Illusionary

Getting right into it, the title should hint at potentially what might be going on in this story. Because of that I’m not going to say too much about it. Truthfully, I don’t even suggest when it is set. Be interested to see what you the readers believe is its setting. Anyway, enough from me, here is Illusionary.

“It isn’t right.” Noah declares while stood waiting for the tram. Alongside him is Felipe who has his shoulders hunched in hopes of preventing the rain sliding down his neck as he turns toward his oldest friend and asks, “What isn’t right?”

“Any of it, Felipe, any of it.” Is the sum of the reply given. No further context is forthcoming, which makes it impossible to know what this any is.

Accepting his efforts are in vain, Felipe drops his shoulders and welcomes the rain to do as it pleases. After all, it’s little more than a light spray so it’s unlikely to cause much irritation if it does go down the back of his neck.

“Look over there; you’ll soon see what I mean.” Are the words next spoken, by Noah, as though he read his friends mind. He hasn’t. He is simply too wound up to keep quiet.

The pair are the only ones stood waiting for the tram. It isn’t an unusual occurrence for them in Bannerster, at least not at the hour they depart work for it is mid-afternoon.

You see Noah and Felipe work shifts, the same shift, at a nearby factory where they operate a line which chops and cans vegetables. It’s a mundane job but pays the bills, barely.

Against his better judgement Felipe turns his attention in the direction his friend is indicating. Across the street he sees a couple, well dressed, elegant, oblivious. They are the epitome of the upper class in Bannerster, a group which neither Noah nor Felipe can count themselves amongst.

“And?” Is the reply accompanied by a weary shrug.

“And! AND! It isn’t right! We toil away on the lines, get paid peanuts, while they swan about without a care in the world. This isn’t how Bannerster is meant to be. It was supposed to be a paradise. A place for us all. Not for the same old divisions there has always been.” The disgust in Noah’s tone is unmistakable. Yet, these are complaints, ranted, that Felipe has heard many a time previously. He pays little attention to them for they are purely frustrations needing to be vented. Soon his blonde haired friend will burn himself out, like a wick left to burn too long. Hopefully, it’ll be before the tram arrives. Felipe doesn’t fancy sitting there getting stares from the other passengers because of Noah’s ravings. They aren’t the sort of thing one should shout about in open air when anyone could be listening. True, expressing opinion is not restricted but… Well, there have been stories. Not new ones either. About people who disappear from their homes in the dead of night. Potentially for having spoken too loud and one too many times in public about their frustrations with how Bannerster… Felipe doesn’t think, run, is quite the right word. Regrettably he cannot find one that better fits, so he settles on it, moves on.

“This is meant to be the seed for a new tomorrow; Equality, ingenuity, opportunity. I see none of it. At least, that is, not for any of us anyway. I see plenty for them, their ilk, breed, kind.” Each moniker for what the upper class in Bannerster can be branded is said with greater levels of disdain.

Feeling Noah isn’t anywhere close to burning out from this rant Felipe spits, “Will you stop? It doesn’t help what you’re doing.”

Surprised at his friends’ reaction Noah wears an expression of mortified alarm. Regrettably it does not stop him from asking, “Are you sick? Why should I stop? I’m at the bottom of the barrel.”

“We both are. Deal with it.”

“I am, by voicing my opinions.”The blonde man declares with pride.

A roll of the eyes is followed by Felipe grabbing his friends arm and forcibly turning him so that they are stood face-to-face, eye-to-eye.

“Which might not be a great idea in and of itself. You must’ve heard the stories.”

A chuckle belches from Noah’s cracked lips, “Of course but they are just that, stories. Don’t tell me you believe them?” A raucous laughter escapes the blonde man’s mouth. It echoes all around though the reverberations are difficult to catch amidst the other sounds of the city.

A strike to the arm by Felipe soon puts pay to Noah’s roaring.

“I’m serious. Seven people in my block have disappeared this past month. They aren’t just stories.”

“Are you really suggesting what I think?”

“I am unless you haven’t been paying attention, yes.”Comes the stern, serious reply from the other man.

“Those are very serious allegations there Felipe.”

“You don’t think I know that.” Is the swift counter by the dark haired man who is speaking in a hushed tone of voice now, his brown eyes locked on his friend.

“I never believed…”

“Well you should. I do. Now, quit your ravings.”

By chance it is at that moment the tram comes trundling toward them putting pay to their conversation, punctuated by a sideways head jut from Felipe which Noah offers no resistance to.

Once on the tram, seated and underway, Noah turns to his friend.

“Something must be done, if you are correct.”

“What did I say?”

“I know what you said, but…”

“But what?” Felipe urges to know just as a pair of large men cast long shadows over the pair.

Fearing the worst, in part as a result of the look on Noah’s face, Felipe turns. His heart sinks when he recognises the men, not personally but professionally.

Dressed in dark blue uniforms that are near black they are so dark these men can only belong to Bannersters’ Constabulary Au Secrecy. They are a step above the normal police who can, sometimes, be found on the streets. Though, in more recent years with apparent ‘restructuring’ their presence appears to have be ever diminishing. Yet, where those who had counted themselves as employees have shifted to no one is quite sure. Likely it is the Constabulary Au Secrecy, though if that is true it seems none are willing to confirm or deny. Undoubtedly the group have been seen far more frequently than used to be the case however.

Forcing a smile across his face, Felipe shoves his swelling fears down deep and asks, “What can we do for you constables?”

“Are you Noah Standings?” The marginally less gruff looking of the pair replies ignoring the question to issue his own.

Unsure on how to answer, because if Felipe says no then it is clear the other man with him must be, which he is, he settles on saying nothing.

“We require an answer.” The other constable soon pipes up with a darkening look on his face.

“Th-that’s me.” Noah informs raising a shaky hand.

His previous bravado is gone, evaporated.

“Move, you need to come with us.” The first instruction is aimed toward Felipe, the second Noah.

“What’s this about?” Is the query from the blonde man who cannot help but feel the eyes from all the other passengers riding the tram, except those belonging to his friend, upon him.

“Just move it.” The grumpier one of the pair demands clearly short on patience, further proven when the shaking Noah moves too slowly and is grabbed by the arm and wrenched into the trams aisle. A wide avenue that separates the two columns of seats down either side of the track based public transport which is the principal form of locomotion around Bannerster, other than cycling or walking.

“Please, that hurts.” Is the whimper from the apprehended man who offers no resistance other than verbal for fear he might be beaten in broad daylight if he dare.

Feeling a compulsion to do something to help his friend, Felipe makes efforts to rise from his seat. The other constable dissuades him by forcibly keeping hold of his shoulder, pressing him down into his chosen seat. No words are exchanged. In fact the constable doesn’t even look at Felipe. That is until Noah and his other constable are off the tram, at which point he offers a twisted smile-snarl, releases his grip on Felipe’s shoulder and quickly departs.

No sooner is the second constable off the tram than it resumes its journey. Panic-stricken and fearful of what might become of his oldest friend, without any consideration for the display he might cause, the dark haired man rushes to the front of the tram.

“You need to stop, let me off.” Is his declaration upon arrival.

The driver offers no reply, much like he makes no efforts to slow or bring the tram to a halt.

“Did you not hear me, I need to get off!” Felipe’s voice is shrill.

Slowly the driver turns his head and then looks up at Felipe.

“Sorry sir, no can do.”

“Why not?” Is all Felipe manages to offer in reply, which is much less than he had planned. Seeing as he was intending to offer a reasoning as to why he is making such a demand.

“Authority says I can only pull up at designated stops, planned and marked.”

The line sounds rehearsed, as if the tram driver has been asked the question a thousand times previously.

Panting in disbelief, his breathing short and loud, Felipe manages to fire back, “You stopped but a minute ago. Isn’t that the same?”

“No sir.” Is all that is offered alongside a slow side to side shake of the drivers head. Apparently no elaboration is to be given.

“Why?”

Turning his attention back to the dark haired man, sweating and trembling, who is stood close to the glass that all which separates them, the tram driver answers, “Because they were constables and I have to do what they demand.”

“They want you not to stop?”

No answer is forthcoming. In fact the driver ignores Felipe. It’s as if he is pretending the dark haired man is no longer stood there. Even when he asks other questions the ruse is maintained and no response provided.

Defeated, Felipe shrinks, turns, sees the eyes upon him and slinks back to his seat.

Not everyone is looking his way, just the bourgeois, the rich, the wealthy, the upper class, whatever name you prefer to call them.

In Bannerster it tends to be bourgeois for reasons he isn’t aware of. It could very well be a fashionable thing. Regardless, they are focused on him, staring. It makes him wonder if at any moment he may too get a visit from the Constabulary Au Secrecy.

Would it be better if he did? He doesn’t know. Part of him thinks yes, because he might have the chance to locate Noah. Another part of him swears it isn’t; that we could not help his friend if he too were carted off. To where? He cannot say. If he were one of them he might.

He wonders if he knows anyone in the constabulary. He doesn’t. That is the conclusion he reaches as the bell is rung to signify the tram is approaching its next stop.

I’ll get off here, retrace my steps, go looking for… What do you hope to find? They could be long gone.

Frustrated, Felipe gets off the tram, looks up and down the street, spies only the bourgeois who Noah holds such contempt for and then… His eyes fall on more constables. The dark haired man gulps. They have to be coming for him. There can be no question. Otherwise the timing is too…

The constables accost a woman. She is dressed in similar fatigues to Felipe, her hair stained with grease. She protests in vain with the rich watching as she is forcibly marched away just like Noah was.

Panic, at wholly new kind, leaps into Felipe’s throat.

What is happening?

Convinced the street is not the place to be, without understanding why, Felipe makes haste for home. Its close but he’ll take the back way so he can stay semi-hidden.

Usually he wouldn’t dream of it for it reeks of guilt. But with what he has seen in the last eight minutes feeling guilty for using back alleys is not something that worries him, Bannerster is what does. The city is changing and not for the better.

You knew this! You ignored it! Pretended you didn’t see! Everyone has!

He urges his internal ramblings to silence, to spare him their damnation, their judgement. It doesn’t work, though they mercifully prove unable to thwart his retreat to safety. Well, he hopes its safety. It is his home after all, so in his mind it should be safe.

But is it? Or is that only a hope? Maybe it’s a dream, a lie? Perhaps you are not safe in any place that you know of.

Shut up. Shut up. Shut up!

Locking his front door, Felipe breathes an enormous sigh of relief as he stands with his back against his door adorned with four locks. Not something he had installed. That was how it was when he moved in. Until this moment he’d always hated having so many locks. For some reason they now provide him a modicum, nothing more than that, of comfort.

Sadly, his nerves do not appear willing to calm. It’s because his mind refuses to stop whirring, and so he stumbles into his kitchenette. He ignores the kettle, his preferred drink of choice, grabs a glass he hadn’t had time to ferret away to its place in the cupboard before his shift, shoves it under the tap and spins it. Water soon jets out in a violent rush. The glass fills in seconds only to then spurt a cascade over the edge when Felipe fails to spin the tap back the other way.

Ignoring the wet over his right hand he withdraws the glass from under the fast running water and presses the glass to his lips. Quickly he gulps down the contents. It’s cool but does little to ease his thirst he feels and so again he shoves the glass under the tap. More water goes spurting violently all around the sink bowl. Some of it splashes Felipe who is oblivious.

He extinguishes the tap, then proceeds to gorge himself on this second helping of water. It lasts seldom longer than the first. When it is spent and dry however the dark haired man does feel better. He cannot say how much, just that he does.

Plonking the glass down on the draining board, Felipe braces his arms against the edge of the counter. He’s starting to feel light-headed which leaves him to wonders if it’s the result of having drunk too much too quick. He doesn’t care. He needed it.

When finally the sensation passes, the dark haired man can manage only to shake his head from side-to-side in disbelief.

Blue Rose

Petals of azure.
Have to say still not sure.
A spring in the step.
Placing your bet.
Thorns on the shaft.
Moments being daft.
Hue of lime green.
I’m feeling mean.
Stab through the skin.
Calling it a win.

Soon it will wilt.
Months filled with guilt.
End of an era.
Never been clearer.
Loss of the leaves.
Stolen by thieves.
Dance on the wind.
Obsessed ’til sinned.
Withering away.
Natures finality.

Manipulation

So frequent are the claims that I don’t belong.
I’ve started to hear it in every birds sweet song.
A ripple deep inside that’s beginning to shift.
Once it blooms it’ll be the worst kind of gift.

But you won’t back down,
And can’t seem to quit;
Each day I’m becoming more sickened by it.

Exclusion for reasons never quite explained.
No ground for me in this place will ever be gained.
Just paralysis caused by outside confines.
If only some of you had some spines.

But you won’t shut up,
Or even dare to admit;
That these actions are a targeted hit.

Pull the plug this is not for me.
This pound of flesh can come from somebody…
Else that isn’t being butchered for the fun.
Never should you be calling me hun.
I’m not your puppet on thin strings.
Won’t commit to your madness on false wings.
If you want a twin then look elsewhere.
No longer will my eyes be there to stare.
Meet your every command and will.
I’m free now since taking that pill.
Call me coward or even fool.
At least I will no longer be your tool.

Cause you couldn’t call cut,
Just kept me in a pit;
No longer will I have to feed on your spit.

Forever Hate

Sodden with an air of: who wants to be here in this pit?
Reality is no one wishes to join and be a part of it.
Can’t say I blame them for not wanting that at all.
Twinning might just drag them down in the fall.
A second space without a hint of beauty.
Too many noses turned up being snooty.

With judgement rendered by the dregs,
Think they are desperate for their meds.
Dosage against what they self-inflicted.
Refusing to be aware of what they depicted.
Their own demise and the rise of forever hate.
No wish to admit that they made the gravest mistake.

Cycle unending until that is proven wrong.
It’ll take time for it to become so far gone.
But when trees are aflame and the ground is torn,
Those will be the moments when it’ll be right to mourn,
Amongst the carcasses and angry crows,
Headstones bathe the fields as they stand crooked in rows.

Puncture to the formula of what was said to be the plan.
The ‘greatest’ of all decided it was time they ran.
Took to shelter in the mud and thought themselves to be safe.
Truth is they only branded their futures as a waif.
Wrapping rotten flesh around the downward spiral.
Words out of mouths only now seem to be viral.

Cackled cauldrons upon septic battlefields.
There is no more life left that can yield.
Dust and ash is the scenery that stands strong.
It’s painful not unlike the stabbing of a prong.
Lancing into the gut of what could have been.
Now it is ruptured and spent like a burst spleen.

Shrivel And Snivel

Shrivel these words you snivel.
Every line out your mouth is drivel.
Pivoting just to cause a row.
Still wondering why and how.
It makes little sense to anybody.
Yet sounds like it may be your hobby.
Sad state of affairs.
Pointless to force others into tears.
THough bully would be a better label.
Your past is made from fable.
Not an ounce of truth or compassion.
Behind backs you are always trashing.
Until someone gets in your face.
Then you shrink and try to replace…
Claim that they have it all wrong.
That you called them strong.
But your eyes are the tell.
Get you condemned to hell.
No skin off my nose.
Won’t have to listen to your false woes.
Which is why we will continue to say;
You need to get some real help baby.
Not drag around and pull down…
Every soul to join your frown.
No more time to deal with it.
It’s why we have settled to split.
But before we depart one last thing:
You are not a princess to a king.

Inaugural

Hey, the first story of May. OK that rhymed and wasn’t intentional. Anyway, the story this week is one that changed quite a bit from the idea to what it is now. That’s because I sort of envisioned it as more comedy, but didn’t come out like that as it was being written. Reality is, I don’t think I can write comedy. Which is fine. It is what it is. Anyway, this is a story about aliens. Wow, so original. Well, no but it was fun. I also used a couple other bits that had been floating around for a while, like some made-up words as the alien language. I could go into more detail but I’d probably spoil the whole story, so I’m not going to. Have fun!

Screeching of alarms, the kind that alert of impending fatality, deafen the inside of the plummeting space-faring vessel as it spirals toward whatever rock it might be that the would-be captain and sole member of the crew fired it toward.

Odzok thinks of no such things as he glides back and forth from sparking console to darkened panel jabbing and slapping at every option presented to him. Truth is he hasn’t a clue what he’s doing. He isn’t a pilot. He was a worker. Only reason he is here, on this ship, is because the ancient hunters of his people returned for the last culling and Odzok didn’t want to suffer such a fate. It’s why he stole this ship. Yet, can it be considered stealing if your civilization is in ruins, being systematically eradicated? He thinks not.

None of that aids him now. Nor does it soften the impending fear that soon, if he doesn’t manage to achieve some victory, he will be as dead as his neighbours who waited for their ends at the hands of the Grand Bipeds. A nickname for the Nazarine, a species of towering bipedal aliens who for countless eons have invaded and slaughtered the Jaltot, the species of which Odzok is a member of.

Suddenly the alarms abate. Odzok breathes a sigh of relief from between his vertical lips. He believes himself safe. Danger averted. No idea how but it matters little for survival is the key. Sadly, no sooner has such a thought shot through his mind then a new set of alerts blare.

Immediately Odzok concludes he preferred the sirens with their deafening volume to the frantic repetition in the tongue of his people.

I might be the last, is all he manages to think in the moment prior to the bulky seed shaped vessel silver and ochre punching belly first into the ground sending an enormous eruption of dirt and stones spewing high into the air like a fountain. This same high flung debris obscures the ship and its spiral roll spin which sends it careening across the land creating a deep carved wound until a rock formation deflects and sends it ricocheting off partially back the way it came, spinning like a bullet, throwing Odzok round and round inside.

The poor alien of two foot seven had been unable to grasp a hold of anything sufficient enough to endure against the forces being exerted. However, he did mercifully pass out as a result but a few fractions into the ordeal, due to the excessive forces that were exerted upon his body.

Having carved a path that bisects the initial trench first hewn through the wide open space of what had once been a combination of grass and crop fields, the ruined vessel finally comes to rest, somehow on its nose, a wide stubby affair.

Inside Odzok lies motionless with sparks firing, tubes crumpled, wires drooping like lazy snakes soaking up the midday sun. Outside light is falling fast as the single yellow sun slides below the horizon to signify the end of another day.

“Did you hear that?” Benjy exclaims with delight, his arms high and wide as he leaps repeatedly up and down with excitement.

“How could we not?” Linara replies with more than a tad of sarcasm, learned not fully understood.

“Sounded like an earthquake!” Says the bespectacled Ewan in the seconds prior to him re-enacting it with little comparison to what was actually heard by the trio of children all aged between nine and eleven.

“Not like that, like this!” Is the prelude to Benjy too joining in on giving his own interpretation of the sound.

It too has little in common but Ewan does concede, silently, that Benjy’s attempt was the better one before moving on by suggesting, “Let’s go see what it was!”

“No! Are you mad?” Linara replies with a chastising tone she learned from her grandmother. The look to accompany her words is far less convincing as it betrays hints of intrigue from the girl with short brown hair whose arms are folded neatly across her chest clad in a loose fitting tatty vest, grey in colour to contrast with her brown shorts and rugged black boots.

“Come on, like you don’t wanna look, Lin.” Benjy, the mouthy one of the trio, shouts back because he’s already broken into a run in the direction he thinks the massive sets of booms and roars came from.

“Huh. Boys.” Linara blurts with a deep sigh, her shoulders dropping as she wonders why on earth she ever thought it a good idea to hang out with these two, especially since she is the oldest. Alas, the reality is she’s new in Hallbrook County and the first, only, people her age who had been willing to introduce themselves were Benjy and Ewan. She understands now, a week into being in the county, why there is only the two of them. They’re the weird kids, the outcasts and now she’s almost certainly considered to be one too. Fitting, for Linara has never really fit in anywhere. Principally that is because she is never anywhere for long enough to have chance to fit in. Likely it’ll happen again, probably in a couple months; though it could be less, as little as a few weeks. It’s why she isn’t worried about being counted amongst the outcasts. If things were different, if her mom didn’t have to keep moving them all over the map then she might think differently but…

“Are you coming, Lin?” Ewan, your typical quiet until he is overly excited sort of child, asks while stood roughly beside the young girl with short hair. By contrast Ewan has longer hair, gold in colour, with a pair of mismatched eyes, brown and green.

“You two are so slow! Come on.” Benjy the long dark haired self-appointed ‘leader’ of the group roars having slowed to a walk, which he is now performing backward with hands cupped around his mouth to amplify the demands he is issuing back to his friends suggesting they make haste.

It’s almost as if he thinks whatever caused all the racket is going to disappear, vanish. Yet, he hasn’t the foggiest as to what might have resulted in such a monstrous cacophony. An earthquake seems like a sound bet, though can you see the result of a quake? He doesn’t know. At ten, just seeing as his birthday was a few days ago which made him the oldest until Linara came along, he’s never seen an earthquake.

When he found out he wasn’t the oldest anymore he was far from thrilled. He’d always been the oldest and thought he might be supplanted as decision maker as a result. Thankfully, Linara had been in no way inclined in such a manner, as yet.

“Isn’t Benjy worried it might be dangerous?” The pouting eleven year old asks with hands on her hips.

“I don’t think so, but do you think it will be? Dangerous I mean.”

Looking Ewan in the eye Linara immediately regrets her choice of words for as well as being quiet the youngest, by 2 weeks, is also the one who is most fearful. She knew that but didn’t think before opening her mouth. It’s why she quickly forces a smile upon her face and assures, “It’ll be fine. We’re together.”

A smile appears across Ewan’s face. Thankfully, it doesn’t take much to reassure him but boy does he need it periodically once his uncertainty sets in. It’s probably why he used to get picked on all the time at school. That was until Linara arrived and made the bully of bullies eat his own fist a few days ago.

A smile rips across her face recalling that ‘fight.’ Not only did the boy, bigger than her in every dimension, not want to hit a girl, he looked flabbergasted when she deftly inserted herself between him and Ewan, grabbed his fist and forced it back, hard, into his own face. Since then he’s steered well clear. Unlikely it’ll be forever but something is better than nothing she thinks.

“Time we get going, don’t want Benjy having all the fun, do we?” Is the encouragement Linara provides breaking into a jog.

Her statement has the desired effect as Ewan quickly catches up and then rushes past, determined not to be left behind. Laughing, Linara too speeds up the pumping of her legs over the uneven ground, not a care in the world they crest the hill, exhausted, and… stop.

Jaws hanging lose, mouths gaping, Benjy, Linara and Ewan stand in an unintentional neat little row across the hills peak looking down at the devastation that has been wrought across two conjoined fields.

“Uuuuuum, I don’t think an earthquake did this.” The youngest of the trio manages between stutters and worried pauses while he fidgets nervously.

“I think you’re right Ewan.”

Ignoring the flow of conversation Benjy announces, “Let’s get a closer look.”

“Wait, it might not be…” It’s too late the long black haired boy of barely ten is gone; barrelling down the steep incline of the hill toward the devastation.

The sight is unlike anything Linara has seen previously in her short life. At least without massive machines, dozens of them, being present, and you would know if they were because of their size; impossible to hide.

“We should go after him, shouldn’t we?” A concerned sounding Ewan asks, his voice little more than a squeak.

“Yeah.” The girl admits with trepidation of her own.

“Think it’s safe too?”

Turning to lock eyes with Ewan, Linara replies honestly, “Wish I knew.”

Resignation appears on the young blonde boys face. It makes him look older. Linara can well imagine that as the years go by Ewan might end up looking older than he is due to all his worrying. Doubtful she’ll see it. She’ll more than likely be long gone before that happens. Sadness, large and heavy, materialises in her gut. It weighs her down. She hasn’t felt this in a long time, since she was six or seven when she’d had to first start moving from one place to another because of her mom’s work. The girl barely recalls those friends she was so upset about losing. Admitting that only adds to the pain she feels. It’s part of the reason her and her mom barely speak anymore. Not that they get much chance with how little they see of one another.

Maybe it would be different if her dad were still around. Linara never met him, at least that she can recall anyway and her mother refuses to discuss him other than to say he died abroad helping others. Not much to go on and without a name it’s been close to impossible for her to dig anything up. Her mom doesn’t even seem to have photos of him, so Linara hasn’t a clue what her dad looked like.

“It’s going to be OK, Ewan. Benjy will be fine. We all will. Plus, I know you want to find out as much as I do what did this.”

Encouraging the shy quiet boy has the desired effect as he a smirk appears across one side of his face. It’s an unsurprising revelation but a welcome one, plus it distracts her from the anger she feels welling up inside of her toward her mom’s lack of transparency on the matter of her father. She has a right to know who he was, what he did, how he died.

“Let’s get going then.” Linara commands with a gesturing jab of her head a few short moments prior to them both beginning the descent.

In no way could said descent be called controlled as both children hurl themselves down the hill in pursuit of their long haired friend, and hopefully answers as to what made this mess too.

Fighting Through

Ball my fists and raise them up.
Preparation for the snub.
Slice aimed to severely wound.
In this place hope feels doomed.
But call me stubborn, call me dumb.
I refuse to turn and run.
Fought this far and I’ll do more.
All to get through the door.
Beyond which peace does lie,
It’s where serenity can never die.
Might sound too good to be true,
But I’ll take it over this and you.
Cause I’ve been beaten down and strung out;
Since all that I have no doubt,
That these ways are not for me,
With my actions I’ll make you see.
Not that I think you’ll sit and watch.
As all you want is to earn a notch.
Upon the belt you wear so proud.
And put on show to any crowd.
But behind closed doors it is a tool,
You use it to be so cruel.
Lash out and make us limp.
Scream about how we are wimps.
No longer could I bear the noise,
Or your lack of decorum and poise.
So I challenge you to be a man.
Not simply act like you think you can.
Though you should know I’ll get through.
I’ll survive this, them and you.
So don’t believe that you have won.
For my fight has only just begun.

Somber

Somber is the evening air,
A place so low even darkness won’t go there.
And then a strike of lightning flares,
Filling the sky with copious glare.
The cackle of thunder soon does follow.
All to mark the next crack, so hollow.
But nothing is ever quite the same.
There lies missing an important name.
Without them present all seems lost,
Cutting back freedom has a cost.
Yet not in halls of ash do we lay.
For there are demons still to pay.
And the strike of the drum is so foreboding.
Time to take an oath to prevent eroding;
Damning down the lightless path,
Except for the bursts from the skies wrath.
Now lay the wreath at the base of the plinth.
Upon this rock lies the headstone thats his.

Declaration to his days.
Spent them in his own ways.

Judgement is gone from the lives of the departed.
For they now tread a place not charted.
By the bodies of the living and alive,
That place is not somewhere they can thrive.
Yet one day we all shall take it.
Tread down these halls empty and vacant.

Hereafter

Time waits for no man.
Stretch out your open hand.
Welcome in the new age.
Don’t get stuck on one page.

Cause life is short and it’s worth living;
One day you’re young and the next you’re giving…
Advice to your teenage kids.
And no there is no taking bids;
On what’ll succeed and what’ll fail.
All that matters is too prevail.
Live the best damn life that you can achieve.
All so when it’s your time to leave…
You can say it was yours and you have no regrets.
It was never about all the assets.
Knowledge and experience matter more.
Everything else is just left at the door.
So if you’re happy and smiling wide;
Then you are on the victorious ride.
Remember the joys, the grins, the laughter.
They are what continues in the hereafter.

Round And Round And Down

Spiral round and round and down;
Take the pathway to the town.
Then sit upon the empty bench;
Under the dark clouds that drench,
While puddles grow around your form.
More and more of them do spawn.
Before the wind comes cutting through.
It ignores the layers that cover you.
Chills without a hint of pause.
Snapping just like a set of jaws.
Then it dies to give way to rain.
All of it is coming down again.
Not a glimpse or a glimmer;
That this day may soon be a winner.
Just a rotten soaking pour.
One that is reaching to your core.
But bothered it seems you are not.
You look happy with your lot.
For the air is fresh if not chilly.
And you feel like a water lily.
So you remain and watch the world.
As all it’s beauty is unfurled.
Then when your fill has been met.
Up you stand and off you get.
Heading back to your home.
To climb that spiral which is known.