Shots

Line them up
Knock em back
This is the new form of attack

Glass in hand
Smile so wide
Time to make the worlds collide

Prepare yourself…
While the bass goes boom
Tonight is the rising of the full moon

Weeks been long
The end will be short
Don’t want to be left with nought

Eight are down
Three to go
The room is spinning more now though

Not quitting now
I’m enjoying my night
No chance it’ll end with a fight

Instead we’ll chat…
While we party
All because we feel so mighty

So grab a drink
And join the crew
Lets celebrate this life given to you

Curiosity

Sidle up to the rusted gate
Daring to play with fate
One false move might be the end
But you’ll only know that once its penned
So try your hand and beg for mercy
Otherwise you might grow cerci
What a prize that you don’t want
The kind that will strip you of being confident

Clamber over the razor spikes
Truth is they look more like pikes
Jutting up toward the sky
One false move will unleash a cry
The kind that might just shatter glass
Not a surprise when you are crass
But that is not the point at all
And if you think it is then you’ve failed the call

Now you’re over you contemplate
Was all of this just a mistake?
But time has passed for that thought
It’s why soon you will feel frought
Especially when the curse does come
Rend you from what you believed in
Morph you into a demon
Then take away every ounce of what was once freedom

Rot Of The Rise

Hi! This week I’ve got a post-apocalyptic story (about 14,200 words long). I don’t feel comfortable calling it Sci-Fi as the technology (bar two examples which I’m not mentioning because I don’t want to give anything away) is entirely at the level of what we have now. Not got anything else to say about the story really so lets get into it.

Megarise Six is one of more than a dozen completed vestiges of humanity that litter the surface of the now human vacant world. The atmosphere has long since become too polluted for people to be able to live out in the air that they were once born into. As a result these massive towering buildings of metal, concrete and armoured half metre thick glass were constructed to save as many as it was possible to before it was too late.

Megarise Six, though the sixth of these massive slabs measuring half a square kilometre at the base and reaching up more than three hundred and fifty stories in height to hit the two kilometre mark was not the sixth to be finished. In fact, Six as it is more commonly referred to was the third Megarise to be completed. As such it is one of the oldest inhabited Megarises. And while they may have been built as the dawn of humanities next age they have never lived up to their promise. Due to technology failures, caused in part because of the swiftness with which these mammoth edifices were built, and the worsening of storms that rage across the Earth’s surface most of the annihilation protection shutters are locked tight and have been for several generations. Plus, the Megarises are no longer able to communicate and check-in with one another. Because of this, no one knows if any other Megarise still stands. Not in the literal sense but in the sense of whether they have stayed functional from a civilised perspective. In the case of Six, though it is functional many of the towers upper levels are plagued with poverty, violence and suffering.

It was always bound to happen. Humans confined in any space, no matter how large, will in the end lose patience and if no other avenues are available, resort to violence, and they did. Yet, Megarise security known as LevelSec has managed to keep relative calm amongst the vying factions that have evolved. Or to be more accurate they had until roughly forty years ago when the factions realised they had greater numbers and control over the floors they inhabited and operated on than LevelSec. With that realisation came the end to the uneasy peace that had existed up until that point and since the outbreak of endless violence the upper floors have been branded free fire no go zones for the wealthy civilians of the base floors.

Many may find it odd that the wealthiest reside at the lowest levels of the tower. However, with money came importance and because of said importance it was deemed that if humanity were ever able to venture out into the air of Earth again then it should be the ‘best’ that would go first.

The upper levels had never agreed but even with all the power the factions had built they were unable to assault and take the lower floors. The closest to ground they ever got was the hundred and first floor. There the temporarily combined factions of criminality and violence were met with the full force of LevelSec, who managed to beat them back and dissuade the factions from ever wishing to consider another such attack. Following that a truce was implemented and which still holds to this day. There is no reason to believe that it won’t. After all, the factions, who should really be referred to as gangs, are not stupid. The overwhelming force that met them was insurmountable and to attempt to retry a previous failure is tantamount to insanity, as far as they are concerned.

However, that does not mean that the factions, forever fighting amongst themselves since the bloodbath that was the failed attempt at taking the lower levels, managed to stay united. They didn’t and couldn’t. Their differences in ideals and philosophies was simply too great. Yet, one faction, a new spawn still in the early years of its life, have devised a way they think could turn the tables and permit the factions to once again unify and take on LevelSec and prevail. First, the faction known as Aksara must show the other factions that LevelSec are not unstoppable. In Aksara’s eyes that is how the other factions now see LevelSec. Yet, the factions had managed to grab more than two hundred floors from the hands of LevelSec during that uprising, which the factions refer to as Descendancy.

“Any idea as to what this briefing we’ve been summoned to is all about?” Aaron Hawk queries to his friend and LevelSec colleague Joshua Penn as the two men stride quickly down one of the near identical looking corridors of Megarise Six.

The walls are grey, fashioned from concrete and littered with overlapping posters adhered to the bare cement at random uneven angles. Many of the posters are faded and grubby, which the yellow overhead lights do nothing to hide. Apparently, the lights are supposed to mimic the glow of the sun. Neither Aaron nor Joshua can say whether that is true. It’s just what they’ve been told, their entire lives. They’ve never seen the outside world. The shutters on all but the top maybe fifty floors are sealed. Again, so they’ve been told. They’ve never been up there. As far as they know, no one from the lower levels has. At least not since the gangs staged a coup a little over four decades ago and which ended maybe three years later. That was before either of the men were born, but even the older citizens don’t seem to remember a time when visits to the summit occurred. Aaron finds it strange that no one remembers. Joshua on the other hand is a good LevelSec and accepts what he’s told and heard. He sees no reason not to. After all, what reason would now retired LevelSec officers have to lie? In his eyes none. It’s why he accepts that in their advancing years as aging human beings some of the memories from their earlier days have been lost. Aaron on the other hand has never been a good LevelSec officer. That is especially true back when he was in the academy. It’s not a life he chose. It was a life that was chosen for him, like everyone’s life, role and position chosen in the Megarise. Assigned to him because of some reason or another that he’d never really listened to or cared about, other than that his pathway was predetermined before his birth.

“Not the foggiest, so cut the chatter and let’s double time.” Joshua replies unwilling to consider why this or why that. In his eyes, blue in colour, Aaron spends entirely too much time caring about why something is happening. He should just do. It’s what a good LevelSec does and while he knows his friend resents that this life was chosen for him, it doesn’t change the fact that it’s the only one he’s got. He can’t change it. None of them can. Not the doctors, the scientists, the farmers, the shopkeepers, the other officers, none of them. And he should be thankful. If his family had not been one of the first into the tower then he’d have been stuck on the upper levels surrounded by violence and suffering. Aaron has seen it with his own eyes, not in person but through the thousands of camera feeds that dot every square millimetre of Megarise Six. It isn’t pretty. Not in the slightest.

“Yeah.” Is the overly short and incredibly unsatisfied reply that leaks from between Aaron’s lips as his amber eyes perform a quick roll and then he complies.

Aaron knows Joshua hasn’t given him an order. Though, he could. His tone sure as hell had the same edge to it that it does when he is issuing orders to lower ranks however. Joshua is a Lieutenant whereas Aaron is a Sergeant, begrudgingly. The number of arguments the two have had over how Aaron should stop questioning everything and just follow orders is innumerable but they always end the same. Why they even both engaging in the war of words neither man is sure, yet to not would feel traitorous somehow. It’s odd and Aaron cannot explain it other than to say he’s sick of it. It’s part of the reason they don’t get together as often as they used too, he thinks. In fact, today had been one of the rare occasions when they’d decided to hang and both been off-duty at the same time. That rarely happens anymore. Though, whether by coincidence or planning Aaron still isn’t sure. Something tells the LevelSec officer with the short black Mohawk that it’s the latter. Especially as a Lieutenant, Joshua has the ability to alter and reassign the roster, so he either isn’t bothering, or is so that he consistently has a reason why they can’t meet up anymore.

Aaron shoves the thoughts aside as he and Joshua rush into the briefing sector only to find it packed to the brim. Joshua and Aaron exchange glances, both of which reveal a decent helping of unease and apprehension to the other before several more LevelSec officers file in seconds prior to the security doors sliding shut. They’re silent and in a much better state than a lot of the lesser used doors on the levels Aaron has passed on his endless security sweeps.

“Ladies and Gentleman…” LevelSec Superintendant Boris Mikkelson, a man with a white head of hair and contrasting dark brown eyes, says as he stands in his ceremonial dark green uniform adorned with many sparkling medals that cover his entire left breast. In addition to the medals there is also the relevant insignia that informs everyone of his rank. It isn’t necessary. Everyone on the lower levels knows Superintendant Mikkelson. Not in person perhaps but certainly by reputation. He’s the oldest member of LevelSec and actually served, as a fresh recruit, back when the gangs had revolted. Aaron is sure that is why he ended up with the job of Superintendant. Joshua on the other hand had reasoned that it was Mikkelson’s long and highly decorated career in the agency which were but some of the reasons for his insertion to the very top of LevelSec.

“…may I have your attention?” With that command the already quiet infrequent chattering comes to an end. It is at that point Superintendant Mikkelson continues after having waited patiently with his eyes intently and furiously to scan the mass of officers before him. “First, my apologies for having to cancel leave on everyone with such short notice. I know that won’t be easy to swallow.” A round of chatter sparks up around the room, which in the dark Aaron cannot get a proper picture of. He’s sure he’s been in here before. Probably a hundred times at the least and yet he can’t be sure as to which room they’re all crammed into. Not that it matters.

The chatter quickly thins and then dies under the glaring brown eyed gaze of the Superintendant.

“However, the reason for your recall is of the upmost importance, I assure you and you all know what weight my assurances carry.” Mikkelson looks round the sea of faces all focused entirely on him as if to challenge anyone to speak out and contradict the words that have just, seconds ago, flowed from between his thin tightly pressed lips. No one does. Boris cannot say if that is because none of them have their reservations and doubts about him or whether they simply aren’t willing to voice them. No matter, he tells himself, and then continues, “I need you all to listen to what will be said next. But understand no circumstances can it leave the four walls of this room. No one can know. This is priority level Omega, understood?” His question is rhetorical. Everyone knows it and so they keep quiet. Mikkelson has been Superintendant long enough, seven years, for all officers to know when and when not to respond to something he has to say. This is one of the times when he isn’t actually after a response. It sounds like he is and for a new officer it’s an easy mistake to make, but no one, on this occasion, has made it.

“Good. I knew I could count on the men and women of the agency. So without further ado…” The Superintendant trails off but says nothing else. Rather, he nods to someone off to his right and then begins to step back, reversing the way he came when he walked out onto the raised platform that isn’t a stage but looks very much like one, to Aaron. He’d even mistakenly called it that once and got a reprimand as a result. Three days of having to clean gear in the armoury, but not the guns oh no nothing that decent. Instead, Aaron was forced to clean other officers’ armour, used for weeks without cleansing. Principally armour belonging to the inexperienced, or the on the verge of retirement. It was then that Aaron learned just how similar the two groups were. It was like both were incapable of keeping their kit in serviceable condition. The inexperienced new recruits Aaron could understand, to a point, especially as it seemed to depend on which academy they qualified, but the officers near retirement? That was just laziness. Though, to call the any of the academies that is more than a little generous. In truth they are glorified school classrooms, except they are devoted solely to those who will one day be LevelSec. Aaron had tried, during his young and most rebellious years, everything he could conceivably think of to get expelled or excluded. He didn’t want to be there. He’d had friends from before he was forced into that ‘school’ learning environment and he’d wanted to go back to them.

It didn’t work and it had been made clear to him that short of a terrorist act that caused casualties he would be a LevelSec officer and serve to protect the great Megarise Six and all its citizens no matter how severely he resisted.

Later he’d learned that that statement was itself a lie and that he wasn’t to serve all its citizens, just those of the lower level. The ones considered the cream of the crop. The best of what this massive box has to offer. That discovery had sparked another rebellious phase. Far more short lived than the first and in truth purely as a last ditch attempt to prove that he could decide his own future; he couldn’t and finally, begrudgingly, accepted his place and future in Six. Well, partly accepted it. He never truly stopped being himself. He refused too.

The academy is where he met Joshua. They didn’t get off to a good start. Josh didn’t like how Aaron always refused to conform and kept causing trouble, mainly with his questions. Even from the young age of eight Joshua was a conformist to the great machine that is Six. So the differing opinions of the two boys ended up in them getting into a fight, a physical one. Neither had won or even been in a fight before. In fact, looking back Aaron doubts it should’ve even been called a fight. More accurately he thinks it should have been termed a flail because that is all either of them really did.

 Aaron and Joshua laugh about it now but at the time it had all been very serious and yet it was what had sparked their friendship. Albeit a tenuous and often strained one filled with plenty of arguments throughout.

“Thank you Superintendant.” Chief Patrice Oxlong nods as he steps forward to take centre stage of what is not allowed to be termed a stage. In comparison to the Superintendant, Patrice is shorter, a full head, than Mikkelson, though he has thick black hair the sides of which are shaved. His green eyes scan about the room. Not the faces but the room itself. He, unlike Boris Mikkelson, isn’t looking for someone who might wish to challenge him. He feels no need. He’s well known and liked among the officers, while the Superintendant is equal parts feared and respected. And how could people not respect him. After all, he served during what the gangs call Descendancy but the citizens of the low levels term Bloody River. The name Bloody River comes from the literal streams of blood that could be seen running down the stairwells all the way to floor nineteen.

“Officers we have a grave situation.” With that the section of wall behind Chief Oxlong changes from a blank grey to an illuminated and perhaps a little blown out picture of a young man. The man has floppy blond hair that is shorter on the back and sides than it is on top, a cheeky smile, good looks and a pair of grey eyes.

Chief Oxlong takes a single deep inhale and half turns so that he is side on to the oversized image and also the gathered LevelSec officers. Following that he continues. “This is, as some of you may know, Ricardo LeBon. Son of Megarise Six’s President, Cynthia LeBon.” Patrice pauses as officers across the room exclaim and mutter to one another. That minor conversing ends when Mikkelson sends a glare out across the sea of faces.

Once silence has fallen and been left to linger for several uninterrupted seconds Chief Oxlong speaks once more. “He went missing a half day ago, but was spotted hours back on floor two thirty nine by one of our undercover intelligence agents. Sadly, the agent took a dive…” The image behind Patrice changes to that of a bloody smear, deep red in colour.

Many in the room let out sounds that are unmistakably those of repulsion and Aaron can fully understand why. It isn’t a pretty sight but he can guess how the intelligence officer ended up that way. Every sixty floors, past floor forty, there is a reception area where the twenty floors above it are exposed internally to the stories below. In plain English those twenty floors have a continuous balcony, of sorts, that looks down upon the reception level. It’s easy to fall, or throw, someone off. Its how most suicides are committed in Six, is never a pretty sight and one of the few times Aaron counts himself as fortune for being a LevelSec and not born into the life of having to be a member of the janitorial team. Not that many of the upper floors, from what he’s seen on the feeds, or heard, ever manage to keep the gangs levels in any state that could be considered something other than vile. Rubbish is piled everywhere, in every nook and unwanted cranny. Some of it food waste left to rot, most blood stains, vomit, other bodily fluids in addition to traces of narcotics like needles. Those kinds of sights are prevalent on the upper levels. It’s how the gangs keep many from dreaming up some big idea about trying to force them out, with their greater numbers, to make their neighbourhood, as they would term it, safer.

“…This was Intelligence Agent Helena Durant. She…gave her life, as you can see, to get us the intel that Ricardo is being held by the Aksara’s. I hope you will pay her the respect she deserves in whatever manner is most fitting to you.” That’s the one thing about Chief Oxlong the Superintendant cannot stand, the religion. Patrice is a devout man of the Zilon faith, and Boris is about as far as anyone could be from religious. He finds the concept an anathema, an outdated and zealous throwback to an era of humanity which led to the decadence of what caused the construction of the Megarises in the first place. If only they’d spent more time considering their actions and less on themselves, had always been his feelings toward his ancestors from the old world. Yet, he cannot argue that Chief Oxlong is a remarkably capable officer in the agency, which is why he tolerates, with difficulty, the occasional religious outburst.

With several seconds of silence having past, during which those who are believers were supposed to pay their respects and did, Patrice continues. “The Aksara’s are a relatively new addition amongst the gangs. They are still young and firebrand. Intent on bringing about change of some kind it seems. As such they care little for the established order of things and have managed to carve out a territory of thirteen floors.”

Murmurs break out amongst many of the officers. Aaron takes no part in the chatter. He doesn’t need to. Finally, this briefing, as it is clear to him now that that is what this is, is getting somewhere. He isn’t eager, he’s simply ready. Joshua on the other hand is eager and almost foaming at the mouth. He’s waited his whole life for a chance like this, to attack the gangs, push them back and show the overwhelming force of LevelSec. His eyes dazzle brilliantly as they stare, unblinking, at Chief Oxlong. Aaron doesn’t get it but says nothing. He doubts even if he did he’d manage to get through to Joshua while he’s in this state. A state which he’s never seen his friend in before this moment, but has to admit he finds unnerving. The single-mindedness of devotion to LevelSec borders on almost religious fanaticism and yet Aaron doubts the Superintendant would take issue with it. That in itself is remarkable as the man’s disdain for religious fervour is legendary. Then again, one man’s religion is another man’s occupation. In Aaron’s eyes it seems to be anyway, though he seriously doubts Superintendant Mikkelson would agree with him on that. In fact, he’d probably reprimand him and make him clean gear for the rest of his days. He isn’t an easy man to like. At least he isn’t as far as Aaron is concerned. Joshua, on the other hand, thinks he is and adores the floor he walks on. If he could Joshua would serve as a personal officer to the Superintendant. Such things are unnecessary however, but if they were Joshua would be the first to volunteer.

“Aksara seem to be led by a Matriarch, as they call her, who goes by the name Annabelle. It’s all we have of her name and her background is even more of a mystery. She simply showed up one day drenched in blood and cut through The Hand with a small group of fanatics. Took their territory and has been growing and expanding ever since. What we do know is that they are the most violent of the gangs now and pay no mind to how the old gangs wish things to be done. Yet, from what we can gather they are not an anarchist group like Inversion were.” Patrice pauses to let his orders sink in. There is a little chatter but not enough that he would make him inclined to wait for it to end before continuing. He knows the Superintendant would, but that’s his choice not Patrice’s.

“And I know you’ll all be thinking and wanting to know demands, but they haven’t issued any. In fact, we’ve heard nothing from them at all. That is why…” Chief Oxlong begins only to be cut off as Superintendant Mikkelson butts in to take over. It’s common but still viciously irritating.

“…we have to strike while the iron is hot. So red hot that its skin searing to be precise. This Aksara, or whatever they call themselves, need to understand that there is a line that should never be crossed. They seem to be unaware of that, so we, LevelSec, will remind them of their place. War will not come to Six. There will be no repeat of Bloody River. I will not allow it and neither should you.” Boris, having given his little speech, takes a deep breath and exhales. It has the desired effect and sees the previously popping veins in his neck and forehead sink back into obscurity. Yet, his left fist is curled tight and mildly shaking as it hangs down at his side almost, but not quite, hidden by the jacket of his ceremonial uniform.

“Yes, like the Superintendant has said. So with that squads Alpha One through Five get yourselves geared up and ready for a stealth assault rescue.” Are the last words, an order in truth, that leave Chief Patrice Oxlong’s mouth in the moments before the doors slide silently open and everyone begins to shuffle out.

Aaron looks to Joshua, but his friend is already rushing off, leaving him behind. He isn’t surprised, especially as Joshua is in command of Alpha Five, the last squad assigned to undertake the effort to rescue Ricardo LeBon. Aaron will, like all other LevelSec, he held in reserve and kept on standby. It’s standard operating procedure, a just-in-case line written into the manual to cover all eventualities.

Bartered And Begged

Patience is a virtue or so they say
Not quite sure why it died today
Feels like a crime might have been committed
Or maybe this is when it had to be pitted
Against the backdrop of the moment of forgot
The point at which the it became a lot
Sold in an auction to the empty room
Taken by a crook who is also a loon
With no sense left except for a bargain
That is why all they do is spout jargon
I’d say it was a shame how it all went down
Problem is not even I want to recall that frown
It was the face of disappointment embodied
A period from which this life became hobbied
Like a fleeting gem lost to the tide
Shrug it goodbye only to carry on the ride
So what is left to say is moot for all
It’s why that virtue has emerged a fool

Invert

Stop with the hate
Time to party and celebrate
But your heart of ice
Still dripping malice
What is the problem?
Leaving you solemn
Time is a clock
Ticking back to the dot
A point called zero
No reason to be the anti-hero
Just digging graves
Collecting slaves
Building on the remains
Such a shame
So just begin a pause
End the fabrication of cause
Look for a highway
Make it your way
Fashioned in joy
No more destroy

Conker

Growing high above the ground
From where I can look around
While my brothers continue to grow
Before we drop down below
As the wind rustles leaves
We will soon be cast free
Left to fall to the floor
Where we hope to be found
Claimed by a happy soul
Instead of rotting into a hole
But for the moment we gently sway
As the breeze continues merrily
While our skins become thick and green
And spikes protrude as sharp as sin
Far below the children play
Looking up expectantly
But I am nestled among the leaves
Hoping that they will pick me

Denigrated

Wrap me in plastic but don’t forget the lime
Every second chance is just a point in time
With all the vermin sitting in the courts
It’s like what is left is nothing but plagued thoughts

Host to the denigrated
What a period to be fated
Pulled from deep within the masses
Will I see past the crashes?
Or am I just another monster…
Trying to escape imposter

Stitch up all the wounds and add another drink
This room is spinning but its not reached the brink
So watch as the heavens become filled with birds
None of them are visionary as they fail with words

Host to the denigrated
What a period to be fated
Pulled from deep within the masses
Will I see past the crashes?
Or am I just another monster…
Trying to escape imposter

Versatile like a corpse that is only bone
Calcified and desperate there is no way home
Surrounded by the plague that spread itself
If you were hoping for victory you better check your health

Host to the denigrated
What a period to be fated
Pulled from deep within the masses
Will I see past the crashes?
Or am I just another monster…
Trying to escape imposter

From The Shadows

The story this week is different. It’s not Sci-Fi but is set in the very near future. I really don’t want to say much more because if I do I might ruin the surprise. It’s a shorter story again at about 10,700 words. I had intended to write something else I’d been working on but when this idea came to me I decided to run with it and write this instead. Think that’s enough from me now, so without further delay here is From The Shadows.

Eleanor is walking down the sidewalk with a hood pulled up over her brown hair, which is almost entirely hidden save for a small section around her hairline. The bulk of her hair is pushed back into the hood to stop it getting in her hazel eyes as she heads home after a long hard day of working as a waitress in a nearby restaurant in the big city.

Clouds fill the sky cutting off any hope of being able to get so much as a glimpse of the white glow that comes from the moon. As a result, on this night more than others, the glow of the street lights is essential to illuminate enough of the sidewalk so Eleanor is not at risk of tripping over its occasionally uneven and cracked surface. Why the city council insists on using slabs for the sidewalk she will never know as they never stay flat for more than maybe a couple years before subsidence and the uneven distribution of which are stepped on where cause the slabs to shift, raise and lower. A gust of wind whistles down the length of the street originating from somewhere ahead of Eleanor. Exactly where she has no way of knowing, yet it makes no difference as she raises her shoulders and braces herself moments before the gust hits her and threatens to push her back the way she’s come. Somehow she manages to hold out against the gust, but does pause for the briefest of moments before consciously pressing her pump down onto the surface below. The feeling of the cold as it hit her was biting and threatened, but thankfully failed, to pull her hood back off her head. If it had then her hood would now be messily congregated across her shoulders and the back of her neck. In turn that would have forced Eleanor to pull her chilled hands from her pockets and quickly fumble with the hood to get it back into place. It wouldn’t have been the first time she’s had to do that during her walk home, except no such thing has happened and so she quickly puts the thoughts of such inconveniences out of her mind. They serve no purpose if they don’t happen, she tells herself seconds before another gust howls her way. Too late she realises and fails to brace herself against it. As a result she is nearly knocked off her feet by the severity of the gust that actually forces her to complete halt this time.

The winds are getting worse, Eleanor thinks to herself before sighing and taking the risk to look up at the dark night sky. She can see nothing. With the light levels as low as they are and the clouds so high all she can make out is an endless mass of darkness. She wouldn’t quite call it black as to her that would seem a poor choice. Clouds at night aren’t black, they have black in them sure but also so much more like shades of grey and very dark blue. Perhaps it’s only her who imagines those colours but she doesn’t care. She’s always preferred to consider things and analyse them instead of simply make a snap judgment and move on. In her eyes there is little point in snap judgement, unless absolutely necessary, as they often result in lots of the beauty of the world being missed, and it is beautiful. She doubts anyone would be able to argue with that, but she can’t be sure seeing as there are always those that seem to be able to find negativity in everything.

With the wind no longer actively trying to blast her off her feet, Eleanor has managed to make it to the street corner. She turns left as she does every night, well six out of seven, on her way home. Her feet ache, as do her legs. The aches are from all the hours she spends on her feet, and while her job isn’t the one she would like it’s the one she’s got.

She adjusts the mask that is covering the bottom half of her face. It’s a necessity now for everyone in the world to wear with pollution having got as bad as it has. Eleanor doesn’t remember a time before having to wear the mask. Her best description of it would be that it is akin to a gas mask but somehow not at the same time seeing as a gas mask tends to cover your entire face and this does not. Eleanor hasn’t a clue how anyone could be comfortable in a gas mask. They look too light no matter who is wearing them and at the same time claustrophobic because of the limited field of view the lenses must force the wearer to contend with. This is especially so when you consider that the eye sections are raised away from the bulk of the masks surface. Just the thought of having to wear one makes her shudder, and yet she has never tried one on for herself. Not that she needs to. Such things aren’t required in her line of work, though she does understand how the older generation, who had masks introduced to them part way through their lives, would find it difficult to get along with them. Accurately judge facial expressions and emotions of anyone wearing a mask is always a nightmarish minefield.

In truth, it had taken the waitress a couple years, this was back when she was a young child, to grow accustomed to relying only on people’s eyes to judge mood and intent. Now she seldom has an issue at all, like most of her generation, but for those who had relied on seeing strangers’ facial expressions she can understand the pitfalls and annoyances of trying to adjust to something quite different.

One of the street lights above Eleanor’s head flickers. She smiles beneath her mask, not that anyone, if there was anyone present, would be able to see her smile. That is something that even she forgets now and again as it is so natural to just smile at things and people instead of always verbalising everything. Still, it can’t be helped with the world the way it is, and yet she has to admit that tonight the city seems exceptionally quiet. It’s odd but not to the point that it causes her any concern. It would her parents, if they lived in the city, but they don’t. They still live out in the fresh clean air, well it is compared to all cities air, on a small farm that her dad and brother, Gareth, run together. Her dad, Thomas, will be retiring in the next couple years. Whether they’ll move at that point Eleanor cannot say. A part of her hopes they do and find a place closer to her, but she doubts they will. They’re country folk, as her mother, Claire, says every time anyone ever brings up the prospect of relocating to the city. Still, Eleanor can hope. She has to. If she didn’t then she’d likely be crushed beneath the weight of everything going on in the world, like the wars, the murders, the natural disasters and everything else that are all a part of daily life on Earth nowadays.

Apparently, it had been very different once. Eleanor isn’t sure she really believes that as she crosses paths with a white cat that is sat on the bottom step of one of the old four storey brick apartment buildings meowing softly.

“Aren’t you precious?” The waitress in the dark green coat says to the cat. As those words pass her lips the cat looks up at her with its big round eyes.

Eleanor doesn’t stop to pet the cat however. It’s too cold. At night the temperature really drops, even in the city. It’s why she’s wrapped up warm in a big three layered coat that is zipped and buttoned all the way up to the top. In truth, the coat is a little too big for her but she bought it that way on purpose as she wanted something a little big so that more of her would be cocooned within its padded material. After all, her walk home is three miles and she can get very cold during the journey home in the evenings. Though, she would have to admit that she regrets having to wear it in the mornings on her way to work when the temperature, even a little after dawn, is uncomfortable due to the humidity. Then again that is what she gets for living in a city surrounded by desert.

The buildings around Eleanor are all old and predominantly built using brick. It’s not a material that is often used for normal buildings in the city anymore because it takes too much time to erect and demolish. And in this city things are frequently demolished to make way for the next tower of glass, or for an angular block of jagged edges meant to elicit some emotion of another. For the most part they quickly become forgotten, which is why they are torn down so frequently.

If she was asked, the waitress would gladly tell whoever that she prefers the boxy brick buildings of old. They’re pretty. Plus they age well. In comparison to the glass blocks anyway, which look disgusting once the filth in the air inevitably begins to adhere to its surfaces. Perhaps if it did so evenly it might not be so bad, but it doesn’t. It clumps together at seemingly random points and at a rate that would force the buildings to be cleaned daily if such issues wished to be avoided. Brick on the other hand changes shade over time and only really becomes noticeable, in regards to dirt and grime, when new bricks are put next to an existing wall, or when it gets into such a sorry state that it literally becomes black and mucky.

Eleanor is suddenly hit by another gust. This is one is significantly less severe than the last dozen that have assaulted her. She’s relieved about that even if it is pretty typical now that she’s turned the corner so that the wind is slamming into the other side of the buildings across the street from her. If only the waitress could say that she wouldn’t have to make another turn on her way home. Sadly that isn’t the case and she’ll be turning soon and in doing so will have the current cross wind shift back to being a head wind. To make matters worse the arrow straight street she will be forced to trudge down is the one she has to follow all the way home. She really isn’t looking forward to being buffeted for little over a mile, but it’s the quickest and safest route home. After all, this is a city and in the city not all paths are safe to be trodden. Some are risky while others are unbelievably dangerous. Those options seem to be getting more numerous and worse as days go by. Yet, she wouldn’t trade her life in the city for anything. She loves it here. It might not have been where she was born, but it is her home. She knew that as soon as she moved here into her first tiny studio apartment. That was six years ago and since then she’s moved twice. Still, her living space has barely grown. Her home now is still only a one bedroom apartment in a building called The Watchmakers Mill. It isn’t much progress on size but that is all she can afford. Still, she’s never understood the name of her building because she knows watchmakers never worked in mills. They worked in factories. So either the name is nothing more than that, a name, or at some time before or after being a watchmakers it was a mill. Eleanor has lived there for two years and still hasn’t checked the history of the building to find out. She keeps meaning too but then other, more important, things come up.

Suddenly, there is a noise of clanging metal. Eleanor jumps and whips her head round to look in the direction she’s sure the noise came from. Immediately her fears, she doesn’t quite know what she feared she might find, are squashed due to her catching sight of a couple rats scurrying away from a bin. Eleanor sighs relieved and then realising she has come to a complete halt, which she finds very embarrassing even though she is alone on the street, urges herself to resume the pumping of her legs. If the night were warmer, who is she kidding the nights are never warm, she might be willing to dawdle. But that is only a might. It’s never happened so she can’t say for sure, though she does feel on edge now and is why instead of keeping her head down, as she had before the noise, she now looks all around her. She knows it’s stupid and yet she can’t stop herself.

Eleanor reaches the street corner a few minutes later, crosses the empty road to the farthest side and carries on down what is the final leg of her journey home. The wind, now that she is walking into it again, is relentless and keeps trying, with increasing ferocity, to rip the hood off her head. Because of that she has one of her exposed hands clinging desperately to one side of the hood, desperate to keep it in place as the first spots of rain start to fall from the sky. A couple have already hit Eleanor’s hand, but the bulk of the smattering has, thus far, dripped noisily onto her hood. The sound is distinctive, unmistakable, and yet she cannot explain it with any greater detail or clarity than that. That realisation is strange and makes her chuckle, once, to herself. Something so simple being so difficult to unravel the complexities of humours her. Still, has hastens her pace. After all, there is no need to be out in a rainstorm longer than necessary. Especially when the rain is as cold and chilling as it is, and at this temperature could fairly easily turn to sleet or hail. Eleanor doesn’t fancy having her poor hand battered by sharp, stinging balls of ice. They cause no real or lasting damage, but they do sting awfully for a while, especially when they impact upon exposed skin at the rate they do and you have nowhere to shelter from them.

Eleanor isn’t alone on this street, like she had been the ones before. There are a few people milling about. They too are wearing masks and wrapped up warm against the biting wind. The difference between the waitress and those around her is simple; they haven’t got hold of their hoods desperately trying to keep them in place. Eleanor is jealous of that and wishes she too wasn’t forced to choose between exposing her hand to the rain as it continues to splatter droplets down at a now increasing frequency or risk exposing her head to the same.

The chill in her hand is made worse by the growing wetness she can feel across her skin. It makes her wish she could wipe it away. And she could, it’s just there is little point seeing as it will soon be right back to being slick with moisture once more. Plus, her keeping her hood up and head dry are far more important than the mild inconvenience of a rain soaked hand. After all, she doesn’t want to catch a cold. That is the last thing she wants in fact as it would mean a mandatory week off. That might sound strange but following a string of global virus outbreaks it was written into law that any employee showing signs of sickness would need to remain home for a week at minimum and then present the results of a test, that can be undertaken at home, to show that they are not contagious. Following that the employee is be permitted to return to work.

As a waitress Eleanor already doesn’t earn much, and most of what she does is from tips, so if she was forced to take an unintentional week off it could really negatively her ability to pay her bills and for food.

“Looks like miserable weather out tonight.” Eleanor hears a man say to a woman walking next to him as they pass going the opposite direction to the waitress.

Eleanor catches no more of the conversation, but from the single line she did she would have to agree. As if on cue the heavens open and what Eleanor can only describe as an endless blanket of water falls out of the sky. She groans and sighs to herself as she breaks into a jog. She can’t run, not in this coat, so either she has to find shelter or get home. She’d prefer it to be the latter but with almost a mile still to go she determines that shelter really would be the more appropriate option until this downpour lets up, even if only a little.

Sadly, there isn’t much cover on this street with its flat fronted buildings, most of which are cafes, restaurants or empty units that have long since had any sheltering overhangs removed to stop the homeless from sleeping in their doorways. Eleanor refuses to give up hope however and so begins turning her head this way and that until finally she spots the entrance to a narrow dimly lit alley. She’s passed dozens identical to this one on her way home, but this one, unlike others, has a fire escape which has a sheet of metal erected atop poles like a roof over the highest section of the outside series of zigzagging metal steps and levels. As a result the ground within the footprint is dry and out of the rain. Eleanor smiles, quickly calculates how safe she’ll be as alleys at night are not the best place to be lingering, even though it is only maybe a couple metres from the mouth to the edge of the street where she is stood, soaked.

Several tosses of her head from right to left and back again occur prior to the waitress concluding that it’s worth the risk to get out of this rain as it won’t be long before her coat will start to cloy to her if she stays out in this weather. I can’t have that because then I will almost certainly end up getting suck and being forced to take a week off without proper pay, she thinks to herself.

With her decision made, Eleanor makes the dozen quick strides that see her leave the hammering rain and dip into the sheltered area. Her first instinct is to exhale, relieved that she is out of the downpour, which continues to intensify. That sudden increase in the rainfall surprises her. Then she concludes that this has to be the worst storm she’s seen in the city in years. That alone suggests to the waitress that the city was long overdue something like this, yet she hasn’t a clue whether that’s true or not. It sounds good in her head she has to admit while wiping some of the water off her slick, cold hand that once only damp she shoves into her pocket. Her hope is that it will soon get some warmth, and proper feeling, back into it.

This is not how she wanted to spend part of her evening, lingering under a fire escape, and yet the waitress loves the sound of rain as it hits and bounces off whatever surface happens to be in the droplets paths. The sound alone brings a slight smile to her face, but the wind, still ever present, dampens that a little. However, Eleanor does take some solace in the fact that the wind cannot tear through her, like it had out on the street, because of the presence of the building to her right. The one the fire escape is bolted too, under which she is sheltering. Sadly, nothing can stop the cold she feels bleeding into her bones, chilling her as she stands on the spot.

A couple minutes pass during which Eleanor grows ever colder, but with the rain showing no sign of letting up she feels compelled to do something other than stand rooted to the spot. That’s why before long the waitress begins to twist the upper half of her body from side to side. She hopes the motion, as limited as it is, will generate some heat in her body to help push back the cold.

It half works she decides after a couple more minutes have elapsed, but still leaves her legs feeling cold. On top of that her knee length red skirt clings to the tops of her legs due to having got wet. The sensation is uncomfortable, though not as bad as feeling the cold air on the bottom half of her wet exposed legs. Had she known rain was forecast for today she would have brought a change of clothes, not that there is anywhere for her to change at work, except maybe the toilets. She curls up her nose at the prospect of having to get changed in those toilets. Not because they’re an eyesore of filth and decay but because she knows why most customers go in there and it is not to use the facilities, or be alone. The waitress isn’t judging the customers. After all, it’s their lives and their choice what they want to do, but doesn’t mean she wants to have her clothes touching any of those surfaces as a result.

OK, my legs are getting too cold now, Eleanor thinks moments before she starts to hop from one foot to the other to desperately halt the spread of the cold. As she does so the waitress takes note that the rain is hammering down at an almost past horizontal angle. She would have sworn that was impossible and still would if she was not seeing it with her own two eyes. And then she can’t because out of nowhere and with no warning the rain suddenly stops. Eleanor blinks confused by the fact that the rainstorm ended as suddenly as it did. Like a tap being turned off, she thinks. That seems too good to be true, which is why Eleanor makes no attempt to step from her shelter. The waitress fears that if she does the driving rain will return at the worst possible time, likely leaving her without shelter and forced to trudge home soaked and chilled to the bone.

“Hey! What you doing down here?” A male voice calls from out of nowhere making Eleanor jump out of her skin in the moments before she does a one eighty.

Having turned she finds a man wearing a big puffy black coat covering his torso, which ends roughly around his waist, as well as a pair of grey jeans. The bottom half of his face is covered by a mask, similar to her own, while his brown eyes are barely visible from below the brim of the blue cap on his head. He has his hands in his pocket and shoulders up to brace against the cold, but seems to be dry. Lucky him, Eleanor thinks wishing she could say the same.

If not for the rainstorm she would have been home by now, she thinks. She can’t be sure as she doesn’t wear a watch and is definitely not fishing about in her pocket for her phone in this weather. Risking that might see the flat slate shaped device slip from her hand and shatter against the hard concrete beneath her feet. The last thing she wants is to be without her phone and in need of a repair for it.

“Hi, I’m just sheltering from the rain.” Eleanor replies with a sweet smile that she quickly realises this man cannot see, though her tone of voice should be enough to convey that her tone is friendly and cheery.

“It’s not raining.” Is the blunt, slightly hostile reply that she gets from the man who takes a couple steps closer toward Eleanor, relaxing his shoulders as he does.

“I know. It just stopped. Do you live in this building?” Eleanor asks feeling slightly confused as to why this man is being hostile. If he does live in the building next to her that might explain his rudeness, maybe, as people in the buildings down this street do get a little tetchy about people loitering about encase they’re burglars. However, Eleanor can’t imagine that she looks like a burglar. After all, how many people have ever gone out breaking and entering with a skirt on? Her guess would be not many, if any at all. It just wouldn’t be practical.

“Where I live is none of your business, now move along.” The man pulls a hand from one of his coat pockets and gesticulates with a wave meant to reinforce his shooing words.

“Sorry, I meant no harm, I just wanted out of the rain.” Eleanor offers in explanation only for the man to take several more steps toward her. At that moment the waitress gets a bad feeling as a shiver runs down her spine. Something about him isn’t right, she thinks, but she can’t put her finger on what. Not that she has too with the rain having stopped. That’s why she begins to edge backward away from him, the shelter provided by the fire escape and the alley as a whole.

“Well the rain has passed now, so get.” The man’s brow furrows with deep ridges as he barks the words at her.

Eleanor agrees it’s time for her to leave and hastens her backpedalling away from the man who takes a few more slower steps in pursuit of her until the waitress finds herself back on the street having to apologise to a couple she almost crashed into. Right after she peers back down the alley only to find that the man is gone. Her brow furrows as her eyes probe the darkness. But she finds nothing and as the wind howls and cuts through her the waitress is reminded and compelled to scurry off heading for home once more.

Contradiction

Choose a route then change your mind
Can’t you simply pick and grind?
Walk a road without a shift
It’s beginning to make me miffed

Why can’t you just be clear?
Instead of wandering over there and here
It’s like a cloud has come down
Attempting to steal every crown

What is best for you
Might not be for me
Stop trying to convince…
That you want it identically

Say you love a single colour
Then change to yet another
At this rate they’ll be none left
A bit like all the friends bereft

It is just a simple choice
Make one then just use your voice
Shouldn’t be that hard to do
Except it seems when it is you

What is best for you
Might not be for me
Stop trying to convince…
That you want it identically

Partisan is not a crime
Unless you wish to jump the line
Make a statement then take it back
Getting sick of this track

So do something and make it yours
Not continuing to make chores
This is life and its hard enough
There’s no need to act tough

What is best for you
Might not be for me
Stop trying to convince…
That you want it identically

Dumb Criminal

Kerching, your the victim
The pickpocket system
A day late and way too short
Time to speak with a consort
But that takes cash
And you have none
Even tried to steal for fun
Never knew you were that dumb
Sat within the metal bars
The cops are laughing at your charge
While you plead, there’s been a mistake
Yeah its called your stupid intake
But still you make an excuse
Something about being robbed at Boots
Even the crooks roar and laugh
Asking how anyone can be so daft
Then comes time for your one call
But you don’t have a single soul
Too busy dreaming up new schemes
If only you’d had better dreams
But here we are and you don’t
Even the judge thinks your a joke
Sentencing takes only a line
This is your fifteenth crime
Having never consulted a lawyer
No surprise you’ll be serving time
So if you ever try this game
Remember it will only lead to pain
Instead just do the decent thing
And stop trying to play the victim