Wings Of Sacrifice

Back again for another story. This week I have another fantasy tale. Trying to do more of them to give myself a break from the Sci-Fi. I love writing Sci-Fi but sometimes its nice to do something different. Anyway, this week its about dragons and their intent to survive. Not going to say much more than that as I don’t want to give much away but I will let you know that it’s about 9,800 words long and I hope you enjoy it!

Salazar is soaring high over the world that is hidden beneath thick cloud cover when suddenly he pitches forward into a steep dive. He’s headed toward a plateau that is carved near the twin summit of Mount Vitruvius.

His twenty metre wings are no longer stretched wide on either side of his body. Rather, they are now folded back. Not like they would be if he were on solid ground but instead into a shape that is akin to that of a cape, and flutter as he descends. His eyes, large and amber in colour, are fixed on the outset of the plateau before which there is only empty air and a life ending drop. His mighty jaws barely parted as air flows around him while he cuts through it like an arrow. Then the plateau is upon him. He twists his body using his black scaled mass in conjunction with his wings to serve as an airbrake. It would be a magnificent sight if anyone other than other Firstforms, who are awaiting his arrival, were there to see it.

They are already on the plateau waiting patiently for him to join them. This day has been planned for a very long time but that did not mean he was not going to arrive first. He has a reputation to uphold. Salazar casts the thoughts from his head. He can consider and contemplate such things once he’s on solid ground.

His air braking makes it appear as though he has stopped in mid-air due to the drastic and almost instantaneous deceleration. But with the excess speed shed the mighty Firstform, which in layman’s terms is the name of the original dragons, unfurls his enormous black wings fully, beats them thrice and then extends his hind legs. They make contact. Salazar however does not dig his razor sharp talons into the dirt and rock beneath them. Rather, he takes several steps and then lets his front legs meet ground. A hop comes prior to a few steps and then Salazar grinds to a graceful controlled halt.

The black dragon casts his head around. Something akin to a smile slips across his long snouted face even as he shifts, his size shrinking down as his features twist and alter until finally he resembles a man. Nevertheless, his eyes are still amber in colour but that is all that connects Salazar in his dragon form to Salazar Winart, the human alter ego. At one time his name had been Salazar Windheart, but over the countless centuries names change, his included. Salazar has bore witness to it countless times and no one is guiltier of this change than man. They are forever changing the world, often not for the better. At least not in the eyes of a being like Salazar who has watched great swaths of the world burn as a result of the endless string of wars man has waged against every little detail they are not enamoured with. Sadly, that is most things as it seems man frequently grows bored of what surrounds it and as a result wishes to force change, ill conceived or planned. At one time that had been the Firstforms. It’s why there are so few left and all of those that are will be here on Mount Vitruvius today to witness him, and them, become the most powerful beings the world has ever known. It’s a plot centuries in the making. But this time nothing will get in Salazar’s way. He’s, they, have all waited long enough.

Salazar strides forward, his long dark robe which is a representation of his black scales hides his feet making it seem as though he is gliding, heading toward a trio of his kind. He can’t call them his kin. He has no kin. He isn’t the oldest Firstform, but these specimens, bar one, are far younger than he.

Those descended from the Firstforms, none of which are present here today, all lack a crucial gift and in truth is the reason for their absence. You see, the generations of dragons that have followed are incapable of altering their forms. Salazar himself has no progeny. There are many reasons for that. One is man. Another is the genetic failings of the progeny to achieve such, in his eyes, simple of tasks, the ability to shift shape. After all, why would he wish to bring life into this world that is not perfection? The truth is he does not. If his spawn and theirs cannot achieve the feats he is capable of then there is no reason in birthing them in the first instance. It’s not an uncommon opinion among the Firstforms, at least those that still live upon this world, that is.

“Lord Salazar, it’s been a good while since we last stood in the same space.” Parfin, a Firstform with thick curly shoulder length brown hair and a set of ice blue eyes comments upon Salazar’s approach.

Salazar by comparison has short black hair, shaved down the sides and back to almost bear skin and unlike Parfin and those around him does not dress in finery. He abhors it, though does not go so far as to judge his kind for partaking in it. He too did at one time. That was long ago, when he’d been… younger. He cannot say young for he is so many centuries old that he has lost count and to call himself young as a result would seem dishonest somehow even if it may not be. Curious, he thinks before moving on.

To Salazar’s knowledge no Firstform has ever died of old age. That affords them more comfort than perhaps many would suspect. After all, when death is not an affliction that can occur naturally you can be certain you are not afflicted by the insecurities it tends to bring. In his mind that is the issue man suffers from. They know their lives are finite. Incredibly so it seems, and that is why as a result they seem desperate, each and every one of them, to leave a mark upon this world that can be attributed to them. Unfortunately, each mark appears as though it is the property of he or she who birthed it and so when they pass so does that idea. Many a time Salazar has considered that this might be the cause of man’s chaos and yet it doesn’t seem to be the totality of it. There are other influences. Man calls them demons, devils, evil spirits. Salazar calls them excuses.

“Parfin, it has indeed.” Salazar replies forcing a smile across his thin red lips. Unlike his counterparts Salazar is far from pale. In his opinion each of the trio gathered before him looks sickly. He knows they are not and yet he cannot imagine that there pale complexions do not draw unwanted attention from humans. They are a curious sort; suspicious seems more accurate.

“We did not think this day would ever come.” One of the other Firstforms says with a mildly cocked head of red hair and a set of fire green eyes.

Salazar does not know this Firstforms name. They may have met previously but he does not recall them. He if were not certain that the ‘man’ before him was a Firstform he would already be dead. Thankfully, Firstforms can smell their own and this ‘man’ smells of Salazar’s kind. He doubts humans are aware Firstforms are capable of such things while he replies, “And why is that?” His tone is soft. He imagines a human would sound outraged due to them being thin skinned and quick to anger.

“Silence Varill, you do our host a disservice.” The other Firstform mutters. Salazar also is unaware of their name. However, it is clear he hopes that this Varill will not be heard by the other groups gathered around them, each of which is in awe as they stand dotted about on the plateau.

It is only these three who have dared to accost Salazar. He isn’t the leader of his kind, though he is considered the strongest, smartest and most resourceful. Part of that he knows is due to his escape from the hunts which lasted for and ended centuries ago. They were back when man had been determined to rid the world of what it considered to be the cause of their misfortunes. Foolish, the lot of them and yet it fit so perfectly with their simple view of the world that it hurt not to have foreseen that such a day would come. Hindsight is useless, Salazar reminds himself.

“No, let him speak his mind. We are not like man. All are welcome to voice their opinions. None will be slaughtered for their beliefs.” Salazar says with a sly smile across his lips, his amber eyes staring into Varill’s with ever increasing intensity.

“Man is on the hunt once more. They wish to rid the world of all they do not understand or agree with.” Varill stops for a little more than a second, yet not as much as two before continuing. “Dwarves have sealed their mines. Elves have disappeared across the tear with the faeries, hobgoblins and pixies to the realm of the Fae. We are all that remain now and so man is…”

“Man is not what you fear it to be. They are fickle, weak and easily fooled.” Salazar cuts in to stop Varill droning on anymore than he already has. If he is allowed to continue he might create panic. His words shouldn’t. They are all Firstforms here. They have all lived through this age of man. Seen its nature and yet the more time that has passed the more like those they live among the Firstforms have become. Salazar is uneasy because of it, the corruption of man’s mortality having twisted the once formidable might of his species to scared old relics desperate to hang onto a world they are convinced wants rid of them. If that were true they would already be gone.

“But Lord your mate, she… You must understand our…” Parfin begins. His eyes averted because he knows he is treading on failing ground and fears what words taken the wrong way could result in.

In response, Salazar sneers as a short, quiet growl leaks from between his teeth. Parfin almost jumps out of his skin and yet the growl is not a warning. Instead, it is Salazar unable to contain the disappointment he feels at hearing a fellow Firstform, one older than he, acting in this manner, a human manner. And that is the problem, this actions and interaction is far too much like a human, Salazar thinks. Soon after the black dragon in human form lets out a long exhale through his nose only to brush casually at his robe as it debris needs to be shed.

“I meant no disrespect lord.” Parfin quickly adds.

Again Salazar, the black trimmed Firstform, feels disappointment. At one time his responses to another of his species would have been seen as a call for challenge. A duel between a pair of magnificent beasts, to see who should speak what and would should stay mute. Those days are long gone and Salazar misses them more than perhaps he feels he should. He wonders if any of these Firstforms ever shift back into their principle forms. Something tells him they do not. Not a one of them and that is… He gives up on the train of thought. It isn’t worth continuing consideration, which is why he throws his arms toward the sky creating a v-shape and exclaims, “Today is not a day for quarrels or doubts. Today is a day for ascension.” His voice is loud, not meant for the trio gathered closest to him but for all of his kind on the plateau. Some must still hold a semblance of what they had all once been. Salazar cannot be the only one, or that is at least what he hopes.

The response he is met with our cheers. They erupt from all around. That gives him some confidence. However, not everyone partakes. It is to be expected. Salazar does note that Varill is among those unwilling to rejoice. He expected nothing else of the younger Firstform who likely cannot recall the rituals which their species used to partake in.

What will happen today shall be one of those rituals you do not recall, Salazar thinks. Well, it will be similar to one of those. In truth, he cannot recall any previous use of this particular act. It does not surprise him to discern that. From what he has transcribed from the ancient murals, this long since forgotten by all but a few practice was only performed twice before. This was back in the age of dragons. Long before the time of man, in an age when the winged lizards had ruled over all others forms of life. If only it could have remained as such. Salazar was born long after that. Parfin might not have been, though he cannot be sure as to say with confidence that that would be true. If it is it makes his plummet to the depths he now appears to occupy all the more tragic.

“We have waited seven centuries for this encroaching; the day when the three worlds will be at their closest. And on this day we will ascend. Take our place as the pinnacle of life and with that power return this world, our world, to peace. End the tyranny and violence of man. Give them a place all of their own beyond the reaches of our soon to be, once more, bountiful shores.” Salazar’s voice is filled with conviction. He really does believe the words that he is speaking. He even feels them resonating in his chest. They beat like a second heart, stronger than his actual solitary one. This determination is what has kept him going throughout it all.

It seems he isn’t the only one who is roused by these words, his words, as a much louder round of cheers, than the last, erupts in response to his speech. It is entirely improvised. He had held no intention of giving such a performance. It is what he would define it as. Not because it is manufactured in any way. It is not one iota that. It comes from the heart and he can feel the energy of those around him joining his own and wonders how it will compare to ascension. He will be the first but all his brothers and sisters will follow, even Varill and Parfin. They may not appear deserving but with the power that shall be bestowed upon them, according to what Salazar has pieced together, all that could very well change. Perhaps it might restore the old Parfin to his former self. If anything can, then it will be this ritual that is capable of achieving such a feat. And with it done the Firstforms will never again be forced to live for decades and centuries in forms that are not their truest.

“Then come brothers and sisters. Jon me in climbing to the altar which stands the shadow of the twin peaks carved by our world.” Are Salazar’s final words before breaking from his static position and beginning to surge, quite literally, forward as he heads up the muddy pathway.

His goal, their goal, is some hundred metres from the plateau. Not where it begins but where Salazar had come to a halt and been accosted by the trio. The ground beneath his bare feet is soft and shifts with every step he takes. He would be foolish to have not noticed how many of his species have their feet bound in what man dubs shoes. It saddens him to have noticed that but does help to secure his belief that most did not dare to return to their truest self to venture to this place. That will change soon, he thinks without slowing his trudge up the steep incline. On either side of the mud path there are brown shrubs. They look frostbitten and dead but something about them tells him they are not at all without life. A kind of energy, he would call it, seems to be emanating from them. And it’s a remarkably strong one at that.

All Firstforms can feel life. It is but one of the many gifts that are inherent to them. He wonders if dragons, those incapable of shifting, possess such a trait too. He has never conversed with one, though they are perfectly capable of speech. He is likely alone in having not, much like he is alone in not having ever partaken in the creation of progeny. Had his mate survived the hunt things would likely have been different. Salazar still misses terribly and often recalls his time with his dear Sinita. Anger boils up inside him at the mere thought of her name. It should be directed toward man, for it is they who were the cause, but it is not. The anger is directed towards himself, for his failure. You see in his mind he should have been able to save her. He could have saved her, he thinks, and that weighs heavily upon him.

In truth Salazar could not have saved Sinita. If he’d have tried more than he had he too would have been carved and butchered. Had that come to pass the Firstforms would almost certainly no longer exist. After all, it was Salazar who alerted the rest of his species to man’s attack. Yet, to this day he has not been able to decipher as to how man had got so close without detection. In the aftermath of that attack, the first of many, it had been insinuated that there was a traitor amongst them. It seemed mad, ridiculous, impossible. Salazar was considered above reproach in large part due to the sacrifice he made which saved the rest of his species. Still, to this day he cannot confidently say if a traitor had been the cause or not. It’s one of the few things Salazar thinks that he does not ever wish to possess an answer to. For a Firstform that is highly irregular to the point as being nearly unheard of. However, in this instance he feels no matter what the answer might be it would only leave him with more questions. Thankfully, other elder Firstforms had felt the same. Salazar doesn’t think any of them are here now. In fact, Parfin might be the eldest member of their entire species now. That is a sad thought and reality to be faced with and so Salazar does not consider it any further. Rather, he pushes such thoughts from his mind, instead taking in the world around him. The snow sprinkled rocks jutting high above his head as he and the other Firstforms continue their climb up toward the ritual sight. If they were attacked in this gully it would be a massacre with how narrow the crack between the vertical sides is. Stop dwelling on such things, he tells himself as dozens of conversations are indulged in behind him. It’s a distraction, he replies. From what, is the query he offers himself. From the ritual. You fear it? I… I don’t know. The answer he gives to himself is an honest one but not something he would ever admit to any of those following behind him. He is fully aware that they regard him like some deity. He does not understand why and never asked for it either. He simply wishes Firstforms to be free and this is the gateway, the only one he has found over the centuries, capable of achieving that.

In truth, he isn’t sure exactly what will transpire as a result of this ritual. There are no texts detailing the aftermath once performed. In fact, all it says is that this ritual will ascend those who partake and fix that which has been broken. Cryptic, perhaps to the point of worrying and yet it is all his significant study has rewarded with.

Suddenly the towering walls of rock on either side of the mud path bordered with brown shrubs that in places have managed to stretch up numerous metres as though they are trees, fall away to reveal a clearing. It’s a wide circle, closer to being oval to be honest. Around its perimeter are trees, evergreen, that lance toward the sky but which are foreshadowed by the rocks that form their background. The tree roots are blanketed by thick tangles of dark green vines in addition to a sea of grey moss and patches of grass that are far shorter than you would think they should be for a place that is in no way tended to by any living being.

Salazar stands staring at the clearing. It’s beautiful. He wishes the whole world was still like this. He barely remembers a time when it was. Since then, man has twisted and polluted it. They have erected forts, castles, high walls of stone and some of wood, villages, towns, sprawling cities with coastal docks into which they pour filth and detritus. Salazar recalls when the air had been clean. Much of it is not now, except it seems for up here near the summit of Mount Vitruvius. He inhales deeply; this is the second such inhalation since reaching the clearing, and as he does so he tastes the unfettered air blessing his lungs. It’s cool but not in a manner which indicates he is up high in the skies of the world. He’d forgotten what it was like to be in a place as pristine as this. It seems everywhere else the skies are choked with thick acrid smoke that stink of death and sweat. That mixed odour lingers long after the burning fires made up of the bodies of the dead have been broken down into charred piles of black cinder.

The other Firstforms continue past Salazar to begin forming into a wide ring that doesn’t quite complete due to the presence of the altar, which are formed from a pile of massive rocks sat in the shadow of the twin peaks. It is said long ago that the twin peaks had at one time been a single point but that a mighty force storm had rained down lightning until the peak had detonated. Those chunks were, under the force of the detonation, sent hurling across the skies creating the life that now inhabits this world. It is only a story. Salazar remembers it well. From when he’d been a hatchling. He was born from the great mother, not another Firstform. Their eggs seemingly willed into being beneath the luminous Drake Canopy. The tree is long gone now. It was burned by man. Their violence and desecration knowing no bounds was proven to the Firstforms on that day. It had been a hard lesson and perhaps the cause as to why no Firstform progeny possessed the shifting capability. Not that there is any way of knowing now. Salazar can only imagine what became of the ashes of the Drake Canopy.

In Your Closet, Under Your Bed, Don’t Be Sure It’s In Your Head

Darkness creeping everywhere
As your foot touches the stair
Screeching raw that chills the bone
This place is not a safe home
A monster lurks within its walls
Unnerving as it makes its calls
Still you dare to take a step
The next one might not come next
You feel the sweat bead off your head
Fear that you might soon be dead
But no sounds of movement can you hear
It’s like it just wants you to fear
Have dread and freeze in place
If only you had a mace
A weapon with which to wield
Strike against it’s meaty shield
But you are just a little one
Praying that you won’t succumb
Because the demon will not die
All it does is leave for a retry
But now you’ve left the creaking stairs
You still feel the itching there
Usually it would fade away
Apparently not this day
The switch lies across the black
Convinced if you tread it you won’t come back
So edge toward your planned goal
The kitchen and it’s inviting soul
The place where all the food does lay
But you want none of that today
Instead a drink is all you crave
That’s if you don’t end up in a grave
Then the sound does roar once more
Your heart answers with a score
The rapid thumps beneath your chest
Suddenly you feel its breath
Without warning it grabs your vest
Maybe you should not have dressed
Besides the point as you are wrenched…
Off your feet that were entrenched
A scream escapes to your surprise
No one will now hear your cries

Whole Hole

Another hole six feet deep
I’ve forgotten how many it is this week
With calloused hands and weary bones
These people should not have died alone

Failed by every system
It all stems from a lack of quick decision
Instead it was just bitch and moan
Then pretend that it won’t come home

What a sad state of fact
When we have to admit how much we lack
But we were not the ones in charge
Those characters are still at large

Still my body is numb
I’m sick of counting from dawn ’til done
While hands shake from fear
And bodies are treated like gear

Single grave for every soul
Only applies when you have the dough
That is why are heads are low
We pay respect to those we know

Dig again into the mud
Parent, child, friend or love
Fractured by the sudden loss
Another precious life was crossed

Life All

Serpent gates upon an open wound
Headless doll of a weeping fool
Lost in the void just for a game
What is the score? Well its always the same
You can’t win if you do as they say
So stop aiming for the end of the day

Life calls, why are you crying?
Life falls, no time for lying
Life breathes, now rebuild from tragedy
Cause without fuel you will be trapped in misery

Staged scriptures with a shallow lie
Ruptured texts are your long goodbye
Fixed gaze is just a waste of your time
So change the channel before the night ride
If you don’t it’ll end in cast aside
And then you’ll drown in your pride

Life calls, why are you crying?
Life falls, no time for lying
Life breathes, now rebuild from tragedy
Cause without fuel you will be trapped in misery

Figurative Ravine

Imperfection is the direction
Much more will breed infection
Build a castle but fail to see
No one can be better than mortality
We’re all the same from birth til death
No point in creating more mess

Just fuel the good and remove the cruel
One and all should be our goal
But obstacles keep getting created
It’s like each of us wants to be baited
Hooked on a line to be carved
Soon all that remains will be halved

Decaying like radiation
Personal entity annihilation
So why not try to change the route?
Before we get given the final boot
Wouldn’t that surely aid us?
Instead of adding to the faithless

Fractured stares across the gap
At this rate they’ll be no way back
What a descent to consider
Timeline where we’re all bitter
Cause what is done cannot be changed
And right now we’re going down the drain

Grinding Dirt

Story time! This week it’s a fantasy tale about a mage who is stuck in a city. Wanted to keep it short and in truth there isn’t much focus on magic. To a point that was intended. However, it is open enough that I could revisit this world and these characters in the future. Have to see. I make no promises. Depends on whether a story comes to me that I think fits and is worth telling. Regardless, I hope you enjoy Grinding Dirt!

Eric Farnmouth, a mage of considerable renown, slips into one of the many taverns that stand within the defensive walls of Parnem City. He does his best to keep a low profile as he slinks across the bustling interior of the tavern to a small round wooden table stuffed into a far corner of the room. The light levels are low there. He hopes that will help conceal him and the colourful robes he always wears. He regrets adorning himself in turquoise, gold and white now, not that there is much he can do about it. Even if he changed he’d be recognised eventually. Such is the curse of being renowned no matter where you go in the fifteen kingdoms. Still, he could do without his reputation at this moment in Parnem.

Parnem is a port city that is nestled against the coastline on the Henson Sea. It’s an inland sea and as such suffers very infrequently from any considerable tidal shifts. That makes it perfect for the trafficking of goods, which is why Parnem, being on the northern bank is such an active place. Not active enough to allow him to slip out of it’s currently barred and guarded confines as it is currently in the middle of a lockdown following a series of high-profile murders. What is especially troubling is that it has since been revealed, quite bluntly, that the culprit is almost certainly using magic to complete their murderous aims.

Eric, now sat on the rickety wooden chair, dips his head low. The wide brimmed dark blue hat that is perched atop his head helps to obscure his face in shadow. He nervously fidgets unsure as to whether he should risk placing an order, even if it is as benign as a jug of water. He settles, after a problematic back and forth with himself, that it is not worth the risk. If the tavern with its wooden walls adorned with hunting trophies, wall mounted candelabras and stained well worn floor were less busy it would perhaps be different. Yet, with him being devoid of any drink it might open him up to suggestions he vacate in favour of paying patrons. He shoves such possibilities aside, knowing full well that if he continues to dwell on them he might send himself into a useless panic. That is the last thing he needs at a time like this.

“What can I get you?” A soft female voice chimes loudly, managing to cut through the chatter from the patrons as they converse.

Eric at first ignores the question. It surprises him he can hear it so effortlessly and would under normal circumstances cast his gaze around to search out the source of its origin. Right now, he doesn’t feel willing or capable of either, especially as the query is definitely not meant for him, he is sure.

“Excuse me, what can I get you?” The soft female voice says again. The tone carries a small pang of irritation but is not the reason as to why Eric almost leaps out of his seat in fright. That is the result of a hand glancing across his shoulder. It was meant to get his attention and has definitely succeeded, but the mage had not been expecting it one bit.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you.” Eric hears a few seconds before overcoming his fright and angling his head just enough to get an eyeful of a young woman with short blonde hair and a pair of hazel eyes. She is dressed in a typical servers dress, stained by all the spillages. Most are likely the result of careless patrons unable to understand that they are far more drunk than they may wish to admit. Still, her smile is sweet and comforting Eric must admit now that he is aware she had been attempting to get his attention.

“It’s alright. My own fault. I was lost to thought.” Eric replies hurriedly. He doesn’t want this barmaid to think him odd or rude. Well, any more than she might already following him having ignored her and then jolted sharply at the lightest of touches. He can only imagine what must be going through her head, but to be truthful he was completely unaware that she was attempting to converse with him. He was sure she had been speaking to another. He can’t say why. It is just what he thought, assumed. He laughs in his head as he is reminded of what assuming something usually means for the one who is doing the assuming. Assumor? He is sure if that’s right. It feels both correct and incorrect simultaneously. What does it matter?

“You wouldn’t be the first.” The barmaid utters while firing off another warm smile that is meant to give Eric reassurance. It works. That surprises him, especially considering with how on edge he is about maintaining a low profile. That includes the panic he felt getting here, to this seat, which has now been forgotten, for better or for worse.

“Would you like anything?” The barmaid asks with a slight cocking of her head to one side. The look in her eyes suggests she recognises Eric but can’t quite determine as to why.

It’s a look the mage has seen a million times. He hopes it doesn’t dawn on her quickly who he is. He expects it will but he feels he should keep hoping nonetheless. Doing so will bring no harm. Being discovered on the other hand might. Not because the authorities have shown any interest in apprehending him for questioning, like they have so many other actual and suspected magic users. Rather, it stands to reason that sooner or later they will want to speak with him for no other reason than due to who he is. That will be especially true if, more likely when, they find out Eric Farnmouth arrived in Parnem City only a few days prior to the first murder. Even he has to admit that looks bad. Not that he was aware of what was going to transpire. People pass through Parnem all the time. There is nothing unusual in that. And how could he know what was going to happen? He couldn’t. Whether the authorities will believe that is another matter entirely. One he would much rather not discover.

“Water would be lovely, thank you.” Eric is quick to reply. Not so quick that he might draw suspicion however.

He’s quite impressed that he somehow manages to keep his tone even and free of quaking or cracking as he speaks. Pleasant surprise and one he was confident would not be reality and instead indicate that perhaps something is wrong, that he is hiding something. It didn’t so keep your head, he says to himself before forcing a smile across his tanned cheeks.

Much of his face is still darkened by shadows as the barmaid does an about and then hurries away. A pang of worry stabs at him. He wonders if her suspicions have been raised, whether she has recognised him correctly and is now swiftly retreating to alert… someone. He isn’t sure who. The city guards seem the most likely candidates. After all, it is they who are posted at every one of Parnem’s gates. The very same gates that are currently locked and barred with great straight pieces of sea air dampened trunks of wood. It’s what they must have been before they were felled. No branch, of any tree, could ever get to the thickness of the pieces keeping Parnem cut off from the world beyond. But there are no guards present, he informs himself.

“Here’s your water.” The barmaid says upon her return. Her declaration rips Eric from his thoughts as she gently plants a heavy looking brown jug near the centre of the table, followed by a single tankard. Instinctively Eric gives her a silent glance that queries, why the tankard? “It’ll stop any interruptions from patrons. They know better than to bother a man drinking alone in a corner.” Eric smirks for a second and then nods. He is unaware of the etiquette. It wouldn’t be the same in other taverns across the fifteen kingdoms and for the first time since the lockdown he considers that he may be in the right place to wait this madness out. And it really is madness. Guards beating and butchering anyone who refuses to follow whatever orders they have been issued. Public executions of suspected magic wielders who it seems have at no point been considered to be the culprits for the murders but yet meet grizzly fates nonetheless. It shouldn’t surprise Eric. He’s seen it before. Streets running red with innocent blood. Not always relating to magic wielders though. Sometimes there are other reasons, equally as paper thin and disgraceful.

However, the response from any authorities and more troublingly the populace at large is often violence against those viewed negatively. It’s why he felt such a need to rush from where he had been, which was at the docks, to where he is now. It wasn’t a short or easy jaunt. Perhaps not even a necessary one. There are countless taverns in the city. He could have chosen any one of them to shelter in. He isn’t sure why this is the one he gathered all his bravado to dare enter. All forced, none of it natural. At any other time it might have been but not in the middle of a… He doesn’t know what to call this event which is happening here. Purge, maybe and yet that still doesn’t seem right somehow. It seems unlikely the guards, as overly heavy handed as they are being, have any secret agenda. They’re just brutes. Paid thugs for the most part. Honestly, the mage is basing that off of nothing however. It’s not like he’s spoken to the King. It would be impossible too as he isn’t in Parnem at the moment. Eric isn’t sure where he is or why. Local gossip is not of interest to him. He only came to Parnem for a quick stop to converse with some associates who have proven over the years very adept at locating once forgotten tomes of magic. Not all of them the sort you want those non-versed in the dangers able to purchase and then, if their fancy takes them, dabble with.

Eric has seen it a hundred times before when such things occur and it never ends well, for any party involved. Still, he doesn’t think that that is what has happened here with this string of murders. They don’t seem ill-conceived from what little he has overheard in passing since the sealing of the city. For some reason or another that event seemed to bring conversations on the matter to the fore. He hasn’t any inkling as to why. He would have suspected it to be the other way round. Parnem is a peculiar place.

Quite to the contrary the murders sound, from what little he has heard, as though they would need to have been meticulously planned for them to have reached the status of individuals that they did. To a degree it suggests they might be the result of jealousy from a competitor or individuals of lesser standing but greater vision who are no longer willing to wait around for a day that may never come.

“I’m Kara. If you need anything else just yell.” The barmaid, who Eric had forgotten about the presence of, informs with a quick flash of a smile, which comes prior to her having heard a loud demand from across the open tavern which diverts her attention away from the mage hiding in plain sight. In response she quickly shoots off leaving Eric alone once more. He’s impressed by the speed with which she not only departs but manages to weave between the tables choked full of patrons.

Several more moments pass before the mage shakes himself out of his daze. It’s due to him having realised that he’s been staring and watching Kara like a hawk. He chastises himself and then dips his head hoping that no one has been alerted by his actions. He doesn’t dare cast his gaze around to find out for sure. He fears doing so might draw, if his actions have not already, unwanted attention to his presence.

The mage’s previously rapidly beating heart feels slower and beating at closer to what he would consider its normal pace now. He isn’t sure when it started to slow from its galloping but is pleased to know that it has.

Suddenly he recalls his ‘drink’ and the tankard alongside it. He hasn’t touched either. Suspicious, he tells himself. Have to look natural, normal, and thus far I am very much failing at that. Unfortunately, the more he thinks he needs to act a certain way the more he feels unable to. Finally, after what feels like a couple minutes, he succeeds in banishing such thoughts from his head. His eyes roll closed soon after and coincide then him taking a series of deep breaths. The sound of the tavern quickly dulls and then dies. It is still very much present but Eric is no longer aware of it. He’s filtered it out. Some might think this is some magical abilities but it isn’t. It’s a trick he learned a long time ago. This was many years before he showed any signs of having any aptitude in wielding magic. Back when he’d been a boy always on edge. You see as a child Eric had hated loud noises, of any kind, but cacophonies were the worst for him. It stems from the fact that he had been deaf for the first few years, eleven to be exact, of his life. To this day no one has been able to explain how such an affliction had been reverted. As he’d got older and learned magic that had always been the explanation he gave as to how the miracle had occurred. He only ever said such things to himself as no one in his life now had been in it back in those days. After all, his parents are both gone. He hadn’t been there when they had passed, either of them, and had barely known them by the time it had come. You see, they never agreed with his pursuit of magic. They were staunch believers of the Goddess Imara and the teachings of that particular faith decried the use of magic and so by extension all those that used or wished to use magic were also decried, outcast and labelled as heretics. Still, he wasn’t ejected from their lives before many questions, more demands, had been levelled at him by his parents however. Eric, truthfully, barely remembers the conversations now. They unfolded more than a century ago. One of the many benefits of magic being that death, naturally occurring only, is much less of a concern than it is for those who cannot or will not partake in the art.

Eric takes a hold of the tankard and shifts it closer to him without lifting it free on the tabletop. It’s cool to the touch, refreshingly so. He hadn’t considered that the tankard would be anything other than warm and after his frantic fleeing through busy streets it’s nice to have hold of something that doesn’t embellish the warmth radiating from his body.

He can still feel the sweat trickling down his back. It would also be running down his face if not for his hat and the no doubt twisted mat of brown hair he has under it. Another reason not to remove this from atop my head, he thinks as he carefully tightens his grip on the jugs handle. Seconds afterward he raises it barely off the surface of the table and then pitches it steeply so that the spout is perfectly aligned. Once the angle gets to a point which is too severe for the clear still liquid to stay put it sloshes out. The first few globs of water spurt, threatening to spew past the confines of the tankard. They don’t. Eric keeps it entirely under control, having used a silent spell of reflection to erect an invisible wall through which the stray drops could not breach. This continues until the tankard is two thirds full. Then, with his wrist feeling strained, the mage quickly plants the jug back onto the table top. In response to the setting down of the jug is a dull bang. It’s lost to the raucous laughter and back and forth from the bustling crowd. Eric dares to take a glance around as he lifts the tankard and pulls it toward his lips. Both hands are wrapped around the tankard. One hand continuing to firmly grip the long handle, like it had during the pouring of the water to keep it steady, while the other is planted firmly across the tankards smooth curved surface.

No one is paying any mind to the man in the corner, Eric discovers. The mage is thankful about that as the tankard reaches his lips. He sips carefully at first, for what reason he would not be able to say if asked. However, upon feeling the smooth, cool, tasteless liquid in his mouth, which he sloshes around eagerly, he feels a desperate urge to gulp and so he does. Five mouthfuls or almost a third of what had been in the tankard later Eric no longer feels thirsty. It was not until the water had hit his tongue had he been aware of just how parched he had become after all the unfruitful bartering and hurrying through the city streets.

Suddenly the room around Eric falls silent. The mage thinks nothing of it. Rather, he suspects he has tuned the sounds of the patrons around him out once more. Then he feels a tingle across his back. He knows the feeling well. He gets it whenever something is wrong. He wouldn’t say dangerous, just when something is not as it should be. He can’t explain it much more than that. The only way he’ll learn as to why is if he… He tilts his head to get a partial view, out the corner of his eye, of some of the patrons. He gulps.

The patrons really have fallen deathly silent. Worry wraps its tendrils around Eric. Yet, they make no attempt to squeeze him like he would expect. At least they haven’t yet anyway.

He slowly rests the tankard on the tabletop and waits. His eyes continue to glance out of the corner of his eye so that he is capable of assessing the reason for the lack of movement from those around him. I have to know why, he tells himself. He thinks he knows and yet he should be sure, he thinks. I don’t want to be sure, he tells himself.

The only reason he risked putting his tankard down is because other patrons had done the same. Stop being a coward, he orders. Fine, is the response he mumbles finally.

However, just as he reaches the point where he thinks he’s summed up the confidence and is able to raise his head everyone returns to their conversing. Eric stops. His breathing is laboured and he bites on the very tip of his tongue nervously sure that he has missed something. So he begins to count. He hasn’t a number in mind to stop at. He simply intends to count until he feels comfortable to… He lifts his head and glances toward the bar. Immediately he regrets his decision, but is careful not to make any sudden movements that might draw attention. Rather, he slowly allows his head to drop once more back to where it had hung previously. He thinks no one will notice his actions or pay him any mind. It seems few have since his entry. But can I be sure, he asks himself. No, is the succinct yet honest reply he gives. He sighs, silently, but cannot get the image of the city guards out of his head. He should have known that sooner or later they would start canvassing the taverns. Everyone knows it’s a perfect place to hide. It means they haven’t found the murderer yet. Well, he thinks that is what it means. There is nothing to say that for sure and truth be told these men might not even be guards. He’s heard of such treachery in other cities. Though, that had been during a coup in one of the smaller kingdoms. He can’t remember which one exactly. He just remembers it being one of those far to the north east. Out there few are larger than a single city or port. How they’ve managed to remain for as long as they have Eric has never quite been sure. However, he has to admit that it is impressive. Great kingdoms have risen and fallen and yet somehow those specks of independence have persevered. Most don’t even have the benefit, from what he has read, of natural defences. He really should venture out that way one day. If you make it past today maybe you can consider it, he hears his own voice remind.

“What you think they’re doing here?” Eric hears a nearby patron say. It’s the first time he’s been able to make out any part of a nearby conversation and what pulls his from his thoughts, which is probably for the best he thinks.

“Looking for that killer more likely than not.” Someone else replies sounding disinterested.

“Which killer is this?”

“The one who’s been killing counts and their like, that is said to be using magic. You know. You must have heard.” The voice sounds mocking. It’s as if they don’t believe the stories that are going around the city. It doesn’t surprise Eric, nor does the revelation that there might be more than one killer within the city walls. After all, wherever there is ‘civilization’ there is criminality. They go hand in hand, always.

“Oh who cares about them?” Is the reply that comes. It signifies just how little the normal people of Parnem care about what affects those who would consider themselves the speakers’ betters.

Again, this cynicism doesn’t shock Eric. It’s a pretty common thread you find across the kingdoms he’s visited, and not too hard to find either.

Common people die day after day at the hands of crooks and killers without the aristocracy doing anything about it, so it is inevitable really that when someone does the same to the aristocracy that the common people couldn’t care less. Neither understands the other. That is the reality. They never have and it is likely they never will. Both are too blame in equal measures. Though, each would seek to blame the other solely. It is, sadly, how the world goes. Those with power see the masses as the problem, after all the masses have numbers so why is it they cannot bring change? Meanwhile the masses see those with power as weak for not doing more to lessen the burdens of everyday life, which would allow change to be possible.

“True enough.” Someone else blares loudly before demanding a fresh round is delivered to them because they can feel their mouthing going dry.

Eric dips his head once more. He’s no longer interested in the conversation. It’s already changed to something about politics that isn’t really but is in the eyes of those debating it.

What now, he asks himself. He doesn’t know. Truly, he hasn’t a clue what to do. If he attempts to leave he’ll likely be followed or jumped before he can. If he stays he’s stuck. Inevitably the guards will grill all the patrons. It’ll probably be when most are so sozzled that their tongues will be loose and honest. The mage imagines such chats might result in at least some of them being detained as a result, though that isn’t his concern in the slightest. After all, what these patrons may say in whatever drunken stupors they reach is an issue for them alone, no one else.

Many minutes pass during while Eric considers the options which are available to him. At the end of it he has to admit he is no further forward than he had been previously. He certainly doesn’t have an answer and so is inclined to stay still, in this corner of the room where he is shrouded in shadows. It isn’t a decision he is at ease with, though it might seem it.  He does have to admit however that it does seem like the safest option. After all, there is less likelihood of him being beaten to a pulp while in the presence of so many witnesses. Or at least he hopes that is the case. He could easily be wrong. Maybe many of these patrons would wish to join in. He begins to panic.

“Can I get you another?” Eric hears Kara query some unknown time later. He recognised her voice immediately and it came while he was continuing to follow avenues which were in no way helpful or positive.

One upside is that he didn’t jump this time when she spoke to him. Rather, he slowly inclined his head so that he could get a partial look at her in the moments before he assures, “No, I’m good thank you.” He wonders whether he should say anymore. Ask about the guards. Why they are here and so forth, but he cannot. He’s too craven. “I think they’re looking for someone.” Kara declares out of the blue. Eric’s brow furrows. He realises it too late. Kara has already noticed. “You know because of the murders. You must have heard about them. Everyone is talking.” Eric breathes a silent sigh of relief. Kara, the barmaid, has thankfully taken his furrowing brow as a sign of confusion and not fear.

“I have.” He admits. The mage wonders why the barmaid is chatting with him. He finds it suspicious, out of character he would even go so far to say. How can you say that, you don’t know her? It’s true and yet something feels off, wrong. Should I use magic? No, that will draw attention. I know but… Don’t, just don’t. It’s not worth it. Eric sighs. You’re right.

“Are you OK?” Kara queries as she looks down at him. Her expression is that of genuine concern.

“I…” Eric begins. He angles his head once more to get a glimpse at her after having previously dropped his gaze to glare at the tabletop he’s leaning on. Instantly he spies the guards, from chest down, who are just behind Kara and freezes.

“Eric Farnmouth, we’ve been looking for you.” A strong dull male voice announces.

Eric winces but makes no sudden movements. He can feel the presence of three forms, in addition to Kara, nearby. His tongue flicks at his teeth. The flick is performed across a section where there is the slightest of gaps. Those he has asked have always said they see no gap in his teeth and yet he finds it every time.

“Don’t try and deny. We know it’s you. The robe gives it away.” The male voice soon adds as a result of Eric having offered no response.

Eric knows he could use a dazzle spell, then concealment and slip out the door, front or back, and yet he doubts that would save him. At least it wouldn’t for very long anyway. He’d still be trapped within the city walls. Not even boats are leaving the port. He’d tried to barter passage out on one only to be informed as such. No captain was willing to step on the wrong side of the aristocracy in Parnem. He couldn’t blame them. It made perfect sense and so if he used magic to evade the guards now it would only be a matter of time before they’d catch up to him. Plus, fleeing would only make him look guilty. That might lead to a price being put on his head. He’d seen the posters. Most had asked for this man or that woman to be found. Not always alive, sometimes dead. He isn’t inclined to risk his life over something so reckless, especially when he has played no part in the violence that has transpired here. Whoever is commanding these city guards has to know that. Don’t they?

“We suggest you come quietly, and not try any tricks.” Eric hears the warning, the threat. It’s less overt than he would have expected and yet you would need to be an imbecile not to be aware that that is exactly what it is. Eric nods and then lifts his head fully so that his face is, for the first time since he entered this tavern, not obscured in shadow.

The guard at the centre of the trio, a wide man with thinning black hair, a crooked fat nose and a wide gap toothed smile, stands confidently with one hand resting on the pommel of the sword as it hangs off his ample waist. He’s flanked on either side by a guard. Their faces are hidden behind helmets of grey which perfectly match the round bulbous armour plate that covers their bodies. The only hints of colour are those from the two headed animal Eric thinks is supposed to be a jaguar. The crest, as he would term it, affixed at the centre of their chest plates.

“And why have you been looking for me, sir?” Eric replies. He makes sure to sound humble and respectful as he speaks. He doesn’t want to give these guards any excuse to resort to violence. After all, he means no one in Parnem any harm. He was simply here on business; book collecting to be exact. The tomes nestled safely in the bag he has at the end of the long strap that runs across his one shoulder. The books in question would have been particularly troublesome if they had been permitted to make their way into hands not knowledgeable but perhaps curious of magic.

Both volumes contain incantations and spells for the dark art of necromancy, a disgusting kind of practice that would be best lost to the sands of time due to the depravity that can result if performed. Just thinking about what is scrawled within the leather-bound confines is enough to make Eric’s skin crawl and his stomach knot. He’d have burned them already if not for the city lockdown and his desperate attempts to extricate himself from these walls.

“Your presence is requested.” Is the guards’ succinct reply to the mage’s question.

“By whom and for what reason, sir?” Eric asks a little irritated by the lack of detail offered in the guards’ response.

“By the duke and that is all that I’m at liberty to say.” It’s not much but Eric gets the distinct feeling that that really is all he is going to get.

“And if I were to refuse?” Eric has no intention of doing so and yet feels compelled to ask nonetheless. Morbid curiosity? He doesn’t know.

The guard shrugs, a dissatisfied and mildly disappointed expression appearing across his face before he assures, “It will happen either way as that is the Duke’s want.”

That doesn’t sound conducive to Eric’s continued good health or future freedom one bit. It doesn’t surprise him. Though, he is sickened by it.

Regardless, he’s heard tell of stories where uncooperative mages and their like have ended up in permanent unwilling service to aristocracy. Eric doesn’t intend to add his name to that list. Yet, he has never served aristocracy in any meaningful form. A few brief lines of advice here and there but nothing more than that. Even those had commonly been delivered in passing. It’s how he prefers to deal with people of that… He doesn’t want to say calibre. It feels wrong.

The mage smiles briefly. All eyes, he can feel, are very much on him. It’s uncomfortable. Yet, it seems the guards aren’t judging him, unlike some of the patrons who most certainly are. It is clear they don’t like him almost certainly because he’s a mage. Eric is used to it and casts his glance over the faces turned his way. To his surprise Kara is still smiling. He can’t fathom as to why. It isn’t really the time, he thinks. Still, he offers a brief smirk in response to her smile and then cognisant to not delay too long and risk ending up with the less hospitable version of whatever the Duke ordered of these guards, announces, “I will gladly be escorted to the Duke, sir.” He bows his head as he finishes speaking. It only seems right. This way I give them no excuses to be cruel or primitive.

“Prepare him.” The guard orders much to the mage’s confusion, which lasts only moments and is banished when Eric catches sight of the sack fashioned from dark thick cloth.

“Is that necessary?” Eric questions. He knows full well the purpose of the sack, though would prefer not to suffer through it as he doesn’t like being confined.

“It is. There is a killer on the loose after all.” The guard has a point and Eric knows it. So following a quick trio of nods the mage lowers his head and waits as the black cloth sack is wrenched down over his head. Thankfully, the helmet wearing guard does not fasten it. If he had Eric is sure he might have erupted into a panicked frenzy that likely would have ended in him needing to be clubbed. In some ways that would be easier. Though, again he would admit not a pathway he wishes to walk.

“Clear the way!” A strong male voice, which the mage is pretty sure belongs to the helmetless guard, orders loudly and with a great deal of conviction.

A round of scraping and skittering sounds suggests the patrons comply. Some begrudgingly so it seems when Eric catches grumbles, not all of which are aimed at the guards, as he passes them by, while physically held between the two other armour clad men.

It takes only seconds, it seems to the mage, for them to have exited the tavern and now be trudging, awkwardly for him, down the street. Eric hasn’t a clue which street. That is especially the case after the first couple of seemingly too close and quick turns which he is made to perform.

You could use a spell to reveal your pathway and render this hood worthless, he tells himself. He feels no such compulsion. It might be a risk. After all, Eric has never been a good liar and if, however unlikely, he is asked where he is he doubts he would sound convincing with any lie he may utter. Still, he wishes these guards were a little slower with their pace. They might be able to see but he most certainly cannot and has already stumbled and needed hauling back to his feet twice. Sad to say both have thus far occurred not during any of the sharp turns but on what feels like straight sections. Alas, it is unavoidable, he tells himself now acutely aware of the smells around him. They are of dough. That gives him an indication of where in Parnem he might be. Until the sweet smell of baking turns foul and putrid. His nose curls and he tastes vomit in his mouth. He holds off on actually spewing up what is threatening so mercilessly what would be a humiliating fate.

Several more turns, not at all close to one another, are performed before the foul stench is lost. What replaces it is… nothing. There is no odour to the air. Eric counts himself lucky and then trips. He grumbles to himself but is hauled back to his feet and then forced to march, in step, with the guards once more. They aren’t the talkative types and keep deathly quiet as they continue to wind around the city heading to who knows where.

Phoenix Of Deliverance

Rise like a phoenix
Can you say you’ve seen it?
If you have then know the truth
This round will be fought with nail and tooth
Mercy has been sent away
I will make you feel decay
Banish what little remains
It will be like a splattering of brains
So cross me again if you wish
I’ll you serve up on a dish
I don’t think you can withstand
My might now I have become so grand
So stay out of my way
Unless you wish to die today
Deliverance issued to everybody
What you get for burning my body

Perspective Shift

Tooth and nail, we will prevail
Sail the oceans beyond the pale
Winds of change and waters of life
Fighting past the path of strife

Climb the walls of brand new day
Reach for a point beyond entropy
Without the ceiling of what they choose
A hamster wheel that limits your mood

While the waves come crashing down
Turn that frown upsidedown
Take a breath without toxic winds
The life and times of new beginning

But for those that don’t believe
Ignore the lies when you can’t percieve
Just make choices with your own mind
Before disaster takes your time

Don’t conform to the sepia tones
Doing so may leave you prone
Trapped in the realm of shattered dreams
When the truth is, you can be free

Division

You want a war? Well fuck right off
I don’t want to be part of that cause
All you feast on, are hate and lies
You pull the trigger then argue the cries

So no, just get away
Pity is gone from my heart today
As you, have become the thing
The very fascist at which you were yelling

So now, why should I listen?
You fractured trust and left it hanging
Though still, you try and claim a cause
Pity you never had a thought to pause

Instead, you just incite more war
What a pathetic lifelong flaw
I’m tired, of your endless speech
Just fade away and leave me in peace

Shifting

Carving at the stone
Feels like I am alone
Last soul in a glass box
All I hear is the ticking of clocks
Mad to think about where I stand
More like I’ve been banned
Cast out into the endless sea
Forced to wade through stupidity

Face on the wall
It never makes a call
Just a name in the ether
Pretty sure they’re a cheater
Hoping to take aim at joy
Rip and tear until it’s a ploy
Plotted through the years
No way back from the madness here

Suspended in victory
Not a truth I can see
Lies are all that surround
Emptiness of what is claimed as sound
Corruption is in this space
No chance to just erase
What is here will surely stay
Why I sit here and wish it all away