Loop

And we’re back to that time of the week, story time. Its Sci-Fi, i guess. You can probably guess what the story’s about but I’ll confirm it. The idea is the protagonist is stuck in a loop. One day keeps repeating over and over. He’s trying to break that cycle. You’ll have to read to find out what happens.

It’s a Tuesday. Like any other Tuesday Mike has to get to work. His alarm woke him from a decent slumber twenty five minutes ago. He’s showered and just finishing pulling on his shirt, fastening the buttons as fast as his long fingers will allow. If he lived in a larger apartment, instead of this studio one, he might not actually be capable of leaving with enough time to spare to get to work without being late. Even so he’s cutting it close.

With his shirt buttons now fastened he grabs his keys. He doesn’t have the extra time for a slice of toast like he usually eats. So he simply checks his pockets to make sure in addition to his keys he has his wallet and swipe card. He can’t forget that. If he does they’ll be hell to pay at work. Not because he’s new and they don’t know who he is. They’ll be hell to pay just because it’s easy to kick up a stink when you work in a money exchange. He understands the need for security, but still you would think after three years his boss, Amelia, would show a little understanding. But oh no that would be entirely too easy.

He fishes the swipe card out of his pocket to complete the quick inspection. For it being the same one he was issued on his first day it’s still in remarkably good shape. Mike isn’t sure how. He would have thought with it scraping about against his keys it wouldn’t be, but he isn’t about to question it.

With everything, that is essential, about his person, Mike grabs his jacket, a dark blue colour, and quickly throws it on. Within seconds the dark shimmering blue material is covering the baby blue coloured shirt he’s chosen for today. He does a quick check in the mirror on the way out, brushing his short dark hair with his hands more out of habit than a necessity. After all, it’s too short to actually suffer the affliction of having even a single hair out of place. No stains, he concludes checking his shirt, which there shouldn’t be as it’s freshly washed and ironed.

Then like a tornado he rushes out the door, locking it behind him so that his apartment and all it’s cheap furniture, that he’s had dating back years, is secure before he jogs half-heartedly down the narrow corridor to the stairwell with its old rustic looking varnished wooden handrail. For all the nicks and gouges in its surface it is remarkably smooth as his palm rubs over it. He forces the thought out his head, determined to keep moving and so as a result begins to rapidly descend the stairs.

He could risk trying to descend two at a time, but doesn’t feel comfortable doing so in this building. In any other he might but not this one. It’s an old converted factory and due to that the stairs are not at all as uniformed as you might wish to believe them to be.

He’s seen people falter and trip because of a surety that it’ll be fine. It’s a mistake no one makes more than once. Mike had made it too when he’d first visited this building on the east side. At the time it had been all he could afford after losing his last job because the guy he reported too had it in for him. In fact, the guy had it in for a lot of people. All sorts of claims were banded about and discussed in whispers behind Antonio’s back, but no one had ever found out the truth as to why he would take what seemed to be a random dislike to someone and then bully and push them until they either quit or made a mistake that would get them canned. To make matters worse it’s not like Antonio was ever consistent. For example, when Mike first went to work in that warehouse near the docks Antonio had been friendly, even complimented and congratulated Mike for a job well done, often. Then a few months later, out of the blue, Mike became the target of Antonio’s ire. Mike hadn’t done anything. It was just like a switch had flipped in Antonio’s head and he now regarded Mike as the root cause of all issues in the warehouse during the twilight shift. Even on his days off.

That doesn’t matter now, the dark haired man with hazel eyes and a blue suit thinks, and he’s right. It really doesn’t. But from what he understands nothing has changed. After Mike split from that job Antonio found a new target. Not that he only had one while Mike had been there. He hadn’t. He’d had several. For a second time he reminds himself that this is ancient history now and on this occasion actually succeeds on moving past it, unlike his first attempt which was short-lived and fleeting.

Mike is near the ground floor. He risks taking a quick glance at his wrist, where a digital tracker come clock is fastened. The readout is vertical, hours and minutes only. He wishes it had the function to display seconds too, though he understands that he might be the only one concerned with such things.

Finally, his foot hits solid, actual ground rather than the solid storied ground of the various floors of the apartment building that had once been a factory. In truth, it had been a number of different factories throughout its life before it was converted. Mike doesn’t remember any of the details. They were important at the time, when he’d been viewing what is now his apartment. All he can say is that none of the uses it had were considered to be capable of resulting in health risks. That was all he’d been concerned about, especially as there have been a lot of horror stories regarding factories that were converted without proper cleans for hazardous material. Those as a result caused health problems for the residents that they will never get rid of. For the price he paid for his apartment, he was convinced at the time that this building would be one of those. But truth was, the owner just wanted shot of the unit. He can’t remember why on that either.

Mike steps out onto the street. There is not a cloud in the sky, he smiles at the discovery in the seconds prior to him doing a ninety degree turn to join what seems like an endless stream of pedestrians who plod down the wide sidewalk. There are so many bodies, so tightly packed together that Mike cannot see his feet. At one time that had worried him as the last thing he wanted to do was make a wrong step, trip and then barrel into a mass of people ahead of him. After years of taking this route however those fears have long since banished on all but the rarest of occasions. Well, one occasion really, when snowfall comes to the city. It’s a rarity, to put it mildly. Still, it had taken a couple months for Mike to get to a level where he didn’t feel uneasy about the journey. He isn’t too macho to admit that. At least he isn’t too macho to admit it to himself. Whether he’d admit it to anyone else he cannot say because it’s never come up in conversation. He isn’t even aware as to how it might.

The thoughts roll around slowly in his head as he follows the flow of the pedestrians around him. He’s certain that if he tried to stop he wouldn’t manage it. Rather, he would be taken by the mass around him. He imagines it would be like a bird attempting to fight against a strong wind, or a fish hoping to swim against the tide. In most instances both prove to be futile. Thankfully, Mike has no need to stop. If he wore laced shoes it might be different, but he doesn’t.

Issue management, Mike calls it. In simple terms he tries to limit the things that could negatively impact him before they happen. Wearing shoes without laces, and instead wearing slip on ones, is just one example. Still, he’ll be happy when this week is over. It’s pay week and though Tuesday has only just begun it feels like it’s been a very long week. I’ve only done one day; he says no himself before offering a half shrug. With the people around him packed so tightly performing a full shrug could result in issues, and the last thing Mike wants is to make himself any later than he already is. It’s not typical for him, but for some reason his alarm didn’t blare at the right time. Instead, it screeched into his ears at the second opportunity. Just as well he’d set that second alarm or he really would be late for work. Likely still be in bed after staying up to watch some documentary or other that he was so tired while staring at that he remembers nothing about it other than that it was set in Egypt. It might have been a history thing about the pharaohs. He can’t be sure as for some reason that doesn’t seem right and might have been a couple weeks previously.

Suddenly Mike turns and breaks away from the flowing tide of people. He’s pleased to be free of the crush, even though it isn’t quite at the point of being a crush. The street he’s on now is much quieter, but still bustling with people who mill about heading for work or the shops. It’s difficult to tell which in the city. So many people dress up to take a trip to the corner shop. He’s never understood as to why. Not that he has time to consider such things. If he was a little earlier, a couple minutes, he’d grab something. But then had he been in possession of that time he would have had toast. It isn’t a hearty or filling meal but it would have tided him over. Alas, such was not fated and so his stomach is rumbling something fierce as the lights change so that he is able to safely cross the street. He wastes no time in doing so and then turns again to break away from his newer smaller shorter lived group he moved as a part of. It means he finally has space he would call sufficient, so let’s out a sigh followed by a deep inhalation. The air gets uncomfortably hot when bodies are so close together. It isn’t helped by all the towering structures around that blot out much of the sky an keep the heat contained.

Mike may have lived in the city a long time but hasn’t the foggiest what half these buildings are. He suspects a mixture of office and residential. Yet, why they would be mixed together makes not an iota of sense to him. He continues on his way. He won’t reach a conclusion. He never does and this is a subject that returns to him on the daily and has done for… He can’t be sure. Longer than he thinks it should have but nowhere near as long as he’s been taking this walk everyday.

A couple of people, randomly dispersed among the entire spaced out mass, have open umbrellas in their hands. Mike’s brow furrows prior to him taking the chance to look up. He didn’t dare do it immediately. If he had it might have drawn attention. To no surprise the sky is clear. Always a few who have to be different, he thinks. Though, he is pleased to see he isn’t the only one who takes the time to check if rain is imminent. He smiles, to himself not at anyone in particular and then crosses another street.

He’s almost to work and by the looks from the clock on his wrist, he refuses to call it a watch because in his mind it isn’t, he’s now a couple minutes early. He really doesn’t get that but a gift horse is a gift horse, and so with another two streets crossed Mike soon arrives at work, the exchange.

At one time he’d have taken in the sight of the towering slab of glass and metal, but those days are long gone. He doesn’t see beauty in these structures anymore. All he sees are boxes. He finds that a little sad, but following a swipe of his card, a beep to grant him access and then a shove of the heavy security door, Mike is inside.

A wide smile appears suddenly across his face. It’s forced. Not because he dislikes the people he works with but because it’s a warm-up for having to do it all day. Even if some dumdum is screaming bloody murder at you and calling you every name under the sun because of a mistake they made but are too…arrogant to admit. Everyone in the exchange gets at least a couple of them during any given day, usually.

“Morning!” Mike shouts loud enough so that everyone in the exchange will be able to hear.

Most reply in kind with what he knows are forced smiles being put on show in preparation for the days shift. Still, Mike has to admit it’s a damn sight easier than working the twilight shift in a warehouse. Well, it is in his mind.

The exchange isn’t large or extravagant, yet the corporation who owns it are. They have a lavish office building at the heart of the financial district. It stretches a hundred and three stories up and comprises a block of glass which is sat atop an old sandstone building with more columns than are really necessary. Apparently, he’d learned when he got the job, their parent company, Alta, have been based out of it for over a century.

Mike doesn’t remember what Alta stands for. He knows it’s an acronym but after having secured the job he forgot near enough everything he’d researched about the exchange and its parent company. The knowledge had served its purpose and landed him the job. Using it in the future would, in his eyes, just come off as bragging.

He takes his position at one of the four customer liaison points. He rolls his eyes just thinking about the truly corporate name that the tills, as he would define them, have been given. A quick swipe of his card followed by the entry of his passcode and he’s ready for the day ahead.

He adjusts the monitor on its defiant multi-axis stand to just where he wants it; only for the monitor to edge slowly back to where it had been previously. Mike hangs his head and wishes that Alta would spend the money deserved to refit the exchange. It’s starting to look its age with the wood panelling on the walls, even if it is lightly stained, and the thick blue carpets over which things have had to be strategically placed to conceal the various stains and wear marks that are the inevitable result of prolonged daily use. After all, the exchange has a couple thousand people come through it regularly. Mostly to exchange money back from whatever currency the people of the city had used while abroad on their holidays but now have no use for being back home.

Mike can’t remember the last time he went on holiday. Something tells him it was when he was young, before adolescence. If that is right then it would have been with his parents and two brothers. They are both younger than Mike, but only by a few years. Lucas and Rydal are their names and they’re twins, non-identical ones born eleven minutes apart. Lucas never lets Rydal forget it either.

It’s been a good while since Mike has seen his brothers, or his parents. They live out west in a small town. The town Mike was born in. It’s not the town his brothers were born in however. He can’t remember the name of where they were born. He was too young when they left, maybe five. From what he understands however it was a lot like the town he was born in, which his family returned to. Suffice to say in Mike’s eyes that means small, quiet and very boring. Your prospects were the local hardware store, the bank that no one ever visited or one of the other handful of unimportant, struggling but somehow still open stores that anywhere else would have closed long ago.

“Everyone ready for the new day?” Amelia, the manager of the exchange asks from behind her thick rimmed glasses which sit halfway down her nose. Somehow she manages to neither look through or over them.

Amelia is maybe a couple years older than Mike but a lot smaller. He towers over her. Or at least he would if he weren’t perched atop a stool. The padding offers no comfort. It became pancake thin, he hates to think how long ago. Further proof this place needs some TLC. The requests have been put in, by the truck load, but the likelihood of any of them being addressed is… slim to none. That’s the honest truth of it.

In response to Amelia everyone offers their forced replies in the positive except Mike who is busy lost in thought. As a result Amelia singles him out. “Are you ready Mike?”

A forced wide smile appears across his face. “Of course I am Amelia. Today is going to be another great day.” He makes sure to keep his tone from sounding mocking, but several of his colleagues have to stifle snickers. They know full well he’s hamming it up and exaggerating positivity all just because he can.

“Good. That is what I like to hear Mike. Positivity is key. You’ll go far with it.” Amelia utters while heading for the shutter switch. She’s the only one with a key. Alta, more likely Amelia, doesn’t trust anyone else to have it. As a result Amelia never takes a day off. Not officially anyway. She works and works and works. From what Mike has gathered she has no family in this city. No husband, wife, children, nieces, nephews, anything of the like. She lives alone in a small, but bigger than Mike’s, apartment a few miles north of the exchange. No one that still works here has seen it. It’s just what the various employees have passed along as they rotated in and out over the years.

Mike is now one of the longer serving, other than Amelia that is. From the sounds of things she’s was here when they built this block in place of whatever stood here previously.

Sadly, some would probably believe Amelia’s claim that positivity will help you go far. It isn’t true. At least not at the exchange it isn’t anyway. If it was then Mike wouldn’t have put in for a senior role three times and been denied every single time. Funny thing is the position is still open. It seems no one is suitable for it. Mike wonders why it even exists in the first place if they can’t fill it due to… whatever reason they decide as to why no one is suitable for the role.

Amelia thumbs the shutter switch. In response a struggled whirring can be heard. Even the shutters need some serious help. It won’t come until they fail one day, which tells you how much Alta care for preventative maintenance and about the exchange as a whole.

“Taking bets on who gets a crazy first?” Erica, the youngest and newest member of the exchange asks. The stocky blonde with brown eyes is looking past Clara to Stuart who shrugs in response.

“Probably Mike. He’s been on a lucky streak recently. Hasn’t had a crazy in… How long is it Mike?” Clara asks without pulling her green eyes off the receding shutter. She can already spy the first customers from the knees down. They are gathered around the glass doors meant to welcome customers.

“Three days without a proper crazy.” Mike replies.

“New record?” Stuart queries without pulling his own eyes, which are also brown, from a point on the water stained false ceiling tiles above. He hopes none of the customers look up there. He also hopes that Amelia doesn’t catch him. He’s already had one warning for staring off into the distance.

“Nah. Don’t think so.” Mike and Clara reply in unison. They have both been here for a similar period of time. Mike beats her by a couple weeks but its close enough that they say they started simultaneously.

“Morning. Good morning. It’s so nice to see you again. Welcome. Yes they’re all active, pick any you like. Of course, we are always here to help.” Are just some of the pleasantries Amelia offers as the customers begin to shuffle in.

“Brace.” Erica blurts with a dry smile before having to quickly transition to her forced one as a customer steps close and begins to ramble on about their life’s story. The one none of the four serving as customer liaison have asked for but are relentlessly offered without any option.

You Won’t Break Me

Call me scum or some similar thing
Do you really think I’m listening?
Just a voice in the ocean
Filled with spite and a dose of poison
No reason to take your words to heart
If I did that I’d have fallen apart

Get a life
Get a clue
Get whatever you want me to

Hurl heavy objects at my head
You’re feeding my resistant thread
Adding fuel to the fire
It makes me burn with greater desire
A will never to break down and fail
You shall see how much I will prevail

Get a life
Get a clue
Get whatever you want me to

Sweep your leg right across mine
Proof of just how you aren’t kind
Just want me to look the fool
Every ounce of you is dark and cruel
But worry not I’ll ignore your face
Welcomed by the world warm embrace

Get a life
Get a clue
Get whatever you want me to

But that is not my way
That is who you wish me to be
I refuse and I won’t budge
You are not a worthy judge
Just a soul who lost his way
Sick of how you try to be
Something more just for show
Bully with a lack of know

Get a life
Get a clue
Get whatever I want me to

Get a life
Get a clue
Get the hell away from you

Pictured Imperfect

Picture of heresy
The one I keep close to me
Free thinking with free thought
A long way from my last resort
Unbridled vision of sad to see
Shattered wings carried new disease
Hunting wild with a savage eye
Candies meant to wave goodbye
Rising waters will soon claim
The victims unable to exclaim
Whirring tones of sullied moon
The dead will be your forever tomb
Pass the cause to the young
Fractured victories are done
With a wave of the hand
This existence will crash to land
Torn from the heart of stone
Before long you will be bone
So as I stand above the haze
Remember the days turned from blue to shade

Real Disease

Disease ridden locusts called humanity
Do you really think we have superiority?
Burning all we can until there is only ash
Sickening state that we try and crash
Hide it deep beneath the bloody walls
Sad to say you can still hear the crying fools
We’re all guilty but you won’t agree
Too busy calling for another shot of insanity

As apathy grows to a whole new level
Its beyond clear that we’re the devil
No soul left in our blackened hearts
Doomed to repeat our saddest parts
But don’t try and claim that its all lies
At least I’m willing to accept the prize
You’re all too caught up in your tiny views
To see the reality that we’ll soon lose

A Long Time Coming

You’ve reached a point where I couldn’t care less
That is why I will simply wish you the best
I could hold a grudge and keep this bitter pill
But that would only be what you want me to feel

Those days are gone and are not coming back
From here on out it’ll be me on my own track

Said some things of which I’m not proud
But don’t pretend you didn’t whip up a crowd
The guilt is shared and that you should accept
Don’t think that we will ever interject

Those days are gone and are not coming back
From here on out it’ll be me on my own track

If we’d carried on like we’d always done
I would have been drinking with the rising sun
Neither of us could say we wanted to remain
Every second was a mountain of unrelenting pain

Those days are gone and are not coming back
From here on out it’ll be me on my own track

I’m not saying that it was just me or you
We were both a part of that angry spew
Two souls who needed to get to growing up
Who just couldn’t carry on with that setup

Those days are gone and are not coming back
From here on out it’ll be me on my own track

The Road Home

Hi! This weeks story is very different. Not only is it fantasy (OK that isn’t so unusual as the last few weeks have been fantasy too) but also it is not some grand scale tale about saving the world, a species or anything else of the like. Instead, its a simple story in which the main character is trying to get home. As well this one is different because there is no violence, blood, or anything else untoward that happens. The only other things I have to say is that its about 7,100 words long and I hope you like it.

Brennan stirs from his slumber. His eyes remain gently closed though he begins to become aware of his surroundings. The first thing which dawns on him is the sweet multilayered chirping songs of nearby birds. It brings forth a smile to his face as he mimics the tune silently in his own head. Bird song has always brought the woodland dwarf a great deal of comfort.

Before long he becomes conscious of warmth on his skin. It sends a tingle rippling throughout his body. Several moments of consideration lead him to conclude that it must be the sun beating down on him. There is nothing like the warm glow of the ball of yellow fire as it looms high above to brighten everyone’s day. He wonders how his cousins the subterranean dwarves, the most common branch of the family tree, deal with being unable to awaken to such. He does not know. He could never do it. And yet his subterranean cousins are the ones every other species of the world, the humans, elves, giants, ogres, and so forth all know. Few, so Brennan has been told, are aware of woodland dwarves. He can’t say as to how true that is truth be told.

Still, he basks, eyes barely closed, in the sun until he realises that he cannot be in his bed. If he is then it has become most uncomfortable, hard and knobbly. His brow furrows while he attempts to consider what he might be pressed against. A short time passes prior to him determining that he must be pressed against whatever this hard surface is because he is propped up, sitting and not laying down. That confuses him further and so he slowly opens one of his eyes. At first he sees nothing except blinding light. It doesn’t hurt. It would have had he risked throwing both eyes open upon his initial rousing from sleep, but he hadn’t. Rather, he has become accustomed to the light as it shone through his eyelids. Many years ago when he had been quite young he’d learned that his eyelids are not as thick as he might have considered them to be. It was quite an amazing revelation to come across; at least it had been to him.

With the brilliance overcome Brennan rolls his one open eye about. Left to right, up and down, diagonally this way and that assessing what is within view and immediately surrounding him. His discovery is that he is wedged, side on with his shoulder and accompanying flank into the thick trunk of an old gnarled grey barked tree. It’s not one he recognises, but then does he know every tree in woodland dwarves home of Horheim? He doubts it quite seriously. Even if he were in his third age he doubts he would contain such knowledge. He isn’t. He’s far from being in his third age. In fact, he is still very much in his first age. Like all woodland dwarves not in their third and last age he is distinctive from his subterranean cousins due to his lack of facial hair. Woodland dwarves see no reason for the facial fuzz. It’s time consuming to keep clean and maintain. Plus often gets in the way at the worst possible moments. But worst of all it makes you hot, unbearably so. Especially, when undertaking manual labour under the hot rays of the summer sun where shade is at a premium and lasts far shorter than any in Horheim think is appropriate.

He wouldn’t trade any of it for being bearded and stuck below the surface of the world however. There is no beauty down there, not in his eyes. That is not to say his cousins cannot forge beauty, they surely can, but still it’s not the same. The surface is beauty. Everywhere you look there is a unique tree, stream, meadow, wood, rock formation. It’s proof, in his eyes, that the diversity of the surface will never be matched without outside interference, such as that of the subterranean dwarves. The name is one only the woodland variant use and though longwinded is certainly suitable. Still, none of that is of concern now.

Brennan peels open his other eye; they are both a deep brown colour, like wet mud. To a dwarf from the woods saying such would be considered a compliment most sublime. Nevertheless, it doesn’t change his surroundings, a wide open meadow filled with tall grasses broken up only by the occasional seemingly random gaggle of pretty vibrant flowers. He recognises them all and so he should. If he didn’t his kin would be most displeased. And with that he runs through the names of each; daisies, tulips, crocuses, daffodils, alliums and irises. He can’t smell their sweet scents and that saddens him. A soft cooling breeze glides past rustling the leaves overhead. In that instant he understands why the flowers odours do not greet his nostrils. The breeze is forcing the smells away from him. It brightens him a little to know that for he had feared that perhaps his nose had suffered, while sleeping, some issue that might have rendered him incapable of sniffing such aromas.

The dwarf having formed an answer to his concern continues to gaze on his surroundings for a time before realising his intent was not to survey the beauty of this place. Rather, he is supposed to be discerning as to where it is that he is sat. With that a sudden burst of discomfort shoots up his side reminding him that he is pressed against a ferociously knobbly tree. He feels inclined to move and so does exactly that, pushing off against the rough bark to clamber back to his feet. As he does so however he feels a whir in his head and goes a tad dizzy. He halts his efforts immediately to consider what is happening but just as he does so the feeling passes enough for him to no longer hold fear that he might go head over heels.

Odd, Brennan thinks taking in a slow couple of deep breaths of the fresh spring air. Each is soothing, though do little to ease the dull ache he is now incredibly aware of in his skull. He frowns irritated in response to it while considering as what might be the cause. He hasn’t the foggiest. Should that worry me? He shrugs, unsure. If he were in his third and final age it most definitely would but he’s still young, for a dwarf, at almost fifty. His hand, absentmindedly, strokes at the stubble around his jaw line, his chin wide and square. Chiselled would be the best description, but such a characteristic is unremarkable for a dwarf no matter the family branch.

Brennan dares to take a step forward. To his relief his legs hold and his head does not spin. To be honest he did not believe that they would. Especially after the dizzy spell that he was sure would put him back on the ground. It wouldn’t have been painful. At least it wouldn’t have for very long. A short burst of pain followed by several minutes of a dull throb. Brennan has suffered a great deal worse in his life as a carpenter. Sadly, with his third step he trips. His arms flail high and wide as he desperately fights to keep his balance and stay on his feet. A number of stumbles, that see him cross almost a metre, and somehow Brennan manages to stay upright. He sighs relieved. After all, falling face first into a patch of thick hard dry dirt around the base of a substantial tree that has thick long dark green leaves would not have resulted in a short period of discomfort like him landing on his backside. No, instead it might have resulted in some serious damage. He already has a chipped tooth after one particular incident when he’d been young. He can recall the pain he felt to this day and does not wish to repeat such an event ever again in his life, he must say.

Not that it matters because Brennan managed to stay on his feet. Danger averted, he thinks in the moments before he does a slow turn, no longer trusting his legs, to see what it might have been that caused him to trip. Immediately the woodland dwarf spies the culprit, a mead jug, cork popped as it sits at a lazy angle. Brennan sighs disappointed that someone would leave it here. However, on closer inspection it strikes him that this jug is of decidedly dwarven design. He gulps and moves closer. It can’t be, he tells himself but after less than a minute of study it is undoubtedly so. He shrinks but shows no hesitation as he takes a hold of the narrow necked jug and hauls it effortlessly off the ground. To no surprise it is empty, which is why with deft ease Brennan is able to flip the jug over and examine the base. He already expects he knows what he will find and is soon proved correct. His initials, BM, are carved into the base. He sighs and allows the jug to flop out of one hand, still held by the long handle in the other, so that the jug swings down to rock back and forth a good half metre off the ground. Soon after Brennan begins to bite his lip, the inner edge of it to be exact, not the outside like most others do. He does this whenever he is deep in contemplation. During his thinking he asks himself why he is taking so long to consider what has happened because he already knows. After all, it’s not uncommon for dwarves, of any origin, to overindulge and then wander about aimlessly while as drunk as a skunk. And that is exactly what Brennan has done to end up where he now stands. The only question is where is he? He spins about on the spot, his eyes carefully searching. However, after three revolutions he not only feels a little dizzy, likely caused in part by the mead he ingested the night before and mostly as a result of spinning about on the spot, but also can confidently say the terrain is not familiar. That’s a worry, he thinks prior to shaking himself out of this mood he has gotten into. It’s not helpful or conducive to any kind of progress that should be made. It’s purely procrastination, plain and simple. He quickly moves on and concludes that his only real course of action will be to pick a direction and head in it in hopes of finding someone who might be capable of pointing him toward home. How likely is that? For a second time since waking he shrugs. No response is offered, not that he expected it would be as he hauls the empty mead jug over his shoulder and fastens it to a knot on the sash that runs across one of his shoulders. Following that he retrieves the discarded cork stop, looks around one last time and then heads off to what would have been his left had he still been propped against the tree.

Variations

I beg for you and you beg for me
Are we that much different really?
Both are right and jointly wrong
Just as we prevail and fail to be strong
Reflections in a non-existant mirror
Reality couldn’t be much clearer
It’s like we are some type of clone
The pair of us even use the same tone

Am I talking to you or you to me?
This has all become so contemporary
We are not related by a single thread
Just facsimiles even in the head
What I think you do too
Or maybe that’s how it is for you
Neither sure how we came to be
The universe is so contradictory

You pray for me but I don’t for you
Maybe there is a difference or two
Devout to the heavens while I refuse
I have never found God to be a muse
It’s a line that neither of us will cross
A point from which there will be no loss
So lets re-evaluate our previous claims
Seems we differ in more than just names

All The Same

No one is innocent
Every one is to blame
We all stand by and watch
And only speak when we feel shame

What a state of madness
How can we remain?
Humanity is so shattered
We refuse to change

Spiralling to disaster
Rotting at the core
Guilty by association
We all have failed once more

Choosing just what suits
Refusing to admit
What a fake reflection
The cycle still exists

Singular

What the fuck is wrong with you?
I scream into the night
Your personality has shifted
Words dripping with spite

Looking for a pointless war
Won’t listen anymore
Chip upon your shoulder
Supposed to be getting older

Lost your personality and sense
Is this supposed to be recompense?
Or any you stuck on revenge?
What a soul destroying trend

Burning bridges with no remorse
Think before you run the course
Antagonising just for fun
Strange web to have spun

Seeking rage where none should lie
Is this some kind of desperate cry?
If it is then just ask to talk
Otherwise I’m happy you took a walk

But no ill will comes from me
I will continue to be happy
Tread this path that I chose
Good luck, I hope you don’t lose

Acts, Empires & Systems

Act of betrayal
Refuse to entail
Suspect of power
Residing in the tower
Watch from on high
Affairs in which to pry
This is how it goes
Sick of all the throes

Empire of flame
Shifting all the blame
Corrupt to the core
History of gore
Turn the land to ash
Survivors face the lash
What atrocity
Subverted reciprocity

System of fail
Expunging all the frail
Burn it the ground
Make sure nothings found
What a vile crime
No hint of sublime
What remains is fear
Future’s become so unclear