside. Yet, her barging in is done in the nicest and least physical possible way imaginable. His jaw drops and hands rise in silent protest. Briana is unaware of his reaction and instead focuses on releasing the lock. She succeeds following a brief fiddle. Her success followed by a proud giggle that grows distant when she disappears inside leaving Gray on the doorstep.

“Can I get a hand back here?” Cody pleads.

Gray turns only to find Cody almost buried under a mountain of bags. The two smallest bags are Cody’s, the rest are Briana’s. Neither Cody nor Gray could grasp as to why one woman needed so much luggage. Is it a rite of passage? They still don’t know, though Briana had protested that all of her bags were essential. Both of the guys had doubted that but had silently agreed not to say another word on the matter.

“Sure Cody.” Gray assures while heading back toward his friend. Between them they split the bags. Gray soon learns that not only does Briana have more luggage than they do combined and multiplied by two but it is heavier to boot.

The two young men struggle into the cabin. Briana already has every conceivable light on inside. Cody bashes the door closed with the heel of his shoe. It doesn’t quite work. He sighs in frustration and then while still balancing the luggage in his arms takes a quarter step backward. His back pushes against the door and forces it closed. He’ll lock it later. Right now all he wants to do is drop all he has hold of before his arms become like long pieces of spaghetti.

“Aw, aren’t you good for bringing in my stuff.” Cody is happy to hear the thanks being offered. “Thanks Gray.” Are the next words out Briana’s mouth. Cody’s mood plummets. In place of the warm feeling he had felt there is an empty hollow void. Even his shoulders drop. Then he realises his mistake and begins to lose balance, toppling forward. Dump the bags or crash to the floor, such is the decision Cody is faced with.

“Whoa.” Gray exclaims coming to Cody’s rescue and helping to prop him back upright once more. Gray had dumped Briana’s bags already. It’s what alerted her to their arrival and why she gave thanks to him and not Cody too.

“Put ‘em down Cody before you hurt yourself.” Gray urges sure that his friend will collapse if he doesn’t. Cody complies and unceremoniously releases his grip in a flash. The bags crash to the floor. A smirk appears across his face.

“What the…” Briana roars angrily. She heard the crash and felt it important to investigate.

Cody’s smirk vanishes and just in the nick of time as Briana’s head pops around one of the doorframes.

“Cody… Oh…” Briana is exasperated but too tired to argue. Her lack of energy has hit her now that they have reached and stepped inside what will serve as their home for the next few days of this vacation. Still, her face is flushed. Not red, but definitely not its normal shade regardless of what makeup she may or may not be wearing.

Cody goes to say something but it’s too late. Briana is gone.

“Don’t worry Cody. Let’s just get some rest. Patch things up tomorrow, yeah?” Gray, as always, is acting as peacekeeper, sense maker. Cody wishes he could do that but it just isn’t in his nature. He wonders if that difference is the result of Cody being an extrovert and Gray an introvert. Cody hasn’t a clue. Though, he can’t argue the sense Gray is making and so replies, “Sure.”

Gray smiles, nods and then with a single head motion suggests they go check this cabin out. Briana certainly has so it’s only fair that they do too.

Try It

Forgive and forget
Only some of us can do it

Pain is easier held to the chest
Even if it’s not for the best
Trait that we all share
None of us lack an ability to care

Forgive and forget
Only some of us can do it

Revenge is a dish we crave
Doesn’t mean that we are brave
Just fixated on a path
Ignoring the outcome of our wrath

Forgive and forget
Only some of us can do it

Sabotage can come so easy
Not always from you to me
Self-inflicted it can be
Removes any chance of us being free

Forgive and forget
Only some of us can do it

Anger will boil within
Killing all hope of living
Remains will be an empty cage
The one that we did fill with rage

Forgive and forget
Only some of us can do it

Lies are now a trend
No one even attempts to mend
Shift away from this now
It is what we continue to allow

Forgive and forget
Only some of us can do it

Betrayal is the way we flow
Stunting us when we should grow
Cycle that refuses to break
Or is that an excuse we like to make?

Forgive and forget
Only some of us can do it

Descending

Passing on the seldom sun
One filled with opposite fun
Stranded with a filthy glow
Chaos is what will show
Stuck in the desert sand
With only the constant land
Joking with the blasted rock
Not sure if I’ve come unstuck
Visions of a safe haven
Is this my brain getting even?
Tricks wrapped in memories
Not sure if its real or make believe
Raised hand to the burning sky
Clouds have waved goodbye
Nothing but unbroken blue
Wish I could end that too
Swimming in the dunes of gold
My mind has long since been sold
Roasted in the common ground
There is no other sound
Desperate like those in a phase
Need out of the high rays

Axis

Idyllic temperate mystery
Woven along the time to be
Corrupted glare to the bend
Leaving it up to pretend
With a handful of seed
Nothing will build a new breed
Disease has lit the eternal flame
Beginning of the latest game
A descent into the deepest dark
Period of how to miss the mark
Opting for a steep decline
Claiming everything is fine
Pit of thorns bathed in light
Nothing has ever been so right

Haiku 2

Wrote these about a year ago (after playing Ghost Of Tsushima, which is a fantastic game by the way). Decided I’d post them because why not.

When you are at war
Honour is a privilege
Survival is not

Watch the river flow
Down to that place you would go
Never been there though

Life is like a clock
Never does it truly stop
It just goes tick tock

Stare at the blue sky
Wonder if the day will die
Then wave it goodbye

Pick at the hard scab
Memories of what you had
Fleeting like the jab

Death is like a dream
In it you might hear a scream
Tear out the old seam

Rotting in the ground
All because you were too proud
Lust became your shroud

Worming up the wall
Looking for a line to pull
Before the final call

Evicted

OK then. This week is a Sci-Fi story. Idea came to me and I liked how it turned out. You may or may not be able to guess where this story is going, I don’t know. I’m not going to say too much on it other than this world is very broken. I essentially took the state of our world and some of the issues in it and amplified them massively. It’s about 11,300 words long and so without further ado here is Evicted. Enjoy!

Six hundred years from now and Earth has become an overcrowded mess. There are more than thirty five billion residents on the planet and as a result space is at a premium. So much so that convicted criminals are no longer housed in prisons but fired off into the depths of the Sol system.

 You see humanity never managed to return to the stars, at least not in any way that could be classified as meaningful. Rather, they dallied with numerous return trips to the Moon and further space stations in orbit around the third rock from the sun. However, this was done as a largely private enterprise and following a series of global market crashes these corporations withered, faded and failed until none remained. The overcrowding of Earth caused by several generations of high birth rates were the only concern anyone had. Care for outer space and what lay beyond our world were seen as luxuries that would bear no useful fruit.

You may be wondering as to how it can be that sending convicts into space could ever be cheaper than shoving them in walled complexes and the truth is that yes the starships are expensive. However, when some of the cheapest property on Earth retails at thirty million global credits for a studio apartment you might get some idea of cost. What will further reinforce the sheer scale of that number is that global credits are what used to be known as US dollars. As such the starships, costing four million credits a piece, are cheap.

Sadly, due to the cost of real estate across the globe citizens are locked in almost endless payment schemes that bleed them dry of money and keep them poor. As a result of these schemes some eighty seven percent of the global population is considered destitute. Though, unlike the twenty first century all peoples and nations have access to clean running water and medicine. It is just they have to pay exorbitant costs to retain such privileges and with wages having not increased in more than a generation, society is struggling.

There might be the thought, how is enough food grown for consumption by such a massive population. The truth? Well it is grown in labs buried underground as it was discovered these offered the best conditions and result in optimal growth patterns and in the shortest conceivable time periods. Plus, it meant no more of the Earth’s forests would need to be decimated and force humanity between choosing to breathe and eat. Still, the air quality on Earth can only be described as abysmal. Citizens are forced to wear breathing masks to keep their lungs from becoming damaged by the natural air they would otherwise breathe. It is yet another way that the corporations of Earth have managed to monetise the lives of people. Yet, they are not in control. Leadership is still very much in the hands of governments. It is just that these governments saw the near limitless possibilities of being able to tax people for every necessity that their people needed to survive. Not that the governments of the world need the money for they own much of the land upon which the buildings have been built in addition to having nationalised the building companies and serve as landlords for over fifty percent of all housing on the planet. Then you have to consider that all amenities were too nationalised, this includes water and electricity. In effect it is the governments who are taxing people into oblivion. Just the corporations are getting in on the action to further compound the issue.

Theo like many on Earth is a poor soul who works twelve hour shifts six days a week to maintain a roof over his head, food on his table and breathable air in his lungs. He knows the stories of how Earth had once been. How the planet had consisted of cities and towns broken up by sprawling zones of natural beauty. In the world he is a part of he cannot imagine such a thing. He’s never even seen a tree. Not up close in real time. He’s seen holographic representations sure, but never one in the flesh. All trees on Earth are located in protected nature parks and the only people capable of visiting those, aside from those who watch over and maintain them, are the ultra rich. These are the very same people who are board members of corporations or serve as upper echelon management. They revel in money. Likely swim in it they have such vast amounts at their disposal. Own the buildings they live in. Pay for very little because they know this woman or that man who gives them water, clean air, etc for discount prices. On Earth in the twenty seventh century it is entirely about who you know, not what you know or how clever you are. The rich are born rich and stay rich. Everyone else, well they’ll never get up there. The rich don’t allow it. The hierarchy is set. Locked in place and no one is changing it. That includes the politicians, the only other people with more than enough to their names. They, with the suits, have the world and its people on lock.

Theo, on the other hand, couldn’t be further from the lives of corporate bigwigs and politicians if he tried. He is a simple delivery driver. At least that is what he is termed. He doesn’t do any actual driving. He’s a supervisor of the delivery truck who is there just in case. You might be wondering what he is there for just in case of. Well, he’s present just in case the truck’s onboard AI malfunctions or fails. It hasn’t happened in over three centuries but it keeps him employed and right on the line between survival and ruin. Still, it’s a boring job; mind numbing, soul crushing. He spends his days sat in the cab of his truck watching the slabs of glass, steel and concrete pass him by.

That is what he’s doing right now. His expression is one of defeat. It’s a common expression that is found on many of the faces of humanity. Regardless, unlike others that work the same job as he, Theo does not go to sleep on the job. He’s a nervous sort of a guy and while he is fully aware of when the last time a vehicle AI went wrong it does not mean he plans on tempting fate and believing that it can never happen. Of course it could. It’s highly unlikely but unlikely is not impossible. There is a reason that is written in the Terms and Conditions from the manufacturers. Those words, written in overly complex legal speak, absolve the manufacturers of all responsibilities encase of damage, injury or death. Then again those he works for, Arden Haulage, wouldn’t likely care less what his injuries might be if there were a malfunction and a resulting crash. Arden is a corporation, a large one, they’re the only type that exists in the world, and as such the cares they have extended only as far as their bottom line. After all, the bottom line is what effects the bigwig’s bonus payments at the end of a financial year.

Theo lets out a sigh. It’s long and miserable but frequently his response when dwelling on the circumstances the world finds itself in. His blue eyes scan ahead of him through the windscreen of polyglass. Theo is lucky to get a real view, instead of a camera feed like many other delivery ‘drivers’ get. Then again Arden aren’t exactly known to regularly upgrade their trucks with newer variants. It’s almost certainly why they post the best profits of any haulage company in the southern hemisphere. A positive, Theo forces himself to acknowledge. It doesn’t work and the next thought through his head is a sarcastic, whoopdeedoo. He rolls his eyes right afterward. The roll lasts barely a second and following it Theo’s eyes are straight back to the road ahead. Its arrow straight but difficult to see with the rain coming down the way that it is. Theo leans forward, his back leaving the confines of the backrest of his seat. His hands are on the wheel. They don’t need to be but he’s only using it to pull himself forward. He angles his eyes upward toward the sky. The rain is so heavy that it takes his eyes a few seconds to see past the hammering raindrops to get a distorted view of the sky. It’s a very dark grey colour. Theo’s shoulders drop. It better clear up by the time I get to… His internal voice trails off. He can’t remember where he’s headed and that’s pretty normal when you don’t do any of the driving because you don’t need to remember. Instead, the truck AI will do that for him. He wishes he could drive, even if it is only just once, for a change. Not going to happen and you know it, he reminds himself while settling back into his seat. He wriggles from side to side in hopes of getting to a state he can call comfortable for what will be a long drive. The only reason he knows it’ll be a long drive is because it always is. Theo never does short runs. If he did he wouldn’t make the dough he needs to stay on the line. At least he wouldn’t according to the calculations he’s done. What I get for living where I do, he sighs again and then decides he doesn’t want to contemplate such depressing crap anymore.

A few minutes later, Theo with his head wedged into the rest at his back and still vaguely looking at the road is sure he couldn’t feel more bored if he tried. If there was a stereo it might be something but there isn’t. Arden spares all expenses to keep their prices low and customers coming back. Just means Theo and others like him in this line of work get very bored a good chunk of the time. You see why so many resort to sleeping through their journeys? Yeah, it makes a lot of sense doesn’t it?

Theo begins to hum to himself. He can’t recall the name of the tune he’s humming and that annoys him. It’s very familiar but the more he tries to dig into his head in search of a name the further he feels he is getting from an answer. Ultimately, he gives up trying to discern what the tune is and simply continues to hum.

A couple minutes after that, he’s so irritated by his failure to name what he’s humming that he’s stopped doing so entirely. The need to know came back with a vengeance and would not let him put it out of his mind. So now Theo, the brown haired guy sat in the single seat of an AI controlled delivery truck, is back to sitting in silence. The dull drone of rubber tyres over tarmac fills his ears. He had tuned it out but with nothing else to do he’d allowed it to creep in and be the only sound in his ears. It’s a mistake he soon realises when he feels his eyes growing heavy as if he needs sleep. He shakes himself out of it, thankful his movement is enough but concludes he will not repeat that again no matter how bored he gets.

At one time he could at least converse with the onboard AI. Those days are gone. Arden upgraded their trucks to the model Theo is currently occupying. The only reason Arden did it was to stop the ‘drivers’ conversing. Management claimed it distracted the onboard AI. How? In what way would a human chatting to an artificial intelligence distract it? It wouldn’t. It doesn’t. Arden did it because they didn’t like company employees asking questions the AI would willingly answer. You might be able to guess the sort, you might not. Either way, Arden put a stop to it. Theo wasn’t one of those who asked questions. He just liked having someone to chat too.

He considers for a period if someone is the correct term. His belief is that it is not and yet calling the AI something feels wrong. Sure, they aren’t alive in the same sense as he is but that doesn’t mean they’re a thing. Or are they? He can’t decide. It’s a complex topic and without an AI to converse with and bounce questions, suggestions and statements off of he feels as though he is not knowledgeable enough to make a definitive conclusion one way or the other. That was anti-climactic then, he thinks.

Before long his eyes drift to the onboard clock. It’s one of the only ‘extras’ in the cab. The large blue digital numbers constructed out of bars displays that it is 12:03. Two minutes have passed. He finds that exhausting. His belief was that at the very least he’d passed fifteen minutes, but two? Two is depressing. Theo’s shoulder’s drop and then he slumps in the seat not long afterward.

Get a grip of yourself, he demands while continuing to eye the readout from the clock. He’d give anything for a distraction; something capable of killing a decent chunk of time while he’s on his way to whatever his destination might be. It’s not going to happen. He’s fully aware of that and would sour his mood further, if that were at all possible. It’s not. Theo is about as low as he could get. It’s not the lowest he’s ever been but without a doubt is worse than he would like. Though, with the wipers working furiously to clear the screen, for his purposes only, he can at least see a little more out the windscreen than he would otherwise. Not much, mainly driving angled rain which is coming down as though someone has turned on a powerful showerhead full blast, other vehicles and a few brave souls on the sidewalks. The pedestrians pass by too swiftly for Theo to get enough of a look at them to analyse just how soaked they inevitably must be. His guess is that they have to be soaked through. He counts himself lucky to be in this cab and not just because it means he doesn’t need to wear one of the breathing masks. Still, he desperately hopes the rains stopped by the time he gets to his destination as he does not relish the thought of stepping out into this kind of weather. If he lived in his truck like some of the guys he works with it might not be so bad. They always have changes of clothes, towels and so on but Theo, he’s got nothing.

Arden hate their ‘drivers’ living out of their trucks. More than a few have been canned as a result. Harsh punishment but that is the way the world goes. Theo wonders if Grace found another job. She was one of the ‘drivers’ who got canned in the last round of sackings for having lived in the truck she drove. Theo is aware he shouldn’t call the trucks his, or hers or theirs as they are all the property of Arden. No one in this job owns their truck. They aren’t even on lease. They are company property and as such any misuse or damage comes out of the ‘drivers’ wage packet. It’s miserable when you see a month where Arden has screwed money out of you. They tend to do it more with the longest serving employees. Some think it’s so they’ll quit. Theo doesn’t see that because it’s not like Arden make contributions to a pension, healthcare or anything else like that. Instead, Theo believes it is purely so Arden has an excuse to fire them. They don’t need one as there aren’t really any workers rights, but maybe every so often having a reason helps them sleep at night or something. He doubts the bigwigs have any issue sleeping however and there is no way they sit awake at night concerned about how their employees are or have been treated.

At that moment Theo’s phone rings. It startles him and he flinches, jerking violently in his seat. Right after he curses himself, adding a shake of his head for good measure. It does nothing to ease his pounding heart or change the few seconds it takes him to get over the initial shock. Once he is over the shock Theo flips a switch above his head that is embedded into the headlining of the truck’s cab and then slaps the button on the piece in his left ear. He just about hits the answer key of the now silent call. His ringtone only sounds for the first nine seconds and then drops into a quiet buzz. He considers, as the call connects, whether he should stop the ringing sound altogether. This is the fifth time he’s almost been sent into a round of hyperventilation from shock at its sudden scream. He reaches no conclusion to his thought as the caller says, “What’s up stranger? Long time no see. Thought you’d fallen into the gutter and drowned cause you haven’t been down for drinks, or anything else for that matter, in quite a bit.”

The delivery ‘driver’ immediately recognises the voice as belonging to Cedric. He runs a bar a few blocks down from Theo’s place. The ‘driver’ isn’t sure he should call it a home or an apartment. It’s a shoebox. In fact, he’d have more room if he lived in a shoebox he thinks. Though, he’d probably have more space if he bothered to unpack the boxes from when he moved in five years ago. He hasn’t. His excuse for having not done so is he doesn’t have the time. Partially true because he does spend little time there and tends to only be present when he gets a nights rest. It’s rare due to the fact that generally just as he gets in from his shift also so happens to be right when everyone else is banging and crashing their way into the new day. That’s if there isn’t some douche bag neighbour blaring loud music, or worse playing the let’s see if we can shake the apartment complex until it crumbles to the ground game. It’s why Theo especially despises Bass Bursters. It’s a type of music which seems to be little more than insane levels of bass, which means it has a knack of turning any speaker system into a ground shaking weapon of mass irritation.

How people in his complex afford such things the brown haired man will never know but he wishes they couldn’t. It’s one of the few times he wants something to cost more than the normal person can afford and only so he doesn’t have to be kept awake by it when he’s supposed to be sleeping.

“Hi Cee. Yeah I know. It’s been busy at work. Hauling all over the continent I just haven’t had the time to come down for a brew. It may be different next week. I make no promises though. I need the money.” Theo explains unsure as to why he’s justifying himself to a ‘friend.’

Cedric is a friend in the loosest sense of the word. They’re glorified acquaintances really. That might be different if Theo had any other kind of job but he doesn’t and so their relationship is what it is. Still, this is the first time Cedric has ever called him out of apparent concern. The delivery ‘driver’ thinks that a little odd. It makes him wonder if Cedric needs something. If he does it’ll be money. It’s what everyone needs and Theo is not the guy to come too if that is the case. He barely earns enough to keep himself afloat, so there is no way he’s able to lend any to someone he knows. No matter the capacity or their level of desperation. It might sound cruel but in truth it’s realism. If he did he’d only be putting himself in the danger zone of eviction and homelessness.

“Sure, sure. Just thought I’d check on you to see if you’re still breathing like the rest of us. Never know in this world we live in. Here today gone tomorrow, as they say.” Cedric looses off a hearty chuckle as if he’s made a good joke. Theo doesn’t understand why and so keeps quiet to wait for the punch line, it never comes.

“So you’ve been working then?” Cedric asks.

“Yeah, been doing all the jobs I can. Any long run that comes up I take.”

“Where is it you’re heading to right now?”

“Not a clue.” Theo answers honestly and then goes to speak again. Before he can get a word out Cedric asks another question.

“Is there no GPS on those trucks you drive?”

Theo finds the question suspicious especially after the last one and the one before that as a matter of fact. His blue eyes narrow into slits. No one is there to see it and that is probably for the best because it would undoubtedly result in judgement. After all, Cedric could very well just be engaging in idle chit chat. Everyone gets bored and lonely at some point or another. The human condition as it’s called. Theo is fully aware of it and does himself suffer such things from time to time. More since the truck AI’s became incapable of conversing with the ‘drivers.’ Still, Theo doesn’t think he’d ever call someone he doesn’t really know for a chat. It could be Cedric has nobody else. That would be tough. Theo at least has his brother, Jacen, if he needs to talk. That reminds him, he needs to call and check-up on him to see how his new job is going. He recently became a manager. It took him long enough to get there. That’s not a criticism against Jacen but against the corporations. Theo isn’t sure if his brother moved to another employer however. Their last chat derailed pretty hard into other things. Neither ever really want to discuss work. Like always, it’s exhausting, and must be doubly so for Jacen who had been trying to climb the corporate ladder. Well, as much as the powers that be will allow. The limit to a persons’ corporate climb? Well Jacen is now at it, a manager. He won’t be allowed to climb higher. Stupid system but not one anybody is capable of beating. That’ll be his lot from now on and he’ll have to come to terms with it, if he hasn’t already done so. Still, Jacen, the eldest of the pair, has done well for himself. Theo doesn’t think he’ll get to that level or wants too for that matter. After all, when attempting to climb the corporate mountain you have to be prepared for lots of fighting dirty and Theo is not about it. All he wants to do is go in, do his shift, go home and then on the first Thursday of every month get paid. Worst thing about that payday is that all bills come out two days prior and there is no negotiating or moving it to a more appropriate date. It’s set in stone. Apparently, this is rumour only with no confirmation, that date is dictated by your date of birth. Whether it is or not the bill payment date seems to screw the vast majority of people and forces most to choose between spending or saving until the bills are paid at the end of having had your paycheque for almost a month. Inevitably most people end up overdrawn, having been unable to resist the temptation of mullah in their accounts, and having to pay interest on their excess as punishment for it.

It’s a permanent cycle of debt that no one can escape, including Jacen as the higher up the ladder you are the more you have to repay but at the same time the more things cost too.

“There is but it’s only accessible to the onboard AI.” Theo answers finally. He still feels uncomfortable with this conversation. He judges himself for his own judgement of the questions being asked of him. It might say more about his views of others than anything else, he can’t be sure.

“Does that mean no one knows where you are at any given time? Scary.” Cedric offers in response. Those statements combined confuse Theo who would’ve considered it scary if it were the other way round and Arden knew where he was at every moment. Definitely says more about you than anything else, he notes to himself feeling more than a little ashamed of his judgementalism. Still, Theo isn’t sure what else to say and so offers a bland, “Yeah I guess.”

“Sorry, you’re busy. I’ll leave you to it. Take care of yourself Theo.” Before Theo can say a word in protest, he isn’t sure that is the right word as he wasn’t the one who initiated this conversation, Cedric ends the call. The sudden end leaves the delivery ‘driver’ sat with his mouth agape, brow furrowed and a confused expression on his face. His eyes continue to take in the road ahead however and by looks of things the rain has eased, but only a little. It continues to hammer down and look as though a tap has been left on by mistake.

Material

Why are we still on the wheel?
It gives us no time to feel
One false move and you trip
After that it’s difficult to grip
So why don’t we just pause
Take a moment to review the clause
Cause none of us signed a contract
That is nothing but a fact

Convinced ourselves we need more
What a drastic kind of flaw
As none of it will stop the lust
In human nature you should not trust
Cause it’s a creation of our mind
The type that leads you to grind
Fail to see the futility
Disintegration of you and me

Cling to rungs of the ladder
Trying to ascend past disaster
But what goes up must come down
In the end you’ll wear the frown
Join the mass among the debris
Lost what you thristed to be
Now you are right back at the start
Wondering if you should’ve taken part

Do these items make you happy?
Something tells me you still feel crappy
Dwelling on what could have been
If only you had ignored the dream
Ideas that were forced into your head
None of which you dreamed in bed
They are a facsimile of new joy
What you now know to be a ploy

Not Meant To Be

You say one
I’ll say two
But if say three
I’ll simply flee
Cause this is not the happy halls
Ruptures have forged the falls
Blowing at the static spires
The ones from which you conspired
Information overload
Searching for another mode
Uniform state of pause
This has began the cause
Of warring over empty words
Neither of us will be heard
Guilt across every lane
A duo wrapped in hate again
Screaming with our tortured tongues
Air is lost from the lungs
No party can claim they’re innocent
Pair focused on hell bent
Shattered within the storms eye
What a way to continue the lie
Eroded by the sands of flaw
We hounded one another until the boar…
Waded across our open graves
Tried to claim we were braves
All that followed is on us though
This is why we need to go
Split before the great disaster
If we don’t it’ll spiral faster