Push the pin and remember your goal;
It lies out beyond the synthetic shoal.
Future draped in finery and fun.
To get there you have to overcome;
Fight against the tyranny of normal,
Everything has become so formal,
Plotted out with permanence and rigidity,
It all looks and feels like stupidity.
But that does not mean you must adhere.
Just be aware you will feel plenty of fear.
And stumbles will mare your route.
Some will aim to render you mute.
So push on through and battle the storms.
They come in many violent forms.
Yet once you achieve you will bask;
Absorb all the beauty without a mask.
No limitations to your life and times.
A place without hidden landmines.
UnWar
Not really sure how to explain this one. So I’m not going to. I know counter-intuitive but hey, it is what it is. What I will say is its a fantasy sort of tale and may not go how you expect it to. Not saying anymore than that, but I guess I did kind of explain. Anyway, enjoy UnWar.
The end is nigh. Soon this war will be over. Seven weeks of exhausting fighting. Elliott can barely remember what it felt like to be at peace; to sleep, rest, relax. They are all things he has been lacking since the onset of this barbarous campaign against the Elvira Collective.
As one of the few Tennison guards, he is counted as part of the elite. Those tasked with bringing a decisive end to this short but calamitous war. The toll is unknown, at least for now. When the progenitor of it is dead and gone the count can and will begin. A period of healing, peace and reflection will undoubtedly follow. After all, it’s been some nine generations since the last war. No one ever imagined another would forsake the world and yet, it has.
Elliott wonders how one person could be so filled with hate and violence that they could instigate something such as this. He does not know how, and cannot contemplate the reasons for he is in the heat of battle. Sidestepping a driving spear head, Elliott, in his armour, does a quick pirouette followed by a counter strike. It misses, barely. Lethargy has made him impatient as well as imprecise. At any other time he would chastise himself for this failure, he should and does know better, but after five days without rest it isn’t surprising his capabilities are less than they ought to be. That is why he pushes the attack immediately. His feeling is if he waits he welcomes potential disaster. Three quick jabs of his sword, followed by a slash push his attacker back. All around him similar confrontations rage. It’s not surprising for this is a battle, a small part of a much larger offensive. Still, he cannot help but wonder how The Un’s were so easily able to advance like they have. It shouldn’t have been possible. They are not comparable in number to the collective. They are a relatively small band.
A dive roll to avoid a waist high swing saves Elliott’s life. At its conclusion the Tennison guard leaps forward, driving his blade out ahead of him. The tip stabs piercing armour, then flesh. The adversary, The Un, roars in dying agony. Elliott, in his dirt caked once silver grey armour, takes a breath, drives his sword deeper still. A choked sound escapes the impaled soul. There is no sense of victory, achievement, pleasure on Elliott’s face. His brown eyes hold only determination, a will to survive. The same cannot be said of those he and others from the Collective are fighting against. It is as if their enemies are monsters pulled from the depths of the Chasm Fire, reborn with only an urge to fight. Even as a trained soldier warrior he does not understand it. Maybe it is a part of the Un’s code.
Do you they a code? He cannot say. He does not know. Time has not been afforded to him to learn such things. Perhaps if the Collective had known an attack was imminent.
Would you wish to know if you could?
He doesn’t dare answer for he fears what the truth might be.
Am I like them?
If you ask yourself such then the answer is already known.
Then what is it?
A new combatant joins the invisible arena around the grey haired Tennison guard. This new opponent screeches like a blood demon. Elliott hears the sound above the din of the battle around him. Quite a feat it must be said, and so he prepares himself; noting he and the other remaining guards are almost at the Halls of Domination.
The Halls are ancient fort castle built during the fifth age when the world was at its most dark and lost. Something suggests to Elliott that might not be true in light of events currently unfolding.
It will be over soon. Can you not taste victory?
He daren’t be so bold as yet, so drops into a ready stance. The Un, faceless in their encapsulating armour of yellow-red, charges. They brandish twin axes. Their size suggests they are endowed with formidable strength. If Elliott were not a Tennison he might not observe such a thing. Mercifully he is which means brawn, might, not be complimentary tools in this face off. Not an issue for the grey haired Tennison can always resort to brains. Something, in his opinion, The Un’s seldom seem to show.
Rather, it appears as though they throw themselves into battle like reckless fools. Surely, they cannot be so deluded as to believe pure strength can best finely honed skills?
Why would they not? They have taken the Halls of Domination.
The fort castle for Elvira Collective is of great historical and strategic importance. Even if it was built by the first warriors who made efforts to unify the fractious fife-kingdoms of their era. They succeeded too. If they had not the fort castle would not be in one piece still to this day.
For reasons he cannot give, Elliott takes a glance at it. A section of wall is missing revealing a fire scorched room gutted and listing. The sight of such a heinous tragedy fuels the fire in the Tennison guards’ gut, for he knows that room well. It was the one in which his great grandparents once housed, back when the Collective trained all those that served in the name of Elvira here.
Axe blades clash with Tennison Steel. The Un is even stronger than Elliott had anticipated. He struggles to hold against the might of the force being exerted upon him. Getting an idea, he suddenly relents; a feint. It works. The Un stumbles forward, thrown off-balance. The Tennison imagines beneath that pointed faceplate of a helmet the expression is one of shock. Imagining such feeds his drive, his will. He sidesteps so as not to be collected by the Un’s stumble. The enemy shoots past him. Elliott spins a hundred and eighty degrees, leaps forward. The Un wrenches their body round. If Elliott had not witnessed it he would call it an impossible feat to achieve while still as off-balance as they are.
Axes begin to swing, slice and carve at the air. They miss Elliott by chance rather than design. The Tennison will give his thanks for the fortune at a later time, when not in battle, his life hanging by a thread.
Before the Un can recover to deliver a potentially fatal onslaught, Elliott drops to a squat, flicks his leg out in a sweeping motion across the floor. His armoured boot catches the Un’s leg at the ankle. They let out only a burped expulsion of air rather than topple. The Tennison skips backward expecting an immediate counter. None is forthcoming. Rather, the Un charges, axes crossed, a chattering exhale to accompany the mindless advance.
Unsure of what the Un might have planned Elliott braces himself for a massive hit. Instead he is thrown backwards, not by the Un but by something else.
Scrambling, reclaiming his sword and then staggering to his feet, Elliot gazes with a spinning set of eyes unable to focus. In the time immediately after that he tries to suck air down into his lungs. It’s difficult. Winded, is the state he determines he is in.
He manages several more steps. They are just as off-kilter as his first. Such a discovery, an admittance, is troublesome and not at all normal. After all, Tennison practice regaining from such difficulties and become quite adept at it as a result. Yet, it appears to Elliott as if he has never undertaken such training.
That cannot be. He tells himself, battling his body which until now he has been at one with, like all Tennison are.
What have The Un’s done?
It has to be them. There is no way this is not part of some plot, and so Elliott takes a deep breath. It should right whatever wrong this is. Instantly, he regrets this for his nostrils become clogged with a fetid odour. Not the usual stenches of battle but something much worse. He takes his eyes off the ground ahead of him. He sees disaster, bodies strewn, burning around craters of mud partially filled with fragments of clean polished Ironstone. He chokes. The smoke filling the air robs him of oxygen. His face begins to turn purple-red. Desperate, Elliott ambles as quickly as his body will allow. He sees no other living soul, no movement. He is left to wonder if he is all that remains. His vision narrows while his chest grows ever tighter. He drops to his knees, sword still in gauntlet, he crawls through the mud. Slipping and sliding Elliott almost tumbles into several craters until he can crawl on all fours no more, his body exhausted he drops to his front. Caked in mud he lies there sure this is the end, his end. This isn’t how it is supposed to be.
What did the Un’s use?
With a gasp he tastes air. It remains fetid but it isn’t smoke infused, which is something.
Keeping his face low to the ground, to the mud, Elliott crawls on his stomach.
Sometime later he crawls out of the smoke cloud, rolls over and gasps awkwardly. The sound in his ears suggests he is dying. Yet, he feels better than he did, he thinks.
“Elliott, you live!” The exclamation is barely heard by the grey haired Tennison who is suddenly accosted and dragged. The air gets cleaner, easier to swallow. His chest loosens; his body begins to return feeling to his extremities. Elliott had not been aware their locomotion had been lost. He had definitely been dying.
Heaving breath after breath for what feels like a week is followed by a face forcing itself into his narrowed, but once more widening, vision.
A quarter smile appears across Elliott’s face, recognition in light of his saviour, Elan, another member of the Tennison.
“You need to get up. We cannot stay here. Do you think you can stand?”
Elliott manages only a wobbly nod in confirmation before he feels his arms grabbed and his body hauled out of the mud and to his feet. Dizzy and confused, Elliott’s brown eyes search around but see nothing. A quick slap from Elan soon fixes that.
His eyes back in focus, Elliott feels compelled to press them closed, then opens them swiftly. It’s a process he repeats a handful of times. It has the desired affect he was hoping for, clear vision.
“There are so few of us left Elliott, even less than there were, but the way is clear. We can end this. We must end this; for Elvira, for the Collective. For our brothers and sisters lost.”
More interested in his surroundings that the words of his fellow Tennison, Elliott gazes at the devastation all around. The bodies splayed; choked of life, cut down, crushed, the craters, the murderous cloud which continues to loom without signs of dissipation.
“How was this done?” Is all the grey haired Elliott can manage to mutter in a voice most foreign to him, for it is seldom more than a wheeze.
There is no answer, no reply from Elan. Fearing this might not be real, that he might realistically be dead, Elliott turns. Without question the man beside him is alive, beaten, wounded, but not some twisted vision in the final moments of one’s life. Yet, the expression on his face informs Elliott he does not have an answer. It is not surprising. If one Tennison does not know then why would another? Obvious! Fool, why did you…
Elliott sees movement in the cloud. His first instinct is to prepare for combat. He feels a hand on his arm. Looking to Elan he gets only the shake of the head. Cocking his own in silent query; Elliott stares at his comrade awaiting an explanation. It does not take long for one to be delivered.
“They are not foe.”
Hearing those words sends Elliott’s blood cold. His jaw drops. Pain floods his chest. He demands his legs move. They refuse. It’s as if they are ignoring him. He urges, demands, roars mentally for them to relent, to obey. If he has too he will scream aloud, regardless of if Elan and the others thinks him afflicted by madness or not. After all, he cannot stand and watch as a member of the Collective dies in that smoke, that cloud.
From outside of it, as he now is, the cloud looks barely dense enough to call a fog, but inside it felt as though you were blind, wading through soup it was so thick.
How can that…?
What does it matter? Just allow me free reign over my own…
Elliott’s body relents. He moves. At last, he utters to himself. One step, then two, three, he will reach the cloud soon. He will guide the lost soldier out of that suffocating air.
Elan grabs him. “You cannot. You will die.”
Blocking Elliott’s path, grasping him tightly by both shoulders, Elan stares into his comrades’ eyes. They are filled with panic, with pain.
“What do you mean I can’t? I made it out before. And we cannot leave our own to that fate. We are Tennison. We are the Collective.”
“It’s already too late.”
“It’s not! I can see them. They are heading this…”
The fumbling body in the smoke cloud topples. Elliot writhes. Elan’s hold is strong, it keeps him in place. He curses, swears, demands, even pleads. All are in vain. The Collective soldier moves no more. They are dead. Another life claimed by the cloud of death.
Elliott’s shoulder sink, lower than they have ever previously in his life for this is a feeling he is not accustomed to; despair.
“We could’ve saved them.”
“She was already lost.”
“How do you know?”
“Because I had to watch you all die.”
Elliott stares into Elan’s eyes. His words are truth. There is no doubting them. How that is, he does not know and isn’t inclined to ask. The pain, for them both, might be too much.
“…while the Un’s just walked away, unharmed.”
Shock becomes etched onto the grey haired Tennison’s face as he looks at Elan, the blond haired member of his order. Elliott wonders if they are all that remain. Yet, that isn’t a question he finds the most pressing to ask. No. The most pressing question is, “What do you mean the Un’s walked away? They were in battle. They must’ve suffered losses too!”
Elliott can feel his voice becoming hysterical, his rationale becoming lost.
Is this part of the smokes doing?
“Not from that smoke. They cast those polished rocks of Ironstone, which burst upon impact releasing some sort of gas from within. That cloud you see lingering.”
“The Ironstone was hollow?!?”
Elliott is incredulous. It sounds like a fairytale. It cannot be true. Elan must be brain addled, confused. The Un’s possess no such capabilities. They were little more than a tribe before the sudden onset of this war. There is no way they could achieve this.
Something is wrong, very very wrong.
“We must end this.” Are the next words out of Elliott’s mouth. He has many questions but they can wait. The Un, even if Elan is right and are unaffected by the gas contained within the Ironstone projectiles, continue to number few. With the losses they have suffered there cannot be enough of them to best what remains of the Collective’s troops.
“What numbers remain for battle?” Is the demand uttered by the grey haired Tennison.
“Turn and see for yourself. We have assembled, gathered for the push.”
Elliott does as Elan suggests, he turns. His brown eyes cast over what remains, not of the Collective’s soldiers, but the Tennison. It seems all the soldiers here perished. Horrifying to have to admit for their must’ve been thousands in the battle.
Luckily, Tennison are far superior warriors and what remains is in excess of fifty. A quick calculation from Elliott ends in a conclusion that they total enough. Not comfortably so, but that is of little importance. Enough is enough and with enough they will bring this abomination tarnishing what had been lasting peace to a close.
“Rally! We march on the Halls Of Domination post haste.”
Our New Dawn
Hearing the crack of the whip,
Feels like I might soon slip.
Never forget from where you came.
Some will make every day a game.
Rejection is but a piece in the puzzle.
There are some in need of a muzzle.
For they wish ill upon the masses.
Believing they deserve free passes.
Pilfer and propser under a banner.
Title best suiting would be scammer.
Feeling the cut of the air,
Pleased that I’m not right there.
Opression is a commonplace crime.
It’s where treatment is equal to grime.
Realign so that you may break.
Get out of anothers hellscape.
Cause the demons will never die.
Their departure is just a lie.
Plotting is what they continue to push.
Be careful or you’ll be turned to mush.
Disconnect and shift across a plain.
Too many are fixated on new forms of fame.
Building narratives to resculpt thier madness.
Attempts to hide all of the inflicted sadness.
But that doesn’t mean we must conform.
Writhe from the rubble and be reborn.
This bright light leads to our new dawn.
No more violence.
Natural silence.
End to the pain.
Peace for my brain.
Future not fracture.
Devoid of disaster.
Accepting
I lied and I have no excuse.
Won’t force you to look for proof.
I admit it now right to your face.
I am the coward lost in space.
So do your worst; I am accepting.
No point in me rejecting.
The axe is ready to fall.
I am the villain in this call.
Judgement is fair but tough.
No excuses about it being rough.
I faltered and broke your trust.
Whatever comes next will be just.
Vent Contemporary
I took the root out from the ground.
Thought this might be the way to sound,
Like an enemy not ready for the war.
Tired of mounting revenge against the sore.
I just want a way to vent contemporary!
Linger in the faults of the vision.
Too little too late is the decision.
Sections missing from the puzzle.
Mind filled with nothing but a riddle.
Give me an outlet to be somebody!
What stands is but a fraction.
Plans need an adoption.
Route to the lesser cut.
This world is akin to a nut.
Confined within a hardened shell.
All actions performed by the tolling bell.
Give me an option to walk free.
Period where I can just be.
Not have to dwell and ignore.
Twist myself into a bore.
Not something I want anymore.
Snap the stem to ignite regrowth.
If not then I will be both.
Trapped and stunted in the sun.
Be held at the point of a loaded gun.
Not a position I can withstand for long!
Born For Battle
Aim, I scream, you fire!
Deep within is our desire.
Joined from three minutes in.
We are the devil/angel twin.
Trauma to the head of pain.
Disillusion won’t come round again.
Promise carved into the bark.
One that sat alone in the park.
Upon the hill where we’d play.
Those days seem so far away.
Yet so little has changed.
Unlike others we are not estranged.
We live like the eachothers shadow.
Not to say we haven’t grown though.
Six feet tall and filled with purpose.
To one another we are in service.
Unity without a fault to see.
I am you and you are me.
Never will we try to flee.
Our destiny is fighting you see.
Back to back against the odds.
Screw all these self-proclaiming gods.
So you shout ready and I screech now!
Upon these realms we will chow.
Illusionary
Getting right into it, the title should hint at potentially what might be going on in this story. Because of that I’m not going to say too much about it. Truthfully, I don’t even suggest when it is set. Be interested to see what you the readers believe is its setting. Anyway, enough from me, here is Illusionary.
“It isn’t right.” Noah declares while stood waiting for the tram. Alongside him is Felipe who has his shoulders hunched in hopes of preventing the rain sliding down his neck as he turns toward his oldest friend and asks, “What isn’t right?”
“Any of it, Felipe, any of it.” Is the sum of the reply given. No further context is forthcoming, which makes it impossible to know what this any is.
Accepting his efforts are in vain, Felipe drops his shoulders and welcomes the rain to do as it pleases. After all, it’s little more than a light spray so it’s unlikely to cause much irritation if it does go down the back of his neck.
“Look over there; you’ll soon see what I mean.” Are the words next spoken, by Noah, as though he read his friends mind. He hasn’t. He is simply too wound up to keep quiet.
The pair are the only ones stood waiting for the tram. It isn’t an unusual occurrence for them in Bannerster, at least not at the hour they depart work for it is mid-afternoon.
You see Noah and Felipe work shifts, the same shift, at a nearby factory where they operate a line which chops and cans vegetables. It’s a mundane job but pays the bills, barely.
Against his better judgement Felipe turns his attention in the direction his friend is indicating. Across the street he sees a couple, well dressed, elegant, oblivious. They are the epitome of the upper class in Bannerster, a group which neither Noah nor Felipe can count themselves amongst.
“And?” Is the reply accompanied by a weary shrug.
“And! AND! It isn’t right! We toil away on the lines, get paid peanuts, while they swan about without a care in the world. This isn’t how Bannerster is meant to be. It was supposed to be a paradise. A place for us all. Not for the same old divisions there has always been.” The disgust in Noah’s tone is unmistakable. Yet, these are complaints, ranted, that Felipe has heard many a time previously. He pays little attention to them for they are purely frustrations needing to be vented. Soon his blonde haired friend will burn himself out, like a wick left to burn too long. Hopefully, it’ll be before the tram arrives. Felipe doesn’t fancy sitting there getting stares from the other passengers because of Noah’s ravings. They aren’t the sort of thing one should shout about in open air when anyone could be listening. True, expressing opinion is not restricted but… Well, there have been stories. Not new ones either. About people who disappear from their homes in the dead of night. Potentially for having spoken too loud and one too many times in public about their frustrations with how Bannerster… Felipe doesn’t think, run, is quite the right word. Regrettably he cannot find one that better fits, so he settles on it, moves on.
“This is meant to be the seed for a new tomorrow; Equality, ingenuity, opportunity. I see none of it. At least, that is, not for any of us anyway. I see plenty for them, their ilk, breed, kind.” Each moniker for what the upper class in Bannerster can be branded is said with greater levels of disdain.
Feeling Noah isn’t anywhere close to burning out from this rant Felipe spits, “Will you stop? It doesn’t help what you’re doing.”
Surprised at his friends’ reaction Noah wears an expression of mortified alarm. Regrettably it does not stop him from asking, “Are you sick? Why should I stop? I’m at the bottom of the barrel.”
“We both are. Deal with it.”
“I am, by voicing my opinions.”The blonde man declares with pride.
A roll of the eyes is followed by Felipe grabbing his friends arm and forcibly turning him so that they are stood face-to-face, eye-to-eye.
“Which might not be a great idea in and of itself. You must’ve heard the stories.”
A chuckle belches from Noah’s cracked lips, “Of course but they are just that, stories. Don’t tell me you believe them?” A raucous laughter escapes the blonde man’s mouth. It echoes all around though the reverberations are difficult to catch amidst the other sounds of the city.
A strike to the arm by Felipe soon puts pay to Noah’s roaring.
“I’m serious. Seven people in my block have disappeared this past month. They aren’t just stories.”
“Are you really suggesting what I think?”
“I am unless you haven’t been paying attention, yes.”Comes the stern, serious reply from the other man.
“Those are very serious allegations there Felipe.”
“You don’t think I know that.” Is the swift counter by the dark haired man who is speaking in a hushed tone of voice now, his brown eyes locked on his friend.
“I never believed…”
“Well you should. I do. Now, quit your ravings.”
By chance it is at that moment the tram comes trundling toward them putting pay to their conversation, punctuated by a sideways head jut from Felipe which Noah offers no resistance to.
Once on the tram, seated and underway, Noah turns to his friend.
“Something must be done, if you are correct.”
“What did I say?”
“I know what you said, but…”
“But what?” Felipe urges to know just as a pair of large men cast long shadows over the pair.
Fearing the worst, in part as a result of the look on Noah’s face, Felipe turns. His heart sinks when he recognises the men, not personally but professionally.
Dressed in dark blue uniforms that are near black they are so dark these men can only belong to Bannersters’ Constabulary Au Secrecy. They are a step above the normal police who can, sometimes, be found on the streets. Though, in more recent years with apparent ‘restructuring’ their presence appears to have be ever diminishing. Yet, where those who had counted themselves as employees have shifted to no one is quite sure. Likely it is the Constabulary Au Secrecy, though if that is true it seems none are willing to confirm or deny. Undoubtedly the group have been seen far more frequently than used to be the case however.
Forcing a smile across his face, Felipe shoves his swelling fears down deep and asks, “What can we do for you constables?”
“Are you Noah Standings?” The marginally less gruff looking of the pair replies ignoring the question to issue his own.
Unsure on how to answer, because if Felipe says no then it is clear the other man with him must be, which he is, he settles on saying nothing.
“We require an answer.” The other constable soon pipes up with a darkening look on his face.
“Th-that’s me.” Noah informs raising a shaky hand.
His previous bravado is gone, evaporated.
“Move, you need to come with us.” The first instruction is aimed toward Felipe, the second Noah.
“What’s this about?” Is the query from the blonde man who cannot help but feel the eyes from all the other passengers riding the tram, except those belonging to his friend, upon him.
“Just move it.” The grumpier one of the pair demands clearly short on patience, further proven when the shaking Noah moves too slowly and is grabbed by the arm and wrenched into the trams aisle. A wide avenue that separates the two columns of seats down either side of the track based public transport which is the principal form of locomotion around Bannerster, other than cycling or walking.
“Please, that hurts.” Is the whimper from the apprehended man who offers no resistance other than verbal for fear he might be beaten in broad daylight if he dare.
Feeling a compulsion to do something to help his friend, Felipe makes efforts to rise from his seat. The other constable dissuades him by forcibly keeping hold of his shoulder, pressing him down into his chosen seat. No words are exchanged. In fact the constable doesn’t even look at Felipe. That is until Noah and his other constable are off the tram, at which point he offers a twisted smile-snarl, releases his grip on Felipe’s shoulder and quickly departs.
No sooner is the second constable off the tram than it resumes its journey. Panic-stricken and fearful of what might become of his oldest friend, without any consideration for the display he might cause, the dark haired man rushes to the front of the tram.
“You need to stop, let me off.” Is his declaration upon arrival.
The driver offers no reply, much like he makes no efforts to slow or bring the tram to a halt.
“Did you not hear me, I need to get off!” Felipe’s voice is shrill.
Slowly the driver turns his head and then looks up at Felipe.
“Sorry sir, no can do.”
“Why not?” Is all Felipe manages to offer in reply, which is much less than he had planned. Seeing as he was intending to offer a reasoning as to why he is making such a demand.
“Authority says I can only pull up at designated stops, planned and marked.”
The line sounds rehearsed, as if the tram driver has been asked the question a thousand times previously.
Panting in disbelief, his breathing short and loud, Felipe manages to fire back, “You stopped but a minute ago. Isn’t that the same?”
“No sir.” Is all that is offered alongside a slow side to side shake of the drivers head. Apparently no elaboration is to be given.
“Why?”
Turning his attention back to the dark haired man, sweating and trembling, who is stood close to the glass that all which separates them, the tram driver answers, “Because they were constables and I have to do what they demand.”
“They want you not to stop?”
No answer is forthcoming. In fact the driver ignores Felipe. It’s as if he is pretending the dark haired man is no longer stood there. Even when he asks other questions the ruse is maintained and no response provided.
Defeated, Felipe shrinks, turns, sees the eyes upon him and slinks back to his seat.
Not everyone is looking his way, just the bourgeois, the rich, the wealthy, the upper class, whatever name you prefer to call them.
In Bannerster it tends to be bourgeois for reasons he isn’t aware of. It could very well be a fashionable thing. Regardless, they are focused on him, staring. It makes him wonder if at any moment he may too get a visit from the Constabulary Au Secrecy.
Would it be better if he did? He doesn’t know. Part of him thinks yes, because he might have the chance to locate Noah. Another part of him swears it isn’t; that we could not help his friend if he too were carted off. To where? He cannot say. If he were one of them he might.
He wonders if he knows anyone in the constabulary. He doesn’t. That is the conclusion he reaches as the bell is rung to signify the tram is approaching its next stop.
I’ll get off here, retrace my steps, go looking for… What do you hope to find? They could be long gone.
Frustrated, Felipe gets off the tram, looks up and down the street, spies only the bourgeois who Noah holds such contempt for and then… His eyes fall on more constables. The dark haired man gulps. They have to be coming for him. There can be no question. Otherwise the timing is too…
The constables accost a woman. She is dressed in similar fatigues to Felipe, her hair stained with grease. She protests in vain with the rich watching as she is forcibly marched away just like Noah was.
Panic, at wholly new kind, leaps into Felipe’s throat.
What is happening?
Convinced the street is not the place to be, without understanding why, Felipe makes haste for home. Its close but he’ll take the back way so he can stay semi-hidden.
Usually he wouldn’t dream of it for it reeks of guilt. But with what he has seen in the last eight minutes feeling guilty for using back alleys is not something that worries him, Bannerster is what does. The city is changing and not for the better.
You knew this! You ignored it! Pretended you didn’t see! Everyone has!
He urges his internal ramblings to silence, to spare him their damnation, their judgement. It doesn’t work, though they mercifully prove unable to thwart his retreat to safety. Well, he hopes its safety. It is his home after all, so in his mind it should be safe.
But is it? Or is that only a hope? Maybe it’s a dream, a lie? Perhaps you are not safe in any place that you know of.
Shut up. Shut up. Shut up!
Locking his front door, Felipe breathes an enormous sigh of relief as he stands with his back against his door adorned with four locks. Not something he had installed. That was how it was when he moved in. Until this moment he’d always hated having so many locks. For some reason they now provide him a modicum, nothing more than that, of comfort.
Sadly, his nerves do not appear willing to calm. It’s because his mind refuses to stop whirring, and so he stumbles into his kitchenette. He ignores the kettle, his preferred drink of choice, grabs a glass he hadn’t had time to ferret away to its place in the cupboard before his shift, shoves it under the tap and spins it. Water soon jets out in a violent rush. The glass fills in seconds only to then spurt a cascade over the edge when Felipe fails to spin the tap back the other way.
Ignoring the wet over his right hand he withdraws the glass from under the fast running water and presses the glass to his lips. Quickly he gulps down the contents. It’s cool but does little to ease his thirst he feels and so again he shoves the glass under the tap. More water goes spurting violently all around the sink bowl. Some of it splashes Felipe who is oblivious.
He extinguishes the tap, then proceeds to gorge himself on this second helping of water. It lasts seldom longer than the first. When it is spent and dry however the dark haired man does feel better. He cannot say how much, just that he does.
Plonking the glass down on the draining board, Felipe braces his arms against the edge of the counter. He’s starting to feel light-headed which leaves him to wonders if it’s the result of having drunk too much too quick. He doesn’t care. He needed it.
When finally the sensation passes, the dark haired man can manage only to shake his head from side-to-side in disbelief.
Blue Rose
Petals of azure.
Have to say still not sure.
A spring in the step.
Placing your bet.
Thorns on the shaft.
Moments being daft.
Hue of lime green.
I’m feeling mean.
Stab through the skin.
Calling it a win.
Soon it will wilt.
Months filled with guilt.
End of an era.
Never been clearer.
Loss of the leaves.
Stolen by thieves.
Dance on the wind.
Obsessed ’til sinned.
Withering away.
Natures finality.
Manipulation
So frequent are the claims that I don’t belong.
I’ve started to hear it in every birds sweet song.
A ripple deep inside that’s beginning to shift.
Once it blooms it’ll be the worst kind of gift.
But you won’t back down,
And can’t seem to quit;
Each day I’m becoming more sickened by it.
Exclusion for reasons never quite explained.
No ground for me in this place will ever be gained.
Just paralysis caused by outside confines.
If only some of you had some spines.
But you won’t shut up,
Or even dare to admit;
That these actions are a targeted hit.
Pull the plug this is not for me.
This pound of flesh can come from somebody…
Else that isn’t being butchered for the fun.
Never should you be calling me hun.
I’m not your puppet on thin strings.
Won’t commit to your madness on false wings.
If you want a twin then look elsewhere.
No longer will my eyes be there to stare.
Meet your every command and will.
I’m free now since taking that pill.
Call me coward or even fool.
At least I will no longer be your tool.
Cause you couldn’t call cut,
Just kept me in a pit;
No longer will I have to feed on your spit.
Forever Hate
Sodden with an air of: who wants to be here in this pit?
Reality is no one wishes to join and be a part of it.
Can’t say I blame them for not wanting that at all.
Twinning might just drag them down in the fall.
A second space without a hint of beauty.
Too many noses turned up being snooty.
With judgement rendered by the dregs,
Think they are desperate for their meds.
Dosage against what they self-inflicted.
Refusing to be aware of what they depicted.
Their own demise and the rise of forever hate.
No wish to admit that they made the gravest mistake.
Cycle unending until that is proven wrong.
It’ll take time for it to become so far gone.
But when trees are aflame and the ground is torn,
Those will be the moments when it’ll be right to mourn,
Amongst the carcasses and angry crows,
Headstones bathe the fields as they stand crooked in rows.
Puncture to the formula of what was said to be the plan.
The ‘greatest’ of all decided it was time they ran.
Took to shelter in the mud and thought themselves to be safe.
Truth is they only branded their futures as a waif.
Wrapping rotten flesh around the downward spiral.
Words out of mouths only now seem to be viral.
Cackled cauldrons upon septic battlefields.
There is no more life left that can yield.
Dust and ash is the scenery that stands strong.
It’s painful not unlike the stabbing of a prong.
Lancing into the gut of what could have been.
Now it is ruptured and spent like a burst spleen.