Gales

Torn across the endless grey
Now is not a time to play
Seek thick walls and seek them quick
For you need to reach shelter before the flick
The one that will send you so far away
Right across this sea of spray
While all around the fluff does flow
None of it looks inviting though
Instead the storm is here to stay
As rain does plummet and winds tear angrily
How can this ever be ignored?
To do so is to walk a line most flawed
For when the gales do come you won’t be spared
Even the birds seek shelter somewhere
So heed these words and heed them well
Use that brain and don’t tempt the spell
At least until it has passed away
Sailed across the mass of sky
Leaving you safe and sound
In a place where you can be found

Prophetic

Tear down all that came before
The people love to call you whore
Progress is a key for the lock
One that they wish to block
But violence is never the answer
It just spreads like a cancer
Both should be rooted out
These are words you must shout
Alert the masses to something brighter
Though you are the definition of outsider

What came before will again
Demons reside deep inside the den
Gathered to attack once more
Walk right through the open door
Eviscerate all that has been done
Break it down until there is none
Mark these words and hold them close
Pay no mind to how they are verbose
It’s still a warning you should heed
Unless those monsters you wish to feed

Know the truth and know it well
Don’t let the world fall under the spell
You have driven change and made it grow
To give in now would be a sad show
And who would have ever thought
That the outsider could not be bought
Forge what once was believed impossible
Bridged the void and made it crossable
All that is down to who you are
Only reason that society has got so far

Believe in who you are and will be
One to set all of humanity free
The names and titles have all faded
Much like all those who had once been jaded
In their place thrives the future
No need for an eternal suture
Medication that will get us through
Gift that was provided by you
So hold your place at our ships helm
For this is the most perfect kind of realm

Without Mercies

I’ve got a much shorter story this week to finish out the year and back to Sci-Fi too. At roughly 6,200 words this is really short by my standards, but it was an idea that came to me and so I ran with it. I’m never sure how long something is going to be until I’ve written it, and often underestimate the length convinced it’s going to be little more than a couple pages. Anyway, that’s enough minor inside baseball (which being a non-American feels weird to say). I’ll be interested if the story goes how people think it’s going too, before they get to the end and finish it that is. All I’ll say is things are not necessarily what they seem here. You’ll probably all guess within the first ten lines now I’ve said that. Oh well, it is what it is and when doing these intros it can be really difficult not to spoil things. Only other thing I have to say is I hope you had a Merry Christmas and have a Happy New Year!

Excruciating, that is the only way Leon Kilpatrick can describe the pain and it’s coming from everywhere. That isn’t him being overdramatic; the pain really is coming from everywhere. So much so that he cannot begin to attempt to decipher which parts of him are screaming loudest. It is simply a mass of pain, a giant one. How he is awake, cognisant, he does not know. He could make guesses; they all involve having been pumped full of drugs but whether true or not he cannot say. He doesn’t remember being jabbed with anything but then he doesn’t remember much of how he came to be in this state.

A fresh burst of pain sees him roar, violently. He’s talking all the time but saying absolutely nothing. It’s nonsensical gibberish being blurted out into the world because of fear, mountainous fear.

Leon does not think it has ever been anywhere near this level in all his… He screams again before issuing a plea to no one. It is spoken only to the void. To the darkness beyond the fringes of the retina searing brightness the three spotlights shone directly at him create. He can’t look at them and even if he could wouldn’t want to. Part of his brain tells him, no demands, he look at the state he is in. He refuses convinced it would be far too much to bear. And so he is looking everywhere else with vague and desperate hopes of making out something in the inky black that makes up the bulk of his surroundings. If there is anything out there he sure as hell cannot see it. It’s like he’s trapped in a bubble detached from the rest of the world. He can’t be, that isn’t possible and yet that is how it feels to him.

Feels, should I really say that? He hasn’t an answer. Likely he shouldn’t for all he truly feels is pain. It’s the prevailing constant in his mind. Everything else is fleeting. It might not seem it but it is. It’s as though he is drifting in and out of consciousness continually every few seconds but he isn’t. At least he doesn’t think he is. Rather, he is sure he is awake, wide awake. Sleep sounds blissful for it would welcome death.

Voices fill his ears. He hears them but cannot make out the words they speak. It feels as though he is underwater or cotton wool is stuffed in his ears. Not something that is entirely foreign to Leon because he spent a great deal of time in the pool when he was young. This was long before he set foot into the murky world of business. Those were good days, the best of days. He loved being in the pool, until the day he didn’t. His coach was a real ballbuster. Thought there was no room or need for enjoyment because if you were good at something then you should immediately transition from it being a hobby to a being a… job. Leon isn’t sure that is quite what Coach Igor had in mind and yet it was how he made them all feel.

You see Leon had been on the school swimming team. He went to meets, took part in competitions, regional challenges, the whole shebang. And to stay competitive he had to get up at five am every morning to hit the pool and get in his practice. It was exhausting and gave little time for rest and relaxation. Still, it built character. At least that is what Coach Igor would say. Maybe it did but it made Leon hate the pool. He hasn’t been near one in years. He can tell too. His physique, while still decent, isn’t what it used to be. But he didn’t care and then life took over.

“Stubborn son of a bitch this bit.” Are the first words which reach and register in Leon’s ears.

He thinks it might be progress. Then he wishes he’d heard nothing for something sharp, cold and spinning slices through his flesh, he thinks on his right arm. He screams, at the top of his lungs, but the pain doesn’t pause, it continues and soon is slicing through more than flesh. He cries, tears streaming down his face. There is no acting tough; trying to make out what is happening is not horrendously painful because it is. He doubts anyone would be capable of fronting it out, pretending. If they could they might be a fool, or dead. Leon wishes he was dead at this moment because it must be better than what he’s going through right now. That is his thinking anyway.

“Just get it done. We’re on the clock.”

Clock, what clock? I don’t know. Well then think. I’m trying! Stop berating me. You think this is easy? You think being hacked apart… They’re body thieves!

The realisation hits Leon like a sudden kick to the crotch delivering so much shock he momentarily forgets about the torturous pain being inflicted upon him. Yet, why did he not think of it earlier? Who cares! True, it matters little…

He screams again and then for the first time since his ordeal began, however long ago he cannot say, he manages to return to a thought. Progress, he thinks only to soon ask whether that is really true. Sure he has an idea of what he thinks is happening but it doesn’t do one iota to change it. More cutting rips his mind away from him and sends him into blood curdling howls and screeches.

“Should we shut him up? He’s making an awful lot of noise.”

“Nah, why?”

“Encase someone hears.”

“No one’s going to hear.”

“How can you be so sure?”

 “Trust the process.”

Trust the process, what process? Another round of screams follow. His mind is no longer swimming in the pain, barely treading water but drowning amongst it. In Leon’s head he imagines it as a dome filling with water that has no exits save for a metal grate at the very centre of the dome which try as he might he cannot defeat. It’s the only place he is capable of getting air and with the water level almost to the grate it is stupidly difficult to get even a half gasp to keep himself alive.

Get used to it! How? I’m dying. They’re slicing me to ribbons! How do you want me to get used to iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit?

Remarkably this time the pain doesn’t derail his mind. Does that mean I am getting used to it? I hope not. This is not something I wish to get used to. You’ll have to if they’re stealing your organs and limbs. Shut up! Don’t say that. I refuse to listen. You have to listen. No I don’t. I do not have to listen, to accept. Then what are you going to do?

Suddenly the cutting stops and the pain ebbs slightly, not by much but just enough for Leon to no longer feel as though he is drowning. Thoughts, beside agony, creep back into his head. He realises he heard voices. There were at least two. Neither sounded as though they were the ones carving him, he cannot say as to why that is his conclusion however, which means there must be three, at a minimum. So? What do you mean so? I need to know how many there are if I’m to…

The cutting resumes. Leon’s screams resume too; his throat and voice tearing painfully as a result. He needs liquid, a drink but doubts one will be provided to him. He tries to beg for water, for something to stop the burn at the back of his throat but he can’t. Trashes ensue; they do little to aid him but do a great deal to exhaust. He didn’t think he could feel worse than he did but it seems he was wrong. Focus! He does, or at least attempts to, it’s difficult, ruthlessly so.

Ruthless, that’s a good way of defining how he is being treated here. It should not surprise him but it does. Regardless of the fact that he’d heard tell of a sudden spike in body thefts but didn’t think it would ever happen to him. Isn’t that what everyone says? Yeah it is but it’s true, I never thought this would happen to me. I’m nobody, I run a business. Hence why you, you’re a nobody. But people will miss me. Will they?

Feeling disdained by the thought that no one may miss him he is a tad thankful when a jolt of pain, from yet another fresh location somewhere about him he cannot comprehend, derails him from his mental path. He never returns to it. There is no need for it will not help him with the situation he currently finds himself in.

What can I do? What can I do? He asks the question dozens of times until it becomes like a song. It’s the worst song and one that is stuck in his head to boot. He loathes it, himself, for having started this chant. Even the voice in his head is reciting it as if through angry gritted teeth.

“Half way done.”

We’re only half way?

“Good, ahead of schedule.”

There’s a schedule! What the fuck! Who are these people? Body thieves! I know that. That wasn’t what I meant. Then don’t say…

He cuts the internal struggle short and against his better judgement thinks his only hope is to reason, bargain. These people are business savvy, they want money, maybe they need it and that’s why they’re doing this. Yeah sure, that makes sense. That makes a whole heap of sense in fact. Exactly; so if I bargain with them I might be able to get out of this, alive. Is that what you really want? What? Of course I want to get out of this alive, why wouldn’t I? Have you seen yourself? No, no I haven’t seen myself and I don’t want to. Not yet. Then be careful what you wish for. What does that mean, what do you know? Nothing. How can I know anything I’m just a part of your subconscious? I’m just saying, suggesting, reasoning, that you may want to be careful what you wish for. After all, if you succeed, whatever state you’re in is how you’ll remain; keep that in mind. Leon refuses too and instead attempts to speak.

Quickly he learns it’s far more difficult than he had expected and to begin with all that leaks from his gaping maw are soft air noises. It sounds, what little he can hear of it in his ears because of the cutting noises he refuses to think about but which must be of bone, meagre and pathetic. At barely a volume you can consider a whisper.

He attempts to clear his throat. It doesn’t work. He nearly chokes on… He cannot say whether it is air or spit. You have no spit! I must have spit! With an argument threatening to erupt again Leon abandons, pulls out. Mercifully his subconscious offers no refusal and makes no push to press the issue. Following that he tries again to speak. This time a little more escapes his mouth, not speech but a series of pitch varying gurgles. It’s progress but not what he would consider worthwhile, which is why he makes a third try.

Muttering, his voice is quiet, ragged and fading as words are spoken to the air around him, his eyes locked on one of the bulbs shining into his face. It hurts but feels like nothing compared to what he’s suffered through and continuing too thus far.

Oddly the cutting is no more. The noise of what he could only assume was a saw has dropped away, fallen silent. Alas the torment is not over for he can feel probing, prodding, digging. The movement is of flesh and tissue; he nearly vomits at the thought when his mind conjures something of a possibility vividly into being.

Leon has never been good with gore; he loathes and has spent his life doing everything in his power to keep away from it. It’s not as hard as you might think, or at least it wasn’t until now.

A flash of something enters his head. It’s so fast he only gets a fragment of it instead of the whole thing. He tries to ignore the digging in his flesh and focus on the flash. He’d like to call it a memory but has no reason to do so. He needs to see more to be capable of reaching a conclusion but the flash won’t return. He cannot repeat the feat unintentionally performed and that devastates him.

BEG!

Oh right, he remembers that was his plan. He’d had it and then got derailed, sent off on another train of thought. He doesn’t recall what the other train of thought was or the one that followed that only that… Stop! BEG!

“P-p-please…” Is all Leon manages when he does finally speak. His mind said a great deal more than that, but it’s a start.

Keep going. He intends too.

“P-please… stop…”

Progress!

“Please… stop… this…”

“Hey, he’s talking.”

“And?”

“Is he meant to be talking?”

There is a pause which hangs in the air. It’s the sort of pause which implies disbelief at the content of the last words uttered. It wasn’t from Leon and so he continues. It is whoever’s problem if they take issue with what each are saying, not his.

“Please, stop this… I… beg… of you.”

Breathing is difficult, Leon is short of air. He hauls, as best he can which isn’t great, air down to re-inflate his lungs. He prays that will solve the issue, that he is capable, his body not his mind. His mind is capable but his body he cannot be so sure of. He doesn’t know what’s been done to it after all. It might not be capable. He damns these people for what they’re doing to him. He hasn’t done that since the first bouts of pain lanced through sending him into convulsions.

They did give me something!

The realisation is sudden, sharp, painful. It’s good that details are coming back to him and not. He hates being more aware of how this torture came to be and yet doing so may be his only hope. Cling to hope. You have to cling to it. Do not let it go. If you let it go you’re done for. You don’t want to be done for, do you? No, no I don’t. I want to live. I want to survive. Then cling, beg, discover.

“Please…” Leon’s voice is much louder this time, though he does not wait for acceptance that these bastards will listen to him. Rather, he launches into his offer.

“I can pay you. I have money, a decent amount of money. It should be enough. But please stop. I don’t want to die. I don’t deserve to die.” There are plenty of stutters, stammers, pauses and deep breaths which break up the statements as Leon spoke those words and made his offering to these people, wherever they are around him.

Another flash. Again it comes and goes too fast. He wills them to be slower and to come back. There is no reply to his willing, there is only silence.

“Is he serious?” Someone says in a voice which sounds like all the others that have reached his ears. Whether they are or whether it is his hearing deceiving him he cannot say. It would make sense for it to be the latter, especially as his hearing remains unclear.

To make matters worse those words might not have been the first spoken in response to his pleas, and if that is true he will never know. Still, it confuses Leon why they are flummoxed. Are they not used to people, their victims, begging and pleading? They must be, unless victims are not usually conscious. Terror swells within him numbing everything. Leon feels as though he has been transported, with a snap of fingers, into an endless hole. He’s falling through it but it has no end, he just keeps falling with only a tiny speck of white light shining down from what looks to be miles above him. He’s reaching for it, pointlessly, urging an end to come. Then someone else speaks.

“Sounds like it.” A laugh quickly follows, it’s mocking and cruel.

Leon hates whoever this is the most he decides for there was no need for such a reaction. There’s no need for any of this!

“What should we do?”

“What do you think we should do?” Is the sharp, blunt reply which bounces the question right back on whoever uttered it.

There is no reply for a while, as far as Leon can tell. Again he considers his hearing may have failed him. That he is missing great chunks of a conversation which could offer him…

“You continue working. We’re nearly done.” The reply is a demand and its delivered with a flat calm tone of voice.

“Should we shut him up though?”

“You know what comes next, it isn’t going to matter, so just get… it… done.”

Following that there is no more conversation but there is the familiar, despised return of soul crushing agony. Leon tries to speak, to issue a fresh set of begging but can’t. The pain feels worse than ever. He can’t say that it is, though that is how it feels. In fact, it’s so much worse he feels himself grit his death, clinging to hope as best he can. Soon they begin to grind, his teeth that is. He knows it’s something you shouldn’t do but he cannot help himself. It’s his instinctive reaction and try as he might, which isn’t a great deal to be honest, he cannot stop. That is why his jaw is beginning to hurt, he thinks. If it’s not him causing the pain in his jaw then…

He doesn’t finish the thought. They can’t be working on his jaw. If they were he would see them but he can see nothing. It’s as if they have no shadows because no shape obscures the lights blurring his eyes.

He’s looked at them too long, forced himself too and now his vision is butchered. It isn’t permanent, not like what is being done to his body and limbs. He imagines there isn’t much left of him now; a torso carved open, stripped of parts as if he is some machine. It’s despicable, disgusting, abhorrent, cruel.

Maybe it is better this way. That is the thought that creeps into his head some time later. No. No it is not better this way. The voice is different. It is his but holds a different intonation and tone to what he’s heard up to this point. Clearly it is angry, resolute, determined.

You hang on to hope and you get out of this.

How?

As he expected, knew, there came no reply. Disgusted he returns to the pain, his thrashing. His body and muscles are exhausted, spent of energy. But is it real? What do you mean? Is the exhaustion real? Why would it not be real? Because I might not have limbs! I might have been stripped. Then why would you feel them? Phantom limbs, it’s called phantom pain. Your brain unable to comprehend the loss sends signals as though they are still present. Don’t be mad, you don’t have phantom pain. How do you know?

By now Leon is used to not getting replies and so when none is issued he isn’t surprised. He isn’t anything honestly.

“Please, stop this. I can pay you whatever you need. I own a business. It’s profitable. I’ll give you all that’s in its account, just please stop.” Tears are streaming down Leon’s face as he blubbers the words into the ether with desperation. “Please… I don’t want to die…”

His pleas fall on deaf ears. Hate boils up. It’s invigorating and fills him with a new lease of life. He screams, for the first time not from pain and feels his body move.

“Oh shit! He’s broke the restraints. Hold him down, quick!” The voice is panicked, suggesting to Leon that he must continue his efforts and continue them he does. His body moves, he’s shocked, delighted, invigorated and wanting revenge. That is until bodies pile atop him. He thinks three, maybe four, but cannot be sure. Their intent works, Leon is pushed back into what he assumes is some kind of dentist style chair. Yet he does no admit defeat, he continues to struggle, to thrash, to push against the weight atop him. His body hurts, it’s screaming but he ignores it. Wet covers most of him. He does not dare consider what the wetness is but can guess. It wouldn’t be a wild or difficult guess to make either if he admitted it because the wetness is almost certainly blood, his blood. But admitting that, dwelling on it, what it might mean will not help him he knows and so he doesn’t.

The bodies begin to move and not of their own accord. More screams, panicked and fearful reach Leon’s ears. He hears the words, acknowledges them but cannot recall them. They are immediately lost to him because they do not matter. Something stabs into him. He lets out a groan and kicks. Weight is lifted from him in response. His struggling continues resulting in more panic stricken words and then out of the blue the weight disappears. A crash is heard by Leon before and once he is on his feet, he thinks they are his feet, running.

He does not look back or at his state, all he focuses on is what lies ahead. His eyes remain blurred, doubled, as they peer into the darkness. Some vague immobile shapes are all he can make out. He thinks they might be walls but cannot be sure. That is until he collides with one of them. They offer fierce resistance confirming to Leon that they must indeed be walls.

He shakes his head which makes the blurriness worse and then he turns to try and focus on what he sees. It doesn’t work. Voices grow louder, nearer. Leon assumes his aggressors are in hot pursuit. His choice is singular and he takes it.

Stumbling forward Leon breaks into a run, he thinks. His legs are heavy and feel most foreign to him he does have to admit but they’re working. Sensations ping all across his skin. He continues to refuse a glimpse, a look, and instead forces his messed up eyes into a form of tunnel vision of the route ahead. It turns again. Leon does better this time but still collides into the wall all the same as part of his change of direction.

A foot slips. He loses balance momentarily and then reclaims it. With reckless abandon he surges off ignoring the high probability of him slipping again. Air, warm and stale, rushes over his face telling him nothing he could not already have concluded, that he is inside. He hasn’t a clue as to where or in what and doesn’t rightly care. Escape is all that is on his mind. The urge sits alongside the pain he feels, but thankfully, mercifully, his determination is greater for the moment. He cannot say how long it might last much like he cannot say he’s thrilled at not having repaid those who have done whatever it is they have done to him, for it seems he has all his limbs.

Escape and survival are more important than revenge. Revenge is for those with odds on their side and resources. Leon has no such things, he doesn’t think. He is one man; wounded, terrified, lost in a place he doesn’t recognise and so escape is all that matters he feels.

Another turn sees him skirt the wall but not collide fully with it this time; progress indeed. To boot the voices in pursuit are quieter. Still, Leon is not convinced their volume is not forced, a part of some plan unknown and unwanted by him.

Not long after that he stumbles off something, the ground beneath him having vanished from underfoot. He drops. Somehow he lands on his feet. He feels the thud as well as hears it, just. His ears remain wrong much like his eyes. He pumps his legs, wills them to hasten, they oblige. Lights flick by overhead and the air he finds has turned cool. He concludes he is outside now.

Looking around Leon is greeted with hard shapes in the darkness. The lights are a good distance up. At least he thinks they are up. He cannot comprehend that they could be anything else. Meanwhile, his heart is frantic, beating at ten to the dozen. His chest hurts too; not from what was done to him in that room, in that chair, but from all the running.

I have to keep going, he tells himself. I have to. There must be a way out. I can get to safety. I can survive.

Hope is all he has. That isn’t true; he has his freedom, but doesn’t think it appropriate to declare as such until he can be sure he is safe. When will that be? I don’t know, just keep running.

He makes a turn at a junction when he comes upon it and then stops. Spinning about he finds that he’s surrounded by containers, stacked high. The lights are lower now; closer to ground, closer to him. They hurt but the pain barely registers after what he’s suffered through. His chest is heaving, he is slick. His head snaps between his options, ignoring the avenue he came from.

Is my initial decision the right one? He doesn’t know. He hates that he doesn’t know. Stop panicking. Calm yourself. He tries but it doesn’t work. He hears something and almost jumps out of his skin. What was that? No idea; and with that he forces his body back into a sprint.

He manages only a handful of strides and then trips. His balance is almost regained when he trips again. Flying through the air he fears where he may land, what state he end up in. Then he crashes into something cold and hard. It rings like a drum made of metal. His chest reminds him that it is tight. He pushes off against the metal and stumbles. His leg burns. He crumples to all fours. Get up! GET UP! He screams at himself. Scrambling, feet slipping against loose dirt, he manages to get back on his feet eventually. Alas, he feels unsteady, dizzy. His head is spinning. He steadies himself against the metal that broke his fall. His head shakes. A thousand things race through as a result and then… a flash. He blinks fast and then slow. Pieces of the image remain in his vision, on the inside of his eyelids. He can’t make them out. His brow furrows while he continues to blink. A clattering sound rings out. His head snaps in the direction he believes it has come from with breath held. He sees nothing. His vision is clearer now, marginally, but a long way from what he would be comfortable with calling normal. It’s all you’ve got! He’s aware. He does not argue or refute. No other sound reaches his ears. He feels he can remain here no longer than he has. To do so would be to risk recapture. Recapture?

In that moment he remembers, memory triggered. He’d been walking down a street heading for a multi-storey when he got jumped. A van, dark and without markings, pulled up alongside. Its side roller door flung open in the fractions of a second before he was grabbed and bundled inside. He had no time at all to react. Something was smashed against his skull; it incapacitated but did not rob him of consciousness. Then something was pulled over his head. It might have been a bag; he cannot say other than it made it impossible for him to see in the darkness of the van’s interior. He remembers something else; voices, chatting idly, but none of the content of their conversation. He tries to think. He continues to draw blank. Something is missing. He can feel it. However, the more he pushes for it the further it feels as though it is. He hears the screech of tyres which ends his contemplation and urges him back into action.

His first fresh steps following the memory are uneasy, stumbling, but soon after them Leon is back at a sprint. He feels slower, as though he is moving through treacle. He makes a turn feeling it prudent encase he is being pursued still.

Wherever he is seems to be a maze; a port perhaps? Again he stumbles and so decides not to consider anything other than the task at hand; running, fleeing for his life.

Several more twists and turns, completely optional but which he believes are essential, see him slam into yet another mass of metal. There was no trip, or series of them, on this occasion, mercifully. Rather, he slammed, shoulder first, into the metal ‘wall’ because he can barely stand.

Air seems incapable of reaching lungs and his vision, which had been improving, has begun narrowing to pinpricks. He shakes his head feeling hotter than he thinks he has ever felt previously in his life and slips off the metal. He stumbles and then hears voices. His eyes to wide affording him no more vision than previously; he is terrified, his heart already thundering somehow manages to quicken its pace in response. He hates the feelings afflicting him, tries to run, finds he can’t. Hope vanishes in that moment, unwillingly. Leon becomes convinced he is mere seconds from being recaptured and the butchering upon him resumed/concluded. Then he hears laughs, giggles, chatter. All of it is joyous. It sounds like a party. It makes not an ounce of sense to Leon but he doesn’t care, it doesn’t matter. Hope returns in a burst. He believes now that the noises must be people, not linked to those who have done… whatever it is they have done to him. An attempt at a smile flickers into being, he feels it. It feels incorrect. He can’t say wrong for smiling isn’t wrong.

Another flash hits. This one hurts; sends a searing pain through his head. He suppresses a scream. He can’t say why. Perhaps so not to alarm the voices he can hear. Why? They can help! Not if I scare them away, is his response swift and blunt.

He urges his legs to move. They hesitantly oblige on the third demand he makes of them. Still, Leon fumbles using the metal ‘wall’ to guide and keep him upright. Then the ‘wall’ ends. He rounds it unsure if he’s heading in the right direction. It’s why he soon turns to listening. The joyous sounds continue, he thinks louder this time, and so he continues too.

Once they are much louder, the voices which continue to sound merry, Leon makes an effort to call out for aid. His throat is dry, it hurts, and so it isn’t surprising when little more than a whisper is burped out. He snarls, irritated, but is resolute and perseveres. A fresh effort at calling out is met with a dry wisp of a noise.

Not having realised that in putting so much into calling out he had come to a halt, Leon urges his legs back into motion. They oblige but are ruthlessly slow now. Again, that word. Why that word? He doesn’t know. It’s just a word, stop thinking about it. Think about the people, reaching them, calling to them. That is what matters. You’re right. Leon makes his greatest effort yet to cry for help. Nothing happens. Panic fills him. It’s as if he can no longer speak. He focuses on his neck, his throat, the sensations in it but everything feels correct. Would I know if it didn’t? There is no way he is inclined to answer that for fear of losing hope. It’s tenuous, fickle, he’s lost it several times already and thinks if it happens again he may drop into such a state of despair he will not conquer it unless found.

What are the chances of him being found? By people who are not those who have tortured his body; he feels limited to none. So push! He does. He pushes his body having given up on his voice, on calling. He staggers and stumbles turning a corner and then through a crack between what he can now clearly see are containers he gets a glimpse of bright colourful lights, buildings, people. They are scantily clad, writhing. Leon can’t hear music. In fact he realises he can’t hear anything anymore. The world is on mute. He does not pause to consider it; rather he pushes ahead, slowly growing nearer and nearer to the party. He is sure that is what it is across a street along which no vehicles are moving.

The scene is familiar, marginally, as if he has seen this club before. There is a good chance he has and that means he’s still in the city. He reaches out, arm unsteady, eyes staring and then he stops.

What? No! No don’t stop. I’m so close. Please, please… Do something! Obey!

Tears begin to well up in his eyes but no matter what he does or thinks his body does not obey and then Leon disappears with a flick of a switch.

“Asset activated and in standby.”

“Good. Run diagnostics. I want to know how far they got before he broke free.”

There is a pause; it’s filled with the tapping of keyboard caps. They are noisy in the room where the sounds of five men breathing are all there is to contend with. It’s a dark room punctured by bulbs of bright light from monitors. None of the faces are visible for everyone at a monitor is on their feet looking down on their workstations displays. This point of operation is temporary. As soon as they are done all of the equipment will be packed up and shipped out at the orders of the one man who is without a computer to work away on.

When finally the relative silence is broken the advice given is that, “All systems are showing operational.”

“Wonderful; seems the egghead surgeons did better than they suggested.”

“Yes…” The speaker never finishes. They caught their almost mistake borne out of habit. If they were not deployed in the manner they are currently then it would not be a concern but they are and so quickly follow up with, “Orders?”

“I want a full suite test of that cyberware.”

“Targets?”

A smile creeps across the commander’s face; it is all that can be seen of his features as he stands in the dark.

“Those partygoers seems like a decent option, make them the targets.”

There is no refusal and no, Leon had not been accosted by body thieves. What happened to him, the replacements and additions across his body which has given him an appearance most grotesque and barely human, were not part and parcel of the taking of limbs and organs but rather part of a field test for cutting edge cyberware.

With a flick of yet another switch, not literally, Leon, the body for the man is no more, is moved from standby to combat mode. It was the activation of standby which immobilised him when he had been a man. Had he looked at the state he was in during that period he would have seen his arms with blades grafted to them, his legs similarly too, with micro missiles embedded in his shoulders, a tail affixed to the base of his spine and many other military grade accoutrements, but alas he didn’t. He remained unaware of the monster he’d been transformed into until the very end. Maybe it was for the best, maybe it wasn’t. If he’d have known perhaps he might have been capable of using what had been done to him to his advantage. Now there is no way of ever knowing.

But with the cyberware in the Leon body having been activated and combat targets set the mass of metal and flesh moves forward, his eyes glowing red.

The next thing the quintet hears over their communications channel is screaming, lots and lots of screaming. It’s interspersed with begging, pleading and all of it for nought for ‘Leon’ has no conscience, no soul. He is a weapon now, a tool, plain and simple.

The commander of the operation smiles widely drinking in the devastation that is being wrought, for he could not be more pleased with how the cyberware is performing.

Pledge

I will guide you the best I can
Just believe and open your hand
Perfection is not found easily
Maybe we can both find it truly

This is a beginning and not the end
Upon this book I swear what I intend

Study until we have the facts
Rush and there could be cracks
It’s why we ensure to be thorough
Every procedure we vow to follow

This is a beginning and not the end
Upon this book I swear what I intend

Aid you when you need it most
Words which I will never boast
And you do the exact same for me
Without it there would not be a we

This is a beginning and not the end
Upon this book I swear what I intend

Speak to just offer sound
Sometimes silence does compound
Tempt you down a lonely road
An avenue that should not be strode

This is a beginning and not the end
Upon this book I swear what I intend

When I falter you offer comfort
Without it I might not be triumphant
Be left to paddle in a shallow pool
A place where I would live as a fool

This is a beginning and not the end
Upon this book I swear what I intend

You are my rock and I am yours
Together we will embark on tours
Circles around the spinning rock
Every door we shall unlock

This is a beginning and not the end
Upon this book I swear what I intend
For you and me

Attempts

I jump into a canal
Attempting to escape hell
I dislike the smell
Something on which I should not dwell

What is lost cannot be found
Just let me approach from new ground

I run for the hills
To avoid taking pills
Sick of shallow thrills
They don’t help with even one of the bills

What is lost cannot be found
Just let me approach from new ground

I swim for shore
Don’t see land anymore
This is a flaw
Think I should’ve remained poor

What is lost cannot be found
Just let me approach from new ground

I ride at the sun
But it has not come
I knew I was done
Departed before it had begun

What is lost cannot be found
Just let me approach from new ground

Bitter From Near The Beginning

We had our fun but now it’s through
I can’t even stand the sight of you
The scars on my back speak all the truth
Those are marks you refuse to accept as proof
Not to say that it wasn’t good
We both couldn’t stop when we should
It’s why we are now at odds
I hate you and you want blood
But before the descent our worlds did spin
If only that hadn’t been the fin
The point at which we both turned bad
Determined to make the other so sad
A litany of stupid childish games
Neither of us stayed out of the flames
Dived right in just to take a shot
Like we were both high on some pot
Ignorant to the descent that we made
Fashioned it out of the time that we paid
Until all that was left was the rotting pit
This is why we both should admit
We are the problem for our opposite
Addicts fixated on this infinite
So I’ll go my way and you go yours
Otherwise we’ll both end up under the floors

Resilient

Strengthen and overcome
Listen to no one
Every obstacle you can conquer
Don’t put life off any longer
Knives will strike at your back
You don’t have to abide that
Pull them free and move on
You are better than all of them
Passion of unequaled measure
Do the things that give you pleasure
Words will be fired at your choices
Ignore each one of those voices
You can reach wherever you wish
Frustrate them by blowing a kiss
It will grate but make you laugh
They’ll still be plotting their wrath
By the time the opening comes
You will be so far away from them
That’s why I say ignore the haters
So desperate to be instigators
Would sell their mothers to get ahead
But their words will never be read
So strengthen and overcome
Your time is just beginning

Days In Short Supply

Hey look a prequel! Yes this is indeed a prequel to last weeks story. Quite different in tone and composition, I think. Whereas last weeks story was action this is more about the events, truncated and told by someone who was not present.
Just to recap though for those who read the story last week, this is what led to the animosity, which was alluded to, between the two tribes. And for those who haven’t this is a fantasy story about what different peoples react to a poor situation.
Apart from all that I hope you enjoy, Days In Short Supply!

For the last eight winters the Ymbal had been starving. They were not alone in this but seemed to be struggling with the successive string of failed harvests more than the Tsuaru who they shared the region of Simarachi with. In fact Vinen, home of the Ymbal in Simarachi, has had need, due to the deaths suffered from starvation, for Tsuaru to settle alongside them. It is closer than the two tribes have ever, in recorded history, lived with one another.

The peoples are similar in many ways except one, the Ymbal believed that these lands were cursed and as such felt it might be the best course of action to abandon them. It is not a conclusion the Ymbal would take lightly but as time went on and the harvests continued to fail that is where many of the Ymbal families, which remained, sat. Alas, leaving the lands of your birth, the only lands you have ever known, is no easy task. The story which follows is that one. It is not a happy tale. It is the truth of what happened from the perspective of one young Ymbal woman, Kazka.

To say more would be to give away the story before it has been told. If that was done then it wouldn’t be a story now would it? Especially as to tell a story you have to start at the beginning. And we start on a cold winter’s mourn. Kazka, a woman with long black hair and pink eyes wrapped in thick layers of linen atop which are furs of animals hunted years prior, is on her way to the fields. The same fields which have failed the people of Vinen more times than any of them would like to admit. The air is biting; Kazak can feel it in her fingertips no matter how hard she tries to keep them shielded. She is aware she must be cautious for her fingers are what are needed most for her to work the land. With the crops having failed earlier than previously the decision by the peoples of both tribes living together in Vinen was that it would be best to tear up what had been planted so a new selection of crops could be freshly sown.

The young woman was not convinced this would have a better outcome than what had come to pass already, especially as there was unlikely to be little growing achieved during the remaining season due to the weather. However, she could not fault her people and the Tsuaru who refused to give up hope. They were all that continued to drive Vinen.

At one time the town had been a prosperous place filled with life, laughter, colour and good spirits. Now, when the spring and summer months finally come, there would be only colour. Everything else has long since past. As have many of the people Kazka used to see on a daily basis. She wishes she could say that they moved on. Settled elsewhere whether in Simarachi or not, but if she did she would be telling a lie. Those people, their families, they are no more. Starvation took them. They could not sustain through the successive failed crop yields and by the time they realised it they were too weak to alter what came next. It’s a fate that may, she thought, befall all in Venin, perhaps all in Simarachi and yet the Tsuaru, as ever, remained vigilant. They truly believed this misfortune would pass. Kazka did not, though she never believed it a part of some curse. Something she never did say out loud for if she had it would only have complicated matters. But in a story of recounting one does not have to worry about the repercussions noted down for they are not spoken aloud. As a result Kazka felt that the reason for the harvests failing was simple, the land could no longer sustain those who dwelled upon it. She has heard tell of things, from long in the past, and did not perceive they would ever be a worry for her. How wrong she had been.

Passing the still closed market stalls, not likely to open either with supplies as short as they were, the pink eyed woman caught sight of two men arguing. It was yet another sign of the decline in Venin. Where once disagreements were settled with even conversation they were now undertaken, but rarely settled, with screams and accusations.

Kazka could hear every word being said as she approached, and she had been a good ways away from the men.

“You can’t give up! What is the point in giving up?” One of the men shouted.

“What is the point…? What do you mean, what is the point? Do you not see? The land is dead! We cannot grow a single crop! How are we supposed to survive winter without food?” Is the reply that came from the other man who was incredulous, his hands shaking.

Kazka would like to say rage was why his hands were behaving the way that they were, but she could not for it could just as easily have been the cold. If it were the temperature then the man would have needed to warm and soon to avoid frostbite to his fingers.

“By working the land, by persevering, that is how we get through this.”

“We’ve tried, for eight years and what do we have to show for it, well?”

No response was forthcoming at least verbally. Rather, the man, who Kazka first heard the words of, shook his head from side to side. He had dark hair like her but from the side profile she was afforded of him it seemed he was devoid of additional nostrils around the section of the nose where the wings and dorsum meet. That told the young woman he was Tsuaru for all Ymbal males have four nostrils. It is one of the few differentiations which can be made between the tribesmen. In the case of the women, like Kazka, it is much more difficult to tell one tribeswoman from another. Even eye colour cannot differentiate. It is said that at one time it was a metric for safe assumption but that was long ago. The tribes had mingled a great deal since then. Not something you could overly accuse either side of much these days but then it seems at the moment days are in short supply. That’s an old Ymbal saying not meant to be taken literally. Instead it is meant to suggest that things are close to an end, or a change.

“Exactly Tsuaru, you don’t know how we’ve suffered, struggled…”

“Outrageous! Tsuaru have suffered just as much as Ymbal. We just refuse to give up.”

“Give up! How dare you suggest that Ymbal would ever…”

The statement was never finished. It was left in limbo forever more for a small group of mixed tribesmen came right then to break up the disagreement before it had chance to descend into something potentially physical. It happened just as Kazka went passing by.

For her proximity she was met with an eyeful from a number of the men involved, on both sides, yet none said a word. At least no word she could hear anyway.

With the show over, the pink eyed woman returned to her thoughts. Quickly she decided they were not to her liking or fancy, likely only to bring her mood down. She felt there was no need to lower her state of being further than the world was forcing it and so she settled on replaying happier days, when she had been younger, a child, carefree and running about laughing at anything, everything. Memories of her brother, Teeson, leaping and diving most recklessly as they played are what she thinks were most vivid in her head. Those were far simpler days when they had been children.

Suddenly a voice reached her ears and pulled her from her thoughts.

“Kazka, over here.”

The young pink eyed woman wrapped up as warm as she could manage looked up to see one of the women she worked alongside, Eifa, waving like some crazed banshee. The sight brought a thin, short smile to Kazka’s face.

“Morning to you Eifa.” Kazka recalls saying once she was within several body lengths of the far older woman whose head was wrapped in linen concealing any hair she may have had atop her head.

“Yes, yes, morning to you too Kazka.” The older woman was clearly distracted by something as she replied but by what Kazka had no clue.

There looked to be nothing out of the ordinary, apart from the turned over soil which normally would have crops lancing from it, if the harvest had not failed again. “Have you heard?” The excited frail looking old woman quickly spluttered.

“Have I heard what?” The younger woman was confused by the question. If there were something of import then she was not aware of it but wondered how Eifa might have learned about it if there were. Then again it should not have surprised the young Ymbal for Eifa was a nosey sort who often managed to dig up titbits of knowledge. How, Kazka to this day continues to have not a clue for the woman spent more time on the fields working the land than almost anyone, which frequently meant she was alone with her thoughts. Perhaps not surprising when you are the last of your family; her husband having died a couple winters ago in what was meant to be a hunt for food but which saw many instead end up as the prey, damned pack animals. Then there was Eifa’s son. He’s been dead a long time by this point.

Kazka does not remember him, though with her failing memory Eifa often believed otherwise. The young woman recalls tending to play along as it had become clear Eifa was not a sharp as she once was. Whether it was the result of the pains suffered in her life, the losses, or the current circumstances of food shortages Kazka could not say. Still, Eifa carried on best she could.

“There is to be a massing later.” The old woman sounded excited as the words passed her thin blue lips.

“Is there?”

“There is. Yet to learn as to where but we should all make ourselves present. It would be best for we all are entitled to our say as people of Vinen.”

Without realising it Kazka had began to nod in agreement. Something about the words from Eifa didn’t sound right however. Not because the old woman was lying but because… Well, it seemed she was confused again and had affixed one event to another. It had been happening more frequently around that time and with no family to care for her Kazka felt it prudent to offer what comfort she could and so suggested, “Then best you don’t overexert yourself isn’t it Eifa? You’ll need plenty of energy for the massing. Best you learn what you can then take a rest because you’ve been out here since…”

A leading question, Kazka had learned, was the best and easiest way to get around the old woman’s defences without her realising it and to get her to agree. After all, there were at that time, enough hands to work the fields. Well, there likely weren’t but Eifa was old and the loss of one pair of hands would not, in the young Ymbal’s eyes, have hampered the towns’ efforts to a significant enough degree that it would be the final nail in their collective coffin. And yes Eifa, like Kazka, had been Ymbal. She had lived in the town all her life but was not best pleased when the Tsuaru moved into the vacant properties of those who had so recently died.

When that day came she had became hysterical. Thankfully, over a series of weeks she forgot the change had taken place. It was for the best but remained a sad sight for Kazka to see all the same.

“Since the first breaking of dawn I’ve been here, working this land.” Was the proud reply from the old woman as she struggled to straighten her back to what should have been her full height.

“Then you should go to a fire, get warm, see what you can learn.” The young woman did her best to keep the concern out of her voice. It largely works, she thinks looking back, but only just for Kazka remembers feeling a deep concern for the older Ymbal. She should not have been out here, likely alone, in what would have been largely darkness since the dawn first broke. That was hours ago and it was cold as the pair stood there talking so must have been perishingly so when Eifa first set to work.  

Thankfully, Eifa had offered no refusal. Rather, she flashed a weak smile, probably the best she could manage, and then pottered off in the direction of one of the fires. A few of the men were stood around it. They were yet to begin their days in the fields but would soon start once they felt their hands were warm enough to operate the machines which they would have to drag the blades of through the soil to turn over what had been cleared of failed crop. That clearly of what had failed was the job Kazka, Eifa and many of the other women were undertaking. It was backbreaking work regardless of which side you were on, but not all in Vinen undertook it.

Men who did not work the fields were out hunting, baking, scavenging or tending to livestock while the few women not out in the cold were caring for the towns children, sowing, fishing or checking on the food stocks. Vinen, unlike the Tsuaru ‘village’ of Pensaftu, had no castle or defensive walls to speak of. Instead Venin was an open town through which livestock and wild beasts could roam as they saw fit. Yet, it had been a long while since anything wild had come wandering through and what remained of the livestock was dwindling.

With the issue of a potentially freezing Eifa having been dealt with Kazka turned to her work. She thinks she decided she might as well pick up where the old woman had left off, seeing as Eifa had done a stellar job, as always, of digging over the hard frost burnt soil to free the failed vegetables from the ground.

What remained of the crops, dead and withering to rot, pulled free were piled up nearby in a neat roughly pyramid shape. The sight of the pile brought a smile to Kazka’s face as she grabbed a hold of a fork and began to turn over the soil. Three attempts it took for the prongs of the fork to break through the hard surface.

She shakes her head wondering how ever Eifa managed as well as she did, but then she recalls how stubborn the old woman had been. And she had to be to have survived the loss of her son and husband. The thought having re-entered Kazka’s head breeds enormous sadness compounded by the sudden memories of the loss of her own parents. Her mother died while giving birth to Kazka and Teeson, twins but identical in no way shape or form. Their father on the other hand had died shortly before the first failed harvest due to natural causes. In fact, he simply dropped down dead, no warning, no signs, no explanation. After that Kazka and her brother were raised by their ‘aunt.’ She wasn’t their real aunt but had cared for a number of Vinen’s orphans for she was incapable of siring children of her own. Sadly, by the time Teeson and Kazka came into her care she was old, forever kind, but lasted only a few short years. Thankfully, the siblings were grown by the time of her passing and yet Kazka did not regard her life, up to that point, as having been a sad one. Yes, she had lost a number of people close to her, but her life had been a happy one, filled with love.

At least it was until the successive failed crops became a reality. Since maybe the fifth year there has been little hope, except from the Tsuaru. They seem to have an abundance of it.

Unintentionally it was then that Kazka recalled the pair of arguing men, one Ymbal and the other Tsuaru. Both had made good points and both had been right.

Following that she believes she shook herself free of her thoughts to refocus on the task at hand; digging, clearing the spoilt crop and adding to the pile.

She took a brief pause to look up some time later and found the sun higher in the sky. It explained the cold afflicting her fingertips. She rubbed her hands together vigorously which did the trick and then returned to her efforts while the men loudly pushed the plough through the loosened sections of dirt. It would be many hours later when Kazka would be done, she knew. During those hours, she cannot recall when Eifa came back, spoke of the massing and gave a place but no time for its commencement. Following that she looked decidedly tired. Kazka urged her to return home to rest. To the pink eyed Kazka’s surprise Eifa accepted. That left her quite concerned, which is why she felt it best to check on the old woman on her way home. It would be on her way and anyway it was doubtful Teeson would be there when she returned. He was rarely home anymore for he was either hunting or conversing. He never informed her as to what he was conversing about, only that that was what he was doing.

Asking never afforded her progress on that matter and so by this point she had stopped. They lived very separate lives and that saddened her, but his choices were his own. She was not his keeper or his mother and so had to respect him and the path he walked. That is how she felt then; she notes she regrets it now, profusely. Thinks she should have done more.

Superficial

More or less is so one-dimensional
Doesn’t take into account potential
To speak of another in this way
Won’t lead to you getting a say
Just listen and not rabbit on
You might just learn something
People come in myriad forms
No need to decide them right or wrong
Looks are only skin deep
They are something you cannot keep
Personality lasts forever
Focusing on that is much better
But you seem to be unaware
Or perhaps it’s that you just don’t care
Whatever it is you’re sounding shallow
Yet you think you’re words are hallow
Spoken by an educated tongue
Really it sounds like a mantra to which you’ve clung
And it has no place to be here
None of us will abide you dear
So stop thinking along an axis
We don’t want anything factious

First Night

Don’t want this night to ever end
Who cares if the room spins again
Too busy with the joy that I feel
So much of this feels surreal
Just a night on the top of cloud nine
Don’t let it end I whisper to you
Can’t imagine it being through
Just a flicker of the candle flame
Whoever did this I’ll be happy to blame
Built on a foundation I had ignored
That’s why I had become bored
But this new road is comparable to none
Pray that it never stops being fun