Augur

And back to both longer story (about 14,000 words) and Sci-Fi. Truth be told while the setting is Sci-Fi that is not the focus of the story. Really, I would term this a psychological horror. Don’t really want to say much more than that because I might reveal something that could spoil the story. Instead, I’ll simply say I hope you enjoy the story!

Marus’ gauntleted hands glide over the docking controls of his interceptor class starship. He engages the cycle system for his ship to extend and attach to the neighbouring Pillar of Frenzy. The Frenzy, as it would regularly be referred to due to all journeyman ships containing a triple moniker, is a vessel Marus knows almost nothing about. Save for the fact that he has been commissioned, ordered really, to rendezvous with whatever it was that was projecting a distress signal loop out across the void of space via the Interstellar Broadcast Light-speed System. It’s a name Marus finds overly long and complicated, which is why it is, thankfully, more commonly referred to as the IBLS. All starships have one. Without it no starship would be capable of communication across star systems and not just communication in the form of messages and orders, like he received to check this signal out. No, the IBLS also facilitates the instant transmission of news across all eleven hundred systems of known space.

With the docking cycle system initiated all Marus can do is wait. It’ll take a few minutes for his ship, The Renegade, to fully dock and seal with atmosphere to the Frenzy and yet he is in no way inclined to review or busy himself with any short term task. Rather, he reclines into the sole seat that occupies the two metre wide and three metre long, if not for all the computer navigational consoles surroundings him on three sides, space. Each of the consoles displays a myriad of colourful lights that blink at him. He knows what each of them does and yet he still, after more than four years of owning this vessel, cannot blot out the flickering neon colours to get some shuteye while in this chair. Not that he needs it as The Renegade comes with a fully equipped personal quarters. In fact, the interceptor class vessel is little more than an engine room, cockpit, personal quarters, small living area and a storage section. It can’t be called a cargo bay. Doing so would be far more generous than the cupboard sized space deserves.

So with time to kill and reclined back in his chair, Marus simply watches the displays and dials dictate the progress of the docking procedure while wondering whether he should again, it would be the fifth time, attempt to make contact with the Frenzy. He hadn’t known before his arrival and setting his eyes, literally, upon the hull of the mid-sized journeyman class vessel that that is the starship he would be faced with. In fact, he’d known nothing other than that a distress loop was being broadcast and he was tasked with rendezvousing and offering whatever aid was necessary. It isn’t the usual sort of mission, if he can really call it that, that a soldier of the Janus Order would be sent on. Typically Marus finds himself neck deep in some conflict or another attempting to broker or enforce peace. Generally, it ended up being the latter. Now more than ever the citizens of known space seem to wish to embark on wars upon one another. Marus doesn’t understand the excuses. He’d much rather the citizens were honest with themselves and each other that the reason for wanting to wage is for no other reason than to satisfy whatever slight they believe has been committed against them. Doing that wouldn’t be justifiable and so they invent reasons that will keep the Unification Space Council, USC, placated and unlikely to issue sanctions and infraction charges against the planets, systems, governments and stations responsible for the bloodshed.

The Janus Order soldier shakes himself free of his thinking dissatisfied with the lack of a conclusion having been reached as to whether he should attempt another communications burst with the Frenzy. Yet, his conclusion now is immediate. No. It would be pointless. Four is already more than standard three rule operating protocol and so instead he will wait until he is aboard to discover whatever it is that has resulted in the Frenzy drifting out in the emptiness of this sector, delta forty seven elle nine one one.

Marus himself cannot imagine why any vessel, let alone a journeyman class, would be in such a bland section of the endless vacuum. It isn’t the sort of place any vessel, save for maybe a transit model captained by a reckless amateur captain might venture. Especially, as this section of space is not part of any traversal route between major colony systems or stations.

His guess, if he were to make one, is that the Frenzy suffered some kind of systems failure and has drifted. From where and for how long he can only surmise. There are no records, presented to him with his orders, which might give a hint as to where and when. He is mildly surprised by that. Then again Janus Order command has become ever more lethargic when it comes to proper information sharing. He knows they’re stretched thin with all the possible threats of imminent war and yet he still finds it inexcusable. Were he not signed into a water tight contract he might be inclined to go AWOL. He shakes the thought out of his head chastising himself as he does. That is not his way. He’s disappointed that the thought entered his head as he catches the distinct long single low beep that signals the docking is complete, in theory. In theory being because it is only the seal between the vessels that has been established. There is another stage that will have to be completed before full cycle has been achieved. Marus doesn’t need to wait for that. He’s clad in a Tera-3 combat suit. Decompression won’t afflict him. He’s in a sealed mass with an air scrubbing filtration system that will supply him with air for days, if needs be, and magnetic boots that will keep him adhered to whatever starship he may wish to venture across or through.

As a result the armoured soldier rises, unfolding himself, from his single cockpit chair. He refuses to call it a captain’s seat as he isn’t a captain. In fact, in the Janus Order there are no ‘ranks.’ At least there aren’t among the non-command wielding operatives of the systems spanning military personnel. Ranks are instead reserved purely for the hierarchy. Those at the top of the pyramid, more commonly referred to as the point of the spear. He chuckles to himself at the thought that they call themselves the point of the spear as the hierarchy of the Janus Order would never be the first into battle. They are like the human generals of the early twentieth century. They sit well behind the frontlines of battle, safely out of danger, dictating orders and deployments from complete their secure bunkers and bases. Marus knows many soldiers of that era despised their commanders as a result, but he doesn’t feel the same. Rather, he’s pleased the hierarchy never deploy themselves. If they did then he, and others, would have to follow all issued orders to the letter. Plus they’d find out how few of their orders are truly executed in a manner they would find acceptable. It humours the soldier as he stretches the stiffness from his arms and legs caused by his hours of staying sat in place in the cockpit chair.

Once the stiffness is eased Marus does an about turn and strides over the threshold leaving the snug cockpit of The Renegade behind. Now in the small living space, which is comprised of a single sofa as well as a kitchenette area, Marus grabs a hold of several magazines worth of ammunition, his sidearm and burst rifle. He fixes them into place. The sidearm, a heavy calibre fifteen round model, is magnetised to the outer edge of his right thigh, while the rifle is affixed diagonally across his back and the ammunition around his waist.

All the affects had been scattered, neatly, across what is supposed to serve as a dining area, if you can call a thirty centimetre deep bar with a stool a dining area that is. It’s all metal. Everything on The Renegade is, except for the sofa and his bunk. Though, to be honest the sofa feels like it might as well have been cushioned with metal with how rigid and uninviting it is.

But with Marus fully equipped as code dictates for all eventualities, which to him sounds like a joke and why he is often left smirking as he is now, he turns and takes the three steps that put him across the threshold of the living area and into the airlock. He seals the door behind him and then engages the lock. A second later the other beep rings in his head, annoyingly, to alert him that the docking cycle is now fully complete. He shrugs to himself. He often does but isn’t aware of it. It’s a natural instinctive reaction that has become part of his manner. The truth is he does it while answering questions in his own head. What those questions are he would seldom he able to answer if questioned. Though, there presences results in no delay as he jabs the index and middle finger of his left hand into the outer door release of The Renegade. The response is immediate as the heavy plated steel nano-weave covered rectangle begins to slide into a recess at the right of his vision. Marus waits patiently the several seconds it takes for the hatch to complete its transit and then pushes ahead. His second step takes him over the threshold meaning that he is out of his vessel and very much in a thin section of layered plates that form the outer skin of the docking sleeve. He can see nothing of the void of space beyond the confines of the tube. The docking sleeve is opaque. But at least the gantry with its embedded lights that his boots are magnetised too are working now. On his last eight excursions they hadn’t been. That had proved an issue, not for him but for the delegates he’d needed to transport about. During each of the trips he’d lost his quarters. It was to be expected, but that didn’t mean Marus had been happy about it.

He’d been forced to sleep in the cockpit; the delegates’ bodyguards had taken the sofa. Still, he is sure he got the better end of the deal there. Especially, when he woke the next morning, having barely slept, and found both of the bodyguards looking bleary and more exhausted than him. The sight had forced him to suppress a chuckle as he had not been clad in his Tera-3 at that time, which has the added bonus of a polarising visor. The absence of his suit had not been his choice either. Command had dictated that during his six transit runs he was to be out of combat gear at all times while aboard his vessel. That just wasn’t Marus. He lives in his armour and is so familiar with it that it might as well be his skin. Not a bad skin to possess either, he thinks when you consider that it is capable of stopping all blades and most light arms fire.

Nevertheless, he’d got through it only to then need a massive overhaul of The Renegade which had grounded him for three weeks. That might not sound like long but for a Janus Order solider it is. They rarely are afforded downtime and Marus was no different. With his ship out of action he was tasked with local responsibilities, which he found mind numbingly boring.

The Janus Order soldier blinks himself out of his thoughts, returning him to the present and the reality that he is almost two thirds of the way to the hull of the Frenzy. The only sound he can hear is the lumbering clang of his boots magnetising to the metal walkway below with every step he takes. The diagnostics of his Tera-3 give little in the way of useful readouts, which isn’t surprising given as Marus is trudging, faster than his footsteps would have you believe, down a docking tube. Still, he is content to daydream anymore than he already has. That’s his downtime. It’s done now. From here on out he has to be all business. Thankfully, his suit isn’t a Tera-4. If it was then everything he does, including mentally, would be tracked, viewed, analysed. It’s the main reason he hasn’t put in for the upgrade. He doesn’t want his kind of intrusion. It’s an invasion of his privacy. One of the few things that are truly his own and not dictated by command. They aren’t taking that away and yet they have made a distinct lack of noise about all operatives upgrading. He doesn’t get. Not that he needs to as his right hand lingers near enough to his sidearm that he’d be able to pull it in a second. He doubts pirates are aboard, but he can’t be too careful he knows now that he is within striking reach of the outer door of the Frenzy.

To his surprise is doesn’t react to his presence. Marus’ eyes scan about as if to say he is waiting silently and patiently for admittance to be granted. It isn’t and with thirty eight seconds having passed a sigh passes his lips, his right hand wraps around the grip of his sidearm while he slams the open palm of his left into a reaction panel. Except he doesn’t retract his hand as one might expect when you are performing a slap, upon what is essentially a flat panel shaped button. It’s slightly recessed and inlayed with a pulse sensor so it cannot be triggered by space debris or any particles that might be found hurtling about. Rather, he keeps his open hand pressed against it so that his credentials can be assessed, authorised and the airlock released. It usually takes five seconds but after more than triple that there is still no sign of authorisation or access being granted for him. Marus growls and allows his shoulders to drop. He’s frustrated and chews on the inside of his cheek lightly. This isn’t what he wanted, though it does strongly suggest that the Frenzy has suffered a system failure. With the airlock disabled, in whatever way that it is, that means Marus’ only option is to traverse round to the cargo bay shutter at the rear of the vessel.

The Frenzy is not a cargo vessel. Yet, it does possess a hold, unlike The Renegade, which is used for storing drilling and erection equipment. Generally this equipment consists of drills, bits, anchors, supports and lines as well as other more common and miscellaneous tools. Not the sort of target for pirates looking for a score and yet it wouldn’t be the first time they have hit a vessel like this either.

The soldier weighs up his options. In theory the only avenue he should be considering is to decouple via The Renegade manoeuvre his vessel round to the aft of the journeyman class starship. Yet, Marus feels more inclined to simply forcibly decouple the vacuum seal and take a walk. If command found out they’d be furious. But they’ll never know. After all, it’s not like I will damage the dock, newly refurbished. Plus it’ll shave off a good near ten minutes of time. While that might not sound like much it is if life is hanging in the balance, and could mean the difference between the crew on the Frenzy living and dying.

His mind is made up. He’s forcing a decouple. Marus will give the decision no more thought, so releases his grip on his sidearm and reaches up to the point where the docking tube is adhered to the hull of the Frenzy above his head. His gauntled fingers jab at the seal only to wiggle and drive, millimetre by millimetre, further upward until finally he feels he has sufficient purchase on the rim. Then he readies himself, engages the seal command for The Renegades outer airlock, which he hears slide and lock a few seconds after. Following that he heaves with all his might against the partially compromised seal. At first nothing happens. The seal resists will demands to fail. But the seals refusal doesn’t last.

Within a minute Marus achieves his goal of severing the connection between the docking tube and the Frenzy entirely. Alarms blare in his ears. It’s a safety protocol system alerting him to not just the failure but also the presence of an organic lifeform in the tube. He ignores both but wishes command would permit the termination of automated warning blasts for things like the presence of organic lifeforms. He understands why they do not, but still he’d prefer if he could. It would make his life easier as he is fully aware there is an organic lifeform in the docking tube seeing as it is him. Such things aren’t that important he reminds himself. Minor inconveniences really. Especially, now that the Frenzy is decoupled and the pitted bluish grey hull is roughly a metre ahead of him with the vacuum of space between. The Renegade having fired automated stabilising thrusters in the proceeding few seconds to stop the vessel from being pushed wildly off its set parallel alignment. Neither ship is static. They are both still tumbling through space, drifting. Just they are doing so very slowly. Barely perceptibly in fact.

Marus feels satisfaction well up from inside to know that he can still force a decouple even after the refurb. He never expected that it wouldn’t be possible and yet it’s good to know for sure. It could, and had on more than a few prior occasions, come in handy during a few touchy moments. Plus, it always served as a great bargaining tool that provided plenty of motivation to get antagonistic parties from opposite sides to quickly come to an accord so as not to end up drifting in the depths of dead space frozen and lifeless. Not that Marus would ever allow such things to reach such a climax. Though, he’d never let delegates of opposing sides of that. They had to believe he was serious.

With an easy way forward Marus pries his feet off the walkway gantry while keeping one hand securely clamped on the edge of the severed docking tube. It’ll soon begin to concertina back into the ring shaped recess of The Renegade, so prior to that Marus needs to swing himself forward and land feet first against the flat section of hull ahead of him. It doesn’t take much, two half back and forth swings of his legs, and then he releases his grip. He hurtles, more a drift really as speed in space in difficult to accurately judge due to the lack of gravity, at the Frenzy’s hull. It works perfectly and sees Marus’ magnetic boots thump, in stereo, into place on the hull. A smile splits his face, though he quickly banishes it, checks all his gear is still in place, which it is. After that he begins to survey the vessel he is stood upon. It doesn’t look damaged, even this close, though he’ll find out soon enough whether it is once he’s inside. Not wishing to waste a single moment he begins to trudge toward what he is pretty sure is the aft of the journeyman vessel.

It takes the Janus Order soldier three and half minutes to plod down the length of the Frenzy and then push himself off only to perform a spin mid-leap that ends in him being affixed to the angled ramp at the rear of the starship. Unlike other classes of vessel the Frenzy does not possess a retractable or folding cargo ramp. In many ways the presence of the fixed ramp should make Marus’ entry easier. Namely, because he won’t have to worry about circumventing any obstructions, which might on other classes of spaceship, be covering the rear access point. Though, he will be forced to decompress the cargo section. It’s unavoidable and Marus just has to hope none of the crew are present. He doesn’t like the idea that they might be but has no other choice. The Frenzy, according to the schematic he surveyed back on The Renegade, has only two points of entry. The sealed and unresponsive airlock that refused him passage and this rear cargo shutter and so with time, perhaps, being of importance he wraps his right hand around the lever release for the door. It’s an old and antiquated looking type of mechanism. It’s the kind that has is seldom seen anymore on more modern vessels and yet Marus cannot fault its simplicity. However, he does question as to why the airlock system has been updated and this not. It could easily be a cost issue. Starships are expensive to maintain and run no matter who you are and what size they come in. He envies not having to personally pick up the tab for any of the costs of his own. It’s one of the perks of being a soldier in the Janus Order.

With his hand in place Marus pushes down on the horizontal lever. At first it resists his efforts but that resistance lasts only briefly. The lever slowly descending toward the lower section of the mounting block it is fastened upon. Once the lever is fully declined there is the clear and unmistakable sound of the interior lock being disengaged and then a set of motors whirring into life to raise the door. However, the door doesn’t rise. Rather, the motors whir for a time and then stop. Marus’ brow furrows before he releases his grip on the lever. It doesn’t ratchet back into place as he would have assumed. Quite to the contrary, it stays in place. Marus nibbles on the inside of his cheek again, thinking. His eyes, brown in colour, don’t move away from the lever. It’s as if he is judging it for its failure to permit him entrance. Still, he can’t give up now. Unless, that is, he wants to cut his way into the Frenzy. He could but it wouldn’t be an agreeable option for him or for command. He’d be reprimanded for sure if he did that and so he grabs the lever and with significant difficulty drags in back up and into its starting position. There is no sound of motors whirring in response to his actions this time. He marks that as a good sign. Still, he wastes no time in forcing the lever down again. The resistance is greater on this second attempt compared to the first. Perhaps the resistance from the lever is even more so than when he’d hauled it back up and into its starting position. He can’t be sure. Plus, doesn’t consider as to why that might be. He doesn’t honestly care. He just wants, no needs, to gain access into the interior of this starship. But still nothing happens. And this time it really is nothing that he is met with as there is no sound of whirring motors. Marus sighs in frustration, throws his head back with his eyes closed and then takes in a long deep inhale. When he finally exhales almost thirty seconds later he does so at the same moment as he unfurls his eyelids. Instantly his brow furrows once more when he spots a box with a blinking light near the centre of his vision. Its presence confuses the soldier. Not because he is unaware of what it is but rather due to why it is where it is. It shouldn’t be here, he thinks to himself. After all, the box is a resistance disengage. In layman’s terms it removes the counterweights necessary for the open and close cycle of the cargo door that facilitates its use while within an atmosphere. The blinking light informs that the counterweights are engaged. They shouldn’t be. Not in space. That particular system is purely for gravitational locations. To make matters worse it should be inside the ship. On the other side of the cargo shutter and not out here or above him on what is essentially a section of the Frenzy’s hull. Its presence concerns Marus and that is without him considering that this switch is clearly receiving power, while the airlock he tried previously was not.

Regardless of his concerns, he needs to disengage the resistance counterweights if there is to be any chance of the motors opening the shutter. He just has to hope that his prior actions haven’t burnt them out. This is an older ship so it’s a real possibility, especially with how his luck has been going thus far on his mission.

That is why before long Marus pushes off against the fixed cargo ramp, disengaging his magnetic boots as he does so. For anyone not well versed in space operations that might sound horrifying and fatal, but Marus has done it many times and under much worse circumstances. Like that time he’d been under heavy fire without cover or a support vessel like The Renegade which he could remotely order to manoeuvre to his position for an extraction. Five seconds is what it takes for him to drift across to the underside section of the journeyman class starship. Once there Marus re-engages his magnetic boots and does so while shifting and turning in the vacuum of space. It looks awkward but has the desired affect and sees his boots clump, with deadened metallic thumps, as they adhere to the metal hull plating. To anyone not in the Janus Order a smile might appear across their face but for Marus it evokes no reaction. He’s more concerned with the counterweight disengage, which he hurriedly smacks with the sole of one of his magnetised boots. In response the activation light flicks off to signify the systems deactivation. That success does draw a smile to Marus’ face. It is a quickly banished expression that is seldom given time to exist and is followed right after by him kicking off against the hull. For the second time in about a minute his boots magnetism is deactivated. That lasts until he pivots once more, now that he is close to the fixed ramp, with a quick series of movements that realign him into what he would consider an upright orientation.

“Moment of truth.” The soldier utters to himself while wrenching the slightly less resistant lever back into its starting position, for what is the third time. Again there is no reaction to his efforts which he defines as good. He just hopes he gets more than a quick whir and then silence when he pushes the lever down. Only one way to find out, he says to himself in the moments prior to him ratcheting the lever down toward the fixed ramp under his feet.

Little resistance is offered, much like it had been the first time when he’d got the sound of whirring, and just like then he is met with that same sound. However, this time after the release of the internal lock there is a series of clunks and bangs. Marus waits with baited breath. His wait is short. Four seconds at most. And then the cargo door, all six metres wide and three metres high of it, begins to creep upward. Marus waits. This shutter isn’t fast. It isn’t designed to be and with the current gap being too narrow for him to have any hope of clambering through or rolling his way inside he has little other option.

That leaves him with time to think and consider. He’s already tried a remote patch to the starships onboard systems. It failed. He expected it would. Though, the failure has left him with no form of distraction to the acutely obvious truth that there is and has been no whoosh of a decompression. That is both in the form s of air sucked out in the vacuum of space as well as items. That’s a worrying sign Marus has to admit and yet he refuses to consider whether it might be ship wide or reserved solely for the cargo section. Still, it makes the counterweight system being active all the more intriguing as it would have to have been engaged from outside. For that reason alone Marus runs a system diagnostics for his Tera-3. He gets little back that might provide answers. Rather, his armours internal systems all show green, as he would expect, while the external sensors provide him with nothing that he couldn’t already see with his own two eyes.

Words In A Vacuum

It started as a whisper
Then it soon did grow
No point in changing pitcher
It will still overflow

Cause from the source of all you hate
Comes the life that you can’t shake
Do something and not pretend
That which is born cannot end
You might think stars are your master
Or maybe that gods await
But truth is you are a victim
The one that has its soul innate

So realign with the core now
Shout from the very top
Mountains are not a playground
And what you have is all you got
But that doesn’t mean a thing here
Much like this empty pose
It is just manufactured fracture
Darkness down a different road

It started as a whisper
Then it soon did grow
No point in changing pitcher
It will still overflow

Tales Of Days To Come

I taste the feast without an ounce of truth
What comes next will leave you shook
A bright green flash did blind my eyes
Then came the figure from the rise
With two long legs and a tiny skull
I couldn’t see a weapon in its mighty paw
Instead it simply gave a name
Problem is, it was beyond my frame
The words were wrong to my simple ears
So I simply stared at the shape it revealed
Then came the clap of thunders roar
I flinched so hard I cracked my jaw
But it was not what I should do
Now it knew I feared it too
Then it exploited my shock with a thought
Mimicking the sound I almost flew
Then the thing did smile all too wide
I shuddered as I stared wide eyed
Was I about to become its food?
I hoped not but I soon would know
When it started to speak in a voice quite low
Declaring that it means me no harm
Before urging that I remain calm
I asked the question that first came to mind
What do you want with my little life?
I want nought but to let you know
Were the words that out its mouth did flow
Time is short and you should repent
I rolled my eyes at this religious bent
But it scolded and demanded I listen
For if I failed this would be a void mission
So I pondered his every word
Though still I found it to be absurd
Then it turned and walked away
Another blinding flash which made me sway
I still don’t get the tale it told
In which he spoke that man would fail
But even so I note it down
Just encase it will come around
And I won’t share anymore
It will only be read if it knocks our door

In Flame

You burn today
You burn tomorrow
You burn until life is hollow

Along the path of shattered night
Roam the plains with a lack of sight
Hoping for a different lens
Doling blame out again

You burn today
You burn tomorrow
You burn until life is hollow

Bearing gifts of lies most debonaire
Planting seeds of we don’t care
The lands are turning to black ash
Kill all those who refuse this sash

You burn today
You burn tomorrow
You burn until life is hollow

Rolling hills of endless misery
Walk upon the barren sea
The salt seeps into the soul
There is no ultimate goal

You burn today
You burn tomorrow
You burn until life is hollow

Force Of Nature

In comes the storm
Are you feeling worn?
Trapped out in the rain
Tiny flecks of pain
Bouncing off the skin
Little more than paper thin

Soon it turns to ice
Stinging with every slice
Drenched to the bone
Out here all alone
Starting to feel ill
No cure by taking a pill

Winds do howl again
Ignoring everything
Whistle as they pass
Don’t care about the mass
Ripping objects free
Ignoring any thought of plea

When it finally goes
All are still in throes
Rumble like a hill
Piled up like unpaid bills
It’s when the search begins
Hope to find still living skins

World Tree

This week is different. Well in as far as the story this time isn’t Sci-Fi! I know it’s surprising. Felt like a change and so this story is very much fantasy. The idea here is that humanity are not the first species of their kind on Earth. Plus it’s short (for me) at 8,300 words. Really happy I managed to keep it from getting overly long and complicated. So I guess that’s another difference from other stories I’ve posted. To be honest I do find it harder to do fantasy as settings and story ideas do not come as easily as they do Sci-Fi. Because of that I have no idea what you’re going to get next week. But that’s jumping the gun and before that there is this story. With that I’m done waffling and so I hope you enjoy, World Tree.

Gossin is sat at his desk. It’s a simple plain wooden construction sat at the lateral centre of the room which is equally as sparsely decorated. He is facing the door, which is again a simple wooden construction with only a door knob and keyhole to denote the direction it is able to swing open into the room. From his position it would pivot right but at this time it’s closed.

At this time Gossin is busily sifting through the various documented reports that have been passed to him. It is one of his many duties as a 3rd Cleric, but that doesn’t mean he finds it any less dull even after the years he’s held this position. Flames from nearby candles serve as the only illumination he has in this wooden box of a room that is without anything that could appropriately be termed a window. That is not to say that there is no opening to the outside world, as there is. But in truth the opening is little more than a small square that is high up on the wall at his back. To make matters worse it’s offset and has for many months been covered by a shutter to stop a myriad of birds from flitting in and around the space whether he be occupying it or not. Such a thing had been a common issue when he first moved into this space a little over a year ago. Gossin still isn’t sure as to why he was given this space but at least the view when he steps outside at the end of one of his long days is a sight to behold. After all, few get a position up on the Undulating Fields. It’s a place that is about as close to the world tree as one can get without being a 1st or 2nd Cleric.

Those are positions he will never ascend to because of the combat training he embarked upon during his youth. He isn’t quite sure now why he felt so compelled to undertake the training, but something tells him it might have been to impress. He can’t fathom as to whom. It certainly wasn’t his beloved Inara. He pauses. Memories having flooded in at the mere mention, mentally, of her name. His narrow shoulders sink and the gaze of his orange eyes drift from the parchment before him to an empty space of the well-worn desks surface. They linger there, staring, until he gulps loudly. He isn’t even aware of the sigh that has passed his thin dark lips which make the slit shaped nostrils of his flat, almost nonexistent nose flare.

Gossin misses Inara greatly. It’s been nearly a decade since her death and yet he cannot say with any certainty that the pain is any less cutting than it had been in the days since her ceremonial departure. The one that saw her soul returned to Yggdrasil. The ceremony is part of his people’s custom to see those departed from this life returned to the entity that birthed them, the first forms, as the race of man defines them.

The first forms name for themselves is, or at least was once exclusively, Protoss. It’s a name Gossin rarely hears spoken anymore. Perhaps that is because it is not necessary for it to be. Though he cannot be sure of that he must admit. The race of man having had its effect in the millennia since it was birthed into this world by Yggdrasil. Yet, it is the Protoss, the first forms, from which man was then shaped, that still guard and watch over the world tree. It is the giver of life. The provider of all natures’ gifts and without it none of them would be here. Not the birds, the beasts, the trees, the grasses, glades, rivers, them or man. Many a time the first forms had expected man to want control of the tree, especially in the early days of their production, but they had not. Instead, they seemed content to get as far from the first forms, the Protoss, as possible. They said they wished to carve out a world of their own. Build with their hands. Learn using their minds. Documents from that era speak of scepticism on the part of the first forms and yet man had been true to its word.

Still, that was long ago and by all current accounts man is now much closer than they have ever been. The Protoss do not count the period immediately after the dawn of man as part of that proximity assessment. There is no need to. They were always going to be birthed under the great canopy of Yggdrasil. All things are.

Because of man’s closing proximity many first forms have wondered what their intent might be. The consensus is that they are merely doing again what they have done before, back when they left the cradle of their birth, which is to spread. They build communities. That is what man does and again it seems they wish to do that here. It seems to be the result of remembers of an older established order wishing to strike out on their own without the hindrances of things long since established.

Such things are not something the Protoss understand for they have never fractured like man seems so intent on endlessly doing. Then again the first forms also do not engage in frequent bloody war like man either.

In truth it has been almost seven centuries since one Protoss fought another. That was during the Dark Age when the first forms had forgotten who they were, where they had come from and the importance of maintaining a balance of all things. It ended when there was a clear response from Yggdrasil. That response came in the form of eruptions. These eruptions carved and scarred the land for a generation. The Protoss took it as the warning it was meant to be. A declaration made by the creator of all things that this would be their fate, their world, if they continued down their violent path. None had wanted to see their world turn to ash like it had during that generation and so conflict was laid to rest.

Following the warning and during the lands recovery the Protoss had restructured and reformed themselves into the society they are today. It’s a civilization to be proud of and the first forms very much are. Still, Gossin wishes Inara were here. He misses her terribly and can still taste the fragrance she used to dab herself with before starting every day. It clings to the back of his throat. Sometimes he finds it painful, other times it draws a smile to his lips as he remembers the good times they spent together. Today is the former as he replays her demise fearfully wishing it could have been different.

Suddenly there is a knock at the door. The sudden trio of raps pulls Gossin out of his thoughts with a start. Following a brief period of recovery he blinks and finds that he is unable to use his voice. That surprises him. Thankfully following a clearing of his throat, which is drier than he would have anticipated seeing as he hasn’t been incessantly speaking, he tries to speak again. On this attempt to speak he finds himself able to demand, “Enter.”

The reply is swift and comes in form of the door creaking open. Copious amounts of daylight spill through the widening gap as Gossin shuffles the parchments before him. They had gotten into a terrible state that was not at all befitting of a man of his station. But with them having quickly been aligned with a couple taps on the pockmarked surface of his well-worn desk, he places them off to the side. His place amongst them is marked, though to be truthful he cannot remember an ounce of what was written upon them. Such details are lost to him. He frowns frustrated by his lack of concentration, but swiftly dispels the expression so not to draw attention as a guard shuffles into the room.

Gossin isn’t sure why the moniker continues to be bestowed anymore as they guard nothing to be honest. In fact, The Might are the only protectors that carry arms and offer protection of any kind now. Whether they are proficient in their use of weaponry is another matter entirely. None of the first forms living have ever seen battle. Unlike the members of man who frequently engage in bloody scraps amongst their own for conquest of land and glory.

Such antics had long led Gossin to wonder as to why Yggdrasil does not impart the same kind of warning unto the race of man as it had the Protoss so long ago. Perhaps the world tree does not wish man to fulfil the same responsibilities as the first forms. If only they could commune with Yggdrasil like they used to. Or so the stories, long handed from generation to generation, suggest was possible. There is no way of knowing if they were truthful or fabrications morphed by the passage from one generation to the other. Gossin hopes they are true as they offer a sense of comfort that he would feel naked without and if they could, they can’t, be found to be distortions of past events.

“Cleric, I have something to bring to your attention.” The guard, a young looking Protoss with dull blue skin and purple coloured eyes says now that the door is closed and he is stood at the centre of the open space. His hands are clasped behind his back which is straight and held expertly in place. The young guards’ eyes are forward. Not looking at Gossin. Guards rarely look at Cleric’s. Some nonsense about respect that Gossin has never found any mention of but that all guards have convinced themselves, and those that continue to join their ever diminishing ranks, that is necessary. In many ways Gossin will be happy when the guards are no more. They serve little purpose other than as interruptions that break up the days of reviewing reports. At one time the reports he sifts through would have been etched by the guards own hands. Those days are gone. Fairly recently, certainly well within Gossin’s time serving as a cleric, from what he recalls of the changeover, and yet he cannot pin down exactly when. He feels that should trouble him and knows that it would have in his younger days. Now he is used to it. Apparently it is how all Protoss get once they reach a century of age. That is not to say that an end is close. Far from it as Gossin feels he still has plenty of time left within his bones.

The cleric casts his gaze over the guard before him who looks nervous. Whether the nervousness is due to being in a cleric’s presence or what this youth has to say Gossin cannot be sure. He’ll learn soon enough which it is but his impression is that it is likely a mixture of both. He finds that concerning for a number of reason. None of those reasons will be revealed to the guard at any point however. Especially, as those amongst the ranks of the guards seem to be so easily perturbed in this modern era. Gossin isn’t even sure he should term it as such seeing as they are still within an era, which is how the first forms define a period of their history. Yet, he is fully aware that for a new era to be called as such a change has to occur. There has certainly been change for the Protoss, so perhaps this should be considered a new era. He doesn’t know and finds the longer he considers it and the more seconds that pass the more it really doesn’t seem to matter. The reality is that the word has lost much of its original meaning, like most things. Having settled such thoughts in his head he replies, finally. “And what o guardian of our time needs my attention?”

Gossin despises the flowery stupidity of how he’s supposed to commune with what is essentially a glorified butler at this point. And that isn’t the cleric being cruel or superior. It’s truth. Guards do a bit of ceremonial meandering to give a public show to the rest of the Protoss but for the most part they spend their time serving clerics every whim. It’s not something that has ever interested Gossin, which is why he seldom converses with their ilk. As a result that has earned him something of a reputation as a conservative. A first form stuck in an age long passed. The truth however is that Gossin is a self-sufficient soul and gets whatever he needs. Other clerics do not. He is fully aware of that and in reality it should be they who are termed conservatives not him.

Gossin’s self-sufficiency has become especially apparent since the death of his beloved Inara. A sigh passes his lips. He isn’t aware of it and the guard, though young, is well-versed enough to not react. Still, the guard cannot help but feel perhaps he should have gone to another. He quickly shakes such an idea out of his head while going over for the eightieth time why 3rd Cleric Gossin is the man who should be informed of this. He might be a staunch Protoss with a reputation as a conservative but at least he possesses a military background. He’s one of the few remaining clerics that does and yet what Protoss call military backgrounds are little more than a short period of training and study on the subjects.

Unless that is, you are a part of The Might, but no member of that cell would ever be permitted to enter the ranks of the Clerics, the leaders of Protoss. The Might are a tool, an outdated and archaic one to many first forms, and yet the Clerics have not disbanded them. No one is sure, not even the guards, as to why that is. It was what the guards had expected to occur, or so some of the elders had muttered amongst themselves when they thought none of the younger cadets were present.

Perhaps, a small few had suggested, the Clerics know something that they do not wish to share. A prophecy or foretelling that will one day come to pass. It seems unlikely and yet few openly speak on such matters. The few times they’ve been brought to the fore have seen them swiftly and unceremoniously dismissed as a matter for another era. For many of the older guards that had been all the proof they needed of things being hidden from them. Yet, it did not stir them enough to engage in active searches as to what that something might conceivably be.

“Man is moving again. They are encroaching. Soon they will be upon our doorstep.” The young guard with the purple eyes says from beneath his uniform of dark green and grey. The egg shaped headpiece perched and affixed atop his head by ways of a thin band that passes under the Protoss’ pointed chin.

Gossin raises his four digited left hand all so he can run it along either side of his chin in a stroking motion which he repeats over and over as if he has a beard. He doesn’t, and yet it is a display meant to suggest deep thought on his part. Though, Gossin is engaging in no such thing. He doesn’t need to be. He’s heard rumblings that man is closer than ever and even if he hadn’t the reports that land on his desk each day make frequent mention of them. Sightings are becoming ever more prevalent. Why this guard looks so worried though makes little sense to the cleric, much like the uniform he is dressed in.

All this makes Gossin wish he could know answers without questions but such things are not possible and so he asks, “Why does this concern you so greatly o guardian of our time?”

The cleric really has to resist the urge to roll his eyes at the flowery addition he must affix to his question as the words pass his lips. At least, he thinks, its automatic now. His response that is, and not the roll of his eyes. He manages to stop himself performing that. The guard wouldn’t understand the roll if it were performed and that would result in questions or chatter behind his back. He wishes for neither.

“They are armed.” The guard exclaims unable to keep himself in check any longer. Not that he was doing a particularly decent job of containing himself in the first place with his rapid shaking and short sharp nasal breaths.

“And?” Gossin queries unable to see the point that this guard might be attempting to make as it is normal for man to be armed. They go everywhere armed. In fact, it would more surprising if these specimens of their species were not. And that leads the cleric to another problem he has with Guards of this modern era, which isn’t one. They aren’t brave, fearless or knowledgeable in these current times. They are simply the descendants of descendants who joined to serve because it is what their families have done since… Gossin can’t say. It’s not an affliction that he has ever been burdened with. After all, his father, Janerus, had never been a military minded man. In fact he’d been a builder. A real grafter who had spent his days hulking heavy loads and then fixing them in place with tools, or his bare hands if needs be. As a result Janerus had not been thrilled when Gossin had conveyed to him that he intended on partaking in military training. Janerus had questioned the validity of such an avenue, but Gossin had been resolute in his commitment. And while his father was not convinced in the legitimacy of the path, he had been welcoming of his sons’ determination to follow a route of his own, even when it led him to join the Clerics. Though, when that time had come they did have a falling out which lasted a good several years and saw them speak not a word to one another. Chiefly his issue was because it meant his father was unsure as to whether, with his son counted amongst them, he still had the right to whine about decisions he did not agree with, rather than having an actual issue with the position itself.

“They…Well…” The guard is lost for words. His panic has overturned his ability to speak. The sentence, the statement he had rehearsed is gone. It’s lost. He sinks saddened by his faltering and considers what his own father would think. The now retired former Guard who if he were present witnessing this pathetic display of whimpering and snivelling would bellow at the top of his lungs that he, Veritus, needs to get a grip. To spit out whatever words he has confined within his lungs like a real guard would.

“Fear… You feel afraid. It is nothing to be ashamed of.” Gossin is lying, partially. Fear itself is nothing to be ashamed of except if you’re a guard that has let your imagination run wild, like appears to be the case here. As a result the cleric has to suppress such a statement from escaping his lips as it wouldn’t be welcomed. Though, it would be truthful. Guards, at least in the eras before, were confident and capable. What exist now are the descendants of those strong types and they possess few, if any, of those qualities from what he has witnessed. Whether they have been lost to time or simply moved to others Gossin cannot say. His belief is that it is the latter as The Might would not exist if it were the former. Yet, they have not faced battle in… Gossin cannot say. It has been too long and not long enough at the same time. After all, the last thing the light blue skinned 3rd Cleric wants is to return to an era of war. Loss is hard enough to endure without pointless violence over land. That is why man fights. They want land; something to conquer and lay claim to so that they may call it their own. It is clear they have forgotten that the land belongs to the world tree, to Yggdrasil, and that they are but guests here. There are no exceptions to that truth and yet the failure of the creator to remind man of its strength and divinity over them confuses Gossin. It’s why he has been questioning the texts of old recently, and wondering if the stories contained within them hold any fact. Current events suggest they do not. Yet, the cleric cannot bring himself to abandon them. Though, his thoughts have led him to wonder what, if anything, it is that man believes in. He will likely never know as it is unlikely that a Protoss and a human will sit down around the same table to converse anytime soon. Each treats the other with a healthy dose of wariness, in his opinion, and he hopes that continues even with man being so close by.

“But they number so many, and they are so close.” The guard gulps.

“They will pass soon. Venture to greener pastures with greater expanses. That is the way of man.” Gossin says bringing the conversation, if it can be termed as such, to a close. His words are meant to placate and assure the young guard before him. A smile drifts across his thin face soon after as his fingers fall into a steeple that mirrors and point toward the also steepled roof above his head. The one that is slathered with quick pale mud to help to keep moisture and heat from making this enclosed largely empty dimly lit space cool and bearable during the summer months.

Still, the guard, Veritus, at first does not accept the 3rd Cleric’s words. Rather, he stays rooted to the spot considering the statement that has been issued to him. Seconds tick by and soon turn to more than minute. Then finally Veritus accepts, begrudgingly, what the cleric has delivered to him as a comfort. At that point Veritus bows his head in thanks, spins on his heels, still unconvinced, and shuffles to the bland wood door. Once at it he grasps a hold of the knob, twists and wrenches the flat faced yellow coloured mass of wood toward him until the opening is wide enough for him to pass through. The light of day beyond the limits of this dull interior is saturated by the brightness of the rays that lance down from high above. Veritus feels the warmth of the sun, drinks it in and then steps over the threshold, closing the door behind him.

Gossin chuckles once to himself and shakes his head as he is also not convinced by the words that have passed his lips. Yet, it was all he could do. To do anymore might have inspired further panic in the young guard, and Gossin knows well that panic spreads like wildfire. He’s seen both in his life a number of times and the similarities are clear. Still, he isn’t about to do nothing either. He has concerns of his own. They predate this exchange with the guard. Perhaps they are the result of all the reports that have passed his desk. Or perhaps they are for other reasons which he would rather not consider any deeper currently. Regardless, he’ll put in a recommendation. It’ll be ignored. They always are. That is why he’ll also do some digging of his own. Secure the help of The Might to scout where neither he, as a cleric, nor the guards will be capable. It might take months, maybe even years. That that time however will afford him the opportunity to continue his push for The Might to replace the guards. It’s what needs to happen and is long overdue.

Knife’s Edge

Burn down corruption and feel nothing
Such is the way that things must be seen
If we don’t then we’ll just fade away
Humanity was never going out any other way
If you thought it was you were fooling yourself
This species is not in good health
Just a stain upon the crust
In those words you should trust
Cause once we’re gone it does not end
The Earth will keep on spinning
Many more millennia will come and go
Before our star changes so…
Think about what we can mold
If we don’t we won’t grow old
Time is short and you have a choice
Give those options with the loudest voice
Otherwise it’s time we slide
Raise our hand and wave goodbye

So-So

Wrapped in the madness of money
Will you stop when this ain’t funny?
Roll of the dice might kill tomorrow
Hiding in the shadows you always borrow
Still scrounge for absolutely nothing
This is how you love the end that’s coming
Probing at the new contamination
Enjoying the finale of the heartless nation
Pleading for another shot at fear
Ignore what you don’t want to hear
Abandoned by your own dreams
Victory by any kind of means
Guilt left you so long ago
Demanding opportunity is so-so
Trigger to which you abide
Cutting out with overjoyed pride
Ruthless husk of a new form
Steal and cheat from the day you were born

Short

I’ll run to the end but it won’t be enough
I hold on to the cup that has become only rust
The liquid within has dried to sand
Now all that’s left is a shaking withered hand

Cry to the moons of a forgotten sky
Watch as the wilderness sees you die
Can you honestly say that you did as you wished?
Or were you simply another spinning dish

Stare to the graves of all the damned
You will join them long before the end
Cause the world keeps spinning no matter what
So don’t let life just turn to nought

Fall And Rise

Clutch,
But you don’t have too much
Grip,
When it’s already started to slip
Hold on,
Now that it’s all gone

Stand firm,
Lets see if you can learn
Be strong,
Knowing right from wrong
Do better,
Like it says in the letter

Shout loud,
Don’t be part of the crowd
Your blip,
Not a time to flip
Focus,
And just simply show us

The fall,
Isn’t the end of all
Now crawl,
Until you reach the hall
Rise up,
Drink from this plain cup

Now join,
A life better than coin
Its new,
But its a part of you
Transcend,
This is the start of something