Monster In Our Midst

Yay we’ve got to the end of April. Might not sound like an achievement but it feels like one as writing has been slower for me recently. Still, I’m proud I’ve got here. Anyway, to the reason as to why we’re here, the story. It’s a mixture of Sci-Fi and fantasy. Not something I’ve really done previously, much like I don’t often not explain the overarching world but this is one of those times. I did that mainly because I wanted this tale to be more about the events then the universe it takes place in. But that is all you’re getting from me. If you want to know more you’ll have to read on. Enjoy!

In his youth Sascha Numerov had walked the roads of the world searching for… well, he didn’t know other than to say something. Perhaps it was a cause, a purpose, a calling. Whatever the reason was that was why he walked all over Qwervee.

To pay his way he would undertake jobs. Some were peaceful, simple things like mending doors and gates while others were disposing of… let’s just say less than favourable souls who took pleasure in the suffering of others.

Before he took to this nomadic life he’d trained in combat. He never did become a soldier but he was more than proficient with most weapons that might be laid out before him. But as to why exactly well that is a different story entirely; one that will not be told here, today.

It was on these travels across and over the lands of kingdoms, fifes and republics that Sascha came across a village. If he were given a map he would not be capable of pointing it out and expected it was too small to be marked.

Such is often the case with these quaint communities which dot the land comprising far more of the worlds populace than the big cities behind their walls of rough hewn stone. That might change one day but Sascha cannot say for sure that it will. People like space after all and the cities offer so little. Yet, more flock to them all the time. In a fashion that suggests the numbers might be endless. They are not but appearances can be deceiving, especially on busy days or following struggles and conflicts.

This village however, felt different from the moment he set eyes upon it from a not very great distance.

Where others, most he had ventured through, were bustling places filled with life, joy and people grafting hard as they work. This village, Ptunem, could be no further from that for the settlers skulked around, gazes averted, heads lowered. If their clothes were not so ragged and torn he might not have been aware of their skeletal bodies either.

On several occasions he tried to introduce himself to a number of the inhabitants. All of them ignored or quickly scurried away as if he were cursed, diseased. One in particular quaked in fear as if Sascha were about to strike him with malice. He was not. He had no reason to.

Not long after he caught a whiff of the air, it smelt of fear. He should’ve known from the moment he arrived but hadn’t. That was a failure on his part. Though, as to what the people were fearful of he could not say, did not know. As far as he could see the village held no keep or palace; the common seats of dictatorial power which aid oppression and subjugation. The very same entities which are believed to have led to the downfall of civilization until it was back at its early roots, forcing it to build and grow once more, except now in the shadows of the ruins of before.

Sascha has never concerned himself with the before. Those days are long gone, dead, but sadly not quite buried. Perhaps it would be easier if they were, though he is not sure.

Alas, the world is the way that it is. Though, with the speed at which many of the ruins of before have been falling as of late it is possible that few reminders will remain soon. That, he thinks, might be for the best.

Anyway, with the people of the village adamant about refusing to acknowledge his existence, Sascha continued on. For while help is something he freely offers it can only be done so if it and he are welcomed. It was clear these villagers did not welcome an iota about him and so he settled on pushing through.

Soon he’d be out the other side able to continue on his journey. It didn’t feel right but…

Before he could leave Ptunem there was a call that drew his attention. If he were to describe it he would’ve said it was somewhere between a whistle and a click. Oddest sound he ever did hear. If it hadn’t been it would likely have never registered with him for its volume was so unbelievably low. It was a miracle it ever reached his ears and yet it did.

In reaction to said sound his head swung right to find a shape lodged into a narrow gap shaded by the palm leaves of the roofs of the villages’ shacks. Without delay the shape beckoned him over with a gesture. If anyone else saw this shape they ignored it. Perhaps a little too well if Sascha were honest. Still he held no fear, only curiosity, and so with that trudged over to the narrow gap at times thinking himself mad for the mass in the shade regularly disappeared and reappeared during his approach.

That had to be an optical illusion, a trick of the mind. Probably also meant it was purposeful too; a way of hiding their presence in case anyone with prying eyes might grow too curious as to why a stranger is walking toward a narrow slit between two unremarkable buildings they have no business with.

It struck the wanderer that if he were omnispective the strangest thing would be the lack of interest from those around in him venturing toward a space between the two buildings. Hell, even as a member of the community it would strike him as odd, truth-be-told.

“You are not from round these parts, yes?” The voice said from beneath a long hood covering much of their face but doing nothing to hide the deep wrinkles and skin folds around the base of their neck.

“That is right.”

Try as he might Sascha’s replies have always sounded far more official than is necessary. What comes from having grown up being trained in duty and the art of combat, he thinks. Still, it surprises him that it’s a habit, learned and practiced, he has never fallen out or away from. He often wonders if others have or if they like him are too practiced to be rid of such things.

“Do you think this a strange question?” The shape says raising their head as if to look at the traveller but only managing to reveal, whether that is their intention or not, a glimpse at their pointed chin and cracked lips.

Dehydration, an affliction Sascha has, at times, known far too well for his liking. Though from him the sight illicits no physical reaction for he is used too much worse sights. However, he would’ve been lying if he did not admit the time it would take to sink to such a level of suffering stirred feelings deep within him, for he was brought up with a code. The highest tenet of said code being that the innocent should not suffer at the hands of others. From what he has glimpsed thus far this suffering is not natural, it is enforced for he has spotted plenty of food stuffs. Enough to feed all he has seen several times over and with no sight of rot or malnourishment to indicate that crops might be failing, yields low.

All this makes in more perplexing as to whom, from where and exactly how this oppression might be occurring. It is a reminder to him that there are things in this world he does not yet know. As a child that would’ve seemed ridiculous with all the study he undertook, but with advancing years comes the realisation that what any one person knows is only a fraction of what exists.

Is that why I took to the roads of Qwervee, he wonders while issuing his reply, “I do not.”

“Are you a warrior?” The shrouded shape blurts quite uncharacteristically yet obviously referring to the heavy repeater slung across his back.

A shake of the head is followed by, “I am but one man who walks this world.”

“For what reason? It does not matter, I’m sorry. But you know how to use that weapon, yes?” The sudden shift from curiosity to desire is jarring, as if an internal conflict is pulling the figure in different directions.

“I would not carry it if I did not.” Comes the honest, succinct and frank reply from the man on the road.

“Then you might be what we need most here in Ptunem.”

There is hope in that statement, an abundance of it. Nevertheless it sounds strange, not to his ears but rather as if the figure had lost and forgotten such a thing existed. It’s why in reply Sascha at first raises an eyebrow high and then utters, “And that is?”

He is curious, intrigued, interested in what it is the people of Ptunem, which he assumes is the name of this village, might require of him.

“Aid. We need aid. We are starving, suffering and cannot take much more. Will you help us?”

The tone is pleading, desperate. Clearly they are sincere with their request.

The shapes hands, wrinkled and pale, shake as they reach toward Sascha. They never reach him; they stop short, hold in the air continuing to tremble.

Finally the villager has shifted enough to showcase their eyes. One is bright and gleaming through the shadows of the hood, the other is dull.

“I have no food, nothing to give.”

The hooded figure shakes their head with a mild look of surprise upon their face.

“We want no supplies, only your skills. If you are speaking truth, that is.”

“What is happening here?” The traveller questions believing there is a need to get to the point rather than dancing around it.

Alas, before any reply can be given to Sascha’s query a whoosh of air tears down the street. The hooded figure goes stiff as a board with fear, then mutters some unintelligible words only to scurry off down the narrow slit between the buildings leaving Sascha, the traveller, the stranger, alone.

The hooded figures escape is quite impressive for the narrow route was barely wide enough for a single width of shoulders; still they made quick work of it prior to disappearing as if they never existed to begin with.

A sigh escapes the wanderers’ lips, it’s followed by a nod and then finally Sascha turns. To no surprise the street is empty, entirely, now. The citizens of the village, who had been milling about forcing themselves to avert their gazes previously, have since vacated, fled into the other buildings that line the road that bisects this village. Alone, Sascha was left to wonder if he should call out. He didn’t, though better of it. Instead, he unslings the repeater from across his back, pulls on the short lever which sticks out one side of its long body to ensure the rounds are ready for discharge and prepares for what might come next.

In an instant the clouds descend, unnaturally, all around only to begin swarming as if sentient. Then rain sprays like he has only ever seen once before when he a child. That was back at the training grounds when one of the before pipes burst. He recalls being told the cause was something called pressure and then watched with interest as the pipe was patched until the spray was no more. He hadn’t then and doesn’t now understand such things. He’d never needed to, but they drew his curiosity regardless, at least when he was a child they did anyway. These days he accepts things for what they are. There should be sadness in that he thinks prior to being ripped from his thoughts when the sounds of youthful cackling reach his ears.

For the first few short fractions of a second he believes the sounds to be little more than another memory laying itself indelicately over others. That is until he feels motion around him. It’s close, maybe an arm’s length away at most. In response to it he turns this way and that, though sees nothing but the too low clouds. They are almost touching ground now and resemble impenetrable fog more than anything.

Whispers kill any other thoughts he has, wrench him from that place and following a blink Sascha finds himself stood, hand clamped around the thin wrist of a child. He shakes his head from side to side to dispel… he has no name or description for what it is he hopes to dispel; a dream perhaps, no it is something else entirely.

In fact in so many ways calling whatever he saw, he felt, he experienced a dream is wrong. A vision?

“Who are you?” He demands of the child in his grasp.

The sudden change, the vanishing of the fog cloud is the first he recalls having seeing them, and in his mind if he has hold of them then it is for a reason, he believes.

“I’m no one. Now let me go. I did nothing wrong. You attacked me.” The boy assures, seething and struggling to break the grip upon their wrist.

Without a doubt Sascha will not be complying and letting go unless he wishes too, or unless it turns out the child has a weapon. That is doubtful, severely, he feels.

“Do not listen, they are a thief!” Someone exclaims from nearby.

Casting his gaze further than a narrow zone around him, Sascha realises he has an audience where previously there was none. It makes little sense, none at all honestly, for he was alone seconds ago. There was no one. His brow furrows, though he hides his confusion.

“A thief?” The words slip from his lips.

“Yes, he is but one of those who steal all we have to survive on and because of it we are starving.” The tone is filled with desperation. Something that is echoed by many others who think it time they add pleas in hopes this stranger, this traveller, will aid them. Right the wrong of what is happening in Ptunem. Yet, how they can be so united in their belief they are starving he does not understand as there is food… His dark eyes catch sight of the simple wooden boxes he saw chock full of food stuffs, they are slim. He does not understand how that can be possible.

“You’re stealing these good people’s food?” Sascha hears himself say in the moments prior to returning to the present.

“I have no choice. None of us do.” Are the assurances from the boy continuing to struggle. Though, it appears they are less against Sascha’s restraint and more in reaction to the accusations from the villagers that surround the pair.

There are so many, Sascha notes as cries of, “Lies!” “We’re dying.” “Save us.” fill the air with a cacophony of sound too much for his ears to cope with.

“Silence!” Is the order given from the closely cropped blonde haired man as his dark brown eyes scan those that surround.

The command has the desired effect as all those present fell silent with no efforts having been made to offer refusals or resistance.

“You ask for my aid yet bombard me with cries. If I am to aid you I must know what is going on. Let me question the boy.”

“But he’s a liar! He cannot be believed!”

“Yeah!” Is the unified agreement which follows the outburst.

“I will be the judge of that.” Sascha fires back with a glowering stare cast across many of those gathered around and closest to him.

Right after this his gaze softens when it shifts to the boy he has hold of still.

“Tell me all you know. There will be no interruptions.” I quick hard glance at the crowd is met with bowed heads and nods of confirmation.

“We…we work for this group. They… took us. Keep us locked up. Force us to steal for them. If we don’t they… they…” Rather than say what this group, which to Sascha sounds an awful lot like a bandit clan, might do he shows his free hand.

The boys palm is heavily scarred with what the traveller knows to be a mixture of punishing cuts and cruel burns. The sight sickens him, boils his blood. This is not how the innocent should be treated, especially children.

To Sascha’s eyes the boy looks to be nine or ten.

“Where are they?” He asks rather than demands.

“In a clearing, I can show you if you like.” The boys’ eyes shine bright with hope when he says those words.

Ignoring the grumbles, the man releases his grip upon the boy, who has his shaved head to stubble broken by where scars have healed making it impossible for hair to grow. A smile slips into place across the boys face. It’s followed by a frantic nodding.

“This way, I’ll show you where they reside.”

As he boy scurries off villagers espouse their concerns. Sascha ignores all of them and follows the boy out of the village and deep into the jungle woods which surround the palm leaf roofed timber cabins of Ptunem.

I Want To Say

I want to say the sun’s gone,
I want to say you are wrong;
No more listening here.
Can’t wait to say, bye my dear.

Revolutions are spinning wildly.
Who are they that are acting wilely.
Double trouble antidote,
So much fire among black smoke.
Not something I expected here.
You stop at the edge just to stare.
Another number comes after you.
What are the next words that will spew?

Cause this is not right.
We’re stuck in this fight.
Overbearing;
Endless swearing.

Names across the eroded rock.
Chattering jaws that just won’t lock.
Give a pause for a little while,
Is snapping like a crocodile.
Desperate for the slimest taste.
Soon these errors wil be erased.
Shattered down to tiny specks.
All so not to feel the affects.

With a zone in mind.
And a lack of kind.
Vent the air and go.
Rejoin the endless flow.

For the crime is only a source.
And we have no recourse.
Pick a moment and go.
Words muttered are just so.
Empty and crass,
Like they wish to talk trash.
Breed a rift in the heart.
Bored now lets press restart.

I want to say the sun’s gone,
I want to say you are wrong;
No more listening here.
Couldn’t wait to say, bye to my fear.

Reverting

Stacking bricks to the ceiling;
Just the way I’m feeling.
Platics cubes of pure joy;
So much more than just a toy.
Entertainment for all ages;
Not willing to turn pages.

Walking away seems so dull;
When it’s too busy with its pull.
Plus I’m obsessed with all the fun;
Never will it be gone.
So call me whatever you might wish;
Yes I’m a child so go fish.

Any issues lie with you.
Do what you want to.
For I intend to do just that.
Not interested in combat.
Stupid game for cruel souls.
Not one of my lifetime goals.

Make it wide and make it tall;
Build it into the shape of a ball.
I’ve done it once and will again;
Appeals to both boys and men.
Which is why I carry on;
Will do this until all is gone.

Smile wide from ear to ear;
One time there is no fear.
Just imagination and inspiration;
It helps with my situation.
Cause overthinking is a curse;
Makes everything feel worse.

That is why I do this.
No more moments I want to miss.
Construct whatever comes to mind.
Not at all is it defined.
The design seems so boring here.
Just want to enjoy, is that clear?

If its not then that’s on you.
Not that you give a screw.
You don’t need to and I know.
This is how I’ll grow;
Build a place just for me.
Don’t care whether you agree.

Days Are Long

I’m not listening anymore.
I don’t care if I’m a bore.
Let me dwell and be happy.
Stop trying to always be so crappy.
I get that you don’t like the same.
That you just wish to play a game.
But to me this life is not so easy.
Why I have to absorb it freely.

Unmitigated by your hand of God.
Don’t want to be a part of the flood.
Lost in a maze that hurts my brain.
Putting up with that might see me burst into flame.

I can’t deal with it any longer.
No your antics aren’t stronger.
They’re just a shield to resist.
No more of this raised up fist.
It isn’t fun or even clever.
Feels like you failed to sever;
Realise that I’m not like you.
That there are days I may feel blue.

Uninspired and locked in wallow.
Its not about feeling sorrow.
Phases come and they go.
Just let me work through all of it though.

Yes I know I need to lay my head.
Due to so much is spinning while in bed,
And emptying it is not so simple.
I can’t pop emotions like a pimple.
Good you can but that’s not me.
Leave me alone and you’ll see.
I’ll walk out the otherside.
This is all part of my personal ride.

Temporary but still it’s scary.
About everything I feel wary.
But once I’m free it’s all good.
So let me work through this hood.

In A Rut

Cage surrounds and controls.
Landing me with a role.
Position locked to a spot.
Siphons until its all I got.
That’s not a life for me.
Sounds more like insanity.
Picking at me like a scab.
Want to feel something and grab.
Mould it with my fists.
Not be enraged by it.
Cause who wants to be angry?
I’d do away with it gladly.
So simply hand me the key,
Or tell me how to get free.
Its all I ask!
In clean air I wish to bask.
Not feel like I’m boxed in.
That can never be called living.
When you can’t touch a soul.
It feels like a nightmare roll.
Cursed dice that screwed…
Me until I scream my mood.
Vent it to the ether.
Doing so makes me feel cheaper.
A shell without a mass.
Except for all the wrath.
Confined within a dot.
Don’t want to feel that’s all I got.

Dying Nights

This weeks story is a bit different. It’s not Sci-Fi. Not at all. I’d call it fantasy. Set in the modern day. Anyway, I didn’t realise it until reviewing but this story has some definite influences from Dead Space and Devil May Cry. I could say more. Give more detail, but I’m not going to. Instead I’m going to let you know it’s about 7,700 words long and say, I hope you enjoy!

Archibald can think of no place he would like to be less than on the streets of Venritere at night. Just the sound of the howling winds as they rush between the crooked roofs is enough to make his skin crawl. Add on top of that the eerie creaking the trees dotted along the wide paved sidewalks which are uneven illuminated by flickering street lights and you have something akin to a nightmare. So, if this wasn’t of the upmost import he would be inside, as is usual for him and everyone else in the city once the sun sets.

A shiver from the trench coat wearing man with thinning brown hair slows but does not force him to a standstill. That is because the last thing he intends to do is pause. Too many strange occurrences happen on these streets at night. Disappearances are the best you can hope for, the worst he dare not consider. Regrettably his mind gives him little choice, which is why seconds later he gags several times until he ultimately tears the images from his mind and casts them into a box he never intends to view the contents of.

If this mind box were real he would drop it into concrete and then dispose of it in the bay but it is not and so he will have to rely on his mental acuity to keep him from ever peaking inside.

Curiosity can be a real bug bear at times and sadly humans have it in abundance. It might be why Venritere is the way that it is. Or perhaps that is not it at all and a…

Don’t be daft, he thinks to himself while having to brace against a particularly strong gust of wind that seems determined to blow him off his feet and back the way he’s come. It fails in its attempts, though when it does finally abate Archibald cannot help but let out a sigh of relief.

You see the last thing he would want to do is have to re-tread this street, or any other in the city, without good cause.

Is what you are doing, where you are going, good cause to be out?

Silence! He tells this voice in his head.

He does so disdain when his subconscious tries to argue and dissuade him from things he knows are right.

Is that how we have fallen so far? Why the city is cut-off? Why visitors no longer venture? Or is it due to the stories, the disappearances, the violent ends that people meet on a daily basis by hands never seen but sometimes apparently apprehended? He does not know. He cannot. He does not wish too.

Ignorance is bliss; he reminds turning a corner only to be assaulted by another forceful gale.

Until it gets you killed, perhaps that can be assumed to be true.

Silence! I told you, no more of that. I do not wish to think on…

The mind, your mind, is not so simple. You know this. Stop trying to fight it. Embracing truth is the best course of action. Much like staying inside at such a time is…

I am well aware, and don’t need lecturing. But I am out here not for me…

That is my point, this is your mistake. One you should know better than to make. After all, self-preservation is exactly that; something that can only be undertaken by the self. And you being out here is not indicative to such a notion.

I am well aware of that.

Then why do you protest so profusely?

Because that which is necessary cannot, as you well know and are capable of understanding, always be that which is best for the one.

Madness.

It might be, but I noticed you didn’t refute.

His subconscious says no more. The silence, in his head, is quite soothing, calming; nothing like the winds of the storm which are assaulting his physical form.

Much of his coat is peeled back from his body, exposing it. Something Archibald offers resistance against with considerable fervour through the use of his arms to wrap around his upper torso.

To make matters worse his pace has been ground down to little more than a shuffle.

“Curse these winds, curse these hours; curse these streets that once were ours.” The balding man mutters to himself.

The winds so severe that his words are almost shoved back down his throat. It’s as if the storm, which rages most nights in the city, wishes him to do exactly that, eat his words.

What a vicious place Venrifere has become since these nights of anguish and pain which started so long ago. Archibald barely remembers a time before them, though they started when he was nine years old. Prior to their emergence he, like many of the city boys, used to play out in the streets. Not where the cars, trucks and bikes would blitz past but on the sidewalks and amongst the alleyways. He recalls how joyous it was to play hide and seek with his friends.

His mind switches; he begins to wonder where those boys might be now. It’s been decades since they last were together, back in the summer prior to them departing to venture along paths that they hoped would define their lives. He does pray they are well.

A rush of wind, low as if aimed at his shins, blasts. It wrenches him from his thoughts for he is forced to lean into the gust for the few steps it takes him to reach a nearby signpost. Without thought he reaches, leaps and grasps it before hauling himself toward the angled post and wrapping his arms around it. His feet don’t quite leave the ground but it feels as though they are close to doing so, too close. And when he breathes it feels as though there is no air for his lungs, as if he will suffocate and die. He does not understand it but has heard stories. All of them seem to be blamed upon different things such as curses, ghosts, ghouls, spirits, damnation, impending apocalyptic doom, weapons of human fashioning. He believes the culprit to be none of them. Not only because they range too much with so little evidence to prove a single theory.

Pulling himself from these thoughts he focuses back in on his goal, to reach where he is headed, for there is one man who might hold answers. He will not divulge them if he does but he will lend a hand, of sorts. Yet, to say Archibald is comfortable with the prospect would be fallacy. He’s afraid, terrified even, for this man is an odd sort. Some have claimed he isn’t really a man. Idle gossip from fools, no doubt, but try as he might he cannot get them from his mind.

Is it because they might be neighbours and he is not?

The violent gust threatening to fling Archibald fizzles to a normal rush of air. Gingerly the balding man releases his grip upon the signpost. He has no confidence that the winds will not whip up once more at a moment’s notice, catching him off-guard and casting him back down the street.

Mercifully, no such fate transpires and the balding man with cold blue eyes resumes his trudge once more.

As he goes his eyes dart more than ever as he expects, anticipates, to be jumped by whatever keeps the list of the disappeared ever-expanding and the bodies piling up.

Of course, it might be the disappearances and deaths are not related one bit, but something in his bones suggests that they are.

Another corner turned sees him greeted with a signpost that he quickly surveys, without stopping. It tells him he is close but if before he was fearful, now he feels oppressed. That is the best he can explain it while the wind pulls at his trench coats tails exposing his navy blue cloth covered legs and highly polished but splashed with mud dark brown leather laced up shoes. Catching sight of their mud speckled state Archibald cannot help but exhale, disappointed. Not a moment later rain pours out of the sky sinking the man’s mood further still. He didn’t think it possible previously. Now he realises how wrong he had been. It’s as if the city is reacting to him. It’s daft, idiotic, impossible and yet that is how it feels striding through the quickly forming puddles that reside on the uneven sections of cracked slabs and pitted asphalt that make up the patchwork sidewalk.

If the surface were better on the opposite side of the otherwise lifeless street he would cross, but it will not be he seriously doubts. Nothing in this city is as it once was for everything is in a state of decline, decay.

Thinking back, the blame for the slump Venrifere fell into was initially pinned on the collapse of the milling companies. Then it shifted to the hauliers who no longer brought the trees here to the mills for cutting, and after that… Archibald doesn’t recall but suffice to say a long list of others had blame affixed to their chests.

In truth it was likely not one single thing but a combination of them all. He cannot say for he was but a child, though the effects were not lost on him even at that age. Especially that day when his parents issued a decree that he was forbidden from playing out on the streets like he used to. And it didn’t seem to matter, when he protested because of course he would, that he was with his friends; it was deemed simply too dangerous.

He hadn’t understood why for reasons were not given and so had screamed and roared in defiance wanting answers.

Sadly, Archibald’s parents did not, or could not, provide their son with what he sought. Still, he obeyed. It was how he was brought up. In his teens he thought it a mistake to have complied, as an adult he believes he might have been wise beyond his years.

A sharp hiss reaches Archibald’s ears and immediately draws his attention. He turns and spies a cat hiding in the darkness of an alley entrance. The animals’ eyes glowing yellow frighten the balding man who does not think they are as they should be. It’s why he backs away swiftly until he hears hissing no more and then hastens his stride.

The rain, still beating, is something he has grown akin to. What he hasn’t is the dampness in his shoes which he wasn’t aware had a leak.

“Rotten way to find out, but in keeping with the backward trend of this night,” he murmurs to himself under his breath.

No one would hear his words even if there were anyone around to hear them. He thinks that might be a victory, an incredibly small one but one nonetheless.

However, the pattern of his strides is broken several steps later when another hiss reaches his ears. Again Archibald turns to see a yellow eyed cat in the darkness. It has to be coincidence, but he steers clear this second time regardless.

Two steps then another hiss. Archibald spins round as he walks expecting to see a cat in hot pursuit. There is nothing, no one. He is alone on the street, heart thundering in his chest. He hates this. It isn’t right. He doesn’t want to be here. He shouldn’t be here. He should be at home, doors locked, windows too, hiding out until dawn breaks. It’s what everyone else in the city will be doing. Except those with no sense or no choice, but those are few and far between.

So why are you out here?

I told you why I’m out here. I don’t have a…

You always have a choice. And this was yours. But did you choose wisely? Or have you made a grave misstep?

Shut up, shut up, shut up! Archibald shouts in his head hoping, praying, it’ll be enough to dispatch the voice. Once and for all would be nice but he isn’t convinced he’s that fortunate he gain such a respite.

His subconscious never stays away for long. Whether that is normal or not, he cannot say. For him it is but for others…

These are dying nights! You should not be out. They will take your life. You’ve been told past twice.

What? I don’t… No, this is a trick. I don’t care. Shut up! No more talking. Or-or-or else…

…Or else what Archie?

There is a pause. Archibald quickens his pace to almost a jog before anymore is said. But at least the wind his died down. The rain hasn’t, though that was not what was hampering his progress. The rain only soaks him through. He can cope with that. Given the choice rain is his preference anyway.

You think I’m in your head and a part of you, but have you considered I might be that which is stalking and coming for you?

Upon hearing those oddly rhymed words, which still sound as if they are in Archibald’s head, he breaks into a full sprint. Cackling starts, it is followed by hissing as cats appear from alleyways on both sides of the street. They are dark with yellow eyes that glow, ominously. None of them look natural to the balding man who is a running for his life, terrified and sure he is soon to die, cursing himself for going out, for trying to do the right thing. It was madness. He has, this night, become one of those fools he spent years criticising upon learning the extent of the mess Venrifere was in and has to endure.

You can’t get away, Archibald hears in his head. He tries to shake the voice away. It seems to work. He hears no more taunting; only the sound of his heavy breathing as he rushes down the street. He is close, so very close. One more road and then he’ll be at his destination. He can make it. He has to make it.

For some reason he looks over his shoulder. It isn’t so much a choice but a compulsion he obeys. Immediately, he is flooded with regret because behind him the cats are bounding after him. Truthfully, they look less like separate entities and more like one single mass guided by piercing yellow shapes. Fangs too are on show as hissing and mulling fills the air.

The balding man cannot explain what is going on. And this isn’t the time even if he were able to understand what he is seeing. That can come later…

I am not recalling this. It’s going in that box, the mind box. I’m locking it and throwing away the key.

You can never be rid of the key Archie; it’s a part of you. It will always be a part of you. That is until you are a part of me.

Roaring laughter follows those words. It howls like the wind, which in that moment returns with a bone chilling whoosh.

Archibald braces against it, fearful the cat-mass that is pursuing him may not be hindered the way he is and that if he does not push he will soon be in its grasp, whatever that it might truly be.

Don’t think, just drive your legs!

He does, as difficult as it might be, manage to continue against the force of the gusts. His legs driving as his body leans in until it’s angled forward precariously. If the wind were to vanish now he would, without doubt, fall flat on his face. But the wind does not die, it continues to assault and tear at him.

The seams of his trench coat strain, then fail. The garment is torn from his body. Archibald gasps. It crosses his mind he might be caught. That this was a trap all along and that he has walked into it, like some foolish blind imbecile.

Before long he cranes his neck to look back over his shoulder. The cat-mass is continuing its pursuit but has not reached him as he feared. Discovering that gives him some semblance of relief and spurs his will to continue on. Still, he would be lying if he did not admit that the effort required to do so is becoming more considerable by the second. Doubtful his drive, determination, energy reserves will last forever. That simply is not how the human body works, for better or for worse. Right now that would undoubtedly be for the worse.

Lifting his head, Archibald concludes that he doesn’t understand where he is for the street seems to have folded in on itself ahead of him. That isn’t possible. He knows that for a fact and yet that is what his eyes are showing him. He rubs at them. A considerable effort taken to raise his arms to his face without stopping his push against the invisible force tearing at his navy coloured waistcoat and the grey shirt beneath that which is fastened to almost the top with a red cravat to fill the void where otherwise flesh could be glimpsed.

A quick rub of his eyes changes nothing. The street continues to appear as though it is folded in, a dead end. Archibald knows Venrifere well. This street is not a dead end. It runs for three miles all told, so how is it…?

Something grabs the heel of the dark brown leather shoe on his left foot. He gasps, lets out a shriek, stumbles, goes head over heels and lands on his back. Lying there Archibald accepts his fate, that he will be taken, become one more name on the list of disappeared. But no such fate welcomes him. He peels open his eyes to find he is greeted by a strong light. It is one of the street lamps, though is shining far brighter and in a different shade than he can ever recall having seen any of them do previously. His brow furrows. Then he realises his ears are ringing. Confusion envelopes him before, as if by magic, the ringing comes to an end, ceases. It is at that point he becomes aware of the hissing and meowing. He jumps, almost out of his skin, and lands on his feet. Terrified he prepares to run, only to discover there is nowhere to run too. It makes no sense but his eyes are not deceiving him, and so he turns on the spot looking for an out, of any kind. It takes no time at all for his eyes to land on the cat-mass, the thing making all the noise, writhing too. At the sight of it he pauses, his head tilts one way.

“It-it looks trapped.” Archibald stutters to himself, eyes probing at the sight that is laid out before them.

“I-I don’t understand. Where am I? What is…?”

The balding man hell-bent on doing what is right stops. He never finishes his statement for it dawns on him there has been no reply. Nothing has uttered or issued taunts and torments back at him. He finds that odd. He shouldn’t for this is normal but he does.

When a loud creaking noise fills his ears a few short moments later however Archibald is once more filled with abject horror. Even as he turns slowly toward the direction of it he feels confident his fate is assured; signed, sealed and delivered he recalls being the phrase uttered by his mother throughout his life. That was up until the day she died from something that afflicted her lungs but he to this day cannot pronounce.

You see Archibald’s mother worked in one of the cities mills in the days before they shuttered. It transpired that for her efforts, her years of service, one of the trees that grows locally which was often used because of its abundance and cheapness, in fact contained a dust which when released into the air and then inhaled slowly eroded the alveoli in the lungs. It was a painful way to watch someone you loved die. After her death Archibald’s father gave up. Became a ghost of his former self until the day he became one of the disappeared. Unlike most counted on that list he didn’t stay missing. His body was found a few days later. It was blue, shrivelled and affixed with an expression, so Archibald was told, that suggested he had been scared to death.

Eyes fixed upon that gaping wound of an open doorway, the balding man thinks he has some idea of how his father must’ve felt as he waits for whatever might reside within to attack.

No such event comes to pass. Rather, Archibald eventually looks up to see the sign hanging above the door in neon colours. He breathes a sigh of relief for this is where he had been aiming to get too all this time. And somehow he is here, in one piece, alive. A smile tears across his face, his breathing still short, does nothing to prevent him from stepping forward and entering into the darkness.

Acknowledge/Admit

I hit the wall yet again today.
Wish the feeling would just go away.
Tired of getting this wave washing over me.
Its so strong I think I might fail to see,
Past the shroud thats over my face.
No body for me to embrace.
Just a single soul in an empty zone,
Which is why all I want to do is go home.

I wish it was that simple to achieve.
Every second of the day I have no reprieve.
Stuck in my head and it just keeps spinning.
Then come the chants about me winning.
None help and I need them to go.
If they don’t I’ll end up so-so.
With a brain that just won’t stop.
If that transpires I might blow my top.

Drift along my version of the maginot line.
Each second that passes feels benign.
A lost moment that should not be.
So I count one, two, three.
Yet still the pain remains.
Got a feeling I might go down in flames.
Not something that I want to admit.
Still can’t argue that its a real prospect.

Savour And Flee

Your purple craze won’t fix this situation.
Gaze upon the rifts of honest rejection.
Lie amongst the tallest grasses.
Batting of your long dark lashes.
Eyes so bright they shine like beacons.
Blue as the sky no matter the seasons.

But this is not meant to be.
I am cast so far away.
Savour this and flee from me.
This is how it’ll always have to be.

Cyan sea of endless streams.
You frolic within these rotating dreams.
A loop upon which you feed.
This is how you don’t need,
A point to which to bind yourself.
If you did you’d lose your health.

But this is not meant to be.
I am cast so far away.
Savour this and flee from me.
This is how it’ll always have to be.

Medication can’t make it right for me or you;
We are simply on opposites sides too.
So I snap the line and allow the drift.
Cause we will never fight the rift.
Forget me are the last words I say;
I know its better off this way.
And for you that is an option.
For me I am cursed with nothing.
But the permanence of what came before,
Including memories of you which I adore.
But right is not what is easy.
I made this choice so you can live freely.
Not be bound to this corrupting line.
Doing that would have destroyed your sign.
The thing upon which you were forged.
Such a thing I could not be responsible for.

You’re the innocent!

But this is not meant to be.
I am cast so far away.
Savour this and flee from me.
This is how it’ll always have to be.

BSTR

Burn it down.
Disaster is on the other side of the gate.
Chains are heavy so give me a break.
The answers not much like the question.
That is why I drift among obsession.
Searching for a point in time.
Waiting for the second rhyme.
Where day joins with chilly night.
Retrospect might as well take flight.
Because when I am here there is no difference.
Might as well dwell in existence

Sell it out.
This phase is a new contradiction.
What has been baked is infliction.
Stain upon the empty tables.
Calls that come from inside the stables.
Where once happiness did roar.
All I feel now is plenty poor.
Verify that sold is not imprisoned.
The root cause is still thickened.
Cast down from a point so high above.
In this place there is no love.

Torn and ruptured.
Spiral down the neverending road of forks.
Light that dwells here is the kind that stalks.
Passion upon a spinning wheel.
Height above makes you feel.
Weather like a simple soul.
What remains could be a goal.
Not the type which brings solution.
Feel as though time has bred confusion.
A sordid little moment that is most sublime.
From zero will you never earn a dime.

Stars And Clovers

I made a wish on a falling star.
Don’t know when or if I’ll get that far.
Cause there’s no way of knowing,
If your words will be chosen.
So you have to keep going.
But not fixate on words spoken.

Talons on the window pane.
Rap, rap, rap comes again.
Someone is at the door.
Friend or foe cannot ignore.

I cried to the rising sun.
It’s beauty is unforgotten.
When night turns to day,
Hip hip hooray.
Doesn’t mean blessing bestowed.
Time to return to the road.

Talons on the window pane.
Rap, rap, rap comes again.
Someone is at the door.
Friend or foe cannot ignore.

Cling to the four leaf.
It’s time here will be brief.
Picked from an endless vale,
Distinguish and impale.
Luck upon the mass of new.
Will I be one too?

Talons on the window pane.
Rap, rap, rap comes again.
Someone is at the door.
Friend or foe cannot ignore.

Cause questions have answers.
Some might be chancers.
But everyone is just a soul,
Vying for their control.
So judge not and accept,
All can be subject.
Lost in the what could be.
Wishing unendingly.

Talons on the window pane.
Rap, rap, rap comes again.
Someone is at the door.
Friend or foe exist no more.

I made a wish on a falling star.
Didn’t know when or if I’d get that far.
Cause there was no way of knowing,
If your words will be chosen.
So you have to keep going.
But not fixate on words spoken.