Cage surrounds and controls.
Landing me with a role.
Position locked to a spot.
Siphons until its all I got.
That’s not a life for me.
Sounds more like insanity.
Picking at me like a scab.
Want to feel something and grab.
Mould it with my fists.
Not be enraged by it.
Cause who wants to be angry?
I’d do away with it gladly.
So simply hand me the key,
Or tell me how to get free.
Its all I ask!
In clean air I wish to bask.
Not feel like I’m boxed in.
That can never be called living.
When you can’t touch a soul.
It feels like a nightmare roll.
Cursed dice that screwed…
Me until I scream my mood.
Vent it to the ether.
Doing so makes me feel cheaper.
A shell without a mass.
Except for all the wrath.
Confined within a dot.
Don’t want to feel that’s all I got.
Dying Nights
This weeks story is a bit different. It’s not Sci-Fi. Not at all. I’d call it fantasy. Set in the modern day. Anyway, I didn’t realise it until reviewing but this story has some definite influences from Dead Space and Devil May Cry. I could say more. Give more detail, but I’m not going to. Instead I’m going to let you know it’s about 7,700 words long and say, I hope you enjoy!
Archibald can think of no place he would like to be less than on the streets of Venritere at night. Just the sound of the howling winds as they rush between the crooked roofs is enough to make his skin crawl. Add on top of that the eerie creaking the trees dotted along the wide paved sidewalks which are uneven illuminated by flickering street lights and you have something akin to a nightmare. So, if this wasn’t of the upmost import he would be inside, as is usual for him and everyone else in the city once the sun sets.
A shiver from the trench coat wearing man with thinning brown hair slows but does not force him to a standstill. That is because the last thing he intends to do is pause. Too many strange occurrences happen on these streets at night. Disappearances are the best you can hope for, the worst he dare not consider. Regrettably his mind gives him little choice, which is why seconds later he gags several times until he ultimately tears the images from his mind and casts them into a box he never intends to view the contents of.
If this mind box were real he would drop it into concrete and then dispose of it in the bay but it is not and so he will have to rely on his mental acuity to keep him from ever peaking inside.
Curiosity can be a real bug bear at times and sadly humans have it in abundance. It might be why Venritere is the way that it is. Or perhaps that is not it at all and a…
Don’t be daft, he thinks to himself while having to brace against a particularly strong gust of wind that seems determined to blow him off his feet and back the way he’s come. It fails in its attempts, though when it does finally abate Archibald cannot help but let out a sigh of relief.
You see the last thing he would want to do is have to re-tread this street, or any other in the city, without good cause.
Is what you are doing, where you are going, good cause to be out?
Silence! He tells this voice in his head.
He does so disdain when his subconscious tries to argue and dissuade him from things he knows are right.
Is that how we have fallen so far? Why the city is cut-off? Why visitors no longer venture? Or is it due to the stories, the disappearances, the violent ends that people meet on a daily basis by hands never seen but sometimes apparently apprehended? He does not know. He cannot. He does not wish too.
Ignorance is bliss; he reminds turning a corner only to be assaulted by another forceful gale.
Until it gets you killed, perhaps that can be assumed to be true.
Silence! I told you, no more of that. I do not wish to think on…
The mind, your mind, is not so simple. You know this. Stop trying to fight it. Embracing truth is the best course of action. Much like staying inside at such a time is…
I am well aware, and don’t need lecturing. But I am out here not for me…
That is my point, this is your mistake. One you should know better than to make. After all, self-preservation is exactly that; something that can only be undertaken by the self. And you being out here is not indicative to such a notion.
I am well aware of that.
Then why do you protest so profusely?
Because that which is necessary cannot, as you well know and are capable of understanding, always be that which is best for the one.
Madness.
It might be, but I noticed you didn’t refute.
His subconscious says no more. The silence, in his head, is quite soothing, calming; nothing like the winds of the storm which are assaulting his physical form.
Much of his coat is peeled back from his body, exposing it. Something Archibald offers resistance against with considerable fervour through the use of his arms to wrap around his upper torso.
To make matters worse his pace has been ground down to little more than a shuffle.
“Curse these winds, curse these hours; curse these streets that once were ours.” The balding man mutters to himself.
The winds so severe that his words are almost shoved back down his throat. It’s as if the storm, which rages most nights in the city, wishes him to do exactly that, eat his words.
What a vicious place Venrifere has become since these nights of anguish and pain which started so long ago. Archibald barely remembers a time before them, though they started when he was nine years old. Prior to their emergence he, like many of the city boys, used to play out in the streets. Not where the cars, trucks and bikes would blitz past but on the sidewalks and amongst the alleyways. He recalls how joyous it was to play hide and seek with his friends.
His mind switches; he begins to wonder where those boys might be now. It’s been decades since they last were together, back in the summer prior to them departing to venture along paths that they hoped would define their lives. He does pray they are well.
A rush of wind, low as if aimed at his shins, blasts. It wrenches him from his thoughts for he is forced to lean into the gust for the few steps it takes him to reach a nearby signpost. Without thought he reaches, leaps and grasps it before hauling himself toward the angled post and wrapping his arms around it. His feet don’t quite leave the ground but it feels as though they are close to doing so, too close. And when he breathes it feels as though there is no air for his lungs, as if he will suffocate and die. He does not understand it but has heard stories. All of them seem to be blamed upon different things such as curses, ghosts, ghouls, spirits, damnation, impending apocalyptic doom, weapons of human fashioning. He believes the culprit to be none of them. Not only because they range too much with so little evidence to prove a single theory.
Pulling himself from these thoughts he focuses back in on his goal, to reach where he is headed, for there is one man who might hold answers. He will not divulge them if he does but he will lend a hand, of sorts. Yet, to say Archibald is comfortable with the prospect would be fallacy. He’s afraid, terrified even, for this man is an odd sort. Some have claimed he isn’t really a man. Idle gossip from fools, no doubt, but try as he might he cannot get them from his mind.
Is it because they might be neighbours and he is not?
The violent gust threatening to fling Archibald fizzles to a normal rush of air. Gingerly the balding man releases his grip upon the signpost. He has no confidence that the winds will not whip up once more at a moment’s notice, catching him off-guard and casting him back down the street.
Mercifully, no such fate transpires and the balding man with cold blue eyes resumes his trudge once more.
As he goes his eyes dart more than ever as he expects, anticipates, to be jumped by whatever keeps the list of the disappeared ever-expanding and the bodies piling up.
Of course, it might be the disappearances and deaths are not related one bit, but something in his bones suggests that they are.
Another corner turned sees him greeted with a signpost that he quickly surveys, without stopping. It tells him he is close but if before he was fearful, now he feels oppressed. That is the best he can explain it while the wind pulls at his trench coats tails exposing his navy blue cloth covered legs and highly polished but splashed with mud dark brown leather laced up shoes. Catching sight of their mud speckled state Archibald cannot help but exhale, disappointed. Not a moment later rain pours out of the sky sinking the man’s mood further still. He didn’t think it possible previously. Now he realises how wrong he had been. It’s as if the city is reacting to him. It’s daft, idiotic, impossible and yet that is how it feels striding through the quickly forming puddles that reside on the uneven sections of cracked slabs and pitted asphalt that make up the patchwork sidewalk.
If the surface were better on the opposite side of the otherwise lifeless street he would cross, but it will not be he seriously doubts. Nothing in this city is as it once was for everything is in a state of decline, decay.
Thinking back, the blame for the slump Venrifere fell into was initially pinned on the collapse of the milling companies. Then it shifted to the hauliers who no longer brought the trees here to the mills for cutting, and after that… Archibald doesn’t recall but suffice to say a long list of others had blame affixed to their chests.
In truth it was likely not one single thing but a combination of them all. He cannot say for he was but a child, though the effects were not lost on him even at that age. Especially that day when his parents issued a decree that he was forbidden from playing out on the streets like he used to. And it didn’t seem to matter, when he protested because of course he would, that he was with his friends; it was deemed simply too dangerous.
He hadn’t understood why for reasons were not given and so had screamed and roared in defiance wanting answers.
Sadly, Archibald’s parents did not, or could not, provide their son with what he sought. Still, he obeyed. It was how he was brought up. In his teens he thought it a mistake to have complied, as an adult he believes he might have been wise beyond his years.
A sharp hiss reaches Archibald’s ears and immediately draws his attention. He turns and spies a cat hiding in the darkness of an alley entrance. The animals’ eyes glowing yellow frighten the balding man who does not think they are as they should be. It’s why he backs away swiftly until he hears hissing no more and then hastens his stride.
The rain, still beating, is something he has grown akin to. What he hasn’t is the dampness in his shoes which he wasn’t aware had a leak.
“Rotten way to find out, but in keeping with the backward trend of this night,” he murmurs to himself under his breath.
No one would hear his words even if there were anyone around to hear them. He thinks that might be a victory, an incredibly small one but one nonetheless.
However, the pattern of his strides is broken several steps later when another hiss reaches his ears. Again Archibald turns to see a yellow eyed cat in the darkness. It has to be coincidence, but he steers clear this second time regardless.
Two steps then another hiss. Archibald spins round as he walks expecting to see a cat in hot pursuit. There is nothing, no one. He is alone on the street, heart thundering in his chest. He hates this. It isn’t right. He doesn’t want to be here. He shouldn’t be here. He should be at home, doors locked, windows too, hiding out until dawn breaks. It’s what everyone else in the city will be doing. Except those with no sense or no choice, but those are few and far between.
So why are you out here?
I told you why I’m out here. I don’t have a…
You always have a choice. And this was yours. But did you choose wisely? Or have you made a grave misstep?
Shut up, shut up, shut up! Archibald shouts in his head hoping, praying, it’ll be enough to dispatch the voice. Once and for all would be nice but he isn’t convinced he’s that fortunate he gain such a respite.
His subconscious never stays away for long. Whether that is normal or not, he cannot say. For him it is but for others…
These are dying nights! You should not be out. They will take your life. You’ve been told past twice.
What? I don’t… No, this is a trick. I don’t care. Shut up! No more talking. Or-or-or else…
…Or else what Archie?
There is a pause. Archibald quickens his pace to almost a jog before anymore is said. But at least the wind his died down. The rain hasn’t, though that was not what was hampering his progress. The rain only soaks him through. He can cope with that. Given the choice rain is his preference anyway.
You think I’m in your head and a part of you, but have you considered I might be that which is stalking and coming for you?
Upon hearing those oddly rhymed words, which still sound as if they are in Archibald’s head, he breaks into a full sprint. Cackling starts, it is followed by hissing as cats appear from alleyways on both sides of the street. They are dark with yellow eyes that glow, ominously. None of them look natural to the balding man who is a running for his life, terrified and sure he is soon to die, cursing himself for going out, for trying to do the right thing. It was madness. He has, this night, become one of those fools he spent years criticising upon learning the extent of the mess Venrifere was in and has to endure.
You can’t get away, Archibald hears in his head. He tries to shake the voice away. It seems to work. He hears no more taunting; only the sound of his heavy breathing as he rushes down the street. He is close, so very close. One more road and then he’ll be at his destination. He can make it. He has to make it.
For some reason he looks over his shoulder. It isn’t so much a choice but a compulsion he obeys. Immediately, he is flooded with regret because behind him the cats are bounding after him. Truthfully, they look less like separate entities and more like one single mass guided by piercing yellow shapes. Fangs too are on show as hissing and mulling fills the air.
The balding man cannot explain what is going on. And this isn’t the time even if he were able to understand what he is seeing. That can come later…
I am not recalling this. It’s going in that box, the mind box. I’m locking it and throwing away the key.
You can never be rid of the key Archie; it’s a part of you. It will always be a part of you. That is until you are a part of me.
Roaring laughter follows those words. It howls like the wind, which in that moment returns with a bone chilling whoosh.
Archibald braces against it, fearful the cat-mass that is pursuing him may not be hindered the way he is and that if he does not push he will soon be in its grasp, whatever that it might truly be.
Don’t think, just drive your legs!
He does, as difficult as it might be, manage to continue against the force of the gusts. His legs driving as his body leans in until it’s angled forward precariously. If the wind were to vanish now he would, without doubt, fall flat on his face. But the wind does not die, it continues to assault and tear at him.
The seams of his trench coat strain, then fail. The garment is torn from his body. Archibald gasps. It crosses his mind he might be caught. That this was a trap all along and that he has walked into it, like some foolish blind imbecile.
Before long he cranes his neck to look back over his shoulder. The cat-mass is continuing its pursuit but has not reached him as he feared. Discovering that gives him some semblance of relief and spurs his will to continue on. Still, he would be lying if he did not admit that the effort required to do so is becoming more considerable by the second. Doubtful his drive, determination, energy reserves will last forever. That simply is not how the human body works, for better or for worse. Right now that would undoubtedly be for the worse.
Lifting his head, Archibald concludes that he doesn’t understand where he is for the street seems to have folded in on itself ahead of him. That isn’t possible. He knows that for a fact and yet that is what his eyes are showing him. He rubs at them. A considerable effort taken to raise his arms to his face without stopping his push against the invisible force tearing at his navy coloured waistcoat and the grey shirt beneath that which is fastened to almost the top with a red cravat to fill the void where otherwise flesh could be glimpsed.
A quick rub of his eyes changes nothing. The street continues to appear as though it is folded in, a dead end. Archibald knows Venrifere well. This street is not a dead end. It runs for three miles all told, so how is it…?
Something grabs the heel of the dark brown leather shoe on his left foot. He gasps, lets out a shriek, stumbles, goes head over heels and lands on his back. Lying there Archibald accepts his fate, that he will be taken, become one more name on the list of disappeared. But no such fate welcomes him. He peels open his eyes to find he is greeted by a strong light. It is one of the street lamps, though is shining far brighter and in a different shade than he can ever recall having seen any of them do previously. His brow furrows. Then he realises his ears are ringing. Confusion envelopes him before, as if by magic, the ringing comes to an end, ceases. It is at that point he becomes aware of the hissing and meowing. He jumps, almost out of his skin, and lands on his feet. Terrified he prepares to run, only to discover there is nowhere to run too. It makes no sense but his eyes are not deceiving him, and so he turns on the spot looking for an out, of any kind. It takes no time at all for his eyes to land on the cat-mass, the thing making all the noise, writhing too. At the sight of it he pauses, his head tilts one way.
“It-it looks trapped.” Archibald stutters to himself, eyes probing at the sight that is laid out before them.
“I-I don’t understand. Where am I? What is…?”
The balding man hell-bent on doing what is right stops. He never finishes his statement for it dawns on him there has been no reply. Nothing has uttered or issued taunts and torments back at him. He finds that odd. He shouldn’t for this is normal but he does.
When a loud creaking noise fills his ears a few short moments later however Archibald is once more filled with abject horror. Even as he turns slowly toward the direction of it he feels confident his fate is assured; signed, sealed and delivered he recalls being the phrase uttered by his mother throughout his life. That was up until the day she died from something that afflicted her lungs but he to this day cannot pronounce.
You see Archibald’s mother worked in one of the cities mills in the days before they shuttered. It transpired that for her efforts, her years of service, one of the trees that grows locally which was often used because of its abundance and cheapness, in fact contained a dust which when released into the air and then inhaled slowly eroded the alveoli in the lungs. It was a painful way to watch someone you loved die. After her death Archibald’s father gave up. Became a ghost of his former self until the day he became one of the disappeared. Unlike most counted on that list he didn’t stay missing. His body was found a few days later. It was blue, shrivelled and affixed with an expression, so Archibald was told, that suggested he had been scared to death.
Eyes fixed upon that gaping wound of an open doorway, the balding man thinks he has some idea of how his father must’ve felt as he waits for whatever might reside within to attack.
No such event comes to pass. Rather, Archibald eventually looks up to see the sign hanging above the door in neon colours. He breathes a sigh of relief for this is where he had been aiming to get too all this time. And somehow he is here, in one piece, alive. A smile tears across his face, his breathing still short, does nothing to prevent him from stepping forward and entering into the darkness.
Acknowledge/Admit
I hit the wall yet again today.
Wish the feeling would just go away.
Tired of getting this wave washing over me.
Its so strong I think I might fail to see,
Past the shroud thats over my face.
No body for me to embrace.
Just a single soul in an empty zone,
Which is why all I want to do is go home.
I wish it was that simple to achieve.
Every second of the day I have no reprieve.
Stuck in my head and it just keeps spinning.
Then come the chants about me winning.
None help and I need them to go.
If they don’t I’ll end up so-so.
With a brain that just won’t stop.
If that transpires I might blow my top.
Drift along my version of the maginot line.
Each second that passes feels benign.
A lost moment that should not be.
So I count one, two, three.
Yet still the pain remains.
Got a feeling I might go down in flames.
Not something that I want to admit.
Still can’t argue that its a real prospect.
Savour And Flee
Your purple craze won’t fix this situation.
Gaze upon the rifts of honest rejection.
Lie amongst the tallest grasses.
Batting of your long dark lashes.
Eyes so bright they shine like beacons.
Blue as the sky no matter the seasons.
But this is not meant to be.
I am cast so far away.
Savour this and flee from me.
This is how it’ll always have to be.
Cyan sea of endless streams.
You frolic within these rotating dreams.
A loop upon which you feed.
This is how you don’t need,
A point to which to bind yourself.
If you did you’d lose your health.
But this is not meant to be.
I am cast so far away.
Savour this and flee from me.
This is how it’ll always have to be.
Medication can’t make it right for me or you;
We are simply on opposites sides too.
So I snap the line and allow the drift.
Cause we will never fight the rift.
Forget me are the last words I say;
I know its better off this way.
And for you that is an option.
For me I am cursed with nothing.
But the permanence of what came before,
Including memories of you which I adore.
But right is not what is easy.
I made this choice so you can live freely.
Not be bound to this corrupting line.
Doing that would have destroyed your sign.
The thing upon which you were forged.
Such a thing I could not be responsible for.
You’re the innocent!
But this is not meant to be.
I am cast so far away.
Savour this and flee from me.
This is how it’ll always have to be.
BSTR
Burn it down.
Disaster is on the other side of the gate.
Chains are heavy so give me a break.
The answers not much like the question.
That is why I drift among obsession.
Searching for a point in time.
Waiting for the second rhyme.
Where day joins with chilly night.
Retrospect might as well take flight.
Because when I am here there is no difference.
Might as well dwell in existence
Sell it out.
This phase is a new contradiction.
What has been baked is infliction.
Stain upon the empty tables.
Calls that come from inside the stables.
Where once happiness did roar.
All I feel now is plenty poor.
Verify that sold is not imprisoned.
The root cause is still thickened.
Cast down from a point so high above.
In this place there is no love.
Torn and ruptured.
Spiral down the neverending road of forks.
Light that dwells here is the kind that stalks.
Passion upon a spinning wheel.
Height above makes you feel.
Weather like a simple soul.
What remains could be a goal.
Not the type which brings solution.
Feel as though time has bred confusion.
A sordid little moment that is most sublime.
From zero will you never earn a dime.
Stars And Clovers
I made a wish on a falling star.
Don’t know when or if I’ll get that far.
Cause there’s no way of knowing,
If your words will be chosen.
So you have to keep going.
But not fixate on words spoken.
Talons on the window pane.
Rap, rap, rap comes again.
Someone is at the door.
Friend or foe cannot ignore.
I cried to the rising sun.
It’s beauty is unforgotten.
When night turns to day,
Hip hip hooray.
Doesn’t mean blessing bestowed.
Time to return to the road.
Talons on the window pane.
Rap, rap, rap comes again.
Someone is at the door.
Friend or foe cannot ignore.
Cling to the four leaf.
It’s time here will be brief.
Picked from an endless vale,
Distinguish and impale.
Luck upon the mass of new.
Will I be one too?
Talons on the window pane.
Rap, rap, rap comes again.
Someone is at the door.
Friend or foe cannot ignore.
Cause questions have answers.
Some might be chancers.
But everyone is just a soul,
Vying for their control.
So judge not and accept,
All can be subject.
Lost in the what could be.
Wishing unendingly.
Talons on the window pane.
Rap, rap, rap comes again.
Someone is at the door.
Friend or foe exist no more.
I made a wish on a falling star.
Didn’t know when or if I’d get that far.
Cause there was no way of knowing,
If your words will be chosen.
So you have to keep going.
But not fixate on words spoken.
3R
As is often the case while writing, for me at least, this story changed a bit between when I had the idea and it being written. For starters I went back and forth on the opening. At one time it was going to start halfway through the first section, then at the second until finally I decided to put a bit more background into the events leading up to the core of the story. All that might leave you wondering, but what is the story about. I don’t want to spoil anything so you’ll have to read it to find out.
“You can’t do this to me!” Is the exclamation from the dishevelled man who struggles and squirms trying to break free from the restraints binding his wrists behind his back.
If not for the continuous electrical discharge immobilising his fingers his efforts might be more fruitful. It is impossible to say whether that alone would be enough to afford him the ability to escape but it certainly would increase his prospects from essentially zero to marginally above.
“Shut it and keep moving.” Is the reply from the Judicial Guard who couldn’t care less about the exclamations of a criminal waiting to be tried in the Damocles Complex on the human capital world of Mars.
The accompanying shove reinforces the guard’s lack of decorum. No surprise then that he is met with a glare from the other Judicial Guard alongside him, Demi Urlanium. There is no words which accompany the look for the deed is done and the suspected lawbreaker is already stumbling forward barely capable of staying upright with his hands so securely fastened and positioned at the small of his back.
“But I’m telling the truth! I’ve done nothing wrong! I don’t even know what this is about. What I’m supposed to have done.” Are the statements which spill out of the restrained man’s mouth. His brown eyes wide as the words leave his lips.
He looks like a deer in headlights. You know, just before they meet their end. Usually their fate is sealed when they come up against a rover truck in the dead of night as they ferry goods across the surface of Mars down the fourteen lane wide highways that connect the cities to one another.
“And I’ve never heard that one before. Ha. If you’re going to lie at least try and come up with something new, original. Not the same old, same old.”
“But I’m telling the…”
The male guard, Haymenous, has no further patience; it’s why he grabs the suspected criminal, stops his forward march only to lean close to his ear from behind.
“One more word out of you fucker and I’ll put the subjugation collar on you early. I might even lock it a tad too tight. Prisoners die all the time. No one will care if you’re added to that list. Am I clear? Or do you need a ‘reminder’ regarding what I’m asking you to do?”
The supposed lawbreaker says nothing. His face drained of colour, pale and terrified, instead shakes his head from side to side. It’s the only thing he can manage for words are no longer able to reach his mind for he is so afraid of making a misstep and dying before he gets the chance to be absolved of crimes he knows he didn’t commit.
“Good. Now get moving before my blood really starts to boil.”
Without the need for a shove the apprehended man resumes his march. It isn’t far now to the Judgement Chamber. He can see the building ahead, through the glass cylindrical connecting corridor that links the Administration Block to the light blue dome fashioned from triangles of rounded glass.
Not liking the way this is going, Demi jabs Haymenous in the ribs. She gets a snarl once his head has whipped round. A raised eyebrow soon dispels his careless reaction.
No apology is forthcoming, she didn’t expect one either.
Contrary to popular belief however this treatment is not in breach of any Damocles rites. Skirting close to the sun, so to speak, absolutely, but none thus far have been breached. It might sound wrong but on Mars law is tough. In fact, across all the colonies of Sol laws enforcement are permitted to be tough. Not because humanity is on the brink of failure, far from it, as by all metrics used it is thriving. It is just that humanity in the thirtieth century believes in strength. After all, a firm hand is a victorious one. Something that has been proven many times previously throughout human history, but at no point better perhaps than before mankind spread across the system, when they had been forced to brave the potential failure of Mars, its homeworld. It is said to be just as dramatic as it sounds seeing how Phobos had lost orbit and was preparing to crash into the fourth planet from the sun.
However, as is clear to see, certain doom was averted when the combined might of humanity unleashed its rage upon the rocky satellite that saw it blasted into dust. That was seven centuries ago and ever since mankind has gone from strength to strength. Still, it took Mars nearly two hundred years to surmount the damage wrought by Phobos prior to its ultimate destruction.
“Too much.” Demi mouths silently to Haymenous who snorts just as silently before offering a shrug and then turning his attention forward once more; on the prisoner, on their destination ahead. A crooked half smile appears across his face soon after. Demi catches it and shakes her head. She really doesn’t like how Haymenous conducts himself at times but shifts needed swapping and she drew the short straw.
“Judicor Urlanium.” A voice blurts with authority and urgency.
Demi’s response to the exclamation is immediate; she does an about and in doing so comes to set her grey eyes on Captain Parsine Velfarha, who is marching right toward her.
Without a thought she fires off a salute, clenched fist across her breastplate. “Captain.”
“You are relieved from this escort. You’re needed to resume your normal post.”
“Yes Captain. As you command.”
Demi’s ‘normal’ post is serving among the line guards that convicts pass as they are escorted to the Prison Pods that launch criminals off Mars and to the prison planet known as 3R, a dying world unsuitable for habitation by anyone but the scum of the race.
If the planet itself doesn’t kill them the other inhabitants surely will.
“Judicor Inor, I will accompany you the rest of the way. This one is particularly dangerous.” Demi hears Captain Velfarha claim as she marches away.
Hearing that she cannot help but raise an eyebrow for the prisoner, she does not know his name for introductions become forfeit as soon as a citizen is taken into custody, could not appear further from dangerous to her. Of course, it could all be an act by the suspect but… She shrugs, accepting the word of her superior, a man of great standing and perfect honour.
Sadly to get to her normal position Demi will need to go the long way around the Damocles Complex, as the only quick way is reserved for the guilty and she most certainly is not on trial for she is a Judicial Guard.
To her knowledge no Guard has never breached SolLaw, the laws of the Sol System. It isn’t surprising for Judicor’s are chosen based on their standing in addition to that of their families. Any minor infraction, including generations prior, can ruin a citizens chances of joining. Yet, permission to join is only the beginning as to become a Judicor takes eight years of intensive military and judicial training that can only be undertaken once you have proven your aptitude is above the minimum threshold that puts you in the top ten percent of your birth world’s populace. And no, Judicor’s are not permitted posts on non-birth worlds. Except in the most extreme of circumstances such as the Herahol Disaster that saw eighty percent of all Judicor’s on the station flash frozen by the void of space when a particle dust shower ruptured large sections of hull plating. What a tragedy that day was.
Fifteen minutes is how long it takes Demi to complete her jaunt from Block to Chamber connecting corridor round to Condemned Row, the nickname for the hall down which convicts are lead to the Prison Pods that rest on the elevated launch platform some three thousand feet above a gaping wound of a ravine in Mars’ surface.
Filling the vacant position in the line draws raised eyebrows, but none dare speak for a while. No surprise that when the hush is broken it is by Judicor Ceres Barritot. For better or worse, largely the latter Demi thinks for it is unbefitting, the man can’t keep his nose out of others business. How he became a Judicor when he’s so adamant about asking questions and interfering, Demi will never be capable of grasping.
“Thought you’d swapped; drawn the short straw?” Is the query that fires from the corner of his mouth as he continues to stare ahead, making no attempt to break from his at attention statuesque stance.
“I did but Captain Velfarha relieved me and ordered me back to my regular post, here.”
“What did you do to deserve that?” There is accusation in Ceres tone.
“Nothing.” Demi assures defensively.
“Bull… You must’ve done something. The Cap never relieves anyone. Hell, he doesn’t get involved in jack. You know that. So what did you do?”
“Nothing, I swear on SolLaw. I was escorting the suspect with Haymenous when…”
“Wait, Haymenous? Hmm. That’s odd.”
“What’s odd? Why is that odd?” Demi queries believing she must be missing something but not overly surprised seeing as she, as is normal for Judicor’s, makes no effort to involve herself in the activities, business and/or life of others. Especially those she works with.
It sounds like a lonely life, and it is, but there are perks to it. Judicor’s get free reign of the fertility facilities. You might be asking, well does that mean there is a fertility issue with humans in the thirtieth century? The answer is no, there is not. It’s just that on Mars people do to hook up the old fashioned way. Rather mates are chosen, in this case by the Judicor, but only following rigorous examination of the potential mates background, from record beginning, and includes the individuals current standing, psyche evaluation, credit, and three dozen other points all of which largely guarantee the next generation of humans are civilised, Judicial appropriate SolLaw abiders. Obviously it isn’t a perfect system or Judicor’s wouldn’t be needed.
“Well, the Cap’s second cousin has put in a complaint against Haymenous, claiming his standing is not without dispute. Apparently, it is believed that Haymenous might’ve managed to fiddle the…”
“Judicor Barritot, silence in the line. Duty is king, you part of its crown.” An authoritarian voice of considerable depth says.
The old saying is from one of the others and rings loud in Demi’s ears in the wake of its delivery by an old white stubbled Judicor who has looked grumpy throughout Demi and Ceres’ discussion. Unsurprising as it was inevitable.
Both Judicor Urlanium and Barritot fall silent immediately and continue to stare ahead. They are awaiting the convicts who will, no doubt, soon be passing. The giveaway is the elder Judicial Guard, unless of course his insinuation is a lie. The dark haired woman does not believe the old Judicor would do such a thing for that would bring his word into doubt, and a Judicor’s word can never be in doubt. If that were to happen SolLaw might crumble, with chaos left to reign and anarchy be permitted to flourish. Such a thing would spell certain doom for mankind, see it slide back into the ways of the old failure when wars were common and ruin was what the species teetered on the brink of.
Fenn is devastated, lost in his mind, filled with despair as he is marched amongst the other convicts toward his doom. His head is low, his mood more so as the subjugation collar keeps his body subdued while his mind swims in angry violence it wishes to extol onto those who have damned and condemned him to death for nothing.
They have the wrong person. He is convinced of it for he could not have been where it is claimed he was for…
A shove forces him to quicken. If not for the collar he might be capable of resisting but alas it is his cage for the time being. How long exactly it will adorn his neck he cannot say for he is a good SolLaw abiding man who has never been in trouble with authorities ever, anywhere. It’s quite the achievement bearing in mind that Fenn grew up in the Dnem Slums on Poseidon, a moon of Pluto.
A harsh and unforgiving place, the slums especially, that if anywhere Judicor’s had been needed in his youth it was there. Yet, only in recent years have they established themselves in the colony. Reasoning as to why is something he is unaware of, but SolLaw comes to all humans eventually.
Still, as a youth he lived by the rites put forth across all colonies as if Judicial Guards were present and ready swoop down at a moment’s notice to enforce the letter of the laws known to all from first steps.
Why am I thinking about this now? He does not know. He has no answers. It is stupid for his mind to be indulging in this frivolity when he has been wrongly condemned. But Judicor’s are never wrong.
Well, they are this time! I am innocent. I have been framed and the judiciary misled.
How can you say that? You sound like a heretic! These are the words of an anarchist, a betrayer to the human way of life, the society that has been built over centuries in the wake of the Disaster.
No more can he think on such things. Sadly, Fenn cannot tell if that is because the collar wishes him not to, he did not realise that the argumentative voice was not his own as it had taken on his lilt and speech patterns, or whether it is because he is aware of the truth, that fighting is useless.
That isn’t you saying that! That is…
Silence! His mind goes blank. He is acutely aware this decision is not his own. That he is being controlled.
He hates this collar. These are not thoughts, these are feelings. He wasn’t aware there was a difference. His whole thirty years of life he was convinced thoughts and feelings were one and the same, interconnected, indistinguishable. It seems he has been incorrect. They are in fact different for he can feel but not think.
How is it possible? There is no reply for thoughts are not permitted. Then how did I question? Again there is only a torturous mental silence that he is about to scream in reaction to when he catches sight of a familiar face. In doing so he feels his disbelief manifest physically upon his face as he approaches the Judicial Guard, a woman with chin length black hair, grey eyes, large muscles, broad shoulders, a pointed jaw and a hard stare.
Without a doubt she is the Judicor who had been her escort, until she wasn’t when she was relieved by a Captain who escorted Fenn alongside the bully who liked to torment him. His initial hope is that the bully would be stopped with the presence of the Captain. He’s been wrong.
The feeling of a snarl tears in Fenn’s mind but his face remains blank. He is unaware of this, though the sound of the snarl soon forces him to abandon it for a more relaxed mental state. Mercifully, the deafening ends that same instant.
More control, he loathes it. Alas, he has no way of combating this violation of himself and even if he did he doubts the Judicial Guards would care. It is not in their blood.
Vitriol boils up, the collar cannot stop it. He screams, in his head only, then attempts to writhe. Outside of his mind his body continues to march toward its fate, the Prison Pods. Fenn has heard stories that the convicted never reach the prison planet which the general populace are unaware of the name of. Rather, the pods explode in the atmosphere. Whether a result of shoddy construction, by design or through the use of missiles there is no definitive answer it seems.
Never had he considered them true. Now however, all these memories have come flooding back to him.
You are a heretic! These are your thoughts and they slander SolLaw, the judiciary, Damocles Complex, all that humanity adheres to and holds as sacrosanct to its continued prosperity and survival. Atone!
The demand is skull splitting. Fenn tries to grab his head, to make the relentless echo of the command stop; he can’t. There is no preventing any of what he is suffering through.
Emotions boil, erupt, spark. His eyes fly open and land on Judicor Demi Urlanium. To his shock her eyes break from their forward stare to study him as he passes. There is recognition in them. He sees it. He is sure he…
Atone!
NO! Is the cry he manages to fire back. The collar flickers, Fenn feels some semblance of himself slip through a crack. He smiles both mentally and physically. Then it ends just as he endeavours to resist further control. The gap slammed shut like a heavy blast door that has malfunctioned and shut on his foot, the pain is immense.
Resistance is died. Control is returned. You are condemned. You are a heretic; a convict. You are not fit for society. Damnation is your future. Repent and perhaps your death will be swift, merciful. That is all you shall be permitted. Accept. Bow.
Looking again Fenn sees he has past the female Judicor. She has made no efforts to give aid.
Why would she? She is a proper SolLaw abider. You are a rite breaker.
If the words were all that Fenn had to face he thinks it would not be so bad but the exertion upon his mind, the weight pressing and forcing itself upon him is simply too much.
Before he reaches the Prison Pods, fifteen in total sat in position ready for deployment, his mind breaks. His will folds in upon itself. It is not so much acceptance but assimilation. And once achieved the collar falls silent. Its work is done. But Fenn’s sentence is not. Mind conquered or not Fenn was always going to be crammed into the Prison Pod and fired off.
Minutes later that is exactly what happens, alongside twelve others.
Once the countdown is done the pods fire their singular energy thrusters and rocket up and into the sky. With the heavy low clouds that fill the air this day the pods soon become lost to the eye. Not that the Judicor’s watch, neither those who performed the march nor those who lined the avenue down which the condemned were ferried. That would be far too merciful and not at all in line with SolLaw which declares that those found guilty are no longer human. They are nothing. Husks sent out as if they were broken. For in the eyes of SolLaw all those incapable of adhering are broken. They are non-functioning entities, hence that is why their disposal is upon a world uninhabitable and damned to a fate which they too share with it.
If they survive for any time on 3R they might understand their failures, their madness. Regardless, time will take them no matter what for nothing escapes the prison planet’s surface. It’s impossible for atmosphere based electromagnetic storms disable all technology and swirls around the brown, grey, yellow ball of toxic filth believed to exist below.
No More
Surrender, surrender.
Don’t wish to contend her.
I’m a survivor.
Simply wish to thrive here.
Newer and fewer.
We bow to our ruler.
Possess and suppress.
Not a path to bless.
Inspire and fly higher.
Cast out the final liar.
Here in the back of a very open field,
We build these monuments to yield.
Beg to the gods who bore us fruit,
The first of which have started to shoot.
A haven this is and we will defend,
Never will we let the corrupt pretend.
Worm their ways into our township,
If we did then we’d all down slip.
Crumple under endless blue,
Not a place for any to stew.
So we guard day and night.
Display what is our might.
Forge a future bathed and clean.
This space of ours is most serene.
No doom has ever reached these shores.
A mass that is without the sores.
Scars that indicate battle.
When innocents had been treated like cattle.
Slaughtered down to strands of gore.
Not something we abide or ignore;
And so we simply do not.
Done away with what was left of rot.
So join us if you wish to sing,
Never have to be forced to swing;
Blade or axe against your brethren.
To us that sounds like armageddon.
Seeking Peace
I took a risk on marching out to the lake.
Needed some time so I could just break.
Gather myself among the water and trees.
Taste the pollen as it floats on the breeze.
But all I found were empty zones in my head.
Shallow and echoing it was strange to admit.
I don’t know how it got to that point I must say.
What I do know is that I can’t let it stay that way.
So board up the failures and the weakest links;
I will not resort to drowning my sorrow in drinks.
No solutions are found in the bottom of a bottle.
Dancing with such might just make me hostile.
Happenstance is not quite irregularity.
Vent the pollution to get it out of me.
Raise the flag thats is dark as the night.
The white doesn’t belong here cause I must fight.
Brave all the menaces and drive on through.
Perform my miracles until all are slew.
Not a victory that I will take lightly.
However its the only way I’ll ever burn brightly.
So at the end that is the most bitter of pills.
I wish not a single soul any kind of ills.
All the corpses were up in my mind.
Never would I inflict this on living or strike me blind.
Tales from the outlands still scream in my ears.
Now I feel absolutely no fears.
With that I must say that peace is commended.
And my fractured mind is now mended.
Fog
I descend upon the Earth,
From the heavens I saw birth.
Thick and unrelenting as I come;
Eliminating chance of fun.
Not that it would have come to pass.
Still I’m a limiting factor mass.
Not that you think I have a brain.
To you I am just some weather that came.
Twist my vapour round trees.
Blanket all with such ease.
Suppress sight down to little.
Your patience is getting brittle.
And yet you still wish to carry on.
But I get denser as theres no sun.
Give you reason to pause and consider.
About how this weather is not getting better.
I laugh at the stress I cause.
No I don’t believe in pause.
Just spread my mass all about.
Leave a great deal of doubt;
So much you think it creepy.
Couldn’t care less I’m feeling greedy.
So understand I am much stronger.
Question it but its truth born from hunger.
Sadly my fun is dispelled.
With the rising I am felled.
All that light and boiling heat.
The only thing that makes me weak.
Its painless but disconcerting;
So these final words I’m blurting.
Promising that I’ll rise once more.
This fog thats me will return to blanket all.