Trench

Suture up the hole in me
This vent through which I cannot breathe
While all around the leaves do dance
The mud is claiming our second chance
Cause in this pit is death and rot
Not much else have we got
Except the bullets to fire away
Across the land at the enemy

Even rats avoid this place
They squeak and moan at our disgrace
After all we’ve gone and done
The land is scared under the sun
That is why we sit and wait
As mud does rise up again
A prelude to the wet decay
The kind that saps life away

What a sight to behold
We moved an inch and now we hold
In these years we’ve only died
Bodies which we try to hide
But the stench never fades
It simply sometimes skips a day
And all because we fight this hell
The one we brought upon ourselves

Askewed

You hate me and that is fine
Another fabrication of the mind
Want an enemy so picked a name
We have never been the same
Spoke once and that was it
Easy to make me the one upon which you spit

Fuel for the anger you feel inside
Preach about the rules that you abide
Fallacy that you won’t cast away
Rather make all the strands fray
Then sever the tenuous remains
Starting to become how obviously this is a game

Decry all your grievances
Fit them into several verses
Then start a rumour to breed pain
Dump upon me all your blame
Easier for you to get ahead
We’re strangers that have never shared a thread

Through your lies everyone has seen
Why you will have to say bye to your dream
A long drop and a short stop
Result of a childish strop
Honesty would have got you further
Instead of crying bloody murder
Cause compassion is a better key
At least you’ll now stay away from me
Walk back this way and you know you’ll be stung
All because of a slip of your silver coated tongue

You hate me and that is fine
It was a fabrication of the mind
Wanted an enemy so picked a name
We had never been the same
Spoke once and that was it
Made it easy for me to be the one upon which you did spit

Temporal Foil

Hey everyone! Another Wednesday another story. This week, unsurprisingly, it’s a Sci-Fi story. Not one set in space however. You might be able to guess going off the title what it involves. Still, I elected not to make this story about violence and killing. It could very easily have become that but it’s nice to have a change of pace with what I write. I’m not going to tell you anything about the story. I think my hint has been enough. So without further ado, I hope you enjoy Temporal Foil.

“Would you believe I was almost late today?” Alvin says whilst setting down his blue lunch tray onto the white and grey speckled oblong table that has four plastic moulded seats atop twin steel tubes bent into u-shapes to create the legs.

“I wouldn’t. Not in a million years, Al.” Frank, one of Alvin’s friends and colleagues replies as he lays claim to one of the other seats around the same white and grey speckled table. The position he’s chosen is diagonally across from the one Alvin is now only just settling himself into.

“Why?” Alvin exclaims surprised by the response.

“Because you’re not human Al, come on. You really need to admit it. Everyone else knows.” Chris answers on Frank’s behalf which results in a chuckle from both men that Alvin doesn’t understand. It’s why the mousy haired thirty year old with a couple days worth of stubble and grey eyes twists his face into a confused visage of silent questioning.

“You know he’s right, Al. You have never been late, not once in… what is it, seven years? It’s not normal. And then on top of that, how many sick days have you taken?”

Alvin doesn’t answer at first. To be honest he doesn’t recall. It’s not something he’s ever felt the need to keep track of. If he’d have been given warnings for tardiness then it might have been a different matter. It may then have been something he felt compelled to track, but he hasn’t and so is forced to dig deep into his memory in search of an answer.

“I rest my case.” Frank declares with finality a few moments prior to tucking into the salad that he’s had heaped into the largest compartment of the blue plastic trays segregated span.

Frank likes to maintain a healthy diet. It’s part of the reason as to why he walks to work. Its four miles but he still manages to do the journey in less time than if he was to attempt driving. Another reason as to why he walks and honestly Alvin, distracted by the munching of the salad leaves, cannot recall a time that he hasn’t seen Frank dining on a meal such as this for lunch. They’ve worked together for a little over six years, he thinks. Chris by contrast has only worked with them both for about three and indulges in nothing but junk. Well, the closest things that could pass as junk in the cafeteria, that is. It could be a whole heap worse but company directives dictated that actual junk food be reserved for the myriad vending machines liberally sprinkled about the office building.

The only time that any member of this trio, it was Alvin, has purchased something from one of them was because he had little other option. You see, he had been in dire need of an energy boost, sugar related one, and with the vending machines being his only avenue to get his hands on such an item he’d been forced to dole out the extortionate double the price of the nearest shop cost affixed to all the options presented to him. It had made him wonder how so many of the other workers managed to afford daily indulgences from these machines. He’d never reached a conclusion and had long since decided that it mattered very little. It made them happy and was something they wanted to do, which meant who was he to take issue with their life choices. Better to live your life has always been his philosophy. If only others adhered to such a notion. Instead too many have a tendency to involve themselves in aspects of other’s lives as though they lack a life of their own.

“No, no. I can get this…” Is the protest from Alvin who is yet to indulge in a single item of his mixed lunch.

Almost a minute passes before he next speaks; having reached what he thinks is the correct answer. It’s as if he expects this to count toward some kind of assessment. “Four days. I’ve had four days sick.”

“In seven years, Al. Don’t you see how that’s more than a little on the low side. Most people take at least a week every year off, even if they aren’t sick.” Chris replies with a disbelieving shake of his head that marries quite well with Frank who is chuckling into his more than half consumed salad.

“What, what do you mean? You take days off if you aren’t sick?” Alvin is incredulous, his grey eyes wide to show far more of the whites of them than would be normal, which with his thin rimmed glasses and thick lenses does nothing complimentary for the man.

“We all do.” Frank admits and assures in equal measures while his mouth is half full of partially chewed leaves.

Following this revelation there is a pause, a long one. During it Alvin finally tucks into his mixed lunch of baked potato, salad and fries, but continues to contemplate the idea that people take time off work without suffering some form of virus or sickness. He’d heard tell of such things yet had always assumed it was a joke. He doesn’t know why but feels foolish for ever having concluding such. Not that it matters because he isn’t about to change tact and join the ‘take time off because you can’ club. Yet, the silence between the trio is broken when Alvin double-backs to the original conversation he’d started.

“Do you want to know why I was nearly late?” He sounds more than a little sheepish as he says those words. After all, many times previously in his life he’s been told he’s annoying for returning to conversations that had since moved on. It had got him picked on at school as a kid and was, he thinks, largely why he’s generally tended to have very few friends.

“Sure, shoot Al.” Frank reassures having long since picked up on his colleagues’ tendency to retread ground since departed from. It had annoyed the shaven headed man when he’d first arrived at the company, but this tendency wasn’t because of some form of superiority complex due to narcissism, as Frank had first suspected. Rather, it seemed to be part of Alvin’s prevailing air of awkwardness. That is not to say that Alvin struggles with conversing with people. He really doesn’t. It’s just he does it in a very him way. Not what would and is considered the norm.

Frank, after having learned more about his mousy haired co-worker had decided it was because Alvin had grown up an only child. There was certainly nothing else in his background unless he was omitting things, which does not at all seem like something Alvin would do, to suggest any other possibility. In fact, Frank would say Alvin’s upbringing was the polar opposite to his own. He grew up a product of a broken home. You see his dad died shortly before he was born due to having been involved in a massive and horrendous car accident which totalled eighteen vehicles.  His mother meanwhile was an alcoholic and a violent one at that. The first chance Frank got, at the age of fifteen, he ran away and never looked back. Well, until the day he nearly ended up in prison after falling in with a small gang. His place in the gang was undertaking small crimes; petty theft, pick pocketing, that sort of thing. But his opinion soon changed on it being harmless when he was involved in an armed robbery. He was never told it was going to be armed. He was told they were going to steal a few items from a local grocer. Reality was while they were intending to steal a few items those few were meant to all be cash, bills. There’s a lot less cash floating around now than there was then. Regardless, they all got apprehended and the police worked them in hopes of getting one to turn evidence against the others. Frank was that guy. The gang had been under surveillance for a good while and the police; well they showed Frank the true extent of what the remainder of the gangs’ members had been up to while he’d been out doing small time stuff. He’d been horrified. It was the bulk of the reason as to why he elected to turn and give evidence against them.

When they had their day in court the other members of the gang, principally without his testimony which couldn’t contribute too much of the big stuff committed because he hadn’t known about it until after, got eighteen years minimum a piece. Frank meanwhile was been taken into witness protection, given a new name and put on the path of a law abiding life. The same life he’s still living. Though, a few of his old gang should be out by now. He’s made no attempt to find out if they are. He doesn’t care and is across the country from them. They might look for him but he doubts they’d find him. They certainly wouldn’t recognise him if they saw him. He had been a scrawny kid with a full head of thick black hair.

He started balding in his mid twenties and so shaved it. He didn’t want to be the young guy walking round with bald patches and a receding hairline. It was a personal choice. He doesn’t judge anyone who doesn’t do the same. After all, their life their rules, and it suits some people. Just it didn’t suit him. It was too obvious.

There is also no way Frank, birth name Davide, could be called scrawny now. He’s a little under six foot with biceps almost as wide as his thighs, and he has sizable thighs. Alas, Frank isn’t exactly the name he would’ve picked for himself, not that he got the option to choose. There’s nothing wrong with it per se, it simply isn’t a name he would have picked for himself. He certainly, in his mind, doesn’t look like a Frank. Yet, it’s never been queried and so perhaps he’s wrong.

“Well, I woke up… I don’t have an alarm. I’ve never needed one.” Alvin adds an aside which results I a comment from Chris, “Of course you haven’t.” He chuckles right after the playful jab. Alvin shoots his co-worker a glance, it’s filled with confusion but is fleeting and following it sees him carry on with his story unabated.

“I look at my watch.” Alvin signals to the old leather strapped wrist watch that is loosely wrapped around the base of his arm right where it transitions into being his left hand. “It said three in the morning. But it felt wrong. There was sunlight coming in and shining right on my face. I thought… This can’t be. What am I missing? So I rolled over, grabbed my phone, unlocked it and bam, five in the morning.” Alvin stops as if done and so Frank suggests, “Sounds like your watch needs new batteries, Al.”

“Sounds more like you need to get up later. Five… in the morning! Why the hell are you up at that time?” Chris is shocked. They don’t start until nine and Alvin doesn’t live so far out, an hour tops, that he has any reason to need to get up at such an hour. He personally doesn’t rouse from slumber until seven thirty at the earliest. But then Chris lives less than an hour away and has long since elected not to have traffic reports on prior to departing. Hell, he’s even gone as far as to assure his bosses, past and present with fabricated proof, that he has no way of getting traffic reports. It didn’t take much. If you don’t have a TV or personal computer that really helps. Thankfully his current boss isn’t astute enough to query why Chris can’t check traffic on his phone. He could but truthfully it is less Sally hasn’t thought of it and more she isn’t in the mood for another excuse as to why that wouldn’t be possible. She doesn’t believe Chris has no TV or PC of his own, regardless of evidence provided, and so lets his occasional late starts, partially, slide. After all, Chris is a good worker, with a solid employment history. The occasional tardiness is nothing to sack him over, especially when there is no guarantee his replacement, which wouldn’t be too difficult to find, wouldn’t be worse. Better the devil you know because some battles and headaches simply are not worth the hassle. Still, Chris knows not to push his luck. It wouldn’t be worth it too. He’s never had such an easy job. He gets his work done well within his allotted hours and once there makes sure to look busy but enjoy his paid downtime.

A shrug is the response from Alvin and it comes alongside his assurance that, “You’d think that but no. It’s not the batteries. Look…” Alvin extends and shows the face of the old watch off to both of his colleagues. The time is correct without any hint of it struggling to keep pace as the seconds tick by smoothly, effortlessly.

“It’s still the batteries Al. That’s how it starts. Watches and clocks lose time at odd hours. Hell, it might be losing time during the day. A second here, another there. You wouldn’t notice, but it all builds up and then you wake up the next morning and there it is a couple hours behind. Just get some new batteries in the thing.” There is conviction in Frank’s words because he’s speaking from experience. There was a time he didn’t have much more than an old clock and that sort of time loss is exactly what it did prior to needing a battery refresh. Sometimes he hadn’t possessed the money for replacements and had been forced to mix and match older examples in hopes of eking out a little more use than any manufacturer likely ever planned. Bit like how he had to use candles to light where he lived. This was in the months prior to him falling in with the gang. But even after it, for a while, he’d been forced to live much the same way. In fact, he isn’t sure why the landlord never kicked him out. Pity perhaps, but Frank will never know. Even if he was inclined to go back and find out he can’t. It would be far too dangerous, regardless of how little he looks like that scrawny teenager now.

“Why do you even wear that relic? Phones give you the time.” Chris pulls out his and shakes it side to side as if doing so helps to illustrate his point. Meanwhile Frank winces and waits for the inevitable explanation as to why it matters so much to Alvin, and why Frank was replying in such a careful manner. He too had made a similar mistake early in his relationship with Alvin. Not the watch needing replacement batteries but… He realises he doesn’t remember what his error was apart from that it too related in some way to the watch.

“Because it’s a family heirloom. It was my grandfathers. My grandmother bought it for him when he was twenty one. They’d not long been married and had no money but she’d put a little aside every week until she could afford it. He cherished it. To the day he died. After that it got passed to my dad. He wore it every day. That was the promise he made to his father and then when dad got ill he passed it to me.” Alvin is emotional. You can see it in his eyes. They’re teary. No tears are falling but Chris quickly realises just how much the gold faced watch with its brown leather wristband means to the mousy haired man. He feels bad, knows he’s put his foot in it and wonders whether he should offer his condolences. Before he can Alvin adds, “But dad made it through. He’s still kicking.” A smile spreads across the thirty year old man’s face which is otherwise filled with relief. After all, Alvin’s dad, Michael, isn’t old. He’s mid-fifties and had to fight off cancer with the help of chemotherapy. Alvin decides at that moment he needs to call home and speak with his parents before the day is done. It’s been a few weeks. He knows they worry and them being nine hundred miles away means he can’t exactly just go and visit them at the drop of a hat.

“Sorry Al.” Is the apology Chris utters in response. He feels he should say more but hasn’t a clue what to say and so hopes these two words will be enough.

“It’s ok.” Alvin sounds brighter now. The tears are still present in his eyes, never having spilled, but a smile is painted across his face. Following his assurance the mousy haired man returns to his lunch. He’s caught sight of the time and the status of his lunch, barely touched compared to his two co-workers who are finished, which is why he begins to quickly shovel the food into his mouth. Once he’s done there should be just enough time for a quick period of relaxation before returning to his desk to finish out the day.

No One Is Ideal

Spinning the cylinder won’t save the day
What you fear is the abject misery
Don’t fret you are not alone
We all have demons in our home

Voices in your head are not the threat
Just want to push you to regret
Tune them out and you will see
They hold absolutely no decree

Shake with fear and look for an out
Such things will bring about self doubt
Know that you are not abnormal
They work on a basis most formal

It’s why you must fight
It’s why you must scream
It’s why I know you will sing
It’s what you want most
It’s what you can feel
It’s what you should never repeal

Spinning the cylinder won’t save the day
What you fear is the abject misery
Voices in your head are not the threat
Just want to push you to regret
Shake with fear and look for an out
Such things will bring about self doubt
But you didn’t need to listen
Remember that as you follow ambition

Don’t fret you are not alone
We all have demons in our home
Tune them out and you will see
They hold absolutely no decree
But know that you are not abnormal
They work on a basis most formal

Wrapped And Trapped

Gorge and replicate yourself on a fantasy
But will you realise that the real me
Walked across the threshold to the sodden door
There’s no way back and you continue to abhor

The rotting teeth chatter in vein
You have a brand new disease to nestle with pain
So just for once why not open your eyes
I know you fear what is on the other side

Pounding the flesh with a bloody bone
All while you sit upon the molten throne
Twisted remedy forged from the crash
All that is left is but a pile of ash

Somehow you don’t even recognise the shame
Instead you simply tap at the frame
It’s like a picture has never meant a goddamn thing
Probably why you continue this feeling

Doubt it’ll end is your train of thought
Wily is not your best foot forward
You’re as sneaky as a sonic boom
The only difference is your life’s a tomb

Road To Take

Push to the front
Ignore what they want
It wasn’t built for two
Everything’s for you

So don’t let them bleed the source
Or you’ll end up without recourse
Just a circling the drain
Head without a working brain

Push to the front
Ignore what they want
It wasn’t built for two
Everythings for you

Wriggle out the mass of flesh
The pile with which they formed a mesh
Beat back the old reaction
Forge yourself a new attraction

Push to the front
Ignore what they want
It wasn’t built for two
Everythings for you

Cause its your life and you can choose
It does not mean you have to lose
Now wash away all the rot
Then construct what you want

Push to the front
Ignore what they say and want
It wasn’t built for two
It was always meant for you

Demiurge

Burst forth from the seam that they wanted cast in the fire
The mound they formed was to be your funeral pyre
But anticipate not a soul that had so much to give
It is why they now rejoice that they let you live
Though I will not lie and say I played no part at all
For I stood with them ready to force your fall
A moment for which I hold not an ounce of pride
If you wish to exact vengeance I will subscribe
Cause what is deserved is not what we have reaped
So long ago it was that we all peaked
Its why no question will pass my lips
I deserve not even to have a chance to read the scripts
But still you refuse to pay in kind
Thought that had never even crossed my mind
Further proof that you are so much more
In your place each one of us would have tore
The face from any who would have done us ill
Just one of the ways in which we keep the thin air still
However what you bring is the brightest of lights
It does away with the slightest likelihood of fights
And so war has been banished from our shore
Pity we had never been strong enough to endure
Until your feet came to rest upon the blackened sand
The beaches which form the edge of our land
After that you taught us the truth of living
About how there should always be giving
Rectial of the wisest tales
Each new day we weigh upon our heart scales
Not that it changes the sadness now in our souls
Born whenever we hear the tolls
Bells of remembrance
Our oath to prolong your evanescence
Adhere to the scrolls that you did scribble
Protect it like it is the only true symbol

Lost Asunder

I’m ba-ack! Sorry, couldn’t resist. But it is true. I’m back again with another story post. Lost Asunder is the latest in what I’m calling a series of stories. It follows on from Fragmented Friends. There are a few more ideas I have for this series. Whether I write them or not largely comes down to whether I believe they are good enough. If I do then they’ll get written. If not then… Well, the series will kind of dead-end. Wow, that sounds really sad to admit, but it’s true. Regardless, there isn’t much I can say about this. If you don’t want to be a little lost then reading Overcharged and Fragmented Friends is best. Other than that it’s a longer short story at roughly 12,000 words. Have fun!

Sanjiv slinks into his abode. You couldn’t call it a house, apartment, bungalow, shack. To do so would be wrong. It is a single room brightly lit by yellow overhead lights. One in the far corner is flickering. That is of little surprise for it has been more than a year since he last visited this place. He only keeps it as a distraction. A man without a residence draws the closest of observation and the last thing the former Datastar wants is scrutiny.

Regardless of that the first thing he spies having slinked into the single wide room furnished with a side table that the answer phone sits on is the green light which is blinking periodically to inform that there is a message.

In addition to the table there is also a mattress laid out atop the flat-packed pieces of the bed frame it should be slotted inside of and a couple chairs that don’t look at all comfortable. They’re third hand maybe, Sanjiv doesn’t really recall. He bought them off a woman who had been in the process of tossing them out many years ago. In fact, it was probably, he thinks, not long after he purchased the abode he’s stood inside of at this moment. A smirk slides across his face as he recalls such things. Then his eyes settle back on the answer phone and the smirk is gone.

He’d always been expecting to one day find a message flashing away when he again walked in here but didn’t think it would’ve taken this long. Better late than never, he thinks. Not that he expects the content of the message to be to his liking.

Sauntering slowly toward the answer phone, his eyes searching for any possible would be traps, he notes that the side table is caked with a thick layer of dust. That is just how he likes it. If this was his home it would be quite different but this place has never been a home. In total he might have spent five months cumulative based here. To put that into context Sanjiv has owned this abode for almost twenty years and a good deal of those months spent living in this pretty empty space was not long after he and Dana went their separate ways. He knows the message will be from her. It can be from no one else. She is the only person still in possession of the number, as far as he can recall. All others that once had it are dead. At least he’s pretty sure they are. Regardless, the message will be from her. Lord knows for what reason. Find out, he demands of himself. Without delay that is exactly what he does and orders a replay of whatever message has been left via the tiny sliver barely thicker than a fingernail on the top of the black dust encrusted curved cornered box.

The answer phone, base unit only, is the sole item sat on the top of the side table. Two thin black and grey cables jut angularly out the back of the unit only to disappear down the gap behind the side table and the chair on the other side of it. Sanjiv wonders why he ever set the room up in this manner with the side table in the middle of nowhere. If dug a little deeper into his memories he’d recall as to why. He did it to save himself the wasted energy of ambling across to the far side of the room where the wall socket for both power and signal are located. Due to him having placed the answer phone where he has the twin cables stretch lazily across the white tiled floor. Like everything else they too are caked with a thick layer of dust. Some of the layers are thicker than others from his previous visits and movement, but Sanjiv recalls that he has never once cleaned this place since those very early days.

The machine having finished its announcement that there is a single message left nearly a week ago begins playback. Almost immediately Sanjiv is proved correct as Dana announces that she is the one leaving the message. At hearing her voice he nearly turns to walk away. He sees little point in listening to whatever bullshit she might have to say. It won’t be an apology, Dana would never say sorry. At least she wouldn’t once she became Dana the Director in-charge of overseeing the construct following the events that cost them Warren, their best friend.

Following her appointment as director she changed quite considerably, whether she would want to admit it or not is an irrelevance. That was the moment that Sanjiv should’ve seen and known that things would never be the same. Not because he wanted to be director, he didn’t. From the moment it was conceived Sanjiv was sure it would be a political position of juggling wants, demands and legislation forced upon whoever took the job and he’d been right. Sure, Dana as director had been able to maintain, at least when he’d been around, independence from the waiting tentacles of those without knowledge or context from grasping hold of something that was never meant to be theirs, usually national governments, but that didn’t mean she remained capable of listening to people close to her. In fact, Dana thought Sanjiv mad for wanting to believe that Warren might still be out there, somewhere. That was the first rift of many. He realises now that, hindsight is a wonderful but pointless thing, that is when he should’ve walked away. Back when he first started to see changes in his former friend and colleague. But he didn’t. Rather he elected to remain by her side, to help her, guide her if he could and was permitted to. He wasn’t and when he started to show, what Dana dubbed as obsessive behaviour, due to a belief and actual evidence he had gathered regarding outside agents attempting to exert their influence over the unilaterally welcomed and praised virtual network she delivered an ultimatum unto him. He either drop his investigations, ramblings and obsessions, those were Dana’s exact words, or he vacate his post. The decision was a no-brainer. Sanjiv vacated his post following a final bitter row. He regrets none of what he said. He was right. Dana had given up on hope. She dealt exclusively in facts and there was no way Sanjiv was ever going to get through to her, no matter how hard he tried, because not everything could be explained in such straightforward terms. The world is filled with oddities.

By the time Sanjiv slides back into the present Dana is finishing her message. He heard almost none of it which causes him to sigh sharply and then depress the button for a second time. This time he will have to listen. He doesn’t want to but…

Sanjiv hears mention of Warren’s name. His brow furrows and eyes lock on the black box as though doing so might influence what comes next. When he hears the claim that Warren is alive and the broken half explanation that follows, mainly filled with repetitions he shakes his head. Without a doubt Dana is lying. She was never believed their friend is out there and the thin story she’s rambling, quite brilliantly, isn’t fooling him. This is part of some game. For what purpose he doesn’t have a clue but after all these years she still insists on wanting to exert her control. He’d be angry if he wasn’t impressed by the depths to which she is apparently now capable of sinking. Resourceful but will change nothing.

The message ends for the second time leaving Sanjiv to debate whether he should erase it or simply walk away. He’s torn between the two. In some ways deleting the message feels petty. After all, he gave Dana the chance she so confidently claimed he never would. In his mind that means his obligation is over. She squandered the final olive branch he’d left extended toward her. It doesn’t surprise him, though it does disappoint more than he had expected it too. Perhaps, he had always hoped she might come to her senses. Alas, it seems he’d been very wrong. Dana Marcello has found her place, her setting and deviations from her intended statements, which to Sanjiv sound rehearsed; make little sense other than to cover her lack of clarity.

Finally, he chuckles quietly to himself in half snorts amazed at how stupid she must think he is if she believes he’ll fall for such a ploy as this.

Unlike her, he is confident, one hundred percent, about Warren being out there, somewhere in the simulation. Just not in the way Dana was attempted to falsely claim. Still, he feels he would be remiss not to check and so calls on the one ‘person’ he can rely on in this world still, the AI clone of Doctor Helena Tabar.

His call is issued without a voice command but isn’t sure as to why. It could be that this room is too quiet for him to feel comfortable in shattering said silence until he hears the voice of another first commit such an atrocity.

“What can I do for you Sanjiv?” The voice of Doctor Tabar says in his ears. Sanjiv can’t be certain, as he never met the organic founder of the construct, but he thinks this AI built using a scan of her brain must sound exactly as she did. It’s a strong, confident voice that manages to avoid coming across as arrogant or belittling. He likes that. He wishes… Sanjiv trails off. There is little point he feels in retreading that old heavily compacted ground any more than he has previously and so elects, feeling comfortable that the silence of this abodes silence having been shattered, to speak.

“Could you run a check for me?” His voice is louder than he anticipated that it would but settles on the fault lying with how empty the room around him is and it not being the result of his volume. After all, Sanjiv has never been a loud man. He’s quietly spoken until he isn’t. And the only times that he isn’t tends to be when he’s in an argument, or when there is a need for him to be loud. More often than not these days it is the latter. Nothing really gets under his skin anymore and how could it? He’s spent the better part of the last fifteen years investigating leads on people who don’t want to be seen, men and women who work from the shadows. A number of them over the years he’s dispatched but their network never appear as if it suffers, folds or fails as a result of his efforts. It’s as if they have a limitless supply of operatives. That might not be the case if he’d managed to locate the kingpin, or something that could reveal all of their names and identities simultaneously. He has found no such thing but not through lack of trying.

“Of course, what is your query?”

“I need you to check the construct again.” Sanjiv mutters making his intent clear. It’s rare he asks the AI to run a search through the virtual network anymore for any name. Those that work from the shadows have no presence in the simulation and for good reason. If they did then they would inevitably leave a trail by which they could be tracked. Surprisingly, it is more difficult to track people in the real world than in the construct. How times have changed, Sanjiv thinks recalling the past while he waits for the Doctor Tabar AI to respond.

“Are you sure? Is this wise? I foresee you will not be granted the answer that you…”

“I will this time.” Sanjiv assures cutting the AI off. She, it, he doesn’t know how to categorise the AI really, thinks he is fixating on Warren having been missed. That isn’t why he’s asking for such a search. Instead, he wants proof that Dana is lying.

“As you wish, initiating search for one Warren Thewlis. Expected wait time is…”

Again Sanjiv cuts in. This time to announce, “Just let me know when the search is done and what the outcome is. I won’t be waiting here. I have somewhere to be.”

With that Sanjiv does an about turn and strides the short distance, four steps, out of the abode. The automatic door slides closed behind him and having fished a fob out of his pocket he activates the lock to seal this room for… Well, he expects for a very long time. He certainly has no intention of returning.

He will have to remind himself to deactivate the forward link that alerted him to the presence of the message Dana left though. There is no need for it now. They won’t be conversing ever again, he suspects.

With the abode locked Sanjiv turns and strolls casually away from the faded white door recessed into stained and graffiti emblazoned concrete walls. Overhead lights some twenty foot above his head hang from long cords. A few list precariously due to some of the aged cables having failed from the decade’s worth of neglect.

From Sanjiv’s position he can see the gaping maw that leads back to the surface. The damp walls of the underground cavern run wet with moisture that give the air a surprisingly cold bite considering that he is beneath a section of the Oljato-Monument Valley.

One Way Ride

Actors put on a play most decadent
Soon their energies will be spent
Approximation waiting in the wings
Laying claim to the final bell rings

So open those eyes and gaze upon this misalignment
To retread this route would be most violent
For what has formed is not what should thrive
Refute that and no soul will ever get out alive
It’ll just be a one way ride

Muse over decisions so ill-defined
Tear bodies down to the rind
Stitch the pieces until a map is formed
Soon to be the one who is swarmed

So open those eyes and gaze upon this misalignment
To retread this route would be most violent
For what has formed is not what should thrive
Refute that and no soul will ever get out alive
It’ll just be a one way ride

Dredge along a route that has no reason
This is what you believe in
A deity will never raise its head
There is no more pull left in the thread

So open those eyes and gaze upon this misalignment
To retread this route would be most violent
For what has formed is not what should thrive
Refute that and no soul will ever get out alive
It’ll just be a one way ride

Ease

Lying on my bed
Emptying my head
Don’t think about a thing
Just do some living
It doesn’t have to be
Work until your eyes bleed
Such a sad way to flow
Right up until the drop so…
Let it drift away
Listen to the rain today
No more grinding down
Aid to invert the frown
Its not worth the grey
The failing of your body
I made that mistake
No need to fuel and hate
So take your foot off the gas
Coast a while and let it pass
Then start again when all is new
Otherwise you’ll number few